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Chapter Song: Jealous Minds Think Alike- You Me At Six

Bite Back - The All-American Rejects

The Only Exception- Paramore

Chapter 15

RPoV

"How could this happen! You assured me that you were going to take care of it! My daughter is in the hospital because you were foolish enough to hold out on telling me, telling us about him and your collaborative pasts." Esme had been yelling at Carlisle for nearly an hour now, had she still been human she probably would have gotten tired half an hour ago, but her immortality was clearly in her favor tonight.

After Bella had been brutally bashed into a wall and knocked out, Edward had fled faster than anyone could have thought possible. Jasper and Alice took Bella to the hospital and Emmett, Carlisle and I had left, doing our best to see if we could find Edward as he escaped once again.

The tension in the room was so thick you could cut it with a knife. Esme still angry, though her rant over. Carlisle was miserable, suddenly acknowledging exactly what kind of danger that he had put us all through, let alone Bella. Emmett was furious, he was no tracker, but he was a good hunter, and this was one kill that he needed, but was unsuccessful.

I however, was unsure of how I felt, my feelings not quite numb, but I was unsure, I was not confused in the nature of my feelings, I was in no way happy to learn of what was happening let alone experience and take part in it, but I didn't know if I was angry, saddened or maybe even pitiful.

But there was one thing I knew.

Edward wasn't just some kind of…monster, I knew that at the very least, that the bloodlust wanted him to kill her, but I thought I saw something in his eyes, in the meadow, there was subtle conflict in his eyes, not one that said, do I kill her quickly or do I slowly drain her drop by drop… it was more of a 'I don't know if I want to do this at all vs. quick fix and move onto the next victim.'

It was strange to experience. I had seen all the different kinds of vampires, ones like me, ones like Jasper, and ones like what Edward claimed to be. But what he was, was something completely different to what his façade tried to manipulate you into thinking.

I think that underneath the murderous tendencies he had a desire for what he had before, when it was just Carlisle and him. I think that he wanted to change, but he just didn't know how.

I know that I had Bella's best interests at heart; she was as much a daughter to me as a sister. So I had to help her, but I wanted to help Edward as well. I don't know where such instincts were coming from, I had a tendency to be crass and hard to be around, and I knew I could be a bitch to people that I didn't like, but there was something about Edward, and the way that his eyes looked at Bella. Because as his body was conveying bloodlust and need, his eyes said something on the other end of the spectrum; they showed something similar to what Carlisle expressed when he looked at Esme. A longing and deep belonging.

I knew I had to help him, or something along those lines. If Emmett knew that I was going to try and find Edward without telling him though, suspicions would be peaked, he knew I knew that I had no experience in hunting and attacking, and im not suicidal. But they knew where I would be. They would jump to conclusions, and I definitely didn't want that, but what could I do?

I was going to have to follow my gut feeling and find him, because someone had to convince him that there was another life, and that it was better there. Yes it was sometimes harder, but it was better, and more fulfilling.

I know I can't speak from experience because I have never had human blood before. I was lucky enough to change and straight away have a family that could help me through the hard bit. Edward hard Carlisle and his lenience for natural curiosity, Edward just had to decide what he wanted and Carlisle would let him leave. I guess that's why Carlisle was so tough on me when I tried to leave; so much was falling into place all of a sudden. It was clear that some of his parenting ways were improved by what he felt he did wrong with Edward. And I can only be grateful for it now, because I don't think I could be able to live with myself if I went around causing anarchy throughout different families all over the world.

***

Hairbrush.

Change of clothes.

Phone.

iPod.

More clothes.

Toothbrush.

Toothpicks.

General Toiletries.

All set.

***

I had packed my bags into the car, trying to be as discreet as possible. If I could keep my destination and motive a secret for at least an hour I should be able to get far enough away that they wouldn't try and talk me out of it.

That is if Edward was an hour away.

That was a scary thought. What if he was hiding just out in the forest behind the house watching in on us? What if he was planning his next attack right now, but I never found him and tried to have the heart-to-heart that I was hoping I would be able to force out of him.

That was something I hadn't thought about.

How was I going to get him to want to talk to me? The only person he may or may not have spoken to is Bella, and from what she told me, he wasn't exactly one for long or meaningful conversations. This was going to be tough.

