TITLE: Does It Have To Be Pink? Chapter 10
PAIRINGS
ROMANCE: Faberry, Brittana
RATING: M
A/N: Ok so once again it seems the last chapter didn't go down as well as previous chapters, most of you aren't liking this new Quinn, this is for a few reasons, one because I hadn't written in a bit so I was trying to get back into it lol, two because this story started as a one shot I may be finding it hard to keep everyone interested but I'm trying, and lastly it was intentional. Basically with this whole secret being revealed in today's chapter Quinn is about to find out what it's like to take for granted what you've already got, and how it may or may not work out the way she wants. So Quinn is basically in a battle with herself about how to act. Hopefully you guys will like this chapter better and it may make a bit more sense, still thanks to everyone who reviewed, favourite and alerted me or the story.
Warning: this chapter will be a bit angsty but soon I will try to get back to the Quinn we all love.
Also as I was asked I feel like I should warn you there will be some mentions of cheating but no actual cheating in the story, also there is a brief mention to the chapter 8 foursome, so warning on that but it is only brief
There is also a flashback with an original character too
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Quinn was lying on Rachel's bed, the little brunette wrapped up in her arms, both of them just relaxing after a busy day at school with non-stop classes and glee club. Rachel's dads were out shopping and so they had the house to themselves. Rachel's head was resting on Quinn's chest and Quinn was admiring the delightful scent of Rachel's raspberry shampoo that made her hair extra shiny. Quinn was currently toying with the soft locks as Rachel began to fiddle with Quinn's belt hoop.
"Your hair is really soft today" Quinn smiled and she began to think Rachel had actually dropped off to sleep when she didn't answer, but then when she did, she responded with something completely different.
"Would you still love me if I got fat?" Rachel asked lifting her head and staring up at her girlfriend, forcing Quinn to let go of her hair as she didn't want to pull it out of the diva's head.
"That depends, how fat are we talking" she joked before instantly regretting it "I'm joking Rach, of course. I'm not with you because my arms fit around your waist" she replied
"What about if my nose got bigger" Rachel asked next
"Rach that's not gonna happen" Quinn assured wondering where these particularly random questions were coming from
"What about if I wanted to go celibate" Rachel raised a brow in anticipation
"I don't think even you'd do that baby"
"No you're right" Rach agreed before she began to think of the next question "Ok, what if I dyed my hair, would you still love me then?"
"What colour?" Quinn asked
"Purple"
"Probably" Quinn smiled
"Ok then, green?"
"Rach, baby, what's with all these silly questions?" Quinn finally decided to ask
"They are not silly Quinn, they are reassurance" Rachel informed, sitting up on the bed
"Reassurance for what?" Quinn was now even more confused
"So I know if you'll break up with me or not"
"I'm not gonna break up with you baby, not for anything, let alone colouring your hair or putting on a few extra pounds. Anyway it's me that should be worrying about getting dumped" Quinn announced
"Why would I break up with you?" Rach wondered
"Uh…no reason, just you know, we all know you're a better person than I am and you can do better than me" Quinn said
"I could never do better than you. Despite the fact you have been acting really odd recently I still love you. I do wonder why sometimes but then I just remember its cause you're my soul mate"
"Same here, I love you so much Rach" Quinn said leaning forward to get a kiss from the smaller girl
"Why have you been acting so weird recently anyway?"
"No reason, just that's me right?" Quinn laughed it off, knowing she should probably tell Rachel of her secret but knew this probably wasn't the best time. "Why did you suddenly ask those questions now anyway?"
"Don't know really, I guess I just want us to be open and all that, you know like tell each other things…like everything, secrets and stuff"
"What do you mean?"
"Just I know you too well Quinn, so I know when you're hiding something, but I guess you're not ready to talk just yet so, I can wait, when you're ready to talk I'm sure you'll talk" Rachel smiled
"I will, I promise" Quinn returned her warm smile
"So you are hiding something then?"
"Like you said, you know me too well"
Rachel, feeling like changing the subject, began to run her hand up Quinn's thigh much to the blonde's slight surprise "So what do you wanna do till my dads get home?" Rachel asked clear suggestion dripping from her voice as she leaned in to kiss Quinn again only for the girl to look to the side so Rachel's lips met her cheek instead. "What's wrong?" she asked
"Nothing, I'm just not really in the mood Rach" replied Quinn sitting up and running her hand through her blond hair
Rachel found herself laughing straight away at Quinn's comment "What? You're always in the mood"
"I think I might just go home" Quinn said softly
"What's wrong?" Rachel asked with genuine worry, noting Quinn was sweating quite a bit
"I'm fine, I'm just not feeling too great, that's all" Quinn responded, knowing it wasn't entirely a lie, she really was starting to feel sick but she knew it was mostly from her own lie
"Well can I get you something? A wet towel or some aspirin maybe?" Rachel offered with concern
"No that's ok, thank you though, but I think I'm just gonna go home, have a hot bath and get some sleep"
"Well ok, call me later ok?" Rach asked
"Of course" Quinn got up of the bed and gave Rachel a kiss on the head "I love you Rach"
"Love you too Quinnie" Rachel smiled holding Quinn's hand for a few long seconds before releasing it to let her leave.
Quinn drove home and the closer she got the more sick she felt, she really just had to talk to Rachel, maybe Rach wouldn't take the whole thing so bad. Or maybe she would blow up and break up with her and maybe that's exactly what she deserves. She had been taking Rachel for granted recently and she regretted it, every second of it but she didn't really know what to do. She'd never had a girlfriend before and didn't really know what the etiquette was about these situations but she guessed it was to be honest with one another in the first place then it wouldn't lead to big lies and secrets. She loved Rachel more than anything and just wanted to make it right again.
Quinn finally pulled up outside of her house; she by now had a major headache and felt like throwing up and slapping herself for everything that had happened over the last few weeks. And she still couldn't believe she actually got drunk enough to even let anyone else near her girlfriend or herself let alone Santana Lopez or Brittany Pierce. She remembered the sleepless nights she got after that infamous night and she had no idea what had gotten into her other than shot after shot of whatever it was Santana was serving them.
Flashback:
"So are we gonna talk about it or not" Rachel asked as she paced around her room
"I thought you said you didn't want to?" Quinn replied as she sat on Rachel's bed
"I don't really but, Quinn we had a foursome, we had sex with our best friends, it's not really something you can just forget"
"I know it's not, but that's all I want to do, I just wanna forget. I don't like thinking about it, knowing someone else touched you in the ways that only I should be able to, in the places" Quinn said disgusted with the thoughts, she loved Santana and Brittany but she didn't expect to have sex with them, let alone put her girlfriend in the same situation
"Well I don't like the fact they touched you either" Rachel replied
"I wish we could go back and delete last night from ever happening, I'm never drinking again I swear"
"So what do we do now?" Rach asked and Quinn got up from sitting on the bed and walked over to the still pacing Rachel, she placed her hand under her chin and lifted her face to lock eyes with her sad diva.
