Maya, Sunday Oct 17, 2010
So here it is, the fabled bonus chapter forged through blood, sweat and tears through weeks of pain, suffering, and ancient demon rituals all to spawn...THIS! Originally this bonus chapter was going to be done in the standard writing format, with actual paragraphs and dialogue...but then Ashura turned out to be a wuss and scrapped the whole idea! Pansy. Then he gets all these good lines to use but can't cuz it's in diary style and he's pacing around the room like an idiot trying to figure it all out.
So you get this. Diary format with some quotes here and there to make you wonder just WTF went on in that damn house that the two girls aren't mentioning. Fuckin' tease. Maybe if you beg him enough, Ashura MIGHT write the whole thing...which might take years.
Why is this a bonus chapter if it's a full chapter long? Simple: I'M NOT FRIGGEN IN IT! That and it takes place during part of Chapter Three. So anyways, enjoy your bonus chapter devoid of my awesomeness. All quotes correspond to the entry that follows them, usually by the entry writer, though not always the case, yattah yattah yatta, etceteras, etc…START THE DAMN FIC ALREADY!
Azu Diary
By Ashura05
June Bonus: It's Always Summer in Azumanga Daioh
Kaorin, Thursday June 20, 2002
Oooooh, that Yuri! I can't believe she told me the wrong meeting time for the car pool! Woke me up an HOUR before my alarm was supposed to go up and rushes me out with my stuff while STILL-IN-MY-PAJAMAS! Thank GOD it was early or I would have DIED from embarrassment! T_T Not only that, but I...because of her I FORGOT my diary! T_T T_T T_T
So yeah, all these entries until I get back home are all from memory. Bare with me here, it's gonna be a long ride. I wrote some things on paper I managed to scrap, but most of this is from my exhausted head. And yeah, the trip was exhausting...mentally. I'd rather not go into details in one entry...the way I'm feeling, day-by-day entries will be best.
Soooo Yuri and Ii had to sleep in the same room. Why? Well, everyone except for the two of us are either already a couple or a bunch of annoying freshmen fangirls. And by fangirls, I mean yuri-obsessed fangirls, all trying to pair me and Yuri up for their own selfish fantasies. My otaku cousin was right: fangirls ruin EVERYTHING!
Food was good. Ana (the president) and Matsuri (secretary) are pretty good chefs. Matsuri's a little weird, though...not crazy weird, just a bit...air-headed? Dopey? I dunno, whatevers.
Yuri didn't try anything in bed...that night.
Yuri, Thursday June 20, 2002
Well this little trip is turning out different than I thought. Turns out I got the meeting time wrong so I had to wake Kaori (in her cute PJs squee!) and drag her sleepy butt downstairs. I even forgot to bring Kami, but she's a wildcat so she can fend for herself. We argued the entire way there, and our club's yuri fangirls kept insinuating things about us that I don't want Kaori thinking...not yet, anyways. Too soon, girls. Too soon.
I'm really, REALLY grateful that our club has an even number of people and enough couples so that Kaori and I can sleep in the SAME bed! Did I plan this? What do you think? ^^
Kaorin, Thursday, June 21, 2002
Yuri...please...I hope to god you were asleep because if you did that on purpose...well I'm sure someone out there can think of a good, painful way to bring you to an inch of death. Anyways, the little lesbian managed to grope me, yes, GROPE ME in my sleep! Now, I might wash this off if she just happened to have her hand there...but how do you "accidentally" get BOTH hands around my chest? And the way you were moaning back there...you have some perverted dreams, Yuri...
Well I've had them of Sakaki so I suppose I can't complain. -_- Anyways, we went to the beach afterwards and had so much fun! I enjoy the beach a lot more when I don't get carsick on the way there. =P
Okay, okay, yes Yuri I will admit it. You did look good in that bikini. Yes, I was totally blushing. You are an attractive girl and it did compliment all your good curves. Especially...god can't believe I'm writing this, but that ass...Just...perfect oh god I kept looking at it! Ohhhn no I'm turning all red just thinking about it! Stop it, Kaorin! Okay, long story short Yuri has one nice behind, I admit it. However...you can cover up with those frills all you like, but you are still flat. =P Not as flat as Tomo or Osaka, I'll give you that, but you're still considered flat, Ms. Pancake. ^^
Yuri, Thursday, June 21, 2002
Before you ask, no I did not do anything to Kaori last night. I really don't get that concept. For one, she might wake up. Then it'd be awkward, she'd be mad, any chance I had at a REAL relationship goes down the drain. Though by the end of this trip...something might happen...I hope.