The hardest part would be getting him not to attack me the instant he smelt me, he was faster, stronger, and had the advantage of human blood. But I had to think smart and quick, that was my advantage, I had the element of some sort of surprise, and that I had planned this, and not him.

I knew I should talk to Alice about this. But to tell you the truth I knew she would try and stop me, that or come with me, and I knew that neither was an option. I needed to do this, and I needed to do it on my own.

And Alice would only prevent one or both of those happening. That wasn't an option.

But my other major problem was trying to keep it from Alice altogether. That would require some pretty good decision changing skills. I knew that if I didn't concentrate I would forget for a moment and then Alice would pounce in a second. But there was a negative to this as well because if I concentrated too much on monitoring what I was doing then I wouldn't be focusing on the task at hand.

***

APoV

"UNO!" Bella screamed again, and thrust her hands in the air, for the second time in a row. Her and jasper were playing Uno while I trying to do some sketching. I had been talking to Rosalie and Jasper about opening a boutique when we moved again; we were thing California or L.A or something. It was projects such as theses that kept Rosalie and I from getting bored. There was only one problem.

We were vampires, and it might be a little obvious if we started a boutique at 18-19 and looked the same in twenty years. So I was trying to build up the courage to ask Bella if and when she finished school, if she would be the face of the boutique. I mean I guess we could get away with running it for a good, I don't know ten fifteen year, it's all the make-up really, but the thing is if and when we get famous for our amazing gowns and dresses etc. how we would explain our sudden disappearance.

Something else to think about I guess.

"UNO!" Bella yelled again.

"Jasper how is it possible that you keep losing, your ego is too big for you to rig the game, and no matter what your supernatural capabilities, and you wouldn't be that sympathetic, so how?" I questioned.

Jasper looked back at me sheepishly and grinned. "She has amazing poker emotions" he joked, and I laughed along with him.

I was about to ask them to deal me in when I found my eyes glazing over, and my vision blur. I was having a vision.

It was Rosalie.

She was contemplating whether to take the turn off into the outskirts of Seattle or to keep going and check the inner city for something…or someone.

She sniffed and her face froze.

She jerked the wheel of her bright red BMW 3 series, and sped down the off ramp.

I came out of the vision with a confused feeling. Clearly my emotions showed on my face because when I blinked my eyes clear, Jasper and Bella were both staring at me with inquiring stares and open mouths, both on the edge of asking me what I had seen.

"What did you see?" Jasper asked first, his vampire abilities making him just that little bit faster.

I opened my mouth to speak, but I was unaware as to how to respond.

I held my finger up as if to say, just give me a minute and I pulled out my mobile and dialed Rosalie's number.

Ring.

Ring. Ring.

Ring. Ring.

"Hello?" she answered with a worried tone, and I knew she has my number so she knew it was me.

"hi, Rosalie?"

"Oh, hi, Alice." her kindness was forced and nervous.

"so, you coming by for a visit are you? Because you know, if you're coming to the hospital you should've taken the inner city turn off." I had her now.

RPoV

"so, you coming by for a visit are you? Because you know, if you're coming to the hospital you should've taken the inner city turn off." OH SHIT!

"um no, Alice, im not coming to see you guys, I have some business to take care of." God I was so dead, I wonder how much she saw. Was it just me deciding to turn off or was it everything, I have to think fast and try and cover my steps, but I need to make sure that im careful about what I say, I'd hate to give away too much.

"why didn't you tell me you were going shopping! I want to come too! You think I like being cooped up in here in this stupid hospital looking after the invalid we call a sister? No offence Bella."

"Alice! Im not going shopping, like I said, I have some business to take care of, it is not something that you need concern yourself with. I'll be home by dark." that should work…who am I kidding…she's too nosy for me to be able to leave it at just that.

"okay" What? "that's fine, but stop by the hospital on the way back would you? Bella's awake and she wants to see you. Oh would you call mom and dad and Emmett as well? I haven't been able to get a hold of them, the reception in the hospital is kind of iffy"

"um sure Alice, ill stop by on my way back, and I'll call the others, they'll be glad to hear that she's up. Put her on would you?" I was going to speak to Bella first, before I proceed with my suicide mission.

