Ashura, Tuesday November 16, 2010
Sorry it's been so long since the last update, folks (well it's still been a month but still). I've got a number of excuses including, but not limited to: halloween, work, games...but they probably don't excuse anything, do they? Well I hope you enjoy the latest chapter, as the next one is already in the works! Don't know yet whether it will contain more juicy drama or more hilarity, but either way the girls-
Maya: AHEM!
-and one crazy cat, will tell you all about their crazy lives, whether they like it or not.
Azu Diary
By Ashura05
Month 04-July
Kaorin, Tuesday July 2, 2002
Finally, after two weeks of craziness and drama, I'm finally back with my darling Sakaki! No more will I share a room with that crazy...well, I dunno if crazy's a good word for her, but sleeping in the same bed as a girl crushing on you is kind of weird, even if she did agree to back down and help me with my own problems...Ugh, I'll try not to think about all that right now. Never thought I'd say this, but I feel a lot more relaxed doing homework! Some vacation that was, though the beach was nice. Yeah, I'll give points to the beach. :P
I tried to talk to Sakaki, but I must have just missed her and her cell phone was turned off again. She really needs to stop that bad habit. -_-
Kaorin, Wednesday July 3 2002
Absence really does make the heart grow fonder! Sakaki seems even more beautiful after those insane two weeks! Her bright smile flashed radiantly as she approached me made those days all worth it and more! We spent the ENTIRE day together, shopping, having lunch and just enjoying each other's company to the fullest extent my aching heart would allow. *happy sigh*
Yuri was right. We barely sat down for two minutes before Sakaki invited me to the Hello Kitty theme park! It's gonna be one whole week with Sakaki and her cat, Maya. Say, I wonder... *gasp!* Will we be in the same room together? Alone? In...perhaps the same bed?
*goes to pray to kamisama*
Kaorin, Thursday July 4 2002
Yuri and I met up today to discuss "strategy." So I feel exhausted. T_T
Yuri, Thursday July 4, 2002
I've done all I can. It's up to Kaorin now. Tomorrow she'll be off with Sakaki, having a blast at happy-happy Hello Kitty fun land and...
It hurts. It hurts so bad. God, I don't even know why I ever talked myself into doing this. Even half of Kaorin's love is better than the possibility of all of it belonging to Sakaki! Do I dare intervene before it's too late? If I do, Kaorin might hate me and possibly not trust me. I did promise to "help" her, after all. I could say I was just keeping an eye on her, but she'd suspect something if I didn't actually try to help her out. Unless I do, but inadvertently cause such plans to fail. But like I've seen in so many anime and TV shows, such attempts could also blunder in Kaorin/Sakaki's favor, so I can't confidently pursue that option.
Now, another strategy could be to force Kaorin to confess early. Doing so has a 50/50 chance of success or failure, depending on how Sakaki feels about Kaorin. Currently, I believe that Sakaki might accept if their friendship reaches a certain point, which I'm pretty sure it hasn't. However, not seeing each other for a while will most likely accelerate any friendship points (FP) they gain on the trip (just as Sakaki's absence helped mine). They probably gained a lot of FP already when they met up yesterday, but that was unavoidable. I suppose I'll just catch an early or later train and decide on the way.
"You're closed off from her. Do you think that's the real Kaorin? Does that Kaorin look like she's having fun?"
"...shut up."
Kaorin, Friday July 5, 2002
I can't believe that Yuri! This was SUPPOSED to be my ALONE time with Sakaki, but NO! She just has to come along and SPY on me! I can handle Sakaki on. my. own. Thank. you. very. much! And she had the gall to tell me to hurry up with my confession! Maybe she's trying to speed up my "imminent demise" or something. Not that I think that will happen, it's just...ugh! SO trying NOT to think about that stuff right now. T_T
Oh yeah, on to the park itself! It was...cute. No, seriously. It was CU~TE! I mean c'mon, it's Hello-pinchably-cute-Kitty! We went to all those plays and took pictures...and we made our own Hello Kitty dolls, making them look just like each other. Well, what happened was we made them to look like ourselves, but I told Sakaki that hers looked so elegant and beautiful (OMG I just realized I indirectly flirted with Sakaki!) and she told me mine looked real cute (OMG vice-versa!), so we decided to EXCHANGE dolls! Squee! And SAkaki was looking at it warm and lovlingly...No! I don't want to get ahead of myself, here!
