AN: thanx everyone for the reviews and for those of you who arn't clear this is a bella/damon story.

I don't own twilight or the vampire diaries

Chapter2

Bellas POV

The first thing I was aware of was this really annoying beeping sound. I couldn't place it.

Then I remembered what happened at school and I realised that I must be in a hospital.

I couldn't open my eyes though. I was really trying to but they just wouldn't open. So I did the only thing I could think of, I used my senses.

I could hear a soft snore so Charlie was obvioulsy here and asleep. I felt really guilty for the way I went of at charlie, I was just so scared that he was going to make me leave and I couldnt do that, this place holds all the memories and although they are painful to think about, I just need profe that it was all real and I couldn't imagine them in phoenix.

So I needed to stay here and when charlie said that he was sending me away I just lost it, and now all I want to do is apolojize and I cant even open my eyes to do it.

I was also aware that there was someone else in here, but I just assumed it was a nurse as I could hear her do something with the machines.

I could smell that horrible smell that is always at hospitals or dentists, that clean smell, it smells a bit like chlorine only stronger.

I was starting to get a bit scared, I couldn't move at all and I still can't open my eyes.

I decided that getting restless was not going to help so I listened to Charlie snore. It was surprisingly peaceful, carlming. I found myself slipping back into the darkness, only this time I didn't welcome it, I was scared of it. But I just kept on slipping away.

When I came round again I was suddenly aware of three things.

1 – I was still unable to move, though I wasn't really surprised by that

2 – Charlie was awake and talking to a doctor whose voice I recognised as

3 – They were talking about me or rater my condition which I was thankful for as i really was starting to get scared and I want to know what is going to happen to me.

I listened really careful trying hard not to miss anything.

" Charlie you need to understand that Bella has suffered a serious head injury, now she is in a light coma just now but that doesn't mean that she won't pull through, people come back from this all the time. But... "

" But what " Charlie sounded scared, like he didn't want to know what that but meant.

" But they have to want to, Charlie. They have to fight for their life and i'm not saying that Bella won't try but with everything that she has been through lately i'm worried that she wont try hard enough. Now I may be wrong and I sincerilly hope that I am but I want you to be prepared for the worst. Im not saying don't have hope im just saying, be prepared. "

" Thank you Dr. "

I had to strain my ears to hear that and even then I barely heard it. He just sounds like he has already given up hope, was I really that bad. So bad infact that I made him question whether I would want to live.

Yes. I was that bad and now I feel angry. Angry with myself. And angry at him.

How could I be so stupid as to let one boy, no matter wheter he was alive or not. But to let one boy take over my whole life to the point where I am literally nothing.

How could I be so stupid.

So reckless.

I may or may not die and the last thing I said to Charlie was I hate you and i'm moving out.

Just because he wanted me to get better.

He was only looking out for me and I had to bite his head off.

But i'm not gonna die. Im gonna try my hardest to get back, but I just dont know how. What am I supposed to do. I've just accepted that I dont want to die.

That I want to live and now I have no idea how i'm supposed to get back.

I closed my eyes, well there already closed but you know what I mean. Anyway I just relaxed. Let everything wash over me, all the worries and the fears and the fact that my life is gonna be miserable without him.

Uuurrrggg, god why is it so frustrating.

I want to live I do. But I only want to live for Charlie and I can't stop feeling that maybe I should just die. Its only a small part but I think thats why I cant wake up, because deep down a small part of me doesn't want to.

Just then a broken sob made me jump, it was so quite that I almost forgot Charlie was still here and by the sounds of it he was crying.

I let the guilt wash over me and just listened to him.

" Bella " he just sounds so broken.

" I dont know if you can hear me but Bella please come back to me. I'm so sorry for the way I went off that morning "

wait, that morning. How long have I been in this coma.

" I cant lose you Bella, not this way. I am so so so sorry. I know your life has been hard lately and I know your hurting. I know that you probably want to die right now just to escape the pain but please. I promise you that it will get better. Ive been where you are now Bella, when your mum left and took you with her I wanted to die. I wanted to just curl in a ball and stop living. But I didn't and i'm glad I didn't because it gets better. Just, please "

more heart braking sobs

" just please come back to me. "

by this point I was crying. Literally.

I could feel a tear make its way down my cheek and when I heard Charlie gasp I knew that he saw it.

How could I even think about giving up. What I was thinking of doing is practically suicide and I hate it when people do that.

Giving up your life just so that you can escape whatever your feeling.

Because what about all those people who didn't want to die, or the ones in hospital knowing their about to die and not being able to live, the ones who don't have a choice.

All of those people dont want to go, they're being forced to and here I am just about ready to throw my life away, and turning into a vampire doesn't count because I would still be living, but this.

How could I be so selfish.

Im going back.

And I know that its going to be hard.

And I know that I will always feel empty because of the whole that he left but at least I would be alive.

And that is better than just giving up.

I consentrated really hard on what I was trying to do.

But no matter how hard I tried I couldn't open my eyes.

So I started on a different approach, I concentrated really hard on just trying to move my hand, the one that Charlie was still holding from when he was talking to me.

He was still crying for fear of losing me and that wasn't helping me concentrate but after a minute I managed to get my hand to twitch.

Instantaniously charlie stopped crying.

I managed to move my hand again and I could feel the darkness slip away, but this time I wasnt going with it, I was staying.

The darkness was going but slowly so I tried to move my other hand and managed to get it to twitch aswell.

Charlie noticed and he got up and left the room.

When he was gone though I started to panick, I couldn't do this without him and now the darkness was coming back again.

It was to strong to fight and just as I was about to go through Charlie came back in with Dr. Snow following behing.

" Bella this is Dr. Snow can you hear me. Can you move your hand again for me please. "

But as hard as I tried I just couldn't, I was slipping away.

" Bella you can do it i know you can do it, your strong and your confident all you have to do is be determined, please Bella come back to me. "

Charlie sounded so desperate that I tried again and managed to move my hand again but barely.

" come on Bella you can do it just open your eyes. Your nearly there "

with that said I concentrated harder than ever.

I forced everything I had into opening my eyes and I didnt give up. But it wasn't working.

Thats when Charlie said the words that sent my eyes flying open.

The words that brought me back.

The words I so needed to hear.

So I knew I was not going to be on my own.

" I love you, bella "

AN: ok so thats the second chapter, please R&R let me know what you think. Thanx.