Chapter19

Summary
It's been a month since Brooke was put into the hospital. And a month too long for her. She is a lot weaker with all the chemo she was doing. She has lost her hair. Which has really gotten her down. She didn't feel or look what she use to. And that has gotten her really depressed. She didn't want to see anybody or talk to anyone. Including Nathan. She has pushed him away. Nathan feels worthless that he can not help her. But that doesn't stop him from seeing her.

Setting
Hospital waiting room.
Nathan is sitting in the waiting room. With his face in his hands. When Lucas, Haley, Peyton and Jake. Came walking over to him. Peyton put a hand on his shoulder. Nathan looked up when he felt someone's hand on his shoulder. Nathan smiled a little.
P-"Hey Nate why are you out here?"
N-"Brooke kicked me out. She doesn't want any visitors."
H-"Nathan are you ok?"
N-"No Haley I'm not. And I know why Brooke is pushing everyone away. She's depressed that she doesn't look like she usually does. But that doesn't bother me. I still think she is the most beautiful, sexy girl I fell in love with."
P-"Nate she loves you. Don't forget that. She is pushing all of us away. But we aren't going to let her."
N-"Peyton my wife can be stubborn when she wants to be. She is putting distance between all of us. Because she thinks it's better for us in the end."
H-"Come on we are going into the room as a team. To let her know we aren't going anywhere. She can try and push us away. But it's not going to work."
N-"Haley she isn't going to like us."
H-"Well that's to bad."
N-"Alright but I'm warning you. She's on a short fuse lately. Anything can set her off. You guys stay here. I'm going to talk to her alone."

Nathan stood up and they walked to Brooke's room.
Nathan slowly pushed opened the door. Brooke was sitting up in bed staring out the window. With tears in her eyes. Nathan gave her a hat to wear. That was covering her head. She didn't know anyone was in the room. She looked down at the ring that was on her finger. She fiddled with it. Nathan went to sit on the bed. He took his left hand and grabbed her left. And intertwined their hands. Brooke turned to see Nathan next to her. She tried to quickly pull her hand away. But he wouldn't let it go.

Brooke turned her head away. And looked out the window. Nathan with his other hand brought her face back to his.
N-"Brooke I want you to look at your left hand and tell me what you see."
B-"I see my wedding ring."
N-"Ok now what do you see when you look at my left hand."
B-"I see your wedding ring."
N-"Now who do you see sitting in front of you."
B-"I see you Nathan."
N-"Do you know what I see sitting in front of me?"
B-"An ugly bald person.'
N-"No I see my wife. Who I love more that anything. Baby I still see the same person I've known all my life. I don't care that you have no hair."
B-"I'm not that person anymore Nathan."
N-"Yes you are. Honey you can grow your hair out again."
B-"I'll never be who I once was."
N-"Baby yes you aren't the same you once were. That is because you have changed. it happens when a person is sick. I've seen you struggle in life. And mostly in these last few months. But you've had to deal with a lot. More than any person your age should. Brooke you've got to know. There are people who love you. And you are pushing them all away. But me and the rest of them aren't going anywhere. So push all you want. You aren't getting rid of us."

Brooke looked down at their intertwined hands. And squeezed Nathan's hand.
N-"Honey I'm not attracted to you because of your looks. I'm attracted to the person who is on the inside. Does that not mean I don't think you are beautiful. Of course I think you are beautiful inside and out."
B-"How can you even look at me. I can't even look in the mirror."
N-"Brooke I wish you can see the way I see you. But you don't want to hear it. Do you think I married you because of your looks. I married you because I love you. And I can't imagine now what my life would be like if you were not in it. And yes part of the reason I married you. Because you were sick. But just a small part. Brooke you are in for me."
B="Nathan do you know how long it took me to grow my hair out this long." It took me 16 years now all of that is gone. My hair made me beautiful and sexy. It will never be the same See." She took off the hat to show her bald head."
B-"This is not attractive. It's hideous."

Nathan smiled.
N-"Brooke it will grow back. Hair grows fast."
B-"Not fast enough."
N-"Brooke do you love me?" Brooke looked at Nathan.
B-"OF course I do Nathan."
N-"Now what would you say to me. If our places were reversed."
B-"That I love you just the way you are."
N-"Well that is how I feel about you."
B-"It's not the same."
N-"Why?"
B-"Because I'm suppose to be beautiful." Nathan let go of her. And took her face in his hands.
N-"Brooke I love the whole packing about you. Your smart, talented, kind-hearted, loving caring person. You are also sexy and beautiful."
B-"Please I'm anything but sexy."
N-"I'm not getting threw to you. I guess nothing I say matters. Now I'm going to go. But know this Brooke Annabelle Scott. I love you and I do mean all of you. I can't sit here anymore listening to you put yourself down. I'm only your husband but what do I know. So I'm going to go." Nathan stood up and kissed her forehead turned back when he got to the door. Then turned and walked away.

