Hey all! As always thank you for the reviews/follows/ favorites I hope you enjoy this next chapter it kind of wrote itself. I'm lining up the ducks for later chapter ;) At least I hopefully am. I'm a bit exhausted, we had a surprise birthday party for my mother today and the cooking and prep done all week has tired me out, plus all of the drinking today (oops) so all mistakes are because of that. As always enjoy! Also I put an E or a N when Naomi and Emily are talking in this chapter because I didn't what anyone to get confused.

P.S. There might be some sensitive material in a part of this chapter so trigger warning for sexual assault, it doesn't fully happen but I'd rather not upset anyone with some of the words used or if the situation is familiar. So if this pertains to anyone, rather safe than sorry, just stop reading when they get to the park. I'll put a brief summary before the next chapter so that you won't miss anything important.

I don't own skins/ buffy but if I did Naomily would have 7 seasons and the Brittain's wouldn't be involved :)

Emily's POV

Chapter 10

Fuck, fuck fuck. I called out to her retreating form that was quickly making it's way down street, hoping that she would just turn around and look at me one more time, except this time without the hurt and coldness in her eyes. I've never seen someone so hurt, so incredibly defeated and certainly never on Naomi. She was strong, clumsy, playful, cold at times but never ever was she defeated. And that in itself puzzles me so damn much! She was the one who pushed me away, she was the one who made me go back to Anne. It's all her fault that this has happened... and yet I can't help but feel that I could have stopped this. Why did I answer my phone?! When I saw Anne's name pop up on my screen I knew that it would hurt Naomi and maybe deep down that's why I did it? To get back at her for hurting me after our first kiss, for being the first girl to have this hold on me. She's the first girl that I want to call my girlfriend. Girlfriend. If anyone knows anything about me it's that I don't do girlfriends and I've never wanted to. I fuck em and leave em, that way no one get hurts and by no one, I mean me. I'm sure I've done my fair share of breaking hearts. But Naomi makes me want to change everything and I would have changed everything if she wasn't such a fucking coward after we first kissed! You did this Naomi, not me. If you had just stayed we would have been together. This wouldn't have happened, I wouldn't be whatever I am, to Anne. I shiver, my alcohol coat wearing off. I turn around after watching Naomi reach Effy and open the door to my house. I slowly make my way up to my room, which thank God I no longer share with Katie since we moved, and strip down to my underwear collapsing on my bed. Setting my alarm for breakfast with Anne for tomorrow right before I pass out, but not before my mind gets lost in blonde hair and blue eyes. I breath out quietly, "Naomi." A small smile pulling at my lips before I fully succumb to sleep.

I wake up early before my alarm even goes off, my dreams full of those piercing blue eyes that I've grown to love. Whoa! That I've what?! Like, that I've grown to like. I give up on going back to sleep and decide to hop in the shower and head over to the breakfast place early. The sooner I get there the sooner its over? Probably not how you should be thinking about the person you're dating. After my shower I sneak down the stairs of the house, to early for anyone to be up yet. I walk out the front door and close the door quietly so as to not alert anyone in the house, the last thing I need right now 24 questions about where I'm going so early. I walk down the street to the nearest bus stop and light up a much needed cigarette, trying to get the image of my favorite blonde out of my head.

The bus ride only takes me about 10 minutes, the place was close enough to walk to but I couldn't be bothered with physical activity today, still drained from the nights events. Though I find that lately I am able to bounce back much quicker, actually a lot of things have been a bit weird with me lately. Must be this beautiful London smog. I go inside of the shop and get a hot chocolate and a muffin, not being to fond of coffee and they make the best hot chocolate in the city here. I take my things back outside and sit on one of the tables there. It's in the perfect spot so that I can see who comes and goes in the shop but is also far enough away from the street. I take my book out, glad that I brought it because I'm about two hours early. Getting myself comfortable I eagerly open my book, dying to see if these kids are going to get out of the maze or not. I must have been reading for close an hour when I see a flash of blonde. I look up quickly but no one is there.Imagining things now Em, good job. I look back down at my book but not before I see Naomi turn out of the shop and head in my direction. We make eye contact and she stumbles a bit in her tracks, but continues to head over here. Fuck, I'm nervous.

"Hi Naomi."

"Hey." I search her eyes, looking for any sign of hurt or pain in them but the only thing I find is blue. For the first time since I've known her, her eyes are completely unreadable and it kills me because I know that I'm partially to blame for this.

"Didn't think I'd run into anyone this early... especially after last night." I see her visibly flinch at the mention of last night and I curse myself for being so stupid.

"Couldn't sleep... nightmares." I see the fear in her eyes as she stairs at the wall, completely unaware that I'm still there.

