To anyone who remembers, and to everyone who has fave'd this fic even if I disappeared, I love you all. And I know, messed up so much with this chapter (but I pushed myself to write this under 30 minutes. So forgive me. I just wanted to post again.) And I blame KPOP.

Disclaimer: What. Yes, I do. No, really, I don't.

10 Things You Didn't Know About Alec Lightwood

1. Alec Lightwood never wanted to be a Shadowhunter. He was afraid, for himself, but mostly for his family. He never wanted danger in his life, but this was his world, and he would not be the one cause of shame for the Lightwood family, and so he stuck it up.

2. When he was ten, Alec watched as Isabelle flaunted around her new dress and twirled around, a ribbon coiled around her wrists. For a moment he wanted to just wring her with that ribbon, but he breathed in and shook his head – This was his little sister, he should love her, even if she always took the spotlight from him.

3. Alec always loved art. He may have been the "one-color-one-sweater" kind of guy, but he liked beautiful clothes, he loved suits, he loved to see other people, other than himself, dress up. Why he doesn't dress up himself, he doesn't really know, but if there was an alternative for anything, then maybe he could join Fashion school and rub that in Isabelle's face. That is, if he failed as a Shadowhunter.

4. There was a time in his life that he wanted to fail. Maybe just wanted to see what his parents might do if he did.

5. When he was thirteen, he wished he'd never thought about failure. Because the moment he slipped up, he screwed things so bad that it had almost gotten Isabelle killed and had left him with a broken leg. No, he would not fail, he decided, if it meant protecting his family, and not just himself.

6. He hated Magnus Bane.

7. Magnus Bane was the first person who had opened his eyes, he was the first being that had took his hand and pulled him out of the darkness, the first person that could make him feel so confused, more confused in his life.

8. Apart from Magnus Bane, he also hated Jace Wayland. Just a bit.

9. It was Alec who initiated the first kiss, not Magnus. It was him who had pulled at Magnus's collar and brought their lips together, after he watched, in Magnus's living room, the warlock throw his head back in laughter, lips popped open and eyes closed at the silly things Alec had done.

10. After he had introduced Magnus to his parents, people thought that Magnus was in charge of their relationship, was the 'man' who took hold of Alec's hand and pulled him into things. No, it was Alec. Alec started that kiss, and Alec started other things, too. It was Magnus who pushed him into wanting more, and more. Alec is never satiated, really, when it's Magnus. The first being – albeit not entirely human – who had made him feel special, made him feel wanted and made him feel as if he could slap mortality in its face. Magnus Bane did that to him, and Alec doesn't regret it.

(+1. Alec never blamed himself for Max's death. He blamed Isabelle. But it hurt him just as much, maybe even worse than it hurt Izzy.)

(No you cannot kill me okay. I'm in hiding after this chapter.)