"Guess there's not really a lot we can do, but try and forget it. As long as we know that you're mine and I am yours then it doesn't matter what happened last night, I mean none of us can really remember it in detail, those two were just as pissed it happened as us and honestly as long as I have you I don't wanna mention it again. I love you Rach and that's all that matters to me" Quinn said passionately before leaning down to kiss Rachel
"I love you too Quinn, and you're right there's no point of dwelling on a mistake when we still have each other, that's all I'll ever need" Rachel said pulling Quinn closer and wrapping her arms around the blond for a comforting hug
"You wanna watch a musical" Quinn suggested knowing it would cheer her girlfriend up
Rachel immediately looked up into Quinn's hazel eyes and beamed an instant smile "As long as I get to pick which one" she replied excitedly
"Wouldn't have it any other way baby" Quinn smiled back
End of flashback
"Mom!" Quinn called out like a child as soon as she shut the front door "Mom are you home? Please say you are" she whimpered already feeling the tears beginning to escape her bright hazel eyes. Judy came out of the kitchen wondering what all the shouting was about
"Quinnie? Quinn what's wrong?" she asked immediately running to her daughter when she noticed the tears fall from her face
"I need to talk to you" she mumble as her mother sat her down on the couch and wrapped her reassuring arms around the smaller blond.
"Sure Quinnie, what's up?" she said practically panicking
"It's about something serious, so I need you to be serious too" Quinn stated looking up at her mother with watery eyes
"Oh Quinnie I'm always serious and…oh my god Lucy Quinn Fabray, you're pregnant?" she assumed
"What? No how would I even…never mind I'm not knocked up" Quinn replied, slightly wondering why her mother's mind would instantly go to that, but she chose not to ask
"Oh then talk away please" Judy smiled at her daughter, gesturing to the girl to go on
"When you were with dad and you found out about his affairs, how did that make you feel?"
Judy gave her daughter's question some thought before replying "Well, I felt like we were no longer on the same wave length, like suddenly he was this whole new man that I never knew about" she paused and it was like she was debating on saying something else and she did "I hated him, and I hated myself even more for being with him. I knew I deserved better and so that's what led to us getting a divorce"
"So it was a bad thing?"
"Of course, all secrets are bad if you feel like you have to lie to your own wife about them. I mean you're meant to be able to talk to your partner, secrets and all" Judy informed
"Hmm that's pretty much what Santana said too" Quinn said softly remembering the Latina's words from the other day at the restaurant
"What's this all about anyway Quinn?"
"It's nothing, I was just…" Quinn started before being interrupted by her mother again
"Come on Lucy, I know you better than anyone and I know something is bothering you, now talk to your mommy about it and she'll make it all better" Judy promised with confidence
"I don't think you can this time mom. I really screwed up" Quinn admitted before fresh tears began to run down her face and her mother pulled her in closer
"What did you do, honey?"
Quinn knew it was now or never, she had to tell someone, and she knew she'd have to tell Rachel whether she was scared or not, but telling her mother may make it easier to talk to Rachel "I'm lying to Rachel about something that I know means a lot to her" Quinn confided sniffling a little as her mother began to stroke her hair
"Oh, are you not really a lesbian, because I can see how that could be awkward"
"No, no, I'm definitely a lesbian and I am definitely in love with Rachel, that's not the problem" Quinn said confidently
"Then tell me Quinn, I may know you but I can't read your mind and better out than in as that green thing from the movies always says" Judy said as she played with more of Quinn's hair
"Promise you won't judge me or hate me" Quinn asked genuinely concerned her mother was gonna hate her after this
"Oh Quinn you know I don't judge you, I love you, you're my daughter. Only god judges and even he gets it wrong a lot of the time" Judy replied and Quinn wasn't sure whether that was meant to be a joke or not so she just left it
"Well…when me and Rachel first…when we first, you know, slept together" Quinn began before shifting in her mother's arms getting slightly uncomfortable "Well I told her I was a virgin, but I wasn't and at first the lie seemed ok but for a few weeks now it's just been getting to me and it's starting to eat me away and I can barely be around her anymore without feeling bad about it. I know I need to tell her the truth, she deserves to know but I just know she's gonna hate me" Quinn's tears began to flow more freely and she no longer cared that she was crying like a baby, she just wished she wasn't in this mess in the first place.
"Why did you lie?"
"Because I'm an idiot and cause she was always saying how she wanted hers and our first time to be special and I just thought if she believed I was a virgin too then she'd think it was more special" Quinn explained
"I can see your intentions, though I do think it was wrong of you to lie, I believe she does deserve to know"
"I know, but I know she's gonna dump me and I can't lose her mom"
"Look Quinn, Rachel loves you; even a blind man can see that. She may be upset at first but she'll come round, especially if you tell her your reasons why" Judy said in her motherly way
"You think?" Quinn asked with hope in her tone
Judy gave a warm smile "She's a smart girl isn't she?"
"I've been pushing her away ever since and I'm surprised she hasn't dumped me already. God I'm such an ass, I mean there she is talking about starting a future together and having a family and all I can think of is how I'm lying to her over this. I don't even deserve her" Quinn spoke like this was a major revelation for herself
"Come on Quinn, you made a mistake, it happens to all of us but you can fix it by standing up and facing you fears, make it up to her"
"Thanks mom" Quinn smiled to her mother and hugged her as Judy wiped away her stray tears with her thumb
"Anytime Quinn" the pair sat on the couch for several minutes in silence just enjoying the moment. Judy was first to break the silence "Oh Quinnie? Was this first time male or female?" Judy asked
"It was a girl mom"
"Thank god" Judy breathed a sigh of relief but decided she wouldn't ask any more questions as it was none of her business, at least for now.
"I'm gonna go and call Rachel, let her know I'm ok, I kinda ran out on her, another thing she can add to the list of 'why Quinn Fabray is a jerk'. Thanks for the advice mom"
"That's ok Quinn, now go call her" Judy gestured for Quinn to leave and so she took her cell phone and made her way upstairs to her room. When she got there she closed the door and made sure to lock it, she now knew better than to leave it open for any reason.
She pressed Rachel's number who of course was number one on her speed dial; something Santana didn't take too kindly to but eventually accepted being number two. Rachel answered the phone almost immediately "Hey Quinn, how are you? Did you get home ok? You're not in hospital are you?" the brunette frantically asked
Quinn giggled at the overreaction "Baby no, I'm fine, really. I just wanted to tell you that I was ok" Quinn smiled to herself.
"Oh ok, so you'll be at school tomorrow?" Rachel asked worriedly
"Course I will, couldn't miss seeing you now could I?" Quinn said knowing that tomorrow won't be easy. The couple spent the next hour just talking and laughing before they said their 'goodbyes' and 'see you tomorrow' and 'I love yous'
The next day at school:
Quinn found Rachel at lunch and told herself she had to tell her the truth now or never and so she took her to an empty classroom which immediately worried Rachel "Quinn what are you doing?" she asked as she watched Quinn close the classroom door
"I need to tell you something Rachel" the blond responded walking her over to a table and sitting her down on top of it "It's something you're not gonna like but you need to know"
"Oh god" Rachel whispered knowing this tone Quinn was using usually meant a fight was about to happen or tears were about to fall
"Please just hear me out before you slap me" Quinn locked eyes with Rachel and Rachel was already looking half angry and half disappointed at what she was about to confess. "You know I love you right Rach?"
