Penelope had already forgotten her admirer from the deck , she was too concerned with finding a way to love Leonard.

There wasn't anything necessarily wrong with Leonard, besides that he was arrogant and constantly complaining when things didn't go his way. Traits that frustrated Penelope. She continued to walk the deck when Leonard found her.

"Penelope I was looking everywhere for you. I saw your note, did you have a pleasant walk?" He held out his arm to which she took.

"Yes very pleasant. The ship is magnificent" Penelope smiled for real.

"After lunch we should unpack your things. You have so many shoes not sure how the ship can hold them all." Leonard laughed at his own joke. Penelope laughed softly she didn't like being the brunt of a joke.

" I do have more things then just shoes. I also have my paintings."

"Ah yes all your masterpieces. I never understood your fascination with them."

Penelope took a slow breath before repling " they make me happy."

Lunch was uneventful. Leonard paraded her around like she thought. Bernadette kept a close eye on her to make sure she had a continuous smile on her face. Penelope made a impression on everyone she met. Bernadette couldn't of been more pleased with her. Penelope however was disgusted with herself.

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"I want 3 paintings out so I can look at them whenever I feel like" Penelope directed her maid Christy.

" Which ones ma'am?" Christy asked in her heavy Irish accent.

Penelope thought " I want my Van Gogh, Monet, and Renior please." She over saw where they were placed, one right next to her bed, one on the opposite wall and the third one was placed on the third wall.

Leonard and Howard were talking in the common room of their suite. "I want that in my room" Leonard said to one of the butlers who was wheeling in a safe. Howard followed to make sure nothing happened to it. Penelope glanced over at the green box, people care too much about money she thought.

"Darling really these paintings?" Leonard asked as he nibbled her neck.

"Yes" Penelope curtly replied. "They're my favorite."

"well when we share the bed tonight we'll have to take them down so I don't have to stare at them" Leonard whispered in her ear.

The thought of having to share a bed with him for the rest of her life repulsed Penelope. It wasn't that he was bad, not that she had anything else to compare it too, he just wasn't what she had imagined it to be like. Very uniform in and out boom he's done, even during that he was selfish. However didn't let his comment pass, she was quick "but aren't you only supposed to stare at me?"

Leonard had no immediate response "leave your door unlocked so I can come in."

Penelope quickly kissed his cheek. "I'm sorry not tonight, I'm not settled from being on board yet. I'm afraid I will get ill tonight if I'm not careful."

Leonard seemed to take that answer " when ever you feel better. It has been too long I need it." He kissed her neck again. Then left without another word.

'It's not even me he misses it is the actual act and I am just the person who gives it to him' Penelope shuddered at the thought. She looked down at the ground, feeling guilty to her sister for not being happier about the whole thing. But how can she be happy when she doesn't want to do this.

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" Sheldon you have to see this!" Raj called as Sheldont ran to meet him at the bow.

"We're on top of the world" Sheldon said.

" I can see the statue of liberty" Raj smiled.

"Raj that is impossible" Sheldon said condensending.

Raj frowned at Sheldon "figuritively sheldon." He looked back at the horizon " I can't believe it. I'm the first person in my family to come to America. When my family left India was a feat. This is incredible. I will be able to do anything, skys the limit."

Sheldon looked out with Raj " we can be artists, scientists, train enthusiasts, anything we want. No more with being on the bottom. You and I are going to be at the top." Sheldon patted Raj's back.

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Bernadette was watching Christy as she helped Penelope get dressed for dinner. They were to be dining with Bruce Ismay and Thomas Andrews, then men who created the ship and were very taking with Penelope. The only person Penelope was looking forward to dining with was Amelia Farrah Fowler. Amelia was infamous, she was a homegrown mid-west wife turned business woman. She became a widow and needed some money. Her husband used to invent things, she decided to sell them. She started a not so small business. People would sell her what they invented and she would sell them to the highest bidder, normally the US government.

Penelope liked her because she got to do what she loved and didn't care what people thought.

Christy had pulled out 3 dresses for Bernadette and Penelope to approve. The first was a dark green dress with a slight neck line and short sleeves. The second was a long sleeve flowy light violet and third a black beaded dress.

Penelope thought she should wear the black. It was how she felt; dark and empty.

Bernadette thought the light violet would look nice, but Penelope was adament about not wanting that one. They compromised on the green. The color of the dress brought out Penelopes eyes, that looked like emeralds.

Christy slipped the dress on and put her hair up.

"You look breath taking sister" Bernadette admired. " I feel as if my breath is being taken from me. Why must I come to these dinners? No one notices if I'm even there."

" You go because your fiance, your future husband wants you at his side. Mr. Howard told me that Leonard speaks of you quite often and in the highest regards."

"Mr. Howard is a boar. I despise him so. How can you even talk to him? Besides what else is he going to say to my sister." Penelope fiddled with her necklace as she looked at her reflection. She didn't like what she saw.

" Don't talk to me like that" Bernadette scolded, bringing Penelope out of her own thoughts. "I'm tired of your demeanor. This isn't the end of the world. Be gratiful look at where we are; we on the grandest ship in the world. You're going to marry a very successful man. Furthermore Mr. Howard isn't a boar, he is a gentleman who makes me laugh. I'm not going to listen to you complain over something so trivial as love. There are more important things in this world."

Penelope saw the tears forming in her sisters eyes. She felt bad for upsetting her, but she was not going to give up on love. Unlike what Bernadette thought nothing is more important. "Forgive me Bernadette. I will no longer bother you with my problems." She stood up and embraced her sister.

"We must hurry dinner will be starting soon." Bernadette pulled herself together and led them to an awaiting Leonard and Howard.

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"Whats upsetting you dear?" Amelia whispered to Penelope at dinner.

"I'm fine" Penelope quickly replied.

"No use to lying to me. Old Amelia knows when a girl is upset."

Penelope glanced over at Leonard then back down to her soup without saying a word.

"Oh a problem in the love department. Don't worry dearie it will happen. You will find love in your heart one day."

Penelope smiled politely knowing if she was going to find love it wasn't with Leonard.

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Sheldon layed on a bench on deck staring at the stars. He knew all the names of the constellations. Before he left home 7 years ago at the young age of 15, he had looked at his brothers books from university. He read them cover to cover twice. His family was a poor farm family from East Texas. Only his older brother was able to go to school. Sheldon wished it was him instead, but he didn't believe in wishes. He knew he was smart and could do well. His father said then if he could do it on his own then he could leave and not come back. So he left to make something of himself.

He found himself in Germany where he tried to get into school. With the language barrier and the fact he had no money he was not accepted. He didn't let that stop him. he traveled across Europe doing different jobs to earn some money. But as soon as he earned some it was either spent on food and shelter or worse stolen by a street thug. There was many a night where Sheldon found himself sleeping on a bench much like the one he is on now. He was going to make something of himself, he was determined.

His mind wandered back to the beautiful 1st class girl. Never did he have such a feeling then when he saw her. She took his breath away and not just with her beauty but how she held herself. He knew he was a fool for thinking about her, but she wouldn't escape his mind. This was the only time he cursed his amazing memory.