Now for today's entry, the almighty obligatory BEACH EPISODE! :D And Kaori in a bikini is such a sight...too bad you couldn't see it, Diary. I promise I'll make one of the fangirls send me a picture and clip it to the page later! Such a nice bikini...and to think she'd been wearing one-pieces all this time! Such a waste! But the best part about it was my new bikini had her staring in all the wrong ways! No, no I am NOT joking! She was totally staring at me! And blushing, too!
Okay, I could be wrong. Maybe I was just imagining things. One of those "seeing only what you expected to see" moments. I mean, I have a decent body, but my boobs are...lacking. T_T
Oh, cheer up, Yuri! You have the rest of the trip to get her to stare at your body for real, so hop to it!
Kaorin, Friday, June 22, 2002
Barbecues are awesome. Especially when they're followed by romantic stargazing and-hey, what's with the sneaky arm around me, Yuri? That's what I thought. Well anyways, VP Yuri had this "challenge series" throughout the trip and the person with the most points gets an autographed neko-koneko doll. It's cute and all, but the real reason I want it is to give it to Sakaki! :D So first challenge was name as many constellations as you can...haha you should just give me the prize already, Yuri. Ahem...There's Orion, and the big dipper...and if you look closely, it points directly to-I SAID STOP IT!
Yuri, Friday, June 22, 2002
Kaori, you look so dreamy when you gaze at the stars. Makes me want to slowly lean in and kiss those sweet pink lips...but I'll settle for an arm around you. ^_^ Too bad you noticed...would have been the perfect night. I wonder...was she thinking about Sakaki as she stared into the night's sky? Or was she thinking of me...and the possibilities as countless as the stars in the milky way?
...nah! :P
Kaorin, Saturday, June 23, 2002
Girls...you aren't fooling anyone. You did that on purpose. I meant what I said; I will never-EVER forgive you for what you just did. Hell hath no fury like Kaorin scorned...and I am scorned, believe me. My, yes my first kiss...stolen...by Yuri. T_T
I don't blame you one bit, Yuri. Well, maybe a little since I know you wouldn't do anything to stop it, but I am fully blaming those little devils for tripping us. Now had you been the mastermind behind that plan, then that makes things different...
Now that that little rant is out of the way...
Lips...they are soft. I didn't think kissing was gonna be like that, but it's soft and feels pretty nice. And yes, my heart skipped a beat, but it was my first kiss, of course I would blush after...before masking the blood seeping into my cheeks with red unadulterated KAORI FURY! *ahem* sorry, I'm done. =P
Oh and...perhaps Yuri isn't so flat after all...yeah, gonna let you ponder that for a moment.
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Okay, yes my hand fell on her breast. She does have a chest and...it's nice and soft and...dammit, Yuri! First thought of Sakaki this summer and it's how her breasts would never fit so nicely in my hands! Enjoy your points while you can, Yuri.
Yuri, Saturday, June 23, 2002
YOU STUPID FANGIRLS, I'MMA GONNA KILL YOU!
Death is too good for the lot of you. Forgiveness is NOT an option! I will make you pay in ways you never thought possible! I will...
Okay, I'm done. :P Now, as for what the little brats did, well...they made me steal Kaorin's first kiss. What, I should be happy? The hell I am! I did NOT want my first kiss to be some accidental tripping of someone's leg! I wanted to kiss Kaorin because she wanted to. Because we both wanted to. I...didn't want it to be something I'd regret. T_T
Though I did not mind Kaorin's hand on my breast. That felt nice...very nice...dammit I can't do *that* with Kaorin in the same room! T_T T_T T_T
"Why...why did you do it? Why risk your neck like that?"
"Because I love you."
Kaorin, Sunday, June 24, 2002
Today was...god so much happened...so fast it's like a blur. My mind is numb, my heart won't stop aching...
Yuri, she...she saved me. From a group of guys trying to hit on me and not taking no for an answer. I was just trying to get some ice cream! I struggle, and they push me onto the ground. That's when Yuri comes over and gets between me and them and yells at them to stop it. Next thing I know she's fighting them all at once, looking so determined and...cool...really cool. Just like...just like Sakaki.
She was all dirty and bruised up after, and she goes and asks me if I'M okay. I'm fine, but you...you really didn't have to do that. Why did you?