"Of course I know that, I love you too" Rachel responded as Quinn took Rachel's hands in hers "Quinn just tell me please" Rachel was beginning to panic
"Fine I can do this…you know when we first got together and you told me you wanted our first time to be special and you were a virgin so it needed to be extra special?" Rachel nodded along as Quinn spoke "Well I told you I was a virgin too but…I wasn't a virgin, I only told you that cause I thought it would make it more special for you if you thought we were both in the same place, I didn't want to freak you out"
Rachel seemed stunned by the revelation, she had always believed they had lost their virginity to one another on the same night and that was something she held in a special place in her heart, but now knowing that wasn't the case she didn't know what to do or what to think. She wanted to take Quinn up on slapping her but she couldn't do that. She stood up and pulled her hands away from Quinn's "So you lied to me?" she said in a tone that was between angry and upset
Quinn panicked and stood up also, facing Rachel who was now looking at the ground, unable to look Quinn in the eyes "Yes and I'm so sorry Rachel, it was stupid to lie and I should have just told you the truth from the start but I was afraid you'd be even more scared"
"When?" Rachel asked tears starting to form in her big brown eyes
Quinn hesitated before answering "It was at the end of freshmen year, during the summer, I didn't even know you then"
"Who was it?"
"Rach"
"Who did you sleep with? Do I know her or him or it?" Rachel looked back up at Quinn, anger in her eyes
"It was a girl I met in a summer course my mom sent me on. Her name was Jess and she was the same age as me. It was when I was confused about my feelings and figuring myself out and it just happened. I mean one moment we were just talking and then she kissed me and the next thing I knew we were doing a lot more than just kissing. Rachel I'm so sorry I didn't tell you about her but I just didn't want you thinking that that's what I'm like, I regretted doing it right away and after that summer I didn't even see her again" Quinn explained, needing Rachel to understand
"How many times?"
"Just the once, I swear and it only lasted like a few minutes" Quinn assured before mentally kicking herself for her choice of words
"Oh so nothing much has changed then Quinn" Rachel retorted in anger
"Please Rachel, you've gotta forgive me" Quinn tried to grab Rachel's hands once more but Rachel simply pulled away
"No Quinn, I can't do this right now ok, I need some time to think about this. You lied to me and yes I appreciate your reasons why and the fact you're telling me the truth now but that still doesn't make it right. This is far from right Quinn, I need to go" Rachel turned around and walked towards the door
"Rachel, please, please don't do this, I love you" Quinn tried to follow her
"Quinn please stop talking and don't follow me, I will come to you when I can look at you again, but right now I need to go cry" Rachel admitted before running out the room and most likely off home as Quinn didn't see Rachel in any of her classes or in glee later that day and Rachel never missed glee. Quinn felt worse now than she did when she was lying to Rachel and she guessed that's what she deserved. She tried to call Rachel but she didn't answer her phone, she text the girl but no replies came, she even went over to the brunette's house only to find on the door a sign that said 'go away Quinn Fabray'. She decided to give Rachel some time as that's what she had asked for, so she went back to her own home to find a text waiting on her phone from Santana, of course it was Santana no one else was gonna text her. Everyone had practically figured out something had gone down between the couple when Rachel didn't turn up for glee, and they saw Quinn looking so depressed and hurt. Quinn had heard all the whispers and she tried to ignore them but it was hard when they were coming from every direction.
She made one last attempt at phoning Rachel but only got her voicemail, this time she left a message "Hey Rach, I know you don't want to talk to me right now but I just want you to know, I'm not gonna give up. I love you and you mean more to me than anything in the world and I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am, I wish I never even met that girl. Please, please, please don't hate me Rach, I love you" she finished her message, wiping away a tear then decided to see what Santana wanted
Quinn opened Santana's text waiting for the jokes but that wasn't what she got this time round
From Santana:
Hey Quinn, get your round butt over to mine, me and Britts will cheer you up :) xxx
Quinn smiled and knew Santana was being serious because it was rare for the Latina to put kisses on a text directed to anyone other than Brittany. So she decided she would take her friends up on their offer and she headed over to Santana's place, hoping they could indeed cheer her up.
"Hey come on in, Britt is in my room head on up" Santana said warmly inviting Quinn into her home, the blond made her way upstairs while Santana went to the kitchen to get some snacks and soft drinks. "Just like old times hey?" Santana commented walking back into her room, seeing Quinn had taken a seat on the end of her bed whereas Britt was still at the head of it.
"Thanks" Quinn said when Santana handed her a can of soda, Santana sat down next to Brittany who gave her a kiss on the cheek which made Quinn look away not wanting to think about love right now, but it seems that was what was gonna happened anyway
"So what's going on between you and Rachel then Quinn?" Santana asked with a slight pity sigh
"We broke up, ok that's that, she deserves better anyway" Quinn said believing her own words
"That's bullshit Quinn, you two are perfect for each other, everyone knows that"
"What did you do?" Britt asked, taking a sip of her own soda and looking at Quinn with great interest
"I lied to her, I told her about something" Quinn replied
"Something? What the fuck does that mean, what did you tell her?"
"I told her I was a virgin when we first did it, but I wasn't and I told her the truth about it today, ok?" Quinn stated almost annoyed she had to explain it yet again
"Wait you weren't a virgin? Seriously, why didn't you tell us, we're supposed to be friends?" Santana seemed offended by this
"Cause I wasn't proud of it ok? I regretted it as soon as it happened and I wish it never did happen"
"I knew it; I knew you were hiding something since the party. I could so see it on your face; truth is I think Rach might have known too, like a little bit anyway. She knew you were acting weird, she was probably just too scared to mention it" Santana explained
"You think?"
"Probably, I mean Rachel is pretty smart. She knows you like the back of her hand, she's definitely gonna know when you're hiding something"
"God I'm such an idiot, I can't believe I was so stupid, I should have never of lied to her"
"Nope, you shouldn't have. So was she hot?" Santana asked catching Quinn off-guard
"What? Who?" Quinn asked completely confused
"The chick you lost your V card to, duh" San stated
"Does it fucking matter Santana!? I've just lost my girlfriend, the only thing I actually care about is gone and all you can ask about is whether she was good looking. I was more concern about not sucking in bed San!"
"Oh come on Q we all know you're killer under the sheets" Santana joked, perhaps pushing her luck a little too far
"Fuck off Santana! I don't need more shit getting in the way right now, I've already fucked up too many times, and I don't need you talking about the party anymore!" Quinn growled
"Whoa ok Blondie calm down yeah?"
"Your girlfriend is blond too San" Quinn said pointing at Brittany who began playing with her own hair and was just laying back and watching the show between her two friends
"Ok I'm sorry that was insensitive. Ok so is she even taking your calls?"