Brooke was stunned at what just happened. So she didn't say anything. She saw the sadness in his eyes. And wanted desperately to make the sadness go away. But did nothing she watched her husband. the love of her life. Her hero walked out that door. Without a word to him. She started crying and fell asleep crying.

Nathan walked back out with anger in his eyes. And the tone is his voice.
N-"Uh that woman is infuriating. She won't listen to anything I have to say. She keeps going on and on about looks. Looks don't make a person who they are. It's what is on the inside that counts. I don't know what to do anymore." Nathan sat down in a chair. Put his face in his hands.

No one said anything for a long time. Then Nathan got an idea.
N-"Guys I have a plan. That I think might work."
P-"What is it Nathan?"
N-"Now this is something I'm going to do. But hear me out all of you. Before saying anything."
J-"Ok man."
N-"Brooke has this whole thing down to looks. I'm going to show her looks don't matter to me."
H-"What are you going to do Nathan?"
N-"Well she doesn't like the fact that she is bald. So I'm going to shave off my hair as well. Maybe Brooke won't feel bad about being the only one that is bald."
L-"Nate you got a good idea count me in on that."
J-"Me too."
N-"You don't have to do this if you don't want to. I just want to show her she doesn't have to do this alone."
J-"Nate I want to do it. With summer approaching. And the heat it may come in handy."
l-"I want to as well."

Nathan turned to the girls.
N-"Now you two don't have to do this. If you two don't want to. I'm not going to push you to do something. You don't want to do."
H-"I'll do it." Everyone looked at Haley.
N-"Haley are you sure. It will take a long time to grow back."
H-"Yes I know. I was kinds always a tom boy. Besides if Lucas does it. I want to do it. Brooke and I can grow it back together." Lucas was surprised but at the sometime he wasn't. That Haley would do something like that. She has always had a kind heart. He kissed her softly and smiled at her.

Haley turned to Peyton.
H-"Well are you going to join the baldly club or not?"
P-"Guys I don't know about that. I love Brooke and all. But to cut my hair."
N-"Like I said no pressure. If you don't want to do it. Peyton you don't have too. I know you girls like you hair. That is what she's obsessing about. But hair doesn't make a person."
L-"So when we want to do this?"
N-"Let's go right now. Maybe she will be up for visitors later."
Nathan, Lucas, Haley and Jake all walked to the elevator. Peyton stayed behind. Jake turned to Peyton.
J-"You coming or not?" Peyton stood there thinking. Then walked to the others.
P-"Let's do shave our heads." Jake put an arm around her. And they all walked onto the elevator.

2 hours later they all came back. To find everyone else arrive. They all looked up when Lucas, Haley, Nathan, Jake and Peyton walk in with they shaved heads. Karen, Keith, Dan, Deb, Dave and Elizabeth. All stood there not believing their eyes. Nathan, Lucas, Haley, Peyton and Jake just stood there. They all stared at each other. Deb was the first one to say anything.
D-"What did you kids do?" Seeing her son with a bald head. She hasn't seen him without hair. Since he was a baby.
N-"I know you are all thinking. But we had our reasons. You see Brooke has been depressed lately with her hair gone. But I wanted to show her." Lucas cleared his throat.
N-"I mean we wanted to show her. We care more about her than just her looks. And we donated our hair to charity. So kids who have lost their hair because of an illness."
D-"Wow you guys that is the most selfless act. Any of you had ever done. I'm sure she's going to appreciate it."
N-"Well come on guys. Let's go see my wife."
Dan-"Nate she is going to kill you all. When she sees all of you."
N-"Well it's done now. It will grow back." Nathan turned and headed down the hall. With the other behind him.

When they walked into Brooke's room. They found her asleep with a bandanna on her head. And wearing Nathan's basketball jersey. Nathan looked down at her and smiled.
N-"She looks so peaceful doesn't she. Guys she's my angel." Brooke could hear Nathan's voice in a state of sleepiness.
B-"Nathan." She moaned. Then got a image in her head. If his walking away from her angry. She started crying out his name.
B-"Nathan please don't go. I'm sorry I was short with you. Please don't leave me. I love you Nathan. Please come back." She kept talking in her sleep.
B-"Nathan you promised me you weren't going to leave me. You are just like everyone else in my life. And I thought you loved me. You all Scott brothers are alike. You say you loved me. But you do another. Once again Brooke is a fool."