"hello?"

"oh Bella you have no idea how worried everyone has been, it's good to hear your voice, and I knew you would wake up." I said smiling to myself. Now to get Jasper and Alice out of the room.

"hey rose, it's good to hear your voice too" I could hear the smile in her voice, it had no doubt been a shock to her system.

"hey bells, do you think that you could d o me a big favor?" okay here goes nothing.

"Get Alice and Jasper to leave the room for a while, tell them to go down to the cafeteria and get you some real food would you? I need to talk to you in private, and Alice is too nosy for her own good." I laughed as I said it, despite being so tense if you poked me I would more than likely break.

She laughed and I took that as a sign that Alice and Jasper had heard and that Alice was making a scene as she walked out of the room, I knew they could hear, which would be why I didn't hear her relay what I had asked.

"okay" she laughed "their gone, what's up?"

"Bella this is very important" the instant she said that they were out of the room my tone turned serious and I got down to business.

"okay" her tone had changed to something more serious and I continued, knowing I had her attention now.

"Bella, I'm going to find Edward." her breath caught in her throat as I caught her off guard.

"No Rosalie! You can't! He'll kill you!" she was getting hysterical, I needed to calm her down.

"Bella, please relax, and just listen to me." her breathing started to slow and I heard her mutter a small 'okay'.

"Carlisle and Emmett and I just got back this morning from looking for him, it took us two weeks just to search the forest around the house thoroughly. But I found something that the others didn't. I found a faint scent and now I need to follow it. I need to talk to him. I need to ask him something." I could feel her breathing speeding up again and her heart rate monitor reacting faster as she got more and more panicked.

"Bella please, I need to ask you something, and if you keep getting so panicked the nurses are going to come in there and jab you with a big needle to calm you down, it's my way or the needle way" I slightly joked. But it achieved what I had hoped and her breathing started to slow.

"Sorry, what is it that you wanted to tell me?" she said calmly.

I didn't know exactly what it was that I wanted to know from her, but I knew that I wanted to ask her about Edward.

"what do you remember about what and how Edward spoke to you?" I was nervous, I didn't know how she was going to react to my question, and it's not something she may be very comfortable thinking about let alone talking about right now.

There was a long silence at the other end of the phone, and it had me on edge, I was hoping to god that I hadn't offended her or hurt her at all. But a few seconds later she started talking again, and she sounded completely calm and normal. Thank god.

"sorry Rosalie, I don't know what to tell you, I don't have full memory of what happened that day, all I know is how I ended in the hospital, the fight at home, and everything before that is still a blur. Alice and Jasper have been playing brain stimulating games with me all day to try ad trigger some more memory but as of yet, im not remembering anything more. I really wish I could help you. I do." I breathed out a sigh in a mixture of relief and frustration.

"okay bells, thanks anyway. Stay in bed, and don't let Alice and Jasper get on your nerves too much." I said with a smile. I felt like a cool auntie of some sort, not a sister out desperately trying to protects her.

"thanks rose. Bye."

"see you"

"oh and rose?" she asked just before I hung up.

"please be careful, there isn't reason for more people to get hurt because of him. In all actuality I wish that you wouldn't go at all, but as it seems I can't stop you, so just be careful and at the first sign of trouble. Get out of there. And fast. He's really fast rose."

The concern in her voice was almost enough to turn me around and head on home, but so far nothing of the sort was going to be even slightly productive.

"alright bells, see you, oh and please don't tell any of the others, it's important that they don't know, it would be brilliant if you could just forget this, but at this point in time I feel no such wish as to place another memory loss on you, it must be hard." Great now I was rambling on. I'd been spending too much time with Alice.

I hung up after finally finishing my goodbyes with Bella and took the next turn to the right, one that would take me bush. Edward was close, I could smell him.

***

APoV

"…and I was thinking that we could call it 'Bella' you know? I can just see Angelina Jolie walking down the red carpet in one of our gowns and the reporter saying 'hi, were here today with the lovely Angelina Jolie, who are you wearing tonight Angie?' and she would reply 'oh John your too kind, tonight im wearing Isabella Cullen' and he would finish with 'well it really is an exquisite dress, thank you for talking with us. Back to you Roy'." I finished.