"Nope, I've called her about 20 times, left her messages, texted her like 40 times, she hasn't replied once" Quinn explain sadly "I should have just told her the fucking truth in the first place" Quinn shook her head hating herself more than ever right now
Britt decided to speak up and placed a hand on Quinn's knee "Don't worry Quinnie, she'll come around, if she loves you as much as we know she does, she'll be back" Britt said in her way that makes everything seem alright even when everyone knows it's not
"Thanks B, but I'm just not so sure, I mean I really fucked everything up. I love her and I screwed up"
"Can't believe you had sex before I did" Santana said automatically gaining a stern glare from Quinn
"You should get one of those blow up doll girlfriends Quinn" Britt suggested, Quinn looked at Brittany knowing she'd rather have the real thing "San used one of those once right Sanny?" Britt looked at her girlfriend placing a hand on the girl's thigh
"Thought we agreed to never mention that again babe, and don't get one, trust me, they really aren't as much fun as they seem" Santana shook her head
Quinn just rolled her eyes, of course Santana had tried that, what hadn't those two tried? But right now she was just happy to have someone with her that didn't make her feel worse about what she did
Flashback:
Quinn's Summer course:
Quinn was laying on her dorm room bed, no one else was around as they were all in their classes but Quinn decided to skip today she just could be bothered, she didn't want to come to this stupid summer course in the first place, she didn't need it, she thinks her mom only sent her here so she didn't have to put up with her over the summer vacation
"Hey why are you in here?" a girl asked Quinn
Quinn looked up at the girl standing over her bed "I didn't wanna go to class, why are you here?"
"Same, that class is as boring as watching my grandmother knit so I skipped out" the girl said smiling confidently
"Cool" Quinn replied
"What's your name, I'm Jessica, but I'll kick your ass if you call me that so you can just call me Jess" the girl informed sticking out her hand for Quinn to shake
Quinn looked up at the girl, she'd seen her before, walking around the summer camp but she hadn't yet spoken to her till today, she had long brown hair that was curled all over in a neat and almost professional way, she also had brown eyes and was just a little shorter than her. Quinn knew right away this girl was pretty and she wouldn't mind having one friend here so she stuck out her own hand and shook Jessica's "I'm Quinn"
"Quinn. I like that, it's a nice name" Jess said with a smile
"Um thanks, Jess is a nice name too" Quinn smiled back
"So you wanna hang out, considering we're both skipping class?" Jess laughed
"Sure sounds good" Quinn agreed and the girl sat down on the bed next to her as Quinn sat up
A few days later the girls were yet again skipping their class and just hanging out on Quinn's bed once more just talking about their homes lives, family and friends and complaining about how boring it was at this summer course "God it's like my mom just wanted to ship me off" Jess laughed
"That's what I thought. My mom didn't even ask me if I wanted to come here she just told me I was going, I'd much rather be hanging out with my friends back home, it's so dull here, there's nothing to do" Quinn explained
"Well there's an arcade room but most of the games are broken" Jessica giggled
"I know I tried to play the pinball but the machine wouldn't even take my quarter" Quinn laughed back
"And there are like no hot guys here either" Jess complained
"Oh…um…I guess not, I hadn't really noticed" Quinn replied almost questioning herself as to why she hadn't noticed
Jess looked at her before continuing "Oh other than the guy who works in the kitchen, he's so hot" the girl admitted, swooning over the memory of him
"He's like 25 or something" Quinn informed
"So, he's still sexy. Why? Don't you like him?" Jess asked curiously
"Uh not really no" Quinn looked at her hands slightly nervous
Jess immediately looked stunned "What about the guy who runs the after class activities?"
"Ew no, definitely not" Quinn dismisses right away, forcing Jessica to become even more shocked by this
"Are you kidding me? He is so…oh god there just aren't any words for what he is. Let's just say I wouldn't mind having my very own private after class session with him if you know what I mean?" Jess wiggles her eyebrows and smirks at Quinn
"No, that's disgusting, he is not…just no"
"Geeze well who do you like then?" she asks
Quinn shrugged "I don't know, but not any of them"
"Wait a minute…are you…you know, gay?"
"What!? No, no way, I'm not…that!" Quinn desperately replied
"Ok calm down, I was just asking. Its ok you know, It's not a bad thing, my aunt is gay, she's married to a woman and they even have a kid, she's really nice" Jess explains
"Well that's awesome for her but I'm not…gay I don't know what I am I've never really thought about it" Quinn furrowed her brow trying to think it through. Why had she never found boys attractive? Why had she always looked at that one special girl at her school in a different way than she looked at other girls?
"Well then how do you know you're not gay?" Jess asked genuinely
"I don't know I guess I'm just…" Quinn was stopped with a kiss, Jessica was kissing her, Jessica who was a girl, Jessica who was a pretty girl who looked very similar to the girl Quinn liked to see at school. She was kissing a girl, and she liked it, not only that she realised this was her very first kiss. She didn't really know what she was doing but she didn't want to stop but at the same time she did. Quinn pushed Jess back "What the hell are you doing?" Quinn said wiping her mouth and tasting Jessica's sweet bubble-gum lip-gloss.
"Relax I was just kissing you, I'm sorry I thought you'd like it" Jess apologised sounding genuinely regretful
Quinn thought about it for a second, she didn't want Jess to say sorry because she was actually enjoying it "I did like it; it just took me by surprise that's all. I've never kissed anyone before" Quinn confessed and Jess smiled
"That's ok; I've never really kissed anyone with boobs before. Guys are far sloppier, your lips were soft" Jess smiled
"Thanks, yours tasted good" Quinn smiled back
"Do you wanna try it again?" Jess asked cautiously
"Yeah I do" Quinn smiled again getting more excited over the fact she was experiencing a whole new sensation
Jess nodded and leaned back in to capture Quinn's lips again, Quinn lay back on the bed and Jess was soon on top of her as their kiss began to deepen and tongues began to meet. Quinn's hand absentmindedly found its way to Jessica's butt and began to gently caress the soft skin. Jess moaned into Quinn's mouth and began to grind down on the blonde's thigh and her own pressed into Quinn's centre "Oh fuck!" Quinn groaned out
Jess pulled back from the kiss "What's wrong, did I do something bad?" she panicked
"No, no just your leg on me like that felt really good" Quinn smiled looking down at their lower halves
"Well then maybe I'll do it again" Jess giggled before carrying on with their intimate kiss. A few minutes on and the pair was practically dry humping each other right there on Quinn's temporary bed, both girls panting hard and moving against each other quickly finding an expert pace and keeping a good rhythm, like they had done it before. Jess decided to move this along, she wanted more and she knew Quinn did too even if she wasn't about to admit it. Jess let her hand run down Quinn's body and rest on her belt before undoing it then making quick work of Quinn's Jean's button next. Quinn felt the intrusion and shifted under the brunette, knocking her back slightly.