Maybe I shouldn't have asked that. Because I got my answer. She...Yuri's in love with me. I had a feeling all this time but to hear it right from her lips is...I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what to think. I...I have Sakaki. I want Sakaki. Dear God I wish Sakaki was here so I can tell what's right and what's wrong again...
Yuri, Sunday, June 24, 2002
Hehehe, Ana and I have collaborated tomorrow night's event to be the legendary King Game! The strategy is to slowly work out way up to more...perverted antics. ^_^ I look forward to seeing Kaori take her top off...
Yeah, like that's gonna happen, but if it does...who am I to stop it? ^_^ It's gonna be such a blast...oooooh, I can't wait! But first, the beach awaits once again before we go for a late night shopping mission! I'm bringing the rope and crowbars! )
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I shouldn't have done that. Not saving Kaorin, but what I did after. I...I shouldn't have confessed. Now she knows and I can't...I can't keep up this facade for much longer.
The mask is slipping...
Kaorin, Tuesday, June 26, 2002
I don't remember the previous night. I woke up this morning with a huge headache, no memory of the night before, and a topless Yuri's hand resting on my breast. First thought: I got drunk and Yuri took advantage of me. Worse is when I ask her what happened, she tells me, "Nothing. Absolutely nothing." in a way that makes me think something DID happen and I'm not gonna like it. So I storm off to ask Ana and Matsuri what happened, in vivid detail. Here's the full story:
We played the King Game last night. I was told it was a lot of fun, except for when I apparently had to eat leftover natto. . The fangirls later told me some of the more perverted escapades like Yuri giving me a backrub with the guise of UNDOING MY BRA! They say it was a dare, but...you never know. And apparently Yuri had to take her top off, which explains why she ended up like that. Why she never put one on later I didn't find out until after the Prez explained what ended the game.
Apparently I had been drinking some punch the fangirls brought out. Worst-mistake-ever. The bowl had been spiked of course and as the game went on, I got more and more tipsy. So much that when I was ordered to kiss Yuri...I...I...I was all over her.
I know, I don't understand it, either! Why would I want to...I must have had a lot of alcohol in me. I mean, I like her, but...not in that way...I think. Ugh, so confused!
Anyways, you'd think Yuri would jump at this chance, right? WRONG! O.O I know, weird, right? She stopped me before I could kiss her and let lose a fury hell hath no upon the fangirls. I was told she looked like she would murder them on the spot! She ended the game right there and took me up to our room to put me to bed. After that no one knows what happened, so I asked Yuri again. She tells me again, "Nothing happened," in that same voice that right then made me think...frustration. Then she threw me a note she made me write that night so I could get some sleep and "kiss her in the morning," whatever that meant. Here's the note:
Yuri,
You don't belive me, but I'm crazy bout you ! I wanna kiss yaou so bad but you won't let me. I know I love you so I guess I'll kiss you tomorrow, right? I mean, alcohjol or not I feel what I feel so nothing should change, right? Belive me, Yuri, I love you so much, no matter what I say when I'm sober. Oh right htis is a message for me, right? Listen, me. I love Yurik. don't dtry to deny it, you love Yuri and andI dunno you shoiujld know cuz you're me so figure it out yourself! Oh, and make sure to give Yur i a niiiiice kiss when you wake up, kay?
~Kaori
...yeah, I was totally drunk, wasn't I? This...this note changes nothing. It shouldn't. I mean, I was drunk. Yet why...why do I feel that some part of me...means this? Ugghh! So confused and I have a headache! T_T
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Headache died down a bit, so I asked Yuri why she put me to bed instead of making me stay with someone else. I mean, if I was drunk and "all over her," why would she take me to bed? Apparently, everyone was a bit tipsy that night and she was afraid I'd do something I might regret and they wouldn't care. Which makes me wonder how much everyone's telling me is true.
Well, like I said everyone's got a bit of a headache, even Yuri from all the crap we caused last night so we're all just gonna relax for today. Though I'm still pissed and irked and so confused I'd rather not talk to Yuri for a while. Maybe the rest of the vacation, I dunno.
Yuri, Tuesday June 26, 2002
Wasn't able to write last night. Too many things happened. Things that weren't supposed to happen. It's...really hard to smile as usual now. I feel like crap, even though I didn't have any of that spiked punch last night.
