I'm backkkk! ;) Three updates in three days...whhhhhaaaattttt! I was inspired by the prospect of Sunday being right around the corner. As promised because the last chaper was Emily's POV this chapter is in Naomi's POV and we'll finally get to see if Naomi lives or not ;) I hope you all enjoy and thank thank thank you for the reviews, its greatly appreciated!

I don't own skins/buffy but if I did the lake scene would have been longer and there would have been two musical episodes.

Chapter 6

Naomi's POV

Everything in the alleyway was completely silent, everything that is except my heartbeat, which was beating hard and loud enough for me to feel throughout my entire body. Despite the fact that this was probably the last few moments of my life a strange sense of calm washed over me. I pictured my beautiful redhead smiling, that special smile that I swear is directed towards me only. I see her eyes, eyes that look like they could rip me to pieces, rip down my walls and for the first time since meeting her I was perfectly willing to let her do just that. Of course I would realize this right before I'm about to be eaten by a vampire. You know how people always say that right before you die your entire life flashes before your eyes? Well it was the opposite for me, I saw my entire future, everything that could or would have been and every part of it was surrounded by Emily. Waking up everyday to her, our first anniversary, seeing her in a white wedding dress smiling at me, spending a day in the park with our children, cuddled underneath the stars, our first fight and subsequently our make up sex. On and on, visions all filled with Emily, in various forms of undress, invaded my mind. Instilling in me a sense of peace, I guess if I'm going to die I may as well do it with these images in my head. Strangely enough I feel a small smile tug at my lips, a surprising feeling of contentedness sweeping across my entire being. Everyone has to die eventually right? Just as I think this, I feel the fangs enter into my neck, feel the ripping of my skin and the process of my blood slowly draining from my body. I quickly feel the last remaining bits of strength that I have drain away. Just as I close my eyes, with the image of Emily plastered all over them, I hear a thunk and feel the sharp pain that was on my neck disappear.

I guess I'm dead. I open my eyes slowly...hmm. The afterlife sure looks a lot like the alleyway behind Goldz. Obviously I've gone to hell because Heaven sure as hell wouldn't look like this. I pictured at least a small green field, I'm not greedy really just a garden would do honestly.

"Naomi? Babe you's alright?" That's weird, why is Cook in hell with me? Oh God, please don't tell me Cook died to, I couldn't handle another death. Another death that I could have prevented if I had simply been better.

"Babes, your giving Cookie a fright yeah? Talk to me here."

"I'm sorry. So sorry, you don''t deserve this, this is all my fault. You don't deserve this, you deserved better from me, I'm so sorry." I quickly feel tears coming to my eyes. Cook comes rushing over to me, cradling my head on his shoulder, holding me close.

"Blondie, as much as a appreciate this hug and all that, but what the fook are ya talking about?! What are you sorry for?"

I sniff into his shoulder unable to look him in the eye. "What do you mean what for? For you being dead."

"Dead?" Cook clearly confused, pulls me off of his shoulder and looks me directly in my eyes and wipes the tears from my cheeks. "Naomi, I'm not dead babes and neither are you." I know Cook is telling the truth because he vary rarely calls me by my real name.

"What... you mean- but the vampire, he got me I couldn't get him off."

"Yeah he had you in a bit of a pickle. Eff and I were worried about you cause you were takin so long so I figured I'd come out to see how you's was getting on. Saw big old vamp had you in that headlock so I hid 'im over the head with a stick I found then staked 'im right in the heart, poof!"

With Cook's mention of the vampire I quickly lift up my hand to my neck, where the vamp had pierced my skin. I could feel that it was already starting to heal and wasn't as deep as I would have imagined it to be, it felt more like to shallow punctures . His teeth must have scratched me when Cook hit him over the head because there was two shallow scratches starting from the punctures and ending towards the back of my neck. Fuck.

"Fuck Cook, I was so reckless tonight, so bloody careless. I put everyone in danger, that girl, me, the gang... Emily. If it was one of you guys, I-I couldn't go through that again Cook, it would destroy me."

"I know Naomikins, I know, but even you need to live a bit yeah? Your all stuffy sometimes, ya need to let your hair down a bit. Which is looking mint tonight might I add." He ends with a smirk. I dignified the last comment with a signature Campbell eye roll.

"I can't Cook, I can't do that anymore. I lost control tonight."