"What are you doing?" she asked worriedly
"What does it look like?" Jess smirked before trying to continue with her task only to be stopped by Quinn once again
"But we can't…I've never...done, that before" Quinn spoke shyly
Jess tried to reassure her with another kiss "Don't worry, I know what I'm doing, I'll help you" she said as her hand finished its mission and popped the button on Quinn's pants. She leaned in to Quinn's ear and whispered hotly "Take them off" she commanded and Quinn was nervous but she really did like the way this girl was making her feel 'down there' and she didn't want to stop. Plus this meant she wouldn't be a virgin anymore and she really did want to get rid of that status, she would even get to lose it before Santana, the thought made her smile as she lifted her hips off the bed and slipped her pants off just as Jess flung her own top away to reveal she wasn't wearing a bra…ok maybe she was a little gay Quinn thought to herself as she saw Jessica's perfectly rounded young breasts. Quinn tried not to look too hypnotised; she had never seen a girl naked before, well not in person anyway, only on TV and occasionally on the internet. Jess reached down to tug her own skirt off and drop it on the floor leaving her in just her panties as she looked on gesturing for Quinn to take her own shirt off.
Quinn quickly obeyed and revealed she too was not wearing a bra; her breasts weren't really all that big so she often didn't wear one at all. Jessica leaned back down in an instant and re-joined their lips in a passionate kiss and Quinn couldn't help herself as her right hand sprung up to fondle the girl's chest and flick her thumb over an already stiffening nipple. Jess whimpered in pleasure before gasping out "God you learn fast, are you sure you haven't done this before?"
"Oh I'm sure" Quinn grinned before flipping them over so she was on top, she didn't know why she did that but she felt more in control of what she was doing if she was on top. She looked down at Jess and scanned the young flawless body underneath hers, then she realised she had no idea what she was doing, she had seen this sort of thing on TV and even read about it but hadn't really figured out what two girls did together "I don't know what I'm doing" she confessed even more shyly than before, her cheeks starting to blush, mostly from being crazy turned on but also from slight embarrassment.
"That's ok, I'll show you" Jess assured as she ran her hand down from Quinn's stomach (her abs not yet fully formed) and her fingertips dipped into Quinn's underwear waistband, but yet again she was stopped when Quinn freaked
"Wait" Quinn said knowing how close Jess was to feeling her arousal
"It's ok, it will feel good, I promise" Jess smiled and once she received a confident nod of approval from Quinn she let her fingers push further into the blonde's underwear. Quinn immediately felt fingers brush down her sex and gently find her hardened clit in seconds. Jess started up a simple rhythm of stroking the sensitive nub, slowly building Quinn up to release. Quinn knew what to expect, she had masturbated several times before and had always been able to make herself come but having someone else touch her in that way just made her feel like she was on another planet. It was the greatest feeling in the world.
Quinn stopped Jess one last time but this time round she wasn't shy about it, she gestured to Jess to remove the last of her clothing as did she, and they both took off their panties and now were pressed against one another completely naked. Quinn couldn't believe this was happening, she had only just met this girl a few days ago and she was about to lose her virginity to her. She didn't really know what had taken her over but she guessed it must have been 'passion' and 'excitement' because the way this girl was making her feel with each touch and kiss was certainly better than anything she had ever experienced before and she just didn't want it to stop. She was ready to go all the way. She kissed Jessica just as Jess took Quinn's hand and placed it against her own sex "Touch me here" she whispered and took her own hand back to Quinn's clit
Quinn ran her fingers up Jessica's length curiously feeling the wetness as it slowly coated her fingertips, then she pressed her fingers against Jess's own clit and they both started up the same rhythm they had before when dry humping each other. "Jesus fuck" Quinn panted as she built up quicker than she usually would and came within a minute and a half of Jess starting to touch her.
Jess ran her through her pleasure until she finished coming and shuddering above her and collapsed on top of the other girl "That was really good" Quinn smiled, currently dancing around on cloud 9 as she recovered from her breathlessness "I'm sorry I didn't last long, is that bad?" Quinn asked slightly ashamed she couldn't last long enough to make Jess climax too
"No it's not a bad thing, I mean it was your first time" Jess smiled to reassure Quinn
"Do you want me to…finish you?" Quinn asked shy again as she gestured downwards
"Have you ever eaten out before?"
"Well my mum takes me to a place called Breadstix sometimes" Quinn replied clueless
Jess giggled at Quinn "God you're cute. I mean have you ever eaten a girl out before, you know like go down on her?"
"Oh, right, no I haven't" Quinn shook her head, or course that's what she meant
"You wanna learn?" Jess asked with a smile
"I don't think I'll be that good at it" Quinn shrugged
"It's ok, just give it a go"
Quinn climbed off the bed as Jess positioned herself at the edge of the mattress; Quinn got to her knees in front of the brunette and was face to face with Jessica's sex. It was still very wet and pink and Quinn couldn't help but think it kinda looked cute, she wondered if that was normal for a girl to think another girl's private parts were attractive in anyway but she soon forgot it when Jess said "Just lean in and use your tongue"
"My tongue?" Quinn questioned wondering what she was meant to do with her tongue
"Yeah, just lick my clit" Jess suggested and Quinn hesitated slightly but soon leant forward until she was overwhelmed with the strong aroma of arousal coming from Jessica
"You smell really good" Quinn smiled up
"Wait until you taste me" Jess grinned excitedly
Quinn was a little more hesitant about 'tasting' another girl, she remembered being curious one night after getting herself off and she tasted herself. She kinda liked it, and it definitely tasted better than she had originally thought it was gonna, but tasting another girl was a whole new thing all together. She placed her hands on the girl's legs and shuffled closer, looking up one last time into Jess's eyes "Go on, try it"
Quinn's tongue darted out and carefully stroked Jessica's clit; Jess instantly moaning and bucking her hips involuntarily. Quinn was slightly surprised by Jess's reaction but continued to flick the bundle of nerves with her wet tongue. "Oh Quinn, you're really good at that" Jess panted, her fingers tangling in Quinn's blond hair. Quinn smiled, she was rather proud of her instant success at oral sex.
It wasn't long till Jess was shuddering in orgasm and moaning breathlessly as Quinn carried her though her climax. "Oh my god, that was amazing" Jess gasped as Quinn climbed back onto her bed and wiped her mouth with the back of her hand.
Suddenly something seemed wrong and Quinn wasn't so sure she should have done that, she looked over at Jess who was already throwing her clothes back on. "What are you doing?" Quinn asked feeling a little guilty about doing this, knowing the first time was meant to be 'special' whatever that meant
"I'm getting dressed what does it look like?" Jess replied almost coldly "I suggest you do the same before someone walks in here and catches us like this. I don't want people getting the wrong idea here"
"What do you mean the wrong idea?" Quinn questioned
"Well I'm not a dyke like you, I mean its ok and all but this was just fun and that's all"
"Well it meant something to me, it was my first time" Quinn said sadly
"Yeah it was good, but it won't happen again. We just got caught up in the moment that's all, I'm sorry but I just don't like girls the way you do" Jess said as she finished getting dressed and got up from the bed. She looked down at the still naked Quinn who sat sadly and said "I've gotta go, I'll see you around I guess" she said before she walked off leaving Quinn all alone
"But I never said I was gay" Quinn whispered to herself before picking up her own shirt and pulling it back on over her head. She may not be a virgin anymore but this experience did make a whole lot of sense to her, maybe she was gay, maybe she just wanted some fun too like Jess, the only thing she knew for sure was only time would tell
End of flashback
The next day:
At school Quinn knew she had to seek out Rachel and make it her mission to make the love of her life hear her out; she just hoped Rachel was actually in school today. She had her first class with Rach so she knew she'd be able to see her then if she turned up at all.