"Naoms?" I try calling out her name a few more times but she either doesn't hear me or is ignoring me. I quickly stand up from where I'm sitting and walk around the table to her. I bring my arms up and grab both of her cheeks gently in my hands and force her to look at me. I look into her eyes and am overwhelmed by the fear that I see I them. Not only is there fear in her eyes but also trepidation, confusion and... love? I never knew that someone could displays so many emotions in their eyes at one time. I stroke the side of her cheek, trying to calm her down. Doing all that I can to savor this moment because I never know when she shut me out again. I leave my right hand on her cheek, still stroking it, while my left hand reaches down to her right hand. I take her hand in mine and give it a gentle squeeze, quickly letting it go when I hear a quick intake of breath from Naomi. She takes her head and hand away but not before I see a large gash on top of her right hand. I gently grab her arm again and push her sleeve up, seeing the cut run up to her entire forearm.

"Naomi, what the fuck happened to your arm?!"

"It was nothing Em, just me being a klutz again. Nothing new." She refused to look me in the eye and I just knew that she was lying. Just like that night at Goldz, she was lying and I was going to get to the bottom of it, maybe not now but soon. I let go of her arm, not wanting to make her any more uncomfortable than the situation was already. I go back around the table and take my seat.

E: "Do you have anything to do today?" I ask, throwing her for a loop with my quick change of topic.

N: "Uh... no, no I'm free for the day. Probably hang with Cook later but that's about it."

E: "Well join me then for a bit, I'm a bit early for who I'm meeting." Deliberately leaving out that it was Anne.

N: "I can't... I-"

E: "Naoms, you just told me you have nothing to do all day right?"

N: "Yes but-"

E: "Well then sit down yeah? You should really get a muffin they're delicious." Silence followed, Naomi clearly weighing her options.

With a last ditch effort I playfully say to her, "Come on Naoms, I promise I'm good company. I won't bite or anything, I swear." Unless you want me to, Smirking at her.

A smile comes to her lips. "Well fuck it then, go ahead and disappoint me."

"About the company or the biting?" I see a devilish glint in her eyes.

"Both." She turns around to go back into the shop but not before sending a wink in my direction. I swear I felt my jaw hit the floor, I never expected her to so openly flirt. We were flirting right? Don't over think this Emily, just enjoy. I pick up my book again, deciding to finish the last bit of the chapter before Naomi comes back out. As usual I get entranced in the book and don't notice when Naomi comes back out. The only thing catching my attention is my favorite blonde snorting. I look up to find her sitting across from me, looking gorgeous as usual, but with a smile on her face, obviously laughing at me.

N: "Really Ems? You're reading that?"

E: "For your information it is a very good book." I reply huffing at her.

N: "It's a childrens book!"

E: "The Maze Runner is not a childrens book! Young adult maybe, but not childrens! And who cares anyways, it's a good story."

N: "If I'm honest I always pictured Effy as Theresa." My mouth fell.

E: "NAOMI! You bitch. Here you are making fun of me and you've read the damn book!"

N: "I never said I didn't, just that it's a childrens book." She quickly shoots back at me, both of us smiling at the other.

E: "Well that's the last time I believe anything you say about a book... But you're totally right, Effy would be a great Theresa."

N: "How many words does she say in the first book though?"

E: "Not a lot."

N: "Still might be to much for Eff." We both burst out giggling, unable to hold it in any longer. I playfully slap her arm.

E: "That's your best friend your making fun of!"

N: "Yeah, that's why I'm able to do it." She winks and me and smiles playfully. It's nice hanging out with Naomi like this, no pressures or expectations, just two people who enjoy each others company.

N: "This is nice." I smile at her, unbelieving that we were both thinking the same thing at the same time.

E: "Yeah, it really is."

Naomi nervously shifts in her seat, obviously wanting to say something. "Maybe we could do it again sometime? Like dinner or something?"

Is she asking me out on a date?! Fuck, get your shit together and say yes! "Yeah, I'd like that." A heaviness descends upon our bubble, both of us staring into each others eyes and smiling goofy.

"I should probably go, my mum will shit a brick if she doesn't find me in my room when she wakes up." I look down at my watch realizing that an hour had quickly passed in Naomi's presence. Naomi gets out of her seat to go and I follow her lead standing with her.

"I had a lot of fun."

"Yeah me to." Naomi smiles at me, a starch contrast to the look in her eyes when I first saw her thing morning. We both stand awkwardly, both not really sure how to say goodbye. Do we shake hands, hug, just walk away? Before I can really question it Naomi reaches out to me, wrapping her arms around me and engulfing me in a hug. I melt into her body, wrapping my arms around her waist, her arms around my shoulder near my neck. I take in a deep breath, smelling Naomi's distinct blend. I'd never get sick of that smell. It's my drug. We hug for more than is socially acceptable for just friends, both of us realizing this at the same time and slowly pull away from each other. Just as we separate I hear my name being called. Fuck. I see Anne waving and calling my name and smiling at me. I feel Naomi tense up beside me and I sneak a look at her direction, her walls firmly planted down again.