Damn fucking fangirls. I hate them, all four of them! Luckily, no damage was done. I prevented Kaorin from doing something stupid, which would have been kissing or more with me. As much as I would have loved that...a drunk Kaorin that won't remember a thing is not the person I want to have sex with. Especially not for a first time. Anyways, one more stunt like that and the fangirls are kicked out. I wanted them out this morning, but Ana said to give them one more chance. Yeah, one more chance to fuck my relationship with Kaorin up even more! Ah well, if I can't kick them out, I'll make them regret coming here...and I think I have just the thing...
Kaorin doesn't even believe me when I say "nothing happened." Well, why would she? I did just confess my love for her and she woke up in bed with me half naked (took my top off for a dare. Didn't feel like putting a shirt on).
She asked me why I fell for her. I didn't have an answer. She was there. She was fun. Why wouldn't I like her? But...I'm such an idiot. Why did I fall for this again? Dammit, Kaorin. This is all your fault.
"You keep saying 'but I love Sakaki,' but I've never heard you say 'I don't love Yuri.'"
Kaorin, Wednesday June 27, 2002
Today I guess we all tried to get rid of the bad vibes. Props to Yuri for the smooth fishing idea. It was quite relaxing and we caught a lot of good fish for dinner that night. I don't know how one of the fangirls managed the small tuna, but I easily won this one with my 70KG GROUPER! Well, technically I have to share the points with Yuri, since she helped me reel it in. Thanks a lot, Yuri. Too bad we couldn't keep it but at least I got the picture to prove it!
Yeah, we've pretty much made up. It still feels a bit weird, but after talking with Ana, I think I owe it to her to talk about this seriously instead of sounding like such a bitch.
Yuri, Wednesday June 27, 2002
Fishing strategy was a success! Everyone's nice and relaxed, Ana gets to calm Kaorin down, and I get to think about my next strategy to get things on track and to mend the fangirls' unintentional sabotage. Caught nothing but rockfishes all day, but at least I got to rethink how I want to go about things. I don't think I can pursue Kaorin again anytime soon, which sucks but I have to look at things realistically. Right now I should focus on getting her back as a close friend. I hate to do this, but there's only one way to do it: get her together with Sakaki.
I know it sounds crazy, but I feel like I have to do it. It...will make Kaorin happy. I want her to be happy, even if I'm not. I mean, Kaorin rejected me, but...she doesn't hate me. I'm happy for that, at least. And if it doesn't work out with Sakaki, then I'm here for her. This'll work out. But I'll carry out that plan after tomorrow's special event. That one's gonna be an all-nighter, so there will be no time for small talk.
"This is just a trick! It's not real! This has to be some kind of dream or-!"
"Dream or reality, your feelings are real. And feelings are my reality!"
Kaorin, June 28, 2002
So tonight's event was the obligatory Test of Courage challenge. Yay. Say it with me everyone. yay. So not an occult freak. Ah well, Yuri gets points for the biggest ToC I've heard of. We had to travel from the "spooky" cave near the beach, trek through the "dark" forest without setting a foot on the path, and ending our "adventure" at the *cough* *cough* "haunted" house we're staying at.
Oh, and we all had to conveniently split into groups of two. So guess who I was holding hands with the entire time? OMG diary, you must be psychic! Yes, the answer is Yuri! Pairing was random my $$! Ah, goddammit I'm feeling too damn sarcastic to write the next part. Hold on a sec while I read some yuri manga.
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Okay, I'm good. The cave was...pretty spooky. Claustrophobia and all that. Fangirls jumping at a drop of water on their spine was priceless...Yuri totally set them up by forcing them to back up a little for a commemorative photo. ^_^ Awesome. However, that was it for the light-hearted spooky stuff. Things soon got serious. Very. Serious. Our guide for the caves led us to a dark section of the cave where even the light from the lanterns seemed dark. There he told us a story of a young maiden who was betrayed by the person she loved. In her fury, she killed his lover and when he still would not love her, she killed him and then took her own life, cursing all that toyed with hearts with her dying breath. It is said that she sucks the souls of all who play with love by giving them the fated kiss of death. Those few sentences don't do the story justice, I'm afraid. Even I had chills during his spooky tale.
We were each given a sacred dagger to protect ourselves with since the spirit can only be banished by stabbing her in her own tortured heart. Then it was time to make our way through the forest, each of us taking different routes. The fangirls apparently had set some traps of their own for us ahead of time, for Yuri and I found ourselves snagged in a rope net. I lost my knife in the process, but Yuri got to work cutting us loose and jumped down to catch me afterwards.