Quinn walked into her world geography lesson and was surprised to see Holly Holliday standing by the board, writing up the day's lesson, which seemed odd as Holly never made them do any work usually but she ignored it for now and took her regular seat. The class was empty so far and Quinn began to think Rachel wasn't gonna show up again due to the fact she always got here before anyone else. Quinn wondered what she could say to make it up to Rachel, she knew 'sorry' probably wouldn't be enough but she had to try something.
"Oh hi Quinn, didn't hear you come in" Holly smiled when she turned around to see Quinn sat in her seat "How are we this fine morning?" she asked happily
"Not so good, why are you here?"
"Isn't it obvious, I'm your sub" she said smiling wider but getting no response from Quinn "Oh don't act too excited"
"Sorry, I'm just not in a very good mood today that's all" she replied, and Holly thought about asking 'why' but just as she opened her mouth, several other students made their way in, followed shortly by Brittany dragging in Santana behind her, the girls took their seat behind Quinn and Santana leant forward.
"Hey Q, where's Berry? Is she not in again?" Santana whispered
Quinn turned around to face Santana "I don't know, I haven't seen her today"
"I have" Britt chimed in
"Where?" Quinn asked needing to know
"Right behind you" Britt pointed to Rachel who had just walked into the classroom. The brunette stopped in her tracks when she saw the three girls staring at her, she made a quick choice not to sit near Quinn, instead she made her way over to a spare seat on the other side of the classroom and sat near Tina who was apparently in the class too but no one seemed to notice…as usual
"Hey Rach" Tina said
"Hey Tina, do you mind if I sit here?" she asked politely pointing to the spare seat
"No, that's ok" the girl smiled sweetly
"Thank you" Rachel replied only to dishearten Quinn once more who was looking like a little lost puppy sat all by herself.
"Hey Rach?" Quinn whispered but Rachel just ignored her "Rachel, please talk to me" Quinn begged only to be hushed by Miss Holliday
"Ok class, so apparently Principle Figgins actually wants me to teach you guys something that you may use in the future and he's given all the teachers new teaching rules and so I have to stick to them. So please sit quietly while I come around and hand out these worksheets" Holly said as she took the pile of worksheets and began to go around the class handing them out to the students
Quinn took this opportunity to try and talk to Rachel again "Hey Rachel, I'm sorry, really I am, but will you please just give me a chance to make this right again" she said not really caring several other students could hear her and were listening in
"Leave me alone Quinn, I don't want to talk to you right now" Rachel said stubbornly
"Please Rach"
"Quinn I've already told you, please stop communicating with the rest of the class and get on with the worksheet provided" Holly reprimanded completely out of character for her usual fun and upbeat self
Quinn decided she best do something that looked like work before she got into real trouble. She looked down at the sheet which right now had no interest to her whatsoever, she couldn't concentrate on what African country is the biggest or what part of the UK receives more rainfall, she couldn't careless, the only thing on her mind was how much she had hurt Rachel and how much she needed to make it right
"Rachel can you meet me after school, please, just let me talk, just five minutes" she pleaded, desperate for a yes but Rachel continued to ignore her
"Right, I'm sorry Quinn but I've got to give you detention, Figgins says if I have to warn a student three times they have detention with me after school" Holly said regretfully
"Fuck" Quinn muttered under her breath, hearing Santana snigger from behind her "Fuck you San" Quinn threw back at her, she already had detention so it's not like it mattered much now
By the end of the day Quinn decided to skip glee, she knew Rachel was gonna go and she decided it was best to stay away, she was lucky she had only a couple of classes with Rachel that day so they didn't have to see each other much, but in the ones she did have Rachel just ran out the classroom as quickly as possible so she didn't have to face Quinn. Quinn was walking through the corridor on her way to see Miss Holliday, she thought if she showed up early for detention maybe Holly would let her go early, on the way to the classroom she walked pasted Rachel's locker. Quinn quickly scribbled down a note to please meet her after detention to talk and then she pushed it in Rachel's locker. She didn't think for one moment Rachel would actually come but she had to have hope, right?
She walked in to detention to see Miss Holliday sat at the desk reading one of her gossip magazines again; Quinn had to laugh a little because it was so expected. When Holly heard Quinn she quickly stopped reading and covered her magazine with some lesson planning she had. "Oh I thought you were Figgins" she said with a surprised gasp
"God, I hope not"
"He's not letting us read magazines either so" she explained "Anyway aren't you a little early?" Holly asked looking at her watch
"I skipped glee so I thought I'd just come here early and then get out early, if that's ok?" Quinn said hopeful
"Oh sure, that just means I can leave early too. Take a seat, anywhere you want and I'll get you some work to do" Holly said looking through the teacher's desk for some sort of 'punishment work'
Quinn walked to the closest seat, not that it mattered where she sat this time, and dropped herself down in a slump and huff. Holly came over and placed a couple of sheets of work on her desk, "Here we go, you can do this" she said, pleased with her new way of teaching, but hating having to be tough when she was known as the 'cool' teacher
"I shouldn't even be here, I didn't do anything wrong" Quinn protested a little pissed she was stuck in detention
Holly sat on the desk next to hers and looked down at her "Quinn you were talking during class when I had specifically told you several times to stop"
"But I thought you were cool with all that?" Quinn furrowed her brows looking down at the worksheet in front of her; she sure was bored of these
"Well like I said before you can blame Figgins for all that, he's got a bunch of new rules in place that prevent me from doing a lot. I think he found out about the DVD I showed you guys and apparently he didn't like that, instead of firing me he gave me a lecture and a list of 'stick to rules'" Holly explained, sounding a little pissed herself that she now had so many restrictions "Don't worry I'm sure he'll forget soon enough and we can go back to relaxing during substitute lessons" she assured
"Great so now I'm stuck in here, when I could be out there patching things up with Rachel" Quinn slumped even further back in her chair, not even attempting to answer the questions in front of her.