Lucas, Haley, Peyton and Jake were all confused at what she was saying. But Nathan knew all to well what she was talking about. She is remembering him leaving earlier. Now he was kicking himself. he sat on her bed. And tried to wake her up.
N-"Brooke wake up honey. Come on." Brooke slowly woke up.
B-"Nathan?"
N-"Yeah I'm right here baby." Brooke sat up in bed quickly and wrapped her arms around him.
B-"Nathan I'm sorry."
N-"You have nothing to be sorry about."
B-"I don't want to lose you."
N-"Babe you have me forever. I wouldn't give you up for anything or anyone in this world."
B-"I love you."
N-"I love you to baby."

Brooke reached up and put a hand to his head. Wanting to run her fingers threw his hair. But she felt a bald head. She pulled back quickly and really looked at her husband for the first time. Since she woke up. She carefully looked at him. She then pushed him back hard from her. She said in a warning tone.
B-"NATHAN DANIEL SCOTT WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO TO YOUR HAIR!"

Nathan was taken back by her tone.
N-"I shaved it off."
B-"Why would you do something like that?"
N-"Well if you are going to be bald. Then so am I."
B-"Nathan you didn't have to do that to your head."
N-"I wanted to do it. But I wasn't the only one who shaved their head."
B-"Who else did this?"

Nathan pointed behind him.
N-"Them." Brooke looked to see Haley, Peyton, Lucas and Jake standing there. All of them with shaved heads. Brooke thought she was seeing things. She looked at Nathan and them back at them.
B-"Ok I must be seeing things. Because I think I see 5 people who had hair the last time I saw them. Now you all have no hair."
N-"You are not seeing things Brooke."

Brooke is shocked at the recent turn of events. She was getting a little upset.
B-"What the hell did you Peyton Elizabeth Sawyer and you Jake Joseph Jagelski, and you Haley Marie James and you Lucas Michael Scott. And you Nathan Daniel Scott do to yourselves? Someone better say something and say it now."

Peyton stepped forward. She took Brooke's hand.
P-"Brooke if you calm down I'll tell you."
B-"I am calm now start talking."
P-"Just so you know Nathan came up with this idea. He wanted to show you. That looks didn't matter to him concerning you. He came out of your room more frustrated then he did when he went in. Then out of the blue. He came up with a plan. To show you he loved you. He said that if you were going to be bald then so was he. He said he was going to shave his head. And that if we wanted to do it. We could. Lucas and Jake said yes right away. Then out of no where Haley said she would for you. I hesitated for a while. But we don't care if you are bald. Hair can grow back. But what never fades is what he all feel for you. And so you go ahead and try to push us away. But know this Brooke Annabelle Davis. You aren't getting rid of us. We love you and we aren't going anywhere. One more thing missy. Nathan loves you. Don't push him away. Brooke I know Nathan along time as well. And in all that time that he was with Haley or I. I've never made him smile the way you did. He lights up when you walk into a room. Or someone says your name. Brooke we all saw the way he was. When you were in the coma. He wouldn't eat or sleep. I don't even think he went home. Maybe just to shower. But if he did leave. He made sure that someone was with you. Brooke I can't believe I am about to say this. But Nathan isn't the same guy he was with me. he is more gently, kind, sweeter. God he's even happy. He is more affectionate with you. Then he ever was with me. After he and I ever did was fight and have sex. And it hurts to see him so upset. No one can get threw to him but you. if I didn't see in then. I see it now. You and Nathan are meant for each other. You both can be stubborn and pigheaded when you want to be."

Nathan stood in shock.
N-"Wow Peyton that is the first time. I've ever heard you say anything nice about me."
P-"Oh be quite. And what I said is true."
N-"Well thank you."
B-"Ok can I say something now."
P-"No I'm not done yet. Do you know I didn't even know what your middle name was. Until Nathan said it a couple months ago. Why couldn't you tell me your middle name?"

B-"Cause I don't like my middle name. And my husband knows that. He likes to call me that to piss me off. and one more thing Peyton. My name isn't Brooke Annabelle Davis. It's Brooke Annabelle Scott. And only Nathan can get away with calling me by my middle name. But I have to say this everyone. You shouldn't have done that. I look around this room. And see all of you. With your shaved heads and all. I have this feeling I don't deserve any of you. For you guys to do this. You shouldn't have. I was feeling sorry for myself. Because I lost my hair. And was scared that I was or am going to lose Nathan. To someone who is more prettier and who has hair. And isn't faced with an illness. That I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. What did I do to deserve this. I know I'm a b**bitch. Maybe it's god's way of saying. This is what you get Brooke. For treating people the way you do. But I look around this room. I see people who care about me. To do what you guys did. Just to make me feel better about myself. Peyton, Haley I don't know what possed you. To shave all of your hair off. But I love you for it. But you won't see me in public without hair. I will have a hat or a bandanna on. So you all did this for nothing."