She never got the chance. As soon as she dropped down into the dark bushes, she let out this horrifying scream. I jumped down, almost spraining my ankle but I ignored the slight pain in my leg and called out for her. No answer. I called again and again, looking everywhere and clawing my way through the bushes but there was no sign of her! I kept telling myself this was all a plan. Some kind of sick setup by the fangirls or Yuri to scare the crap out of me.
Ana and Matsuri soon came by, having rushed over when they heard my screams. I thought for sure Ana would know if something's up, but she said that all Yuri had planned was more ghost stories when they got back. Matsuri was obviously worried, tears in her eyes from the mere thought of Yuri...I'd rather not think it.
Yuri wasn't the only victim. We barely walked four feet when we heard more screams. The screams of the fangirls begging for their lives. We found them all on the ground, all of them dead. Yes, dead. Ana herself checked their pulses and I know she has a license for CPR. This was her final act before she was grabbed and thrown against a tree before some...thing kissed her and sucked out her very soul. Not. Good.
We ran. As fast as we could through the forest, the cry of the ghost echoing behind us. We ran straight towards the house, never looking back. I quickly began bolting and barricading the door, but I forgot one thing: ghosts can move through walls. It was there: behind us, its eyes filled with a fury I have never seen in my entire life. I screamed. Matsuri screamed. I've never felt so scared.
The ghost picked up Matsuri and flung her to the other side of the room. She appeared okay, but the ghost soon turned to me. And it spoke. A long rant filled with hate, cursing me for the deeds I had done, for how I juggled the hearts of Yuri and Sakaki in my own. I kept telling myself this is but a dream, or some trick. I thought perhaps Yuri was behind that disfigured face, but the ghost had her, upstairs chained to the banister. She called to me, and the ghost smiled before gliding up to Yuri and giving her that horrible kiss of death.
My heart sank. Tears welled in my eyes. Something broke inside of me and I lunged at the demon with Matsuri's dropped knife, slashing at the demon who merely slapped my hand away. She continued to curse me, baking me up against the wall. I tried to fight back, but she was strong and held me to the wall. "Repent for your sins with death," she whispered before kissing me. And my world went dark.
I woke up later to the sound of cheering. Apparently Matsuri was able to vanquish the demon and as such restored our souls. I was so glad Yuri was still alive. I-I mean I love Sakaki but...the thought of losing Yuri is horrible. How can I stay mad at her after all that?
Some part of me still thinks this might have been some very well orchestrated plot, but the words of the demon still echo in my head:
Fake or not, the feelings were real.
"YOU! Severers of the red thread! Players of hearts! A curse to all your kind for the pain you have wrought! For your crimes, there is no redemption!"
Yuri, June 28, 2002
Oh...my...GOD! Tonight was...oh god I am so freaked out. My entire body can't stop shaking. My heart is beating so fast. It was...it was...so...PERFECT!
I can't believe how smoothly it all went! I mean, I expected a few slip-ups, sure, but the execution was FLAWLESS! They-they moved...EXACTLY as I predicted they would! They stepped in all the right places; looked at all the right times in all the right directions!
Oh sorry, allow me to explain, diary. Forgive me for not mentioning my diabolical scheme earlier, but I wanted you to be as utterly surprised as my victims were. The whole thing was set up in advance, just a little each night but I did most of it during the "king game" fiasco. I wish that was all planned but it really was just a convenient accident that set up the story oh so well. I paid the tour guide to tell some crazy ghost story about a vengeful lover I wrote up. He was a brilliant storyteller! My words and his voice sent chills down everyone's spine, even mine! He then gave out "sacred knives" which are really special prop knives that look and feel real but are blunt and shrink when pressed upon. Thank you, Hollywood!
Then we had everyone travel through the dark forest where Kaori and I "accidentally" triggered one of MY traps that I blamed on the fangirls. Luckily Kaori dropped her fake knife so I could use my real one to cut the ropes. I fell right onto the bush and screamed for my life while I silently moved to the other side of the nearby tree. I was out of Kaori's sight as I dashed through the path, easily catching up to the fangirls. This part is my favorite by far. They were in the perfect spot, I could not believe it! I quickly switched on the speakers and spoke through my hidden mic. The look on their faces was PRICELESS! White as ghosts, they were! Then I switched on the hidden projectors while I put on my makeup and outfit I hid in a hollow tree. I was just in time, for one of them had dashed right in my direction just as I had finished the last touches. I smashed her against the tree and kissed her! Yup, you heard me! Well, not just kissed her. I also slipped this little easily dissolving pill into their mouths. It dissolves a bit in my mouth when I put it in and when I kiss them it's worn down enough so they can't even detect it and it puts them right to sleep. My timing had to be perfect though, otherwise I risked going to sleep, too.