After that (no, I'm not done yet!), we went to the NecoCoNeko expansion park. This was the part Sakaki was looking forward to the most. It was mostly just another huge giftshop (I'm suprised how many different kinds of merchandise can be made from two plain-looking cats), so there went all of Sakaki's money! :P I even had to buy her one she REALLY wanted! "This one will be my favorite," she says! ~dies~
But...BUT! The real highlight was...oh god I can't believe I'm writing this. OKAY! Before my nerve goes, I...I was lying UNDERNEATH Sakaki! Face-down. Yes, I'm serious. Now diary, take some time to think what I could possibly mean by that. Give up? It's NekoCoNeko. There's a display where you can get your picture taken as NekoCoNeko...you go inside these hollow NekoCoNeko bodies...one of you as the Neko on the bottom, the other as CoNeko on the top...and they're just thin plastic so I could FEEL Sakaki's weight on me...possibly her breasts on my back...Bad thoughts! Bad thoughts! My face was so beet red! Then Sakaki said it was kind of weird...OMG, I thought, did she know? Could she see my blushing face? Nope! She actually wanted us to SWITCH PLACES! :O So I got up, slid into the CoNeko body...and was lying ON TOP of Sakaki! That was...the feeling...of being on top of her...straddling her body...every tiny movement felt like I was humping her...and I wanted to...I...I didn't expect such feelings inside me. Such bad feelings...I'm almost terrified of...
No, maybe this is me all along. Yuri may be right. Maybe I'm not totally myself around Sakaki. I want to be more outgoing around her, and I'm getting better, but...Sakaki's so elegant and towering. I feel inferior, like I'm talking to a goddess who'll fade away should I dare to touch her. And I want to. God knows I want to so bad. I want to show her how I feel. I want to have her under me and kiss her and touch every inch of her perfect body.
*Sigh* Yeah, maybe I'm done being shy and bashful around her. We are good friends now, aren't we? Sakaki invited me and all I did was blush and freeze up and try my hardest not to think of it as a date! Well I...
OH! I almost forgot the last part of the trip! Well after spending the entire day there, we were all a bit tired, especially Sakaki who during the train ride back fell asleep ON MY SHOULDER! O.O And Maya on my lap! Aaah~heaven. ^^ I was about to tell her right there when she nodded off! Then...oh god you aren't going to believe this. Maybe it was that NekoCoNeko thing. Maybe I've been hanging out with Yuri too much. Maybe I'm really just a bad girl, but something made me turn my head and kiss Sakaki. Yes...yes I did. On the lips. Goodnight, Diary.
Sakaki, Friday July 5, 2002
Sanrio Land was all I thought it would be and more! I was literally overwhelmed by the cutness of Hello Kitty and all her adorable friends, though that could also have been the slight case of heat stroke. Luckily Kaorin was nice enough to share her shaved ice with me to help cool me down. I had spent all of my money by then so we were forced to share, but who can blame me, really? All of those adorable cat dolls and keychains and t-shirts seemed to have "buy me!" written on them. Maya seemed to really enjoy himself, too. I'm glad the Pet Expo was able to grant him entry, though a 1st place ribbon around him should tell people he's behaved, right?
To our surprise, Yuri joined us briefly halfway through the trip. I noticed she and Kaorin get along very well. Kaorin's always so nice and polite, but with Yuri she's louder, more expressive. I don't really blame her, though. People are usually scared or intimidated by me. I'm still so thankful I became such great friend with everyone...Tomo, Osaka, Kagura, Yomi, Chiyo-chan...especially Chiyo-chan. Such nice memories. She was always so cute and I could talk to her about just about anything. I hope she's doing okay in America.