"Trouble in paradise?" Holly asked curiously
"You could say that" Quinn murmured with a deep sigh
"Well, I can be a pretty good listener if, you know, you want to unload on me…your problems that is" Holly said almost suggestively
Quinn sighed again, she liked Holly and she was probably her favourite teachers next to Mr Schue, but she still didn't know whether or not she should be talking to a teacher about this but no one else would listen, other than Santana and Brittany who while being comforting did still make the occasional joke because that's just the way they were. Also she had her mother but sometimes her mom could just be a little overbearing too, with Holly she could talk to her and have someone who was laid back but also serious when she needed to be so she decided to spill. "I lied to Rachel about our first time, I told her I was a virgin but I wasn't and now she hates me for it and so she should, it was stupid to lie to her"
"Most people would lie and say they weren't a virgin" Holly said
"I just wanted to make her feel more comfortable for when we did do it and if she thought we were both in the same place then she wouldn't feel as worried about it, I just wanted it to be special for her. I thought if she believed I was as inexperienced as she was then it would be more special, but I guess in the long run it was a huge mistake, I just didn't want to freak her out" Quinn said absentmindedly scribbling on her paper
"It seems like your intentions were correct just not the way you chose to handle them or the situation" Holly rationalised in a similar way her mother had done previously
Quinn sighed once more before slumping down even more in her chair "What do I do? I mean everyone keeps telling me she'll come around but why should she? She shouldn't forgive me for lying to her, especially over something so important to her. I'm meant to be her girlfriend for fuck sake and girlfriends don't lie to each other"
"Mine did" Holly shrugged and Quinn just looked at her half surprised but also half completely not, "It was back in the 90s but still. Quinn some things just don't work out and other things fix themselves in time"
"I just want her back. I need her, I love her and maybe it took me losing her to realise just how much she really means to me but she's everything to me, I can't imagine my life without her, it sounds stupid but its true" Quinn confessed trying her best not to tear up in front of her teacher
"Wow, no one has ever said that to me" Holly realised before continuing "But you do know the percentage of high school romances that last right?"
"That doesn't matter to me, there's no one else in the world I want other than Rachel. She's all I've ever wanted, ever since I first saw her face. She's the most beautiful girl I've ever met and will ever meet and she's all I'll ever need. I can't lose her over some stupid mistake. It's only ever been her and she needs to know that" Quinn stands up almost knocking her chair over, under the impression she's about to go see Rachel and make things right, that is until Holly reminds her of her detention
"I'm sure she knows Quinn and as much as I admire your true love with the girl, I can't let you go until you've served your time" the taller blond smiles sweetly
Quinn sits back down "It doesn't matter if she knows she needs to know again because me and Rach, we're gonna make it, we're gonna be the percentage that makes it, I guarantee you" Quinn insisted
"Ok, well I hope you are, you guys are cute together, I mean you're cute individually but together…well you just work" Holly says
Quinn looks up a little shocked by the fact her teacher just called her 'cute' but then again Holly has always been rather flirty "You think I'm cute?" she asks, because maybe she just heard wrong
"Oh, well what I meant is you're a sweet kid and you deserve to be happy and its clear you love Rachel, and from the way you stare at each other in class it's obvious she loves you too and I just hope you two can work out this problem. All couples go through rough patches even the most stable, but they get there in the end; problems can be solved as long as you're willing to find the solution to solve them. I mean what about your friends Santana and Brittany, they're crazy in love but I'm sure they fight all the time" Holly suggests
Quinn thinks back "Actually no I don't think I've ever seen those two fight, not once. I mean maybe they do for role play but I wouldn't know about that"
"Well I'm sure they'll fight and temporally break up and then you'll see it happens to the best of us"
"So what do you suggest I do?" Quinn asks
"Honestly I think you should let her come to you. If she's angry with you right now then the last thing she wants to see is your face showing up around every corner. When she's ready she'll come back. You know what girls are like, hell you are one, they need time over these things and as your first time was so special to Rachel she's bound to be hurt over this lie, you just need to let her recover"
"Yeah I guess. Man I really fucked up this time" Quinn muttered looking down at her hands
"And it probably won't be the last time Quinn" Holly mentioned
Quinn's head shot straight back up glaring at her sub teacher "Hey" she complained but already knew it was more than likely true
"Look I'm just saying, you'll eff up, she will eff up. It happens, you're dating, ok, fuck ups happen and you just have to accept that, it's just life. I've done some things that I deeply regret that have cost me many fantastic men…and women"
"Really? Like what?" Quinn asked excitedly wanting to know the teachers secrets
"Oh come on Quinn you know I can't tell you stuff like that, I'm your teacher"
"You're my sub teacher" Quinn corrects
"I still can't tell you" Holly smirks sneakily and Quinn just groans, damn she really wanted to know. Holly makes her way over to her desk and pulls her chair out before she sits back down, she looks back over at Quinn "Now do your worksheet before I put you in detention tomorrow afternoon too" she says with a smile and Quinn half smiles back
"I need a pen" Quinn laughs
"Shouldn't you be prepared for writing when you come to school" Holly raises her brow at the smaller blond
"It ran out of ink" Quinn casually informs with a small shrug
"Fine, you can use one of these" Holly replies leaning over to the box of pens on the desk, she pulls one out but accidently knocks the box over while doing so, causing all the pens to spill out over the floor and desk "Shit" Holly huffed
Quinn feels obliged to help as it was kinda her fault after all, she gets up and heads over. Holly is already working on picking up the pens on the desk while Quinn gets on all fours and climbs under the desk to gather up the ones scattered across the floor.
Rachel meanwhile is just getting out of glee, she's a little upset Quinn found it necessary to skip today as she loves seeing Quinn in glee but at the same time she wasn't so sad, she was glad Quinn didn't show up, she wanted to see her but she just needed a bit of time. She had never gone this long without speaking to her or at least acknowledging her presence but she also felt Quinn had done her a favour by no longer hanging around and giving her some space.
Rachel got to her locker and opened it up instantly seeing the paper note Quinn had left her, she read it and sighed to herself deeply.
To Rachel
Please, please come and meet me after school…well after detention and glee. I just wanna talk. You don't even have to say anything back, just give me five minutes. Please
Love you still, forever and always, Quinn xxx
While she did appreciate the use of formal spelling and grammar in Quinn's letter, she really didn't want to go and meet Quinn she just wanted to go home and cry some more, but on the other hand she did want to go and see her, she was still her girlfriend after all and she still loved her. She missed her and just wanted to see her dopy smile again. She fought with herself whether to go or not, in the end her heart won over her head and she decided she would go and meet Quinn but she refused to give the blond more than five minutes of her time right now. She started walking down the corridor on her way to the classroom she knew Quinn was locked up in, thinking to herself just how hot it actually was that Quinn was in detention because of her efforts to win Rachel back in the first place.
Quinn was kneeling on the floor collecting the pens, she could hear Holly continuing on with the ones still on the desk, cursing a few more times as she went. Holly hadn't moved out of her teachers chair and Quinn thought for a moment about the reality that she was actually between her favourite teacher's legs. Things were running through her mind, from the downright inappropriate to the high end of hilarious; it was rather funny when she thought about it. She found herself laughing and then she realised her hair was actually brushing Holly's bare leg; she wondered for a prolonged second if Holly also knew this, could she feel her? She must have, it must be tickling her leg with the way it was touching her skin but Holly hadn't mentioned it and it didn't seem like she was going to.