One by one they fell to me as I unleashed my almighty fury upon them, popping up behind them, throwing knives, and perfecting my evil noises. It felt sooooo good to act all evil and demonic! Could this be the true me, I wonder? ^_^
I barely had time to relish in the moment, however, for Ana, Matsuri, and Kaori soon came to the rescue. I quickly dashed aside to let Ana analyze my victims and she of course pronounced them dead as planned. It was then I grabbed her and knocked her out as well. Sorry, Ana, but I have to stick to the plan. I then chased the frightened duo through the forest, using my carefully planted fakes to lure them around in circles while I dashed into the house ahead of them and picking a good hiding spot. I could barely contain my laughter as Kaori locked and barricaded the door while I slowly snuck up behind them. The way Matsuri slowly turned her head before I tossed her aside was classic! Sorry I had to throw ya, Mats. Collateral damage and all that. :P
This was my moment. Every pit of anger and angst I had towards Kaori was unleashed in a masterpiece of words that could have won me the Oscar! ^_^ It's kind of lucky I got to do this with a mask on, or I probably would crack by tomorrow and end up saying something I would regret.
I easily disarmed her and her failed attempts at fighting back. She did suspect I was the culprit, but I had a projection of myself upstairs just in case. Using a very thin wire/pulley system that was hidden in plain sight, I floated up to my fake self and faked a kiss of death, the recorded me reacting so perfecting in such perfect timing...I still can't believe how well that turned out!
I turned to Kaori and finished her off with my kiss and then it was just me and Matsuri. Just as planned. She went ballistic! Such a timid girl, yet so ferocious when all her friends lay dead around her. I went easy on her at first, but I was forced to step up my game or it would be over too quickly. Eventually she prevailed and stabbed me in the chest with the fake knife that flattened into my body. She stabbed it at the perfect place, puncturing the sac of fake blood I had kept hidden. With my final breath, I let loose a cry of agony before releasing my huge smoke bomb, covering the entire room while I made my way upstairs to trash my clothes and lie lifeless on the floor. Matsuri was deemed a hero after everyone woke up and no one suspected a thing.
Not only that, but Kaori seems to have forgiven me since I practically just died in front of her. I had a feeling that would do it, but to have all of my objectives come through so perfectly was just amazing! I got my revenge on the fangirls, Kaorn's forgiven me, and Matsuri got a huge boost in self-confidence. This was a very good night. ^_^
One more thing that happened but I had to write the next morning: Kaorin actually cuddled with me! Well, not quite. She hugged me in bed at first, but then after some chatting she switched to just my arm. I really did scare her, didn't I? It took everything I had not to tell her it was me all along. Dreams that night were very nice. ^_^
Kaorin, June 29, 2002
Well after last night it sure was nice to have a nice relaxing time at the local festival. It's been a long time since I've worn a yukata, too and...no, Yuri, I don't care what you say I am NOT going naked under there! Perverted little...
*ahem* I wish I could have seen Sakaki in a yukata, though. And, just maybe...she seems like the traditional type so perhaps she would be naked under...dammit, once again I can't insult Yuri without insulting myself! T_T
I, Kaori, am now the proud owner of my very own turtle! ^_^ He's so cute, but I can tell he's a tough lil turtle. I'm naming him, "Tor-chan," though Yuri seems to like calling him "Tori,"* which is just WRONG! Dammit, Yuri.
We all split up during this time to do our own thing and meet up for the fireworks later. Naturally, Yuri followed me the entire time. Fine by me, I guess. We had fun playing all the games, even if she did beat me at goldfish scooping. I thought I was always pretty good at it, but that technique of yours...it's aint human!
All fun and games aside, it seems I just can't end my nights normally. T_T Just when I let my guard down, she kisses me JUST as the fireworks go off! As if my mind hasn't been blown enough, she tells me that she's gonna help me with Sakaki! Wait, what? You kiss me and then say you're gonna help me win over Sakaki? I am so confused.
