I woke knowing my Andrea wasn't in bed with me, I hated feeling the cold space were my imprint should be laying. I couldn't help the smile the crept on my face as the sound of the gently breathing of the twins, who had been born of mine and Andrea's love. I turned towards the doors as Anders voice floated up the stairs.

"He said Joshua keeps invading his dreams, that bastard told him he was going to end up killing everything he loves." My heart sank at her words. I had trusted her not to tell anyone, no one could know what was really going on in my head. If they knew, let alone if Sam knew he would try to take my family away from me. Not that I could really blame him, If I were in Sam's shoes I wouldn't My pup or grand pups anywhere near me.

Andrea and Sam looked up at me as I made my way down the steps. "Hey hansom, I was hoping you would get some more sleep." Like always her smile made my heart melt, but I still felt the pain her words had caused, I had trusted her with my secret.

"Yeah I'm fine; I think I'm going to out for a bit I need some air."

"Are you okay?" I hated the look of fear on her face. I knew she was worried about me but I couldn't stay here right now feeling the way I was feeling.

"Yeah, Sam will you keep an eye on her while I'm gone?"

"You know I will." I expected Andrea to fight with me, almost every time I asked Sam to watch her she would glare and me all the while telling me she didn't need anyone to watch her. I nodded at Sam as I took off out the door unable to take another look back at my imprint.

I phased as soon as I hit the tree line, Joshua's words still strong in my head. I growled as I took off running as fast as I could through the trees. No matter what Dre said there was no one who could help me with this. The monster clung to my soul and there was nothing I could do about it. I knew if I was smart, I would leave Andrea and pups to live a peaceful life without me. I knew there was no way in hell I would be able to do that, I loved them too much, there was just no way I could live without them and be sane.

Drea's POV

I looked back at dad as soon as Paul ran out the door. "I wonder what that was all about."

"I don't know Dre; I just know he has been having a hard time coping with what he has done. He tries hiding it from the pack but he doesn't relies hiding it is a bad as confessing to something being wrong." I looked at dad, still confused about Paul.

"He'll be fine, just give him some time, Paul is a fighter."

"I know that, I just wish he would stop feeling like he is a monster. He saved my life that day, not only mine but the lives of the twins. Who knows the damage that monster would have done that day if Paul had not stepped in." Thinking of that moment still sent shudders down my spine. I would be forever grateful that Paul had been there that day. In the end he had been there for us which was all that mattered.

"I agree, I don't even want to think about the things that could have happened. I know my father was cold enough to have shot me over nothing. It would not surprise me if he was given the chance he would have killed all of us." I shuttered again as I wrapped my arms around myself.

"I just wish I could help Paul." It was the worst feeling in the world not being able to help the man I love.

"I think you do more than you know." I looked up at dad and smiled he always knew what to say to make me feel better.

"Thanks dad."

"Sam" We both looked up as mom walked through the door from their room.

"What is it Em?" dad asked rushing to her side.

"I think it is time Sam." By the look on his face I knew mom must be in labor.

"Are you sure?" I almost busted out laughing with the look of fear on his face.

"Dad get her to the hospital you nitwit." I laughed as I walked up to mom hugging her.

Dad looked over at me as I stepped away from mom. "Andrea, hurry up and get the twins ready I can't leave you here alone with Paul being gone."

"Dad just call one of the guys there is no way I can be ready in time, go get her to the hospital I will stay here." I took a step back as dad looked at me and growled. I hadn't been on the receiving end of one of his alpha glares in a long time.

"Andrea call Seth, I don't think this kid is going to wait much longer to be born." Mom said in pain as she leaned against Sam.

Grabbing the phone, I had never been so happy that the guys of the pack were light sleepers. Seth answered the phone on the first ring.

"Seth can you come over, mom went into labor and dad does not wanting to leave me here alone with the twins."

I wasn't surprised as the phone went dead; I had grown up with the pack so their bad phone manners were nothing new to me. I turned back towards mom and dad, dad was helping mom into her coat. I loved the look on their faces, even though they had been fighting for days I could tell they were together as one as they prepared to welcome into their life the child they had been waiting so long for.

"Andrea will you go get your mom's bag it's sitting next to the bed." I nodded as I disappeared into their room. By the time I made it back into the living room with bag in hand, Seth was standing next to mom hugging her.

Dad hugged me as he grabbed the bag from hand. "Thanks kiddo, don't give Seth too much of a hard time." I smiled as Seth walked up next to me.

"We will be fine Sam." He nodded as him and mom disappeared out the door.

"I'm happy for them, it's about time they had a child of their own." Seth smiled as he grabbed the remote and plopped down on the sofa. I groaned as Seth finally decided on show, nightmare on elm street number one. There was no way in hell I was going to watch that and be able to sleep.