Rachel could see her destination ahead of her as she continued her trip to the classroom, she hoped Quinn would have some magical words that could make her feel better and make her forgive the blond, because that's all she wanted to do, but she couldn't do it without a reason. Quinn needed to make this up to her and she wondered if Quinn missed her as much as she missed Quinn, even if it had been just one day. When she reached the classroom door she put her hand on the nob and was about to open the door but something she saw through the door window stopped her in her tracks, something that instantly broke her heart. She couldn't see all the detail from her angle, in fact she couldn't even see Quinn's face clearly because of the desk, but she wasn't an idiot it was clear that Quinn Fabray, her (ex) girlfriend was down on her knees and between Holly Holliday's legs, her substitute teacher. She knew there was something between those two, Holly had always been far too friendly with Quinn and she didn't have to be a genius to work out Quinn was somewhat attracted to Holly, who wouldn't be right?
"Holy shit" Rachel whispered quickly hiding herself behind the wall, not that either woman was going to look in her direction anytime soon. She couldn't believe this, Quinn was cheating on her with a teacher, she wondered how long this had been going on, how many lies Quinn had spun to gain Rachel's trust and to keep her oblivious. Rachel felt sick as a new tear ran down her check, she took one last look in the door window just to make sure she wasn't seeing things, nope Quinn was definitely moving down there. She turned away again before running off down the corridor, eyes now streaming with renewed heartbreak.
Quinn noticed she could practically see Holly's panties from this angle and she then realised how weird this had become and tried to get up but she just ended up banging her head on the desk "Fucking balls!" she groaned and Holly instantly stands from her chair in panic
"Oh Quinn, are you ok?" she asks truly concerned for her student. Quinn scrambles to her feet again after almost falling over backwards; she slips the handful of pens back into the box they had escaped from and rubs at her head with gritted teeth.
"Fuck, fuck, fuckity, fuck!" she whines bouncing around hoping it will lessen her pain
"Here let me see" Holly offers, taking a step closer to the young girl
Quinn immediately puts her free hand out to stop the woman from coming towards her "No, no, it's ok it's just a scratch, honestly" she says with a hiss when her fingertips run over the already forming bump on her head.
"I'm only trying to help that's all" Holly assured
"I'm sorry I just…I saw your panties and now I feel bad" Quinn admitted not knowing what else to say, plus lies hadn't really gotten her anywhere good so far
"Oh" Holly quickly pulled her skirt down a little further to stop that from happening again
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to look, I was just down on the floor and the pens were there and then I look up and suddenly panties in my face. They're nice though, I like the colour by the way, they go well with your skin tone but I'm sorry I didn't do it deliberately" Quinn protested her innocence, as she stumbled through her words
"Quinn calm down, I'm not angry or anything, they're just underwear and thank you for noticing the colour, none of my boyfriends would have done that" Holly says almost sadly
"That doesn't count as cheating does it?" Quinn panicked, needing to know
"Quinn you just caught a glimpse under my skirt, it's totally innocent. I didn't show them to you and you didn't ask to see them so no that's not cheating" Holly giggles a little about how much Quinn seems to be overreacting, but then she sees the seriously worried look on the girl's face and stops "Hey why don't you head home early. I won't tell Figgins I let you go ten minutes early if you won't"
"You serious?" Quinn smiles
"Sure, after all I am still kick ass Holliday" she winks at the student before sitting on top of the teacher's desk
"Thanks Miss H, and again I'm real sorry about…you know" Quinn gestures to her lower area
"That's ok Q, now get outta here"
"Catch ya later" Quinn says before picking up her bag, smiling at her teacher and leaving the room
Quinn went straight home, she wanted to call Rachel or go to her house, but she figured the brunette must still be pissed when she didn't show up to meet her after class plus Holly had told her to leave her be and she would come to her. Quinn wasn't sure how long she could wait for that and by the time she got home it was clear she didn't have to wait long as Rachel was sat on her porch steps awaiting her arrival.
Quinn saw the girl; it was obvious she had been crying when Quinn saw the mascara running down her face "Have you been crying?" Quinn asked regretfully
"What do you think?" Rachel sniffed and stood up to look Quinn in the eyes
"Look Rachel I'm sorry, I didn't mean to lie to you honestly, I just wanted our first time to be special"
"Quinn I'm not here to listen to your pathetic excuses about lying, I came here because I want you to admit it to my face" Rachel said sternly
Quinn now just looked confused "Admit what?" she asked carefully, she was pretty sure she hadn't done anything else wrong recently that she hadn't already fessed up to
"You're really gonna stand there and fucking lie to me, right to my face?" Rachel tried to stop the falling tears but it was impossible. Quinn stepped forward to wrap her in a hug but was harshly pushed back by the smaller girl "Don't fucking touch me Quinn! You know I really loved you, you were all I ever wanted and you snap my heart into a million pieces like some fucking jigsaw puzzle. Do you know how that makes me feel Quinn? Do you know how much I'm hurting right now? No course you don't because you don't fucking care as long as you're getting it from someone. Is she the only one or is there more you've been fucking without me knowing!?" Rachel shouted loud enough Quinn was sure the neighbours could hear her "Does sex mean shit to you? Because it actually means something to me" Rachel said pointing to herself, more specifically her broken heart.
By now Quinn was starting to wonder if Rachel was still talking about her confessed lie, other girls, what? She hadn't been with any other girls since being with Rachel. "Rachel what are you talking about? There's only you" Quinn assured
"Fuck off Quinn. I saw you, I saw you with her and you can't even try to deny it. I can't believe you'd do this to me, I can't believe I was actually gonna forgive you for lying to me"
"Rachel what are you talking about, you saw me with who?" Quinn wondered desperate for some answers
"Don't do that Quinn, we both know you're too smart to do shit like that. I always knew you had a thing for Holly and I knew she had a thing for you, I guess I was the stupid one for not seeing this coming. I'm stupid for giving my heart to you, giving my everything to you!"
"Rachel what are you talking about?"
"I'm gonna walk away and I don't ever want to talk to you again" Rachel said staring daggers at the blond who was now beginning to cry herself as Rachel began to walk away from Quinn
"Rachel please I'll do anything, whatever you thought you saw I didn't do it, I haven't cheated on you, I'd never do that, I love you, please I'll be your slave, I'll do your homework, you can slap me, hit me, kick me, spit on me for all I care, just talk to me, tell me what you're talking about, please Rach, please" Quinn begged
Rachel quickly turned around facing the desperate girl once more "You want me to talk Quinn? Well I've only got one thing left to say, I don't know who you are anymore, and I don't want to know. I'm done. We're done" Rachel says firmly before turning away and walking off for certain this time
"Rachel no please! I didn't cheat on you, Rach!?" Quinn sobbed as she watched the love of her life walk away and out of her life.
A/N: Ok so I have no idea how you guys liked this chapter, I hope I can improve this story in future chapters, please bear with me and hopefully we can get back to the Quinn and Faberry we love from the previous chapters, and well done if you figured out what Quinn's secrete was, also I hope the little flashback on the foursome helped some of you with the fact it wasn't mentioned in the last chapter
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