Haley stepped forward.
h-"Brooke we did this because we wanted to. I wanted to be part of the club of bald people. Hair can grow back. But love and friendship never dies. And I will also agree with Peyton said about Nathan. He loves you. He would probably do anything for you. I have seen more smiled out of him. He is just like you. Before he knew he was your match. He felt he couldn't do anything for you. But you will happy to know we donated our hair. To a charity that make wigs. And gives them to young children. Who have lost their hair because of chemo like you did. But we are going to be here for you. Every step of the way. You are going to have your transplant next week. And you are going to be happy and healthy again.

Broke reached her hand out to Nathan. He accepted it without hesitation. Lacing their fingers together. Booked pulled him over to the bed. And he sat down on the bed. She reached her hand up to his cheek. she couldn't help but being a little uneasy. Seeing Nathan without hair. But as she looked into his eyes. She saw that he was still the same person. And knew more than ever. That she loved him like no other. Nathan and Brooke looked deeply into each other's eyes. And they both. That their soul mates were sitting right in front of each other.
B-"Nathan you have got to be. The most romantic, loving man. I have ever known. The things you have done for me. Means a whole lot to me. You even shaved your head. When I want to give up on everything. You won't let me. You pulled me back when I wanted to give up on life. You married me not just because I'm sick. But I know you love me. You have put up with a lot of my mood swings. I tried to push you away. But you didn't stop. When anybody else would. You are the person that is going to save my life."

Nathan cupped the side of her face.
N-"Brooke I love you all of you. Bald head and all. You make life complete for me. I don't know what took us so long to be together. But I'm glad we are. Don't forget that I love you. I knew what I was getting into when I married you. You probably think I thought all do that threw when I asked you. But I thought long and hard. I know if we didn't find a match that I could lose you. But deep down I knew I was making the right decision. About marrying you. I also know there is a possibility of you losing your hair. But that doesn't matter to me. All I care about it you getting better. So we can spend the rest of our lives together. Our bed is lonely without you beside me. It's true what they say. You get use to sleeping next to someone. And when they aren't there it feels empty. So I don't want anymore negative talking. You are going to get better. And I'm going to help your recovery. Every step of the way. It's you and me in this together. As Mr. and Mrs. Nathan Scott."

Brooke smiled then turned her attention to the other people in the room.
B-"I'm going to kiss my husband now. So if you don't want to watch. I suggest you turn around." The others turned their backs to them. Nathan and Brooke looked at each other. Brooke brought a hand to the back of his head. And brought his head down to hers for a kiss. Nathan wrapped his arms around her. And pulled her closer. Brooke wrapped her arms around his neck. They were caught up in each other. Their kiss turned more passionate. And forgot the other people in the room. But were interrupted by someone clearing their throats. They broke apart to look at the others. Brooke pulled Nathan into a hug. Nathan wrapped his arms around her. Brooke feeling content. She rested her head on his shoulder.
B-"Don't let me go." She whispered in his ear.
N-"Never sweetheart." Kissing her forehead.

Lucas, Haley, Jake and Peyton quietly made their way out of the room. To give Brooke and Nathan time alone. The four of them turned to see two people who are madly in love and devoted to each other. And made their way down the hall.

Nathan and Brooke remained in each other's arms. Nathan gently rocked back and forth rubbing her back. Nathan gently laid down on the bed. Taking Brooke with him. He could tell she was growing tired. He gently kissed the top of her head. Then her breathing became even he spoke.
N-"God I know I'm not really a religious person. But I beg of you. If you can answer this for me. Don't take my wife away from me. She is apart of me. I would be lost without her. Make her pull threw this. Please give me a chance to prove myself. If you can cure her of this illness. I will start going to church more often. You take her away from me. I'll never forgive you. I promise you that." Nathan looked down to see Brooke already sleeping in his arms.
N-"I love you babe." And he continued to hold her while she slept. Finally falling asleep himself.
End of chapter #19

Next chapter
Brooke wakes up to find Nathan gone.
Nathan takes a walk.

A/N I hope this was ok. Please give me feedback. On what you think.