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Chapter 5

I was shocked at the speed we where going now I thought the speedometer was going to break. I sat there quit unable to speak. She finally started to slow when we entered what looked like a driveway in the middle of a forest. She parked the car in front of a beautiful stone house that looked to have three floors. It was emasculate the windows were huge, the doors looked like that of a castles, and the view around it was stunning.

Alice got out of the car in a hurry I could tell this Bella person must be really important. I got out of the car and went over to Alice.

"Are you ok? What's going on Alice?" I called to her, as I grew closer.

"Shit!" she screamed as she noticed me. I was confused by her reaction. I had only known her for a few days but it seemed out of character for her to react like that.

"I should have dropped you off Edwards going to kill me!" she said still in a shriek. Just then the front door of the house flew open and there stood Edward with the anger in his face, the look Alice knew would happen.

He ran down to us so fast he looked like a blur then stopped in front of Alice. He looked at her with rage in his eyes. I was shocked. Why was he so mad? Was it really cause I was here? I stared at him looking for answers to my questions.

"How could you bring her here!" he yelled. "You know Bella's here with that mutt I don't want Abbie in this world."

He said it like I wasn't even there. Why was this Bella so important any way? Was she also a vampire? He was so entranced by the thought of her it actually hurt me but then again I new it was a one sided love.

Alice didn't say any thing but I knew she didn't have to Edward would read her mind. He looked at her and his emotion changed. The anger in his eyes grew dull and his face looked intrigued. "I should do that" answering what ever she said in her mind. He then turned to me. His beautiful golden eyes gazed into mine and I felt my body start to tingle.

"Abbie." He said. "I need you to do something for me."

My word spit out before I could think it through. "Anything." I said as face started to flush.

"You see Abbie, Bella is a girl I loved in the past but I had to let her go." He said his words filled with sorrow. "And I don't regret it but to see her like this it hurts me and I want her to think I'm ok that I've moved on. So… will you pretend to be my girlfriend."

My face went red all I wanted was to be his girlfriend so pretend was good enough for know. "What ever helps." I blurted out.

He grabbed my hand and led me to the house. I was tingling all over his cold hand intertwined with mine gave me feelings I had never felt before.

We entered the house and I saw her sitting on the couch in the middle of a plain white room. It was no wonder why he had loved her she was beautiful in a very natural earthy way. Her hair was long and brown, she had chocolate brown eyes, and a soft but natural facial structure. I notice though that she was about early thirties but looking at her I couldn't help but feel I couldn't compare. Then I saw a man I hadn't noticed before he was an extremely tall Native American with huge muscles and shaggy long hair. He sat next to Bella his arm around her waist and I know saw what had separated Edward from her.

"Edward!" she said a smile grew on her face. "It's been so long." She arose from her chair arms stretched wide and came to hug him. She suddenly stopped and looked at me. Her face changed and I saw the confusion.

Edward quickly spoke to take her attention. "So how are you?" he said "and the mutt" he growled. I looked at him confused what mutt I saw no dog. Then the man who came with Bella laughed and I grew more confused.

"I'm great blood sucker." The big native man yelled sarcastically. I quickly clued in the mutt was the native man but why did Edward call him that?

"We are great. Thank you for asking." Bella said with a sweet tone. "And Edward may I ask who this is?" she looked down at me.

"This is Abbie she's Edwards girlfriend." Alice said as she came up behind us. I started to feel uncomfortable as Alice said that. I think its because I was in front of his ex at any other time id probable be overjoyed to hear that but I wasn't right know.

"So why the visit?" Edward said changing the subject as quickly as possible.

"I wanted to see you. To know if you were ok, after we broke up so I could live a normal… well almost normal life I thought you would live alone and un happy but I seem to have that wrong." She said and looked at me again.

"I see why you picked her." The native said now at Bella's side. "The smell between them is so similar." He leaned toward me at put his hand out. "I'm Jacob. I bet blood boy over here never mentioned me." I looked to Edward I was over my head I didn't know what to do. He could tell I was freaked.