Back to the trip, which really wore me out. I even slept on the train on the way back where I had a very...interesting dream. I dreamt I was leaning against Kaorin's shoulder and she was lightly stroking my hair. It felt nice. Then she leaned in and kissed me...I'm not real sure what to make of that. It doesn't gross me out or anything and I don't feel especially ecstatic over it, but...it did feel rather nice...and soft...
But wait, you can't feel anything in dreams, right? So...does that mean Kaorin really did kiss me? No, she wouldn't do something like that...would she? She's not into that sort of thing...right?
Yuri, Friday July 5, 2002
Date successfully intercepted. I woke up late this morning, so I had to race to catch up with them. *pant* *pant* :P I instructed Kaorin to hurry up with her confession after all. I figure the sooner she gets it over with, the sooner I can make a move again...for better or worse. Kaorin bought my act, though she might have just humored me due to Sakaki's presence. I managed to secretly spy on them for a good 30 minutes before joining them...and I learned a lot.
Kaorin acts a lot differently from when she's with me. With Sakaki, she's all nice and polite and BORING! That's NOT the Kaorin I know! I know it's in my best interest to leave things as is, but I want to have a PERFECT VICTORY! Plus, if Sakaki falls for this "fake" Kaorin, it'll be a slow and long wait for their inevitable breakup, and I don't want them hooking up again should they rekindle their relationship with the "real" Kaorin. Hopefully Kaorin puts my "good" advice to practice.
I'm starting to like using "quotation marks," can't you tell? :P
I know we've met...twice now, but this was the first time I've gotten such a good and thorough look at Sakaki. She's prettier than _, and definitely not as stuck up. In fact, she appears to be sincerely humble. Okay, granted I thought "she" was the goddess of sainthood the heavenly buddha should bow before, but I am NOT as gullible as I was back then! Nor as reserved, something Kaorin better cure herself of before she ends up like...no, wait. The circumstances are different. From what I've observed, I doubt Sakaki will react the same...at least, I sure hope not...
Maya, Friday July 5, 2002
Alright, Maya is BACK, bitches! Didya miss me? I bet you did! Maya was just taking a little va-ca-tion and...wait, what did you just say? "But you don't do any work anyways?" Well, excuse me! You may not be able to see it, but I've got my paw in the air with my middle claws extended. Yeah, that's right: cat version. Deal with it.
So where was the big cat himself all this time? Oh, nowhere special. Just pimping out with my fancy blue ribbon, cruising with mai new posse`, and having lots of amazing kitty S.E.X.! But that's not important (to hell it isn't!), because I ended my lil vacation today with a trip to THE GIRLIEST PLACE ON EARTH: HELLO-CREEPY-KITTY LAND! Seriously, look at that thing! It's like the illegitimate offspring of the creepy cat-clock and the good luck charm cat thing! It's pure white, cute as fuck, and it's got no mouth! I don't know about you, but I don't trust anything without a full face, you get me? For all I know, it's mouth could be twisted in some sort of rape face. All those poor, unsuspecting humans could be unaware of the impending doom that awaits them at the hands of the lipless cat overlord!
So I saved Sakaki's dear life by ripping the doll's head off. She can thank me later in the morning. :3
Sakaki, Saturday July 6 2002
*sob* *sob* An innocent Hello Kitty doll was found at the foot of my bed this morning...beheaded. *cry* *cry* I think it was the doll I gave Maya. I don't think he'd really do something like this...would he?
Kaorin, Monday July 8, 2002
I met up with Sakaki today. I'm trying to be more like myself and be more forward, but thinking about how bold I really can be makes it difficult. So, SO glad Sakaki wasn't awake for that! She seemed a bit more forward to me today, too. Am I really making progress here, after all? ^_^
We just jogged and had lunch at the park like we used to do. Had lots of fun with Maya, too. We had such a nice moment just lying in the grass, right next to each other watching the lil guy. I tried so hard not to blush...and to just roll Sakaki over and ravish her right there in front of her cat!