"Alice do you really think that Bella is even going to remotely consider it? 1 she won't be making the dresses, so you know she'll have a problem with taking the credit. 2 she hates being in the spotlight, and with you and Rosalie making them they will be in the spotlight and inevitably her. 3 she wants to be a vampire too, and that will be her first excuse, and it is not a right that we can take away from her. 4, you're not a patient person, you'll want to get this up and running straight away and she's still in high school, and that's if she even lets you do it. Personally ally, I don't a whole lot of thought went into this decision of yours." Jasper was trying very hard to try and convince me that my dress making boutique idea was, all politeness aside, Crap.

But in my opinion he wasn't being very open minded. I personally think that with Bella's run in with the vampires in that last fortnight, she's going to want to stay the hell away from any one of our fangs.

But I guess it was up to her.

"at least let me ask" I whined. And jazzy just rolled his eyes and nodded. And I jumped for joy laughing and clapping my hands.

As we rounded the corner in the ICU I heard the distinct sound of crying coming from Bella's room, and the only people that we knew were vampires so it had to be… "Bella!"

The sound of Jaspers worried voice cut through my thoughts, and I ran forward to find Bella sitting up in her bed, but slumped over her hands crying her eyes out.

"Bella! What's wrong? Oh my god what happened, did you remember?" I was talking so fast that I was sure that she wouldn't be able to understand me. But the look that she gave me when she lifted her head said that she heard me fine.

"Alice she's fine, she was just having a bit of a panic attack, but she'll be fine." Jasper said as he looked up at me from his position over Bella. And I breathed a sigh of relief. She was okay…for now.

RPoV

I was getting so close now, I could smell the blood of the poor human girl that he was feeding off. It was no doubt that he had flirted and seduced her before he made his move. It made me sick. But I kind of envied him in a way. He had a freedom that was untouchable…that was until Bella came.

I had abandoned my car a while back, opting for foot. That would seem a less harsh way to come at him, not at an offensive view but at something that showed I meant no harm. God I felt like I was approaching an alien.

There could only have been about 25 metres between me and Edward now, a distance at which he could surly tell that I was near. And he had to have smelt me. He had come in contact with me and family more than once. He had to have familiarized my scent by now.

My creeping around the trees had slowed, and I was trying to be more careful than I had planned to be. I had no idea what kind of situation I would find him in.

I was closing in on him so quickly I must not have been going as slow as I thought I was. I crept up behind a tree that sat about 2 metres away from where Edward was draining his victim.

I decided that I was going to have to make the first move if I didn't want to be attacked prematurely. I would have an advantage as he was still distracted by his dinner.

She was gorgeous. Tall, brunette, squared jaw, high cheek bones. She was dressed in a tight little black dress and 5 inch black peep toes. She had a light shading of makeup decorating the top of her eyes and a small line of eyeliner finishing it off. I may have envied her in the human world, but I knew that she could not compare to my supernatural beauty, vain that may be, it was true.

I took this as my chance to make my presence known and stepped out from behind the tree.

"you know, though a deer is not nearly as satisfying as human, it doesn't leave such a taint on your soul, or your breath for that matter." I said, trying to be as light as possible in the opening of what could eventually be a conversation. I didn't want to push the important things onto him too quickly. I was going to have to be careful. Just as Bella had said. I owed her that much.

His head snapped up from the limp human girls body so fast that even I was stunned. human blood. I realized to myself.

"what are you doing here? How did you find me?" his questioning was met with a rough guttural growl from his chest as he started to come towards me. I backed up trying to appear as defenseless as possible..

"what are you doing here!" he shouted right in my face. I would have normally expected him to be at my throat by now, but as was shown in the fight with the family not three weeks ago, it was quite obvious that he was different from others.

"I, I, I was worried…" I stuttered. I was more afraid than I anticipated. How Bella stood up to him was amazing.

"you were worried? what on earth could you have to be worried about here? Well apart from me?" he had a point, I hadn't exactly planned out how I was going to tell him about Bella and asking him about what he felt etc, I had thought it would just come out when it was important.

"I was worried about Bella" I said truthfully, figuring that was the best way to approach it.

