So I could go on about how busy I was, or all the excuses on why I haven't updated. However I don't have any excuses. I just didn't have the urge to write. I feel bad about that I have so many dedicated readers and I want to try harder on getting on with this story. I seem to have a issue with posting stories under 1000 words but I might change that so I can make faster updates. Also I will try to make a effort to type this on my computer rather then my phone but I can't make any promises it all depends. And I apologize for not having this be fluffy ( I know those are the most popular Shenny stories) I seem to go towards the dramatics. Someone mentioned in a review I should of switched bernadette and christy and to be honest I didn't expect bernadette to be such a anataginist. Hopefully this will sort of make people like bernadette again. I think this A/N is long enough. I hope everyone still enjoys this story.

Penny knew what she needed to do. She waited in their common room until Bernadette woke up at 7:30. Bernadette slightly jumped before she fully recognized that the person sitting was Penny.

"Penelope why are you just sitting here?" Bernadette asked as she gestured to Leslie to bring her morning tea and sat on the couch.

"I wanted to talk. Before I begin please call me Penny. It is what my friends call me, we're friends correct?" Penny said softly.

Bernadette frowned " don't be ridiculous of course we're friends. Better then friends we're sisters."

"Then why do I feel so far away from you. Ever since mother and father died I have felt like you were trying to be mother and not my sister. I'm a grown woman Bernadette I don't need a new mother I need my sister back."

Bernadette had a few tears in her eyes. "I just wanted you to be okay. I wanted you to have the world. A world that I knew I couldn't give you. I didn't want to lose you like we lost mother and father."

Penny joined Bernadette on the couch "you're pushing me away by making me do something that my heart isn't in. Remember when I was 15 and you were 22 I wanted to go to New York with you but mother said I wasn't allowed to go. Do you remember what I did?"

Bernadette smiled at the memory "You snuck out and boarded the first train to New York."

"Then what didn't you do?" Penny coaxed with a smile.

"I didn't tell mother; and we spent a glorious weekend together. Going shopping and the theater. It was amazing. However when we returned mother was so angry. In my whole life I don't think I have ever heard her raise her voice so loud" Bernadette laughed.

Penny laughed along with her. "Exactly we were friends, sisters so close that we do anything for the other. Which I know is the reason you are pushing the engagement with Leonard. You think I think I will be unhappy if I'm not surronded by the finest thing, but I will be. I've been aching to tell you that I've fallen in love."

"Penny you can't be seriously be in love with that boy Sheldon. Are you even sure what love is?" Bernadette wondered.

"Yes I'm so sure. I'm not just in love with Sheldon, I'm in love with myself. Remember the letters we found that mother and father and we both said I hope to find a love like that; well I found it." Penny wanted so much for Bernadette to understand.

Bernadette patted Pennys hand "I can't say I approve entirely but I am happy for you. I didn't mean to push you away. I just wanted you to be happy."

"Oh Bernadette I understand. I want you to feel as happy as I do. I want you to feel the love that mother felt for father and I, Sheldon."

Bernadette waived Pennys words away "so now what are you going to do? You can't really run off with him?"

"I have to at least tell him how I feel. If he feels the same way, I have to follow my heart. If he doesn't then I will return here get off the ship with you and return home. Either way I amnot marrying Leonard."

"Is there anything I can say to make you change your mind?" Bernadette pleaded.

"No I truly believe mother would want me to do this." Penny squeezed Bernadettes hands.

Suddenly Leonard burst into the room "Bernadette please excuse us; I wish to speak with Penelope alone."

Bernadette looked to Penny to see if she was okay with her leaving. Penny nodded and Bernadette left them alone.

"Why have we not shared a since we've been on this ship? You are my wife and thatis what a wife does" Leonard said.

"Must I keep reminding you that I am not your wife yet. I feel ill at night, so I don't want to leave my bed." Penny lies.

"I'm tired of your excuses, your lies. You seem much more obstinate about everything. Always ready to fight. Is there something I did?" Leonard asked.

Yes Penny thought. "No. My mother used to tell me I had my fathers stubborn personality."

"Well I don't like it. You need to know your place. You must do what I say because you belong to me. Your mind should think what will make me happy. Your body should as well. I don't do well with stubborn. Let me tell you something to rememeber; I always get what I want" Leonard glared at her.

Penny was speechless, she belonged to no one.

"Do you have anything to say?" Leonard broke the silence.

"No I don't. I will keep what you've said in mind." Pennys face held no expression.

Leonard turned to leave "Oh by the way I've sent a message to New York. We are going to be married the day after we dock. Enjoy your day darling." He left without waiting for her to respond.

"What a pompous ass" Penny said. There was no way she could be here for another moment. The only person she wanted to share her body with was Sheldon. She had put on her favorite off white lace dress, it made her feel beautiful. She took the emerald ring from her vanity drawer and placed it in her pouch. She had a plan.

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"I win again Sheldon" Millie smiled.

"That's six games to my four. You are very good at checkers. I'll have to teach you to play chess one day." Sheldon smiled.

"That would be fun." Millie sat staring at Sheldon.

"Is there something you want Millie? You've been staring at me for the past minute." Sheldon smiled as he raised his eyebrow at her.

"Not really, just that, do you miss your family?" Millie asked.

Sheldon didn't know how to respond so he asked a question. "Why do you think I am away from them?"

"Well because you are traveling with Mr. Raj and I've heard you tell my mama and daddy that you haven't seen them in a while" Millie explained.

"Of course I miss them. They are my family. But mr. Raj is like family to me, so I'm not alone." Sheldon softy smiled, thinking such an unusual conversation to be having with a child.

"Can I be your family as well" Millie jumped out of her chair and hugged Sheldon. "Yes Millie you can be my family. In fact when I have my own daughter I want her to be just like you."

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So if no one has notice Millie is a very important character so keep watch for her. i hope you all enjoyed this chapter till next time.