"You mean Emilio made you lose control tonight." I quickly lift my head up and gaze into Cooks face, with a complete look of shock apparent over all of my features.

"You know people always think Effy is the mind reader but I'm starting to think that your just as perceptive."

Cook lets out a loud laugh. "Naw babe, its just obvious then isn't it? Anyone with eyes could see the sex passing between the two of you's." It's not like we've been subtle about our attraction but I thought that least I was hiding it better than that.

"Come on then, tell uncle Cookie whats botherin' you." He pulls me back into his side, warping his arm around my shoulders. His closeness always give me a sense of peace, different than the kind I get when Effy is around, he makes me feel safe. I know Cook would rather die than let anything happen to me. Not that I particularly need protection, tonight being a fluke, but it was nice to know that someone would be there if need arose.

"I just... I can't do it Cook. I can't be vulnerable like this, I need to be able to keep my head on straight and focus on what's important. If anything had happened to her tonight... I'd never forgive myself." I take a deep breath trying to reign in my emotions. "When I'm around her I can't think straight! I don't care about being the slayer or keeping my walls down. I don't care about anything except Emily when she is around. I don't care and I don't want to! And I can't... I can't bear to let anything happen to you guys or to her. I have to stop it, I can't let her get close, it's to dangerous... for everyone." I let out the last bit with a small whimper, even the idea of keeping Emily at arms length causing me great sorrow.

"I get it Naoms, I do but you can't keep going through life this way babes. Sometimes it's worth it to risk a bit."

"I can't Cook, the stakes are to high. I can't gamble with your lives. I need to do this."

"Alright blondie, never say I didn't try eh. What'ya gonna do then, stop talking to red?"

"No, I don't think I could do that if I tried. No, I'm just going to be more careful, we'll be friends but I can't let it be anything more."

"Gonna be tough."

"Yeah it will, but I'd rather be a friend to Emily than have her death be on my hands. It's the way it has to be."

"Bring on the Ice Queen then?"

I sigh, defeated. "Bring on the Ice Queen."

Cook heads back into Goldz giving me a moment to compose myself and get my cold persona in place. I don't want to do this but I have to, I have to keep them all safe, I can't let what happened to Freddy happen to anyone else. With a final sigh I head over to the door bracing myself for what lies behind it. I walk into the club and am assaulted by all of the light and sounds, strange that something so lively and loud had been going on at the same exact time that I was accepting my death. Ignorance is bliss. I shake my head, trying to clear the morbid thoughts from my mind when I see Emily. I allow myself one last long full look... and what a look it is. I see Katie, Cook, and Effy very obviously trying to drag Emily out onto the dance floor and she looks...shy? That's something new. But Katie quickly gets control over her sister and drags her out onto the dance floor and its amazing how she can transform from shy docile Emily to sex tornado at the drop of a hat. She's clearly had even more to drink since I've been gone and it shows with the way that she is simply letting go and letting the music take her over. Her eyes are closed, hands raise above her head and I can do nothing but watch. God she's sexy. There was a girl that I recognized from school holding her around the waist, I think her name was Lex? Amy? I can't remember and I quickly forget that she is even there because Emily makes eye contact with me and I let myself look into her eyes, trying to tell her through my eyes that I'm sorry for what I'm about to do, that I would do anything to change the situation that we were in.

I must have unconsciously made my way onto the dance floor because before I know it Emily is dangerously close to me. I can see Effy out of the corner of my eyes clearly taking in this silent conversation that Emily and I are having. We had been having this conversation with just our eyes for longer than I had thought, I just hope that she understood what I was trying to tell her. We continue to look at each other for a bit longer, both obviously trying to tell the other something. I can see in her eyes "Just let go, let me in, I wont hurt you," while mine were clearly saying "I'm sorry I can't...goodbye." She must have caught onto what I was trying to tell her because she grabs my hand, pulls me off of the dance floor, through the door and out into the back alley. How fitting, taking me to the place where I almost died to break me completely. I know I'll never be the same after this, the Ice Queen will be out in full force. I compose myself knowing that this is going to kill me, but the next thing that Emily says I was not expecting.

"Where were you?... when you left earlier?"

"Oh... um... I-I had to do something for my mum." Shit, I hope that's the excuse that Cook used. Shit, shit, shit.