*Tori=bird in Japanese
Yuri, June 29, 2002
Festival strategy a success. I had tons of fun with Kaori and even got to give her a real kiss before dropping my lil bomb. And it felt really good. Her lips are so soft. I can tell when (not if) we kiss for real it will be AMAZING! Her face afterwards was so dumbfounded and hilarious too! Confused as she may be though, Kaori's agreed to let me help her with her lil Sakaki problem. We were joined by the rest of the group so I couldn't go into a lot of detail with her but we've got plenty of time. No rush, right? ^_^
"This is all part of some plot, isn't it? Score some points with me, letting me fall, then picking up the pieces and seducing me when I'm at my weakest?"
"That did cross my mind, yes."
Kaorin, June 30, 2002
My eyes...they cannot unsee what I just saw. I was going to ask Ana for some advice but instead I walk in on her and Matsuri making out on the bed! O_O And I...I think her hand was up Matsuri's shirt...and those whimpering noises as they kissed...I...I can't get it out of my head! To make matters worse, I keep imagining me kissing what seems to be a flipflop between Sakaki and Yuri. Must be because she kissed me last night! Dammit, Yuri, stop invading my Sakaki fantasies!
I guess Yuri meant what she said about helping me with Sakaki. She just told me the reason I haven't seen her in a while: she was training for a cat expo with Maya! I still get the chilling feeling I was blown off, but Sakaki seems to really like these sort of things so I guess it makes sense...maybe. Yuri went to the same expo with her cat, Kami (for its bite apparently, though I do suspect there might be some underlying egotistical reason), so she only found out a couple days before we left. Yuri thought I wouldn't go with them if I knew the real reason, especially since there's a chance Sakaki might use the grand prize trip for two with me! Do you think I'm that low as to brush you guys off all for Sakaki? Don't answer that.
So we're pretty sure Sakaki's going to take me and when she does, I'm supposed to confess...OH GOD I CAN'T DO IT! Yuri's gonna coach me through it, but...but...I don't care if it's a perfect opportunity, it's TOO SOON! T_T
"We're the same, you and I. We both love someone who might never love us back."
Yuri, June 30, 2002
Went over the master plan with Kaorin. I'm sure Sakaki's gonna take Kaorin to Hello Kitty Land and with it being the two of them it's the perfect time to tell her how she feels! I can't just see it now: my darling Kaori alone with that giraffe on top of the ferris wheel. It's just getting dark; the sunset is dazzling and creating the perfect mood as they stare deep into each other's eyes. "Sakaki, I have something to tell you," she says, fidgeting in her lap. "What is it, Kaorin?" Sakaki asks, oblivious to the situation. "I...I..." she stammers unable to get the words out.
I'd rather not imagine the rest. It's too painful to bear. T_T But I have to help her. I mean...at least one of should be happy. No, who am I kidding, that's utter bullshit. To be honest, if Kaorin succeeds and Sakaki does accept her feelings, it's like...seeing my first fantasy come true. If nothing else, I'd like to have seen what might have been, since that dream has long been gone.
"The way you said that, does that mean you'd settle for anyone?"
"...yes."
Kaorin, July 1, 2002
Today's our last full day on the beach so we all just chilled and had a good time swimming and playing beach volleyball and smashing watermelons...gonna miss it.
Yuri helped me a bit more with my "plan of attack" on Sakaki. I hope this all goes well. I don't even know if she's asked me to come with her. She might have already gone! T_T
Despite all the help she's giving me, Yuri still is in love with me and she's not gonna give up on me just like that. Maybe she thinks Sakaki will dump me and then I'll go straight to her or something. Love isn't so fickle, Yuri. I don't know what kind of past you had, but my love for Sakaki will prevail!
"You've only been in love once. You're still so naive. Like a lovesick child."
Yuri, July 1, 2002
Last day, fun fun in the sun! ^_^
Well I've done all I can with my summer with Kaorin. I haven't given up just yet, but I can tell. If I have any hope of winning Kaorin's heart, I have to remove Sakaki from it. That means Kaorin has to try things with Sakaki first. Even if I were to get Kaorin to like me, Sakaki would always be in the back of her mind, whispering the "what if's" in her ear. When we finally get together, I want her to be looking at me, and only me.
I hate myself for hoping Sakaki rejects her. But even if she gets hurt, it's okay. For then, she'll understand the pain of a broken heart. You don't care who it is, you just want someone to take the pain away, to fill that empty void. For someone to hold you in their arms and tell you it's okay and they'll never let you go...