Chapter 20

Summary
Nathan stayed by Brooke's side the whole night. He spent it with her asleep in his arms. Just listening to her breathe. Scared to death that if the transplant didn't work. It might be just a matter of time. Before he would lose her forever. And he never wanted to feel the lost of his soul-mate. His one true love of his life. The one person who knew him inside and out. The person who wasn't afraid to call him an arrogant jerk. Which he knew he could be. His partner in life, his wife. The one person he would gladly die for.

Setting
Brooke's hospital room early morning of the transplant.
Nathan slowly was starting to wake up. Slowly brought his arm up to check the time on his watch. It read 4:00 in the morning. He looked down at Brooke. Who was fast asleep in his arms. He tried going back to sleep. But there was a lot of things running threw his mind. He laid there staring up at the Celine. Not wanting to disturb Brooke. He gently rolled her onto her back. And slowly and carefully slid out of bed. Once he was out of bed. He stood by her bedside for a moment. He gently leaned over to kiss he forehead. And quickly walked to the door and left.

And hour with just walking and thinking. Nathan didn't know where he was going. But somehow ended up at the chapel. He hesitantly walked in. And sat down in the front pew. He sat there in silenced for a while. Lowered his head and then back up.
N-"God I know I'm not the best person when it comes to you. But I have to ask you something. That I'm hoping you can do for me. I don't ask you for a lot of things. But please help Brooke. I'm going to do all I can from here. But you and she have to do the rest. God I can't lose Brooke. She has been a part of my life for so long. It's hard to imagine her not being here. My god I just finally opened my eyes. To I love her so much. It's sometimes it's hard to breath. And I feel helpless of doing nothing. While she is going threw so much pain. I try and be strong for her. Because I'm her husband. And I'm suppose to be the strong one. Just saying the word husband is wired to me. Didn't think I would be a husband at 17. But I now picture Brooke the one who is at my side. She is the other half of me. So I am begging you. Please don't take her away from me. She is everything to me. I love my wife with all my heart and soul. She is my life, my love, my wife, and my whole world." Nathan finally let the tears that he was holding in. Finally letting them out. He leaned forward putting his face in his hands.

Brooke who was standing in the doorway of the chapel. Who had woken up to find Nathan wasn't there. And she got scared. But a feeling came over her. That was saying Nathan was in pain. She walked around until her gut telling her he was close by. She heard him talking in the chapel. She stood in the doorway. Not wanting to disturb him. She heard the frightened tome in his voice. Tears starting to form in her eyes all well. Brooke finally slowly started walking up to him. She walked up to the pew right behind him. And slowly wrapped her arms around his neck. And leaned down to whisper in his ear.
B-"Nathan you are my world too."

Nathan froze at the sound of her voice. But relaxed in her touch. He gazed up at her. With tears in his eyes.
N-"What are you doing out of bed. You should be in bed."
B-"I could say the same thing about you." Unwrapping her arms from around him. And walked around to him. And gently sat down in his lap. She wiped the tears from his eyes and face. And gently took his face in her hands.
B-"Want to tell me why you are so upset?" Nathan dropped his head. Looking down at the ground. Letting more tears come. Brooke brought his face once again to her level. She once again wiped the tears from his face.
B-"Baby talk to me. What's wrong?"

Nathan pulled Brooke more closely to him. And held onto her. And sobbed into her neck. Brooke was frozen in place. Not knowing what to do. She's never seen him so broken up before. But she held onto him even tighter. Running a hand up and down his back. Trying to clam him down. She brought his face back up to hers. And looked deeply into each other's eyes.
B-"Nate honey please talk to me. Let me in. I want to help you. But I can't help you. Unless you tell me what is wrong."

Nathan took her face into his hands.
N-"I can't lose you Brooke. You are everything good in my life. I've never realized how much until now. How much you really mean to me. I've been blind for the last 10 years. Going after girls who didn't even know me at all. Why didn't I see that. The one person I can't or don't want to live without. Was right in front of me this whole time. Baby I love you so much. Now that I have opened my eyes and heart to true love. Brooke please don't leave me."

Brooke was at a loss for words.
B-"Nathan look at me." Nathan looked back up at her.
B-"Honey I will do all I can to make a full recovery. If you would have told me 2 months ago. If I would have cared if I lived or died. I would have said gladly die. Without knowing people would care if I did. But all that changed one night. When someone I thought forgot about me. Reached out and pulled me back from a deep and dark place. Told me it was ok to let people in. And let my feelings out. After I told everyone I was sick. I didn't want people to feel pity for me. Or sorry for me. Nate you are the reason I want to live. I don't know if I wasn't sick. If us would have happened. I would like to think. We would both wake up and realize we were meant for each other. Whatever brought us back to each other again. I wouldn't change it. You and the future I hope we have together. Is what I want to live for. I want to graduate from high school. Hopefully get into a good college. Get a good job. Maybe renew my wedding vows with my handsome, strong, loving and caring husband. And I would like to have children some day. Maybe a little boy and a little girl. That are combinations of the both of us. Could you imagine what that would be like?"
N-"Now that you say it yes I could. You will make a wonderful mother. But only to my children."

Brooke smiled and slowly leaned forward to kiss him. But pulled back after a few seconds.
B-"What I am saying honey it. You aren't the only one who is afraid of losing here. I'm just as scared as you are. But you have my word. That I'm going to do all I can to get better. But if for some reason that doesn't happen and I should die. I want you to move on with your life. Don't throw your whole future away. I want you to find someone. That will love everything about you. Down to your while attitude. Don't settle for anything less than you deserve."

Nathan dropped his head back onto her shoulder.
N-"Brooke please don't talk like that."
B-"It's got to be said. But everything goes well today. I'm the one that will be at your side. Until we are old and grey. But now it's in god's hands."
N-"We'll get threw this. then we go on after this as stronger people."
B-"I love you Nathan Scott never forget that."
N-"I love you too." They both leaned in for another longer kiss. That was long and sweet.

N-"Come on let's get you back to your room. You should still be in bed sleeping."
B-"When I woke up and you weren't there. I got scared."
N-"I'm sorry baby. I didn't mean to scare you. But I just needed to clear my head a bit." Brooke got off of Nathan's lap. And reached out a hand to him. Nathan smiled at her and took her hand. Getting up from the pew. He and Brooke walked out of the chapel. Holding hands and walking back to her room. To sleep a little more.

End of Chapter 21

Next chapter
Transplant

Will both Nathan and Brooke pull threw. Just wait a find out
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