Leading N to his personal training area he gave her a small lesson in shadow kairu, "Before we begin your training you must first understand shadow kairu."

"What made you think I want anything to do with you?" N stopped where she was and refused to move. After what he did to her why should she trust him?

"You said it yourself last night," he turned to her, "you don't want to be a monster."

N looked away. Her memory of last night was fuzzy. She was only able to recall bits and pieces of it. If there was one thing she could remember was that she told Lokar her deepest secrets while she cried; as she cried Lokar held her. It's not like she meant to tell him, it just came out. When she was younger no one would listen. So if someone, even Lokar, was willing to listen she couldn't resist.

"Well," Lokar sighed, "If you don't appreciate what I'm trying to do here for you then perhaps I could just send you home. After all, you must've broken their hearts when you ran away so many years ago."

The only thing N could do was stand in shock. Lokar knew her past, after all she told him everything last night, and he was going to use it against her if he needed to.

"Or I could just leave you alone and allow the darkness destroy you from the inside out and eventually it will control you," oh Lokar knew how to get to her.

No she didn't want to become that monster ever again and hurt people; she didn't want to hurt Maya…

"Maybe I will hand you over to the Redakai. I'm sure they'd love to see you again," Lokar stared into N's eyes. She tried to hide it but he knew, deep down she was terrified.

"No…" she stammered, "You… You can't do that!" If Lokar sent N back to the Redakai she'd relapse. Being put in a cell and treated like an animal in a zoo terrified N. it would be like her child hood all over again.

"Then you will do as you are told," he demands.

N could only nod.

"Good," Lokar's final word on the subject as he brought her to his training area. Moving to the middle of the room Lokar began to lecture N on shadow kairu, "Now as I was saying, shadow kairu and its nature is different the normal kairu."

N rolled her eyes, "and what exactly is shadow kairu? You never said-"

"Don't interrupt me," Lokar hissed. "I will explain everything in time." Staying silent N listened as Lokar spoke. "When I was in the Redakai I found a way to separate good kairu and bad kairu. I was able to modify the dark kairu, to help me achieve my goals. Unfortunately I was removed once the others found out, that however is a story for another time," he sensed N's curiosity, "when I created shadow kairu I had to give up something others would be more hesitant to give up."

Having so many things to ask N tried hard to keep it inside.

"I sense you're growing impatient," Lokar chuckled. "To put things loosely it was well worth it. When you were being controlled by the dark power what did you do? You tried to fight it. The more you fight it the stronger it becomes," the way Lokar looked into her eyes made it feel like he was looking for something, "You must become one with it."

Annoyed with Lokar N asks, "Just what are you saying?"

"If you keep interrupting me, Kenway, I will give you to the Redakai," upset with N's constant interruptions Lokar wouldn't stand it any longer.

"You wouldn't…" After the Redakai abandoned her how could she think of going back? They'd lock her in a cell and never think twice.

Lokar walked closer to N and grabbed her chin, forcing her to look him in the eyes, "We both know I would."

Refusing to back down N counters, "Then why are you helping me? You made it clear I mean nothing to you… so why?"

Still griping her chin tightly Lokar gives a throaty chuckle, "I never said you meant nothing to me. I spent two years creating you, I'd hate to see all that work wasted." Releasing his grip he smirks, "Now that we have that settled, let's begin."

N opened her mouth to say something but stopped. If she provokes him anymore he might snap.

"You're wondering what I gave up to create shadow kairu, aren't you?"

Nodding N remained silent. She wanted to ask him the first time he mentioned it.

"I gave up a piece of my soul," he said it as if it was something normal to say.

Unable to say anything N stands in astonished with what Lokar just said. If I have shadow kairu in me… and Lokar gave up his soul to make shadow kairu…

"You have a piece of me inside of you," his smile widens, "and it seems that it has bonded with you. Yet you still resist."

"That's… That's really creepy…" It was the only thing N could manage to say. Having a piece of Lokar inside of her wasn't something she wanted.

Ignoring N's comment he continues, "In time, the bond created by shadow kairu will create a connection between us," he enjoyed having information over N, "I will be able to sense what you feel and hear what you think, and vise versa you will be able to do the same. There will be no secrets between us. That is of course if you do as you are able to become one with your demons."

"Why would I want to be connected to you?" the thought of having Lokar able to get inside her head disgusted her.

