Penny awoke the next morning with a chill. The temperature has dropped over night. As she began to stir she heard a noise. Quickly grabbing her book, which was the heaviest thing in reach, off her nightstand. She sprang up ready to attack any intruder. She relaxed when she realized it was only Christy tending the fireplace in her room.

Christy turned when she finished and saw Penny awake. " I'm sorry Miss Penelope. I didn't mean to wake you. I just figured you would want your heat turned up due to it being so frigid thus morning. Not that the mighty Titanic doesn't keep enough heat" Christy added.

Penny smiled "it's quite alright Christy. The cold is what woke me anyways not you. What time is it? The sun looks barely risen" Penny observed from her window.

"That's because it's not. It's only 5:45 the sun has only just begun to rise. Shall I let you go back to sleep?" Christy asked.

With a shake of her head Penny answered "no I'm awake now. " she sat silent for a moment debating in her head on whether she should ask what is on her mind. She glanced over at Christy who was still standing by the fire. "Christy you know that I think if you of more then my servant correct?" Penny asked.

"You do treat me ever so kind miss" Christy said with her head tilted.

"Please call me Penny it is what my friends call me. You Christy are very special and someone I can trust." At this Christy got a nervous look on her face. Penny noticed "don't worry I don't want you to lie for me. Please come sit" Penny gestured for Christy to join her. Christy took her spot at the foot of the bed. Penny took a deep breath " now here's where I want you to be honest with me. Do you notice a change in me? Have I been acting differently to you?"

Christy nodded emphatically almost relieved she could finally say something. " oh yes miss... I mean Penny. For the past 3 days you've been happier much more vibrant. Which I do believe is what our good Lord intended you to be. The change I've seen is a grand one and whatever it is that's making you that way hold into it forever."

Penny sighed " I wish everyone felt the way you do. They want me to go back to I was before we boarded unhappy. I can't help the reason for me being happy is..." At this Penny paused.

"Sheldon" Christy quietly finished for her. Penny nodded. "I've seen the way you look at him and the way he looks at you. It's more then just happiness it's love."

Penny felt her face warm with a smile at the thought if loving Sheldon. " I guess I do love him. I didn't realize since I never knew what it was." Penny's smile turned into a frown " but can it really work? What about Leonard? Especially what of Bernadette?" She buried her face in her hands. She was so sure of leaving Leonard but now she wasn't so positive. Her whole life she never liked to make decisions because every time she did it seemed to be the wrong choice. She was afraid.

Christy patted her leg " let me tell you a story. Back in my village a very long time ago in ancient times there was a woman who was born into a royal family. She was destined for greatness. However the life she was leading didn't satisfy her. She wanted to do more. She knew she wanted to lead a life of poverty and help those less fortunate. She begged her family to allow her to follow her dreams but they thought her crazy. Now her mind was made up that she was going to leave her family behind whether she got their approval or not and she did. She went on to become one of the most famous people in all of Ireland. The moral us she wouldn't of had that happen if she stayed unhappy with her wealthy family. "

Penny was entranced " is this story true? What was the woman's name?"

"Oh yes very true. It's the story of St Brigid of Kildare. She left her family to follow St Patrick and the Christian church. She left everything she had ever known because she knew there was something greater out there for her."

"That's incredible. Did her family never support her?" Penny asked.

"Now I'm not sure. Some people who retell the story say her father gave permission and others say he didn't. Either way it fits your struggle. Whether to stay with what you know it go to what you believe to be the best thing for you."

Penny took it all in " thank you for sharing that with me. I've never heard of St Brigid."

Christy shrugged " I'm not surprised. I've been to your Protestant mass. You've practically taken out all the Irish saints."

"I'm unsure about that. I mean we still know about St Patrick. We even might have St Brigid I just never go to Sunday service." Penny shrugged. " anyway you've been such a tremendous help Christy." Penny gave her new friend a hug."

"My pleasure miss Penny. Now would you like some coffee or tea?" Christy asked after releasing the hug.

"I would really enjoy some coffee please and thank you" Penny answered. Christy nodded and departed.

XXXX

"Raj would you care to join me for breakfast?" Sheldon inquired.

When Sheldon had left yesterday he slowly made his way back to his cabin. He was just about to exit the first class deck when he was stopped by Amelia Farrah Fowler. "Good day Sheldon. How are you?" She asked pleasantly. Then she noticed his blood shot eyes and tear stained cheeks. "Sheldon what ever is the matter?" Amelia looked concerned.

Sheldon quickly wiped his eyes " nothing must have gotten to much wind on my face." His eye twitched at his lie.