"No I hadn't. You see I only recently told her about my self, why give her nightmares." He said jokingly. "Well I wish we could stay longer but if you recall Bella parents don't seem to like me so I have to take Abbie home but please feel free to spend time with Alice." He said and turned away leading me back to the cars. I felt relief to be leaving I still had no idea what just happened.

"Wait!" Bella yelled from behind us. She walked up to us and took Edwards hand. "I'm glad you found some one." She said with a smile. Then she turned to me. "Please don't hurt him I already gave him enough pain I don't want it to happen again." She said to me. I felt bad knowing it was only an act for her. Then she turned and returned to Jacobs's side. Edward grabbed my hand and led me out.

The car ride was quite as he drove me home. I still had questions like she was older then him. Why he called Jacob mutt and so much more but for the first time since I met him I felt I should keep my mouth shut.

We parked in my driveway and I went to get out but Edward grabbed my arm. I tuned and looked at him I couldn't read his face but he just stared at me and I couldn't look away. My heart started to race as I sat there. He then leaned back into his seat and sighed.

"I guess I should tell you." He groaned. I didn't answer. He continued. "Bella and I where in love 20 years ago and I swear to her if she ever decided she wanted to live a normal life I'd let her and one day she did but I didn't realize how hard it would be for me. I had waited a hundred years for a woman like her and I had to let her go." His face grew sad. " But I'm glad I did she gets to have the life I wanted her to have I just wish it had be me and not that mutt."

"Why do you call him that?" I blurted out. I was expecting a glare of evil for not being considerate but instead he laughed. " I forgot how little you actually know," he said with a crocked grin on his face. "He's a werewolf." He said mater a factly. So that's what he meant by not bringing me into this world he didn't want me knowing there where more than just vampires. I giggled at the thought then he grabbed my attention again.

"I just wanted to for what you did I'm sure she thinks I'm happy now." He said with a sigh.

"I'm sorry about what happened." I murdered. I felt embarrassed, I hadn't done any thing to help and he was acting like I had done some thing noble. He didn't reply. I went to get out of the car but was quickly pulled in again.

This time was different though he put his cold hands on my cheeks and pulled me close. I could smell his sweet breath. My face went flush I hadn't been so close to a guy before. I looked into his eye as he kept pulling me close. My heart started to pound like a drum in my chest and then it happened. I sat there still with shock as I felt his lips press against mine. It was soft and sweet and I felt my body go week. It was all I wanted for Edward to want me but I knew this wasn't out of love it was spur of emotion that came out at the thought of Bella. I tried to push him off it wasn't right to do this not now at least. He quickly stopped as if realizing he had done some thing wrong and threw himself back. He looked away his face now had the shock I just had.

"I'm sorry." He said still looking away. "I didn't mean to I just had…"

"Its ok your up set about Bella I understand." I said with a fake grin but inside I was dieing. It hurt so much to know that kiss wasn't for me. I got out of the car in a rush my feelings where starting to take over.

"What? No! Wait you don't underst…" he started but I slammed the door and ran before I could hear the rest.

I ran to my room and jumped to my bed tears started pouring down my face. I lay there and cried at the thought of what had happened I had tried so hard to handle my crush knowing it would go away but now… but know I would be stuck with the thought of his kiss, his gentle sweet kiss that were meant for another.

I soon fell a sleep from all the crying and my mind started to wonder as I started to dream. I was alone in the dark, fear taking over. I ran trying to find a way out then I remembered. I was in the dream, the nightmare that tortured me not so long ago. I waited for the cold hands and the painful bite but it didn't come. Instead I felt the cold hands on my face holding me gently and soft lips touch mine. My surroundings went bright as the darkness around me disappeared then all I could see was Edward. I looked into his eyes and he looked into mine and I herd the soft whisper of his voice in my ear.

"Stay with me, love." And then I awoke.