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okay so here we are for another chapter, chapter 4, I can believe I started this story five weeks ago wow. Anyways, so here I am writing chapter 4 and I just wanna thank a couple of people;

Capt. Torie Bones: even though we haven't talked about this chapter this week, I want you to know that I really appreciate all that you have done in the short production of this story.

And just to everyone that reviewed.

NOW THIS IS IMPORTANT!!!

I promise you all that Edward will turn up, no this chapter, not the next, but the next one, just because he hasn't been here for that last couple of chapters at all doesn't mean he wont show up, I appreciate the PM's and reviews, but seriously, do you really think I would leave him out??? okay so, he will appear in chapter 7, no sooner, but possibly later depending on how chapter 6 pans out. But when he gets here his presence may not be exactly welcomed by all. Anyway I should stop before I give more away.

Now that that is out of the way, on with the chapter:

1999- Carlisle

You know it's like they always say; 'An apple a day keeps the doctor away.' If only that were true.

At this very moment, Bella lay on the couch coughing her insides up and there was nothing that we could do to stop it. I could feel the way it was making everyone feel, a lot of it had to do with Jasper and him getting the over bearing feeling of concern and worry, making it worse for us and worse for him, it was a round circle of pain and worry. Bella was lucky in the way that jaspers powers didn't work on her, or that Alice couldn't see her future. But this could ultimately be a bad thing.

For decades my family and I have lived off of the fact that we could sense and see your dangers coming for us, but with Bella, she is vulnerable, she hinders Alice's ability to see what is coming, to look into the future. It is almost like she has the same genes as the werewolves that do the same thing, yet with less animistic tendencies.

But our worries about her safety were slim to none right now as we watch her come close to coughing a lung up. She had been vomiting all day as well, just in generally bad shape. It's not like I didn't know what was wrong, it's more that he was so miserable about missing school.

Ever since she turned five and started school, she has loved it, straight A student even at her level. She loves to do homework, and read, boy does she love to read.

We got our first glimpse at our little Bella's real potential when she cracked it with Emmett last week because she couldn't find it anywhere. When she found Emmett holding it hostage in his room, lets say she wasn't very happy.

She cracked it with Emmett, saying that he had no right to steal her work, and that if he didn't give it to her she was going to get in trouble from the teacher for not doing it. This didn't sway him though, he was still stubborn as ever with keeping it to himself and not letting anyone near it. Not even rose.

He knew that rose had a soft spot for Bella, okay so she was more of the motherly figure than Esme, but it made her happy to spoil her AND parent her at the same time. It made her feel like a real mom.

Jasper is always smiling so widely wen he is sharing a room with Rosalie and Bella, but now with them sharing a room again, the feel was slightly different.

But that didn't stop Bella getting her work back, she just lunged at Emmett, and though I don't encourage violence an fighting in the house, and especially with Bella, he deserved what he got. A nice big kiss on the cheek. Because there is nothing more than Emmett loves , than pretending he still has boy cooties and running around chasing after Bella yelling "Cooties, I have boy cooties woo!!" it was quite funny at the time.

So while Emmett was busy putting on a big show that he was wiping of her 'cooties', Bella slipped around the back of him ad grabbed her work. Piece of cake.

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The room was full of motherly worry, and because Rosalie Jasper was dishing out a double dose because of Esme, we were all on edge,waiting for something bad to happen, and not being able to find the courage to actually help her.

I had diagnosed it as nothing more than a virus, though as I sit here looking at my dear Bella coughing her lungs up, I know that it is a slightly less comfortable one for all who are involved.

It is not as if Bella has never gotten sick before, its just this time is the first time that I have seen her accepting to not go to school, because she doesn't feel up to it. Its the first time she is doing something for her.

Its times like these, whenever I get to just sit and look at Bella, when she looks truly vulnerable, that I start to flash back to the good times we have had with her, she makes it easy to forget time and role with it, even though she is one for the most stressed 11 year olds I have ever seen. Alice is worries that she is going to go gray before she turns twelve.

Emmett questioned why she was always so stressed once.

"Because Emmett... what I want to do in university is going to be very difficult to get into." she said matter of factly, even though she was only ten.

"what could possibly be so hard about and English course that makes it so hard to get into?" Emmett said with a tone that made Bella leap into action.

Her motions made me think about what she would have been like if we hadn't of found her, yes she probably still would have been very academically occupied and driven, but I could also see her as more of a person that would shy away from the attention, and more of a suffer in silence type of girl.

But growing in a house with Emmett and Rosalie, and Alice and Jasper, doesn't exactly allow for shy behavior from any one of their siblings. So yes Bella has learned to become the outgoing and sometimes bossy child that we love. And even though she is only 11, we all have great things in mind for her.

So while I sit here listening to Bella and her body in its futile attempt to cure her in time for school tomorrow, I cant help but admire the beauty in which is my daughter, and hope that she too will, aspire to be something great. And that with her looming decision only 6 years away, I hope that she will make the right one, and not choose us, but life. To choose to get married and have children, live a long and happy life, and eventually die of natural causes. And as much as I know that my wishes are feeble, I dream of a better life for her, than one that we can provide.

So for now we just look on, and wait for her to make her decisions.

Okay so that was chapter 4, let me know what you thought, in a review preferably.

In the next chapter Bella is 15 years old, and im in the middle of thinking up something big.

Stay tuned.

Jess.