"No need to pretend with me. I see no shame when a man cries. So have you been crying?" Amelia paused for a moment in thought. "Is this regarding my dear Penelope Lloyd Swift? "

Sheldon only nodded. Amelia took his arm " come join me for tea and we shall chat." Even though Sheldon despised chatting he found it oddly comforting to do so with Mrs. Fowler. Sheldon told her about what Penny had said and what he had said.

"I don't want to force her into anything because then I will be just as bad as her own family. On the other hand I dislike the feeling of losing her forever very much."

"Being in love isn't always easy. It's sometimes the hardest thing in the works because it means doing what's best for the other person regardless on how you feel." Amelia pointed out.

"I suppose that was to make me feel better? While I concur the idea does make me more assured that I do indeed love Penny; it still doesn't make me any less sad." Sheldon drank his tea.

"Love always conquers" Amelia smiled. Sheldon eyes her which made her laugh. "Forgive me I'm a romantic. It comes from reading Pride and Prejudice quite a numerous amount if times. "

They finished their tea and Sheldon adjourned to his cabin.

Now Sheldon was trying to wake Raj.

Raj turned over " Sheldon what time is it?"

"Nearly quarter past 7. It's much later then I normal go to have breakfast though not has early as I do in Saturdays. I just wanted to give you adequate time to sleep."

Raj pulled the covers up to his chin. " still to early. Please get me another blanket it is freezing thus morning."

Sheldon pulled a spare blanket from the locker. " it is rather cold this morning. Anyway would you like me to save some food for you?"

"No thanks. I'll get up in a little while" Raj said as he adjusted the blanket.

"Very well. I'll see you soon. " Sheldon exited.

Sheldon sat alone thinking so many things. Like how did the earth come to be? How did it get so cold all the sudden? However he was thinking will he ever be able to forget Penny and move on with his life; when he can't forget anything.

His thoughts were interrupted by a loud "Sheldon" being screamed from across the room. Sheldon turned towards the noise and say Millie running straight for him. He smiled and held out his arms so she could jump into them. Which she did.

"Good morning Millie."

"Mor'in Sheldon. What are you doing?"

Sheldon sighed "it's morning Millie not mor'in even though your Irish accent makes it easy to blend it together. "he pronounced all the syllables for her to copy. "Say it correctly. You'll never get into medical school speaking like that."

"Alright Sheldon. Morning" she corrected. "So what are you doing?" She asked again.

Sheldon shifted her on his knee " well we're in the dining area. So I must be dining" he said with a sly smile.

Millie looked at his bowl and back at him. "No you're not. You weren't eating when I came in and your food is still to the top." She felt his bowl " and is now cold."

Sheldon laughed " you are almost to smart for your britches. You caught me l was thinking."

"About what?" Millie moved off Sheldon's lap and took a spot next to him.

"Like weather and space and other boring things like that."

"Other things like ?" Millie smirked. "I like her. Are we going to see her again today?" Millie asked with hope in her blue eyes.

"I'm not sure. You see she's traveling with her family she might want to spend the day with them." Sheldon softly answered. He could see that Millie was upset ; so was he.

"Oh I understand" Millie's small shoulders hunched over. Her blonde hair fell in her face.

Sheldon had a thought that he and Penny were to ever have a daughter she would look like Millie. With Penny's blonde hair and his blue eyes. His brains and her personality. She would be smart and beautiful.

"Don't be upset Millie. Would you like to join me in a game if checkers once you've finished your meal?"

Millie's blue eyes sparkled " oh boy you bet I do. I'm going to win by the way." She laughed. Her laughing was infectious and had Sheldon laughing. He spotted Millie's parents with their tray of food. They waved over to him to send Millie. "Millie you ate being summoned by your parents. I will see you once your done."

"Okay Sheldon" she kissed him on the cheek. "I love you Sheldon" and she skipped to her parents table. "I love you as well Millie" Sheldon said as she skipped away.

Raj joined him shortly. With him being Sheldon's best friend and confidant ; he felt obliged to tell him what happened the previous day with Penny.

"I'm sorry Sheldon. At least you have the memory." Raj tried to be optimistic.

"That's the worst part Raj. To remember the happiest and yet saddest time in your life. Not to mention those two things being the same thing. It's almost a curse ; if curses weren't hokum." Sheldon sighed "though I can't help but feel its not really over."

A/N: good spot to stop at. I want to thank people for being patient with me. I am definitely finishing this story. I'm also spreading stuff out so some chapters might be short others super long. It depends. Reminder this is typed on my phone and while I proof read it sometimes I miss something that autocorrect changed. Until next time.