The look on Emily's face was skeptical, she knew that I was lying. "Fuck Naomi, what the hell happened to your neck?!" She went to go touch it but I pulled back quickly from her, I wouldn't have been able to do this if she had touched me.

"Oh that, it's nothing, just me being clumsy and stupid. I slipped, hit some glass, it's fine." The concern in her eyes was almost enough to make me doubt myself, almost enough to make me throw my entire idea away. But her look of concern was quickly placed with doubt and suspicion.

"I don't believe you Naoms." I look away unable to look her in the eyes, she wasn't going to make this easy. I take a deep breath and ready myself for the hurt that I know is going to pass through her eyes. I quickly pull down my walls, coldness oozing from my entire being. I look up into her eyes and I see her visibly flinch. I hate doing this to her.

"Emily, you've known me for a week, so the fact that you don't believe something that I've said is a bit ridiculous."

"Wh-What going on Noams?"

"Nothing is going on Emily." I place significant emphasis on her name, knowing that it will hurt her that I'm not calling her Ems.

"Bullshit, I don't believe you." She's visibly getting worked up, I can see the spark of anger in her eyes and it kills me that I'm doing this to her.

"Emi-" But before I can get the rest of her name out of my mouth, I feel her lips on mine and her body push me up against the wall. Oh fuck she feels good. I thought that having her against me in the library was amazing but little did I know that it could be unbelievable better. Her lips gently caressed my own and I tried with all of my might to no react, to simply let my body lie slack but it's like a chemical reaction when she touches me and I quickly found myself reciprocating her kiss. I felt her hands come up behind my neck, softly tugging at the hair at the base of my neck. I unconsciously put my hands on her waist, feeling a sliver of skin that was in display. She is soft, oh god so soft and warm. I felt myself falling, it was like I was hanging on the edge of a cliff and the only thing keeping me up was Emily, my beautiful sweet Emily. The only bad thing about falling though is that eventually you have to hit the ground. I'm not sure who did it but I heard a moan reach my ears, which snaps me out of my Emily induced haze. I quickly bring my hands up to her shoulders and push her away, with more force than I had intended. Another slayer gift. I wipe my mouth and look down at the floor, trying to catch my breath but also to prepare for what I'm about to do.

"Naomi-" I cut her off.

"You should go back to that girl you were dancing with. What's her name, Jane?"

"A-Anne, Anne's her name."

I look at her coldly attempting to portray disinterest in every ounce of my being."Right Anne, go back to Anne, she's cute. I've heard she's a fantastic shag, wouldn't want to miss out on that one Emily." Oh God please end this quick. I can't take this.

"What are you doing?" Her voice is more husky and more hurt than I've ever heard and it shoots straight in to my soul.

"I don't know what you mean Emily, I'm just making sure that my friend doesn't miss out of a great shag and from what I've heard you aren't one to miss a shag. Fuck em and leave and all." I know I've hurt her, I can see it in her eyes and it absolutely kills me to have to be the one to do it. She searches my face for a sign of anything, looking away a few moments later when she sees something she obviously doesn't like. Ice Queen in full form. I see her visibly raise her shoulders up, take a deep breath and lock herself behind her own walls. Good job Emily, you don't know it now but you're protecting yourself.

"Right, I get it now. Ice queen." With a quick halfhearted laugh she turns around and walks back inside without even looking back. I feel my persona shatter, replaced only with a complete feeling of emptiness. I feel myself slide down the wall and onto the ground. I must have been there for a while and I must have started to cry because I feel Effy kneel down in front of me and wipe my tears away.

"What am I going to do with you Naoms?"

"I had to Eff, I had to..."

"Right, lets get you home."

I feel Effy put her arm around me and pull me up off of the floor. I walk with her not really paying attention to where I'm going, trusting in Effy to get me home. My mind and heart fully with Emily back at Goldz. Just the idea of her getting together with Anne, Ughh what a horrible name, is enough to make me want to throw up. And the hurt look in her eyes is enough to bring a fresh batch of tears to the surface. I'm doing this for you Emily, please understand, I'm doing this for you...

I couldn't kill Naomi, please its a Naomily fic! ;) Hope you all enjoyed this chapter, I really enjoyed writing it, I think it's my favorite thus far. And I swear I have no ill will towards the name Anne, I just knew that it's what Naomi would have been thinking then. Until next time!