"Oh." I hear her say beside me. "I'm so stupid." She quietly says, obviously not realizing that she said it out loud.

"Naoms... I didn't... let me explain."

"No, no it's fine Emily. Enjoy your date. I'll text you later." Naomi walks away and I can't help but feel incredibly sad, already missing her and feeling terrible for causing her pain. And now I'm left with Anne... perfect. I feel her hands wrap around me, pulling me into a kiss, which I try to stop as quickly as possible. She goes inside to get us a more suitable breakfast, something more substantial than just muffins. While she's gone I can't help but think of my favorite blonde and how the time with her simply flew by, it was never like this with Anne. She's a nice girl and everything but there's simply nothing there. She was a good distraction when Naomi turned me down, and if I'm being honest with myself I used her to make Naomi jealous, which if her actions are anything to go by has worked. I just haven't had the heart to break it to Anne, she so badly wants to be together and what makes it worse is that she doesn't do girlfriends either. I know I'm going to hurt her like Naomi hurt me, that's why I've been putting this off. I sigh deeply, already resigning myself to breaking it off with her today, I want to be able to hang out with Naomi without Anne being an issue. I can give her this one breakfast and then I'm doing it, I'm finally telling her how I feel. We get through the meal with Anne talking incessantly and me mouthing single word replies, or grunts. Anne has to know that something is up, I've never been a really big conversationalist with Anne but this is another level. After we finish our breakfast Anne suggests we go for a walk and I agree because I still need to let her down. We walk down the street for a little bit, in complete silence until we make it to a secluded and empty park, a rare find in London. I stop near a tree and lean up against it, hoping that the tree will give me the support I need to do this. Before I can voice my thoughts Anne, standing in front of me, starts talking.

"Listen Emily, I've been thinking... about us. And I want to be together, officially. I want people to know that you are mine and I am yours. I know you don't do girlfriends and neither do I, but you're special. I want this more than I've wanted anything. What'ya say? Be mine?" I can't help but feel my eyes watering a bit, not because I want to be with Anne but because that's the way that I feel about Naomi. Unfortunately, Anne takes this as a good sign, thinking that I wanted it just as badly as she does. She reaches for me, putting her arms around my waist and going in for a kiss. I respond out of habit before I pull my face away, she isn't discouraged though and starts attacking my neck with her mouth, which if I'm honest has never done anything for me when, at least not with Anne. I try to push her on her shoulders but she only takes this as a sign to continue on. "Anne, no, stop." She ignores me and continues on. I push her more aggressively on the shoulders while telling her no even louder. Still she does nothing to stop her actions, instead she tightens her grip around me and I begin to panic, she won't let go.

"Anne, STOP! I said no!" I try one last time and push as hard as I can on her shoulders. To my astonishment, she goes flying, at least 8 feet off of me almost hitting another tree in the park. What the fuck?! What the hell was that! I forget about my amazing moment of strength in order to put my best glare on, directed at Anne. "No means no Anne, what the actual fuck?!"

"I'm sorry Emily, you just do things to me and I can't control myself."

"Bullshit, you're not some pre-pubescent boy. Take some responsibilities for your actions." Working myself up and getting more and more angry the longer I look at her. "You should not have done that."

"I'm sorry Ems, really I am, I don't know what came over me. Please forgive me?"I see tears start to come to her eyes.

"I forgive you, but you better make damn sure that never happens again you understand, NEVER do that again to someone! And I'm sorry but I can't be your girlfriend." Feeling nothing but pity for her now.

"Be- Because of what just happened?"

"No not because of that, but let me assure you that if I was your girlfriend and you did that to me I would kick you to the curb quicker than sour milk. Got it? You don't fucking do that to a person and certainly not someone you care about."

She lets this sink in, nodding. A look of sorrow across her face."Then what is it?"

"I'm sorry, but it's just not clicking. I just don't feel the same way that you do and I tried I really did try, but it's just not going to happen. I'm sorry to leas you on like I did but there's just a lot going on with me. We wouldn't be good." I see her nod grimly.

"Friends then?"

"Yeah Anne, we can be friends." I see her smile wide, unable to contain the hope that I see in her eyes. Fuck she's not going to just go away. We say our goodbyes and we part separate ways. I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders, I should have done this earlier. No sooner does this weight leave my chest when another is quickly placed there. What the fuck was up with that strength?! How did I do that?! What the bloody hell is going on with my body lately!?

What's going on with Emily?! Gosh if only someone knew. wink wink*

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