"I'm going to head back upstairs and try to get some more sleep before the twins wake up."

"What's going on with Paul, I didn't have time to ask him on my way over here."

"He's not sleeping well." I said sadly as I sat on the bottom step looking at Seth.

"I knew something wasn't right, he hasn't been his self lately most of us just thought the reason he was so tired was because of the twins." If only that was the reason.

"I wish that was the problem, I don't really know what all is going on. I just know I don't know how to help him and its messing me up inside." Paul was and is my world if I couldn't figure how to help him soon, No I wouldn't think about what would happen I couldn't lose him.

"I think you do help him Dre, he just does not know how to open up fully about his problems yet."

"Thanks Seth." I smiled at him as I headed back up stairs.

Paul's POV

I ran farther and farther my legs burned from the speed and lack of sleep but I didn't care. I knew Andrea had been right about the ghost issue. But I didn't know if I was strong enough to tell her that I felt a monster moving in the back of my hand. What would she think of me when she knew.

I stopped as the cliff came into view, what were the odds of me surviving if I jumped, probably pretty good. I let out a wolf whimper as I turned my face into the wind blowing off the dark cold sea. I collapsed down on the grass as my eyes locked on the black midnight waves rolling in .Looking up at the sky I prayed to the spirits that I would be strong enough to fight the demon within me. I knew I couldn't do this to Andrea or the pups. I remembered what it was like growing up without a father; my heart ached at the thought of not seeing my children grow up.

"Get over it Paul, you won't see those brats grow up anyway. They will have no time for that since you will be the one to end there life's anyway."

"Shut the hell up you bastard I will never hurt my pups." I growled at the voice in the back of my head. I knew I should be used to voices in my head but this voice made me feel like a loony.

"You are crazy Paul, Kill them Paul that way they won't have to live with the monster inside you." I growled as I shook my head as I stood shaking my head feeling like a big dog shaking water out of its ears. I knew I had scared Dre by running out the way I had. I took off running back towards Sam and Emily's. I suddenly felt tired, all I wanted to do now was cuddle up with my imprint and sleep for days, even if that is no way remotely possible due to the fact that we are parent's now.

"You were a parent Paul, Now you are a crazed monster whom with destroy his own children in the end." I growled annoreing the voice in my head.

The rain began to fall as I made my way back towards my family; I knew I had to tell Dre what was going on in my head, also the fact that for a terrible moment I had considered taking my own life. My fur was soaked by the time I phased back; I stood naked in the tree line staring at the house.

I took a deep breath; as I let the pull imprint fill my heart. Knowing Andrea was waiting for me made everything almost bearable. There was no way in hell I could ever left that bastard convince me of hurting her or the twins. Tugging on my wet shorts I made my way back into the house. Seth looked up at me from the sofa as I walked through the door.

"What are you doing here Seth?" I asked slightly concerned, had something happened while I was gone.

"Emily went into labor, Sam asked me to stay here with Andrea and the twins while you were out running." I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding.

"Thanks for looking after her for me Seth." I felt like an ass that I hadn't been here to look after my own imprint.

"No problem, I'm going to head home now."

"All right, night Seth." I waited till Seth left before I went upstairs; I opened the door slowly trying not to wake Dre or the kids. I smiled as Andrea opened her eyes looking at me.

"Hey, are you okay?" I nodded as I striped out of my soaked shorts, she smirked as I stood before her fully naked.

"As much as I would love to fulfill your every naughty fantasy I don't think I have the energy." I groaned as I pulled out a pair of pajama pants.

"Nah, I don't think I have it in me for that." She said as I slid into bed next to her.

"Dre, can I ask you why you told Sam what's going on with me." I watched her expression turn from relaxed to startled.

"You forget love wolf hearing."

"Are you mad at me? "I could hear the fear in her voice, my wolf growled in the back of my head, as tired as we both were he hated knowing his imprint was scared of how we would react.

"No, I was a little hurt a first."

"I'm Sorry; I never wanted to hurt you. I'm just really scared for you. I want to help you and I don't know how to help you. I think that's why I told dad. I have always gone to him when I had a problem; I guess I was hoping that maybe he had an answer for what's going on with you.

"I don't know what's going on with me love, I feel like I am going crazy."

"I really don't think that's what's going on."

"Maybe your right, all I know is I want to go to sleep and be able to sleep." I closed my eyes in contentment as she leaned forward brushing a soft kiss on my forehead and lips. She pulled me down next to her bringing the blanket up over us.

"Try to sleep my hansom wolf." I wrapped my arms around her as we both fell asleep content in each other's arms.

Sorry this took me so long to post. My excuse is college up class takes up a lot of my time now and I also write for the school newspaper. Please read and review I love reading them and they make me update faster.