"you should be worried, by the time im done with her, there wont be anything to worry about" he said menacingly.

"are you sure? She was in a coma, she was out of it for two weeks, does this not affect you in the slightest?" I watched his eyes, looking for the smallest hint or flicker of emotion. There was nothing.

"oh im sorry…" he said unremorsefully "did I put your little human sister in the hospital?" he said this all with a mocking quality to his voice.

It was then that I realized that I was in trouble. I had fucked up big time. He felt no remorse for what he did, let alone to Bella. I was foolish to think that I could come out here and talk to him and convince that he could change and that if he did, he could be with Bella, and that she would be okay around him etc. but what I thought I had seen was just a reflection of my imagination.

I had been unbelievably foolish and now I was going to truly die.

But what surprised me the most was when he stood back and held his arm up as if to offer me a passage in front of him.

"go on, I wont give you another chance, and I wouldn't let just anyone go, but your hot and so id that little sister of yours so get gone, and don't bother me again, or I wont be so lenient. And don't worry, I have no plans to bother your family again…your too much damn work for me, I need an easy meal." and he grinned menacingly as I took his offer and sprinted in the other direction.

EPoV

I don't know why I did it, nor why I said it.

But it was true, I wouldn't normally let someone leave after interrupting my dinner, a vampire would be slaughtered and burned, and a human would be made dessert. But I had felt a need to let her go. Back to her family. a family that could have been mine once upon a time.

But there was one thing that I said that was not so truthful. I did plan to go back. And soon.

Id wait till Bella was out of hospital. My yo-yoing emotions getting the better of me. I had this intense need to be near her. But at the same time, I wanted to taste her blood running down my throat, getting me all giddy and high on the sweet taste of virgin blood. Because as prophesized. There is nothing better…

The thought of drinking her blood, as satisfying as it may be, I cant image such an act being committed to someone as beautiful and innocent as her. My minds instincts were telling me to kill and drain, but my heart was saying that I was meant to do more than just get a feed. There was more meant for me here. I knew Rosalie had picked up on it as well.

The subtle filter of her thoughts into my head told me that she wanted to help me help Bella and visa-a-versa. But this was where my doubts laid. I wanted to trust Rosalie, she seemed like she had both our best interests at heart. But she was one of them. One of the family that had hunted me and tried to kill me just minutes after I accidentally slammed Bella into a wall.

As soon as I managed to get through the door of the Cullen mansion, I knew what I was doing was a mistake. But like I said before. My head was taking over and I no longer had any more control over what I was doing as Bella did when I catapulted her into the plaster of the lounge room wall.

I fled the house as soon as I was able to gain control of myself, trying to escape the wreckage and disaster that I had managed to create in just a few seconds.

I felt guilty beyond belief, but I couldn't just go back and apologize. i had been trying to do that last time. I didn't know what came over me. But my greatest conflict was, if I changed, I could never go back…and the other thing. Did I really want to.

My behavior around Rosalie was less than acceptable, but I think I felt it my responsibility to take care of this myself. I knew that she was deterred. And I had hoped that would happen. I needed her out of that way so that I could work on myself. I didn't need her trying to counsel me into thinking that I could go veggie and live this amazing life without any kind of consequences. It just wasn't that easy.

My thoughts were more conflicted than usual, and it was all because of this human.

They would bring you together and tear you apart.

It just depended on how you let them in. I needed to deal with this Cullen situation on my own, but I couldn't kill them. Any of them.

Carlisle had been my father and my mentor for years before I went rogue, but he raised me, in more ways than one and I owed him at least. But the rest of the family. They didn't deserve to suffer either. This whole conundrum was going to do my head in.

God help me if I was going to figure this out.

Okay so to tell you the truth I know I said I would try and write at least three while away, but I was so damn busy that I just didn't have time. I did get three little ones written out, but I figured that you might want one long one instead of three little ones. Tell me if I was wrong to assume such things and I will change it.

Okay so

Good news…I hope.

I've moved in with my dad full time, so no more back and forth's between houses means that I will have access to one computer at all times. And due to my awesome new years resolutioning I will be trying to update like twice a week hopefully. One a week at least.

I PROMISE.

And im letting you guys send me nasty letters if I don't lol.

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