"I will make this simple for you, Kenway," Lokar snaps, "You have two choices: either let the dark power consume you or become one with it. If you are worried I will be able to control you, do not. I can influence your decisions but not control them. You will still be in control of your own actions."

Making a disapproving face N says nothing.

"N," it was the first time Lokar used her nickname, "I haven't lied to you. I gave you my word and I intend to keep it." His charisma convinced N. "Good, now in order to become one with the darkness you must accept it into your heart. Enter a meditative state so you may begin."

"Ky," Boomer found his friend playing videogames inside the X-Scaper, "do you think that the Redakai will find N?"

Without looking away from his game Ky mutters, "I hope so. Then they can put her in a cell where she belongs."

"Ky, isn't that being a bit harsh?" even though boomer didn't like N he would never want her to suffer or say she belonged to be locked up.

"Boomer, you didn't see what she could do," Ky paused the game, "You didn't see what that Thing she turned into could do. She nearly destroyed the monastery! She almost killed Boaddai, she almost killed me!"

"If Maya liked N then she must be good," Boomer counters, "Maya just lost her best friend-"

"Her so called 'best friend' went after her too! She's evil! The Redakai put her in a cell; she broke out and ran. Innocent people don't run, Boomer, they explain why they are innocent…" Ky's voice lowered, "She's probably joined Lokar by now."

Boomer nods, "You're right, innocent people don't run. She might have joined Lokar… She took her X-Reader…"

"Two months ago," Quantus states, "one of our prized students turned into… well a monster. We later apprehended her but unfortunately she escaped. Now we must find her." Murmurs of agreement circled the Redakai.

"Yes, we must find her at once," the blond member of the Redakai spoke, "the power she possesses is very dark and destructive. She must be contained." More sounds of agreement.

"Boaddai," Quantus turned to his friend, "Nox was once your student; do you have any idea where she might have gone?"

Boaddai shakes his head, "I do not know. She is unpredictable, I never fully understood her; how she thought."

"She might have joined Lokar," Atoch spoke up.

"Why would she join the man who not only tortured her for two years but was the one who turned her into a monster? And how would she find Lokar?" another member of the Redakai inquires.

"If Nox thought Lokar could help her nothing could stop her from finding him," Boaddai answers.

"So how do we find Lokar?" the same man asks.

"The last time I saw Lokar he was heading towards the Zon-horas galaxy," Boaddai states.

"So we shall start to look there," Quantus declares.

"We must hurry, the power N has is highly unstable. Eventually she will lose control again and destroy everything in her path. Innocent people are at risk. We must find her and capture her," Boaddai demands. He no long felt pride for his student. She had become a monster. The only thing he felt towards her was resentment.

"Very well, we shall start looking for N and Lokar there. Once we find them we will capture them," Quantus wrapped up the meeting.

It had been a while since N had entered full meditation. Lokar was quite impressed that N had been able to master her inner kairu at an early age. That skill was going to save hum time with training her. Deep purple flames circled N. A few more minutes and I will have to pull her out, Lokar thought to himself as he watched N, her will power maybe strong but everyone has their breaking points. I cannot afford to lose her trust. Over exposure to one's dark side could have negative repercussions.

Abruptly the purple energy around N fades. Snapping her eyes open she stands up. Lokar was the first to speak, "How do you feel?"

A smile formed on her lips, "Better, actually."

"Good," Lokar smirked, "now transform."

N's smile vanished, "I don't think…"

"We are going to see how long you can hold it," Lokar pushes further, "Do not force it to come out, simply let it come to you. Once you have it release the energy and transform."

Muttering something under her breath N feels the darkness inside of her. Doing as Lokar had said N let the power come to her. Releasing the pure dark energy it circled around her. Before long, N no longer stood before Lokar, Instead a beast of unimaginable power.

"Very impressive, now return to normal we are done with today's lesson," Lokar demands.

Obeying Lokar's commands the Beast transform back into N with another burst of energy. Surprised with her new ability N says nothing.

Curious as to what the transformation felt like Lokar asks, "How did it feel?"

"Exhilarating, and powerful; very powerful," those were the only words N could think of to describe the sensations it brought.

"It seems that your dark side has developed a personality as well as autonomy. Tell me, when you were meditating did it give itself a name?" Lokar needed to know everything. The more he knew about her demon the closer he was to controlling her.

N nods, "Yeah I think…"

Growing impatient Lokar asks once more, "Which was?"

N looked into Lokar's eyes, "Krazor… It called itself Krazor…"