Yuri's influence really is getting to me! :O Well, this is what I get for agreeing to read her stuff. Short stories, manga...seriously girl, you're a workaholic! Well, it is summer, I suppose.
But I did good today. I still stutter with my words a bit, but I can't expect myself to change overnight, right?
Yuri, Tuesday July 9, 2002
I woke up this morning with tears in my eyes. I don't know why. I don't feel so good, either. I hope this isn't some kind of bad omen...
I decided to work it out of my system by going out for a long jog and some self-training. I had a very nice work out, yeah. Feeling pumped and awesome, woooOOO! But I can't shake this feeling that there's something I should be worrying about...
I should feel better, though. I have a date with Kaorin tomorrow, so I hope the omen is just for today. T_T
Kaorin, Wednesday July 10, 2002
Movie day with Yuri! Okay, I never mentioned this because of all the crap that went on during the summer trip, but she's been making me read/watch this series called "Tomie." Yeah, the horror one. I like more action stuff, but I do like a good mystery now and then. Didn't expect all that, though, but since I received the desired effect, I do give it a thumbs up for creeping me out. The reasons I sat through all of the scary stuff was because the last film came out recently and Yuri's been DYING to see it with me (no pun intended).
No Yuri I was not scared...that much. It just surprised me that's all! I'm fine, you can let go of my hand now. T_T Yeah, that's pretty much how it went. Night.
Yuri, Wednesday July 10, 2002
Omens can kiss my ass! My date with Kaori was PERFECT! Well, as perfect as a movie date can go, but she HELD MY HAND! Well, more like scared out of her pants and LATCHED onto my hand, which I was nice enough to hold for the rest of the night. Aren't I a kind girlfriend? ^_^
Yeah I know she's gunning for Sakaki, but at this rate she's gonna be mine soon enough. :D
Kaorin, Friday July 19, 2002
Sakaki really wanted to see the premiere "The Cat Returns," and how can I refuse her? I'm amazed she actually cried, though. I mean, it was cute and all but I've seen much better endings. -_- Well, the fact that she's letting me see that side of her must mean I'm making more progress, right?
Kaorin, Monday July 22, 2002
I still haven't found the right time to confess. T_T Summer's almost over too, and with it the best opportunities to be alone with Sakaki! Oh wait, I know! I still have some summer homework left to do, so maybe I can arrange a conveniently disguised study date...
YES! We're gonna have one at her dorm tomorrow after we do some shopping for snacks! Oooh, I can't wait! I especially need a bit more help in calculus. T_T What I really need help with is my confession, not that little interloper hasn't been meddling enough as it is. Ugh, that is IT! I'm gonna do it! I'll confess then and there! Tomorrow night! YEAH!
Oh a side note, did Sakaki seem a bit shaken up today? She almost sounded nervous, but no way, not my Sakaki! Hmmm...if she was, what got her all worked up? I know she didn't see/feel me kiss her or she'd have said something by now...*shudder* god I hope that's not it!
"If you're asking me that, you must already know the answer."
Sakaki, Monday July 22, 2002
I was walking Maya today when I bumped into Kaorin's friend, Yuri. It was nice to take some time to get to know her for once. The few times we have met Kaorin always tries to shove her away for some reason. I might be beginning to understand why...
I had my suspicions, but today I asked and Yuri confirmed she is indeed a lesbian...and in love with Kaorin! I'm...not sure how to respond to this. It's a weird feeling I can't quite put my finger on. But it doesn't matter. Yuri told me Kaorin is in love with someone else! Probably some nice guy in her class. She seems like the type the boys would like. I would too, if I was a...no, that's not quite what I meant! I mean, I don't mean to say I like her that way, I just mean I can see traits that boys may like, that's all! After all, it's not like I'm the one Kaorin has a crush on...right?
The irony that Kaorin would call me just after I wrote that is not lost on me...turns out we'll be studying together tomorrow night. I'm excited, but these thoughts make me a tad nervous...Hopefully I can just sleep this off.
Yuri, Monday July 22, 2002
I spy with my widdle eye a tall girl with the personality of a rock...oh, it's Sakaki! :P Well OK, I'll "humor" her with a bit of "conversation." :P Oh fine, I guess she is a pretty smart girl for finally figuring out I'm a bonafide lez, though it's pretty obvious with all the stuff I wear!
I might have done something pretty bad, tho. Not sure yet who, but I know some one's gonna lose* from this (better not be me!). I kinda spilled the beans on my crush on Kaorin, to Sakaki of all people! Who knows how much damage my lil revelation will cause (again, not to me, plz!). ^_^ Oh, and while Sakaki herself may be as boring as paint drying, I'm quite digging her playful lil cat, Maya. I'll have to introduce him to Kami...if I can find the wild feline...
*Gah! I can't for the life of me find a good antonym for the verb form of "profit!" Yuri's loosing her touch, folks! T_T
Maya, Monday July 22, 2002
Oooh yes, Maya is always a hit with da ladies! Mah girl Sakaki just introduced me to a sexy-looking lass sporting a look Maya would dig if he was human: red dyed bangs, black shirt, ripped jeans, tattoo on arm, fingerless gloves, spikeless choker around her neck, diamond spiked belt (or whatever you call `em)...Maya likes. ^_^
And she knew just where to pet and scratch and...mmmmm...yeah, Maya likes it like that baby! Ooh yes, right there that's the spot, purrrrrr...and she didn't even mind the little "love bite" I gave her fingers. Most people don't understand my little toothy kiss. I think I heard them say she's a friend of Kaorin's, too...even more points in her favor!
Kaorin, Tuesday July 23, 2002
Sakaki looking over my shoulder makes me blush sooo hard! T_T I fear I almost gave myself away...almost...I hope. Well, I should have gave myself away since I was supposed to CONFESS, but...after blushing and trying so desperately to hide it, I decided I wasn't quite ready just yet. T_T Well at least my homework's done, though it's hard to concentrate when Sakaki's boobs are right...right there, gah! So. Hard. Not to. Stare! My fingers kept gripping my pencil tight, just like I wanted to squeeze those perfect...
Baaad just before bed thoughts. :P
Yuri, Tuesday July 23, 2002
Kaorin's a wuss with love. That is all.
Sakaki, Tuesday July 23, 2002
For a study session, Kaorins sure had a hard time concentrating for some reason. Because of that, we stayed up later than we should have. Maya was happy to see Kaorin, though, so I guess it wasn't a total loss. Still, Kaorin seemed real fidgety and her mind seemed to keep wandering off, and she never looked at me in the face. It...couldn't have been because of me, could it? Maybe she still is intimidated, but I thought we had gotten over...or...no, it couldn't be...I mean, that thought I had yesterday was just...I'm not too good at these things; people have said I'm sort of dense, but could Kaorin really...it does make sense, but...what do I do about this? I don't know. My heart's doing weird things in my chest. I'm starting to sweat a little. I don't feel too good. Maybe a nice job will clear my head...
Maya, Tuesday July 24, 2002
Yay, Kaorin came over again! We played a little, but the girl just couldn't take her eyes of my master's melons. And I'm not talking cantaloupe or honeydew. :P Yes, Kaorin, see how they go bouncy-bouncy each time she obliviously leans over your shoulder? Bouncy...bouncy...bouncy...you are getting sleepy...sleeeepy...you are slowly coming into Maya's powah...you are now mah slaaaave...now...go make Maya a tuna-fish sandwich!
What's that you say? It doesn't work if I can't speak? SCREW YOU! Maya can hypnotize anyone if he wants to! I'll show you! Where's KamiNeko? I need a guinea pig, er, assistant! XD