Here's the next chapter of the story 'Miracle'. Thank you so much for your reviews, they really do mean a lot. Reading the reviews keeps me motivated and sometimes reviewers leave valuable ideas. So thanks for all of that and I hope you'll enjoy the rest of this story!
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Andy woke up and took in her surroundings. She looked around and heard a machine beeping next to her head. When she turned her head a little she noticed that she was attached to a heart monitor. She tried to sit up, but was stopped when her stomach hurt like crazy.
Quickly she pushed all the covers to the ground. She checked her abdomen, her tiny bump was missing. Andy's breath sped up as tears filled her eyes. She tried to get out of bed, but she was in too much pain.
After a few seconds she found a call button on her nightstand and she pushed it. Immediately a nurse came walking in. ''What happened?'' Andy said in tears. ''Where is my baby?''
''Miss McNally,'' the nurse started quietly. ''You have had an accident at work, do you remember what happened?''
''I wasn't at work,'' Andy said. ''I was at home. Where's Sam?'' Andy looked around and tried to find her husband. If she or their baby was hurt he would be there. Of course he would be there. He was Sam, he was always there.
The nurse gave Andy a disapproving look and shook her head. ''Your husband will be here shortly.''
''Is my baby okay?'' Andy asked again. Without answering the nurse left the room, leaving Andy in a panic. She screamed for help, but no one came in to help her.
After a while Sam appeared in the doorway. ''All you had to do was keep her safe,'' he warned her. ''All you had to do was be safe. You couldn't even manage that. I was right, you are a horrible mother. Because of you my baby is gone.''
''No,'' Andy yelled. ''No, you are wrong.''
''All you had to do was be on desk duty,'' Sam said again. He gritted teeth and turned his hands into fists. ''All you care about is yourself. You put your own happiness before our baby's safety.''
''I would never,'' Andy said while she was on the verge of a panic attack.
''SHUT UP,'' Sam yelled. ''You are a terrible wife and a horrible mother. I don't know why I married you in the first place.''
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''Andy,'' Sam said as he shook her shoulder. ''Come on, it's just a dream. Wake up Andy.''
With a scream Andy sat up. Her breathing was labored and her hands immediately found her stomach. When she felt the small bump that was still there she closed her eyes and laid back down again.
Sam used one arm to lift his head and used the other to caress Andy's stomach. ''Which one was it this time?'' he asked. Andy had a few nightmares that were reoccurring. All of them were about losing their baby. That was Andy's biggest fear right now.
''Waking up in the hospital with you screaming at me,'' Andy answered truthfully. When the dreams first occurred she tried to keep them from Sam, but he knew every single time. Of course he found out. She was trashing around every single time and he was sharing a bed with her. ''It's all part of being pregnant,'' Andy promised. ''Traci said that she had them too.''
Slowly Sam pressed a kiss to Andy's temple while he continued to caress her stomach. He understood her dreams, because of course he understood her fear. It had taken them so long to get to this point and they would both go stir crazy if something happened to their miracle.
There wasn't much Sam could say to make Andy feel better, so he did the one thing that he knew always made her feel safe. He let her crawl to him as close as she could get. He let her rest her head on his chest, where she could hear his heartbeat. All the while he was tracing patterns on her arm and held his other hand on her stomach.
Fifteen minutes later her breathing was even again. Sam woke up the next morning in the exact same position. When he stirred Andy woke up too. Sam stretched his muscles and rolled to his side, facing Andy. ''You slept through the night after your nightmare?'' he asked.
''I did, stop worrying,'' Andy said with a small smile. ''It's perfectly normal for me to have nightmares.'' Andy smoothed her tanktop over her belly and laid down on her back. ''Did I get bigger?'' she asked.
''Is there a right answer to that?'' Sam asked insecurely. He didn't really know what she wanted to hear. Most of the time it wasn't a good thing to tell your wife that she was putting on a few extra pounds. In Andy's case it was the best thing ever though. They didn't expect they would ever have that.
Andy laughed and sat up. She straddled Sam's waist and leaned down. ''Just be honest,'' she said. ''I just want to know. I think I'm not really objective.''
''You're showing,'' Sam confirmed.
''Mmm,'' Andy murmured against Sam's mouth. ''You still going to want me when I look like a stranded whale?''
''Always going to want you,'' Sam confirmed. He gently pulled her down to him so he could kiss her. What he said was true, he was just as attracted to her as before. Maybe even more now.
They got a little bit carried away and a while later Andy broke away from Sam with a groan. ''We have to stop,'' she said in between kisses. Sam didn't listen and attacked her neck with his mouth. He sucked on the skin there. ''Sam,'' Andy tried to warn. ''Sam, we're going to be late.''
''You're probably on desk,'' Sam argued. ''Who cares. You know how that works.''
Andy laughed and rolled over to her back. Sam rolled on top of her, keeping his weight on his arms. ''Soon we won't be able to do this anymore,'' Andy said while Sam kept doing wonderful things to her neck and chest.
''Have sex?'' Sam asked as he raised his head a little. ''Dream on McNally.''
''No,'' Andy answered. ''Soon you won't be able to be on top of me. I'll get too big.''
Sam shook his head and grinned. ''Well, might as well enjoy it while we can, right?''
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''I heard congratulations are in order,'' Nick disturbed Andy right before parade. ''That's great Andy.''
Andy smiled at her old friend and gave him a nod. ''Thanks Nick.'' She looked down at her stomach. ''I guess there's no point in trying to hide it anymore, huh?''
''I think you only see it when you know,'' Nick said. ''In uniform you don't see anything at all actually.'' Nick paused a second. ''I kind of had a feeling when you were put on desk duty all the time.''
''Yeah,'' Andy said. ''Didn't want to take any risk, you know? I can't avoid working the streets all the time, but I asked Frank to put me at desk, in booking or with the D's as much as possible.''
''Makes sense,'' Nick agreed.
Sam walked into the parade room and saw Nick talking to Andy. He knew that Andy loved him and that she wouldn't cheat on him. He would lie if he would say her history with Collins didn't bother him though. Their relationship was short and kind of a fluke, but it still stung.
''Collins,'' Sam said as he sat down next to Andy.
''Swarek.'' Nick nodded at the detective and looked back at Andy. ''Congratulations, I heard about the pregnancy.''
''Thanks,'' Sam shortly said. ''Can I have a word with McNally now?''
''Sure,'' Nick looked at Sam and then at Andy. ''Congratulations again. You really deserve this Andy.''
''Thanks,'' Andy said as she watched Nick leave. ''You don't have to be so rude to him,'' she said to Sam as soon as Nick couldn't hear them anymore. ''He was being nice.''
''I wasn't rude,'' Sam defended himself. ''I was friendly and said thank you. And I did really need to talk to you about something.'' Sam turned slightly so he was completely facing Andy. ''Frank needs you on the streets today.''
''Oh,'' Andy said. ''That will be fine. I'll be careful, I promise.''
Sam took a deep breath and shook his head. ''Don't take any chances, okay? You don't trust something, you wait for backup. It's not just you you're looking after now.''
Andy sighed. ''You think I don't know that?'' she asked. ''You're acting like I'm some sort of imbecile who doesn't understand how lucky we are.''
''That's not what I said,'' Sam quickly replied. ''That's what you are making of it.''
''It's what it sounds like,'' Andy defended herself. ''I know, okay? I know that I'm known to jump into things head first, but not right now. Right now this is the most important thing.'' Andy put a hand on her stomach and moved it down. ''I know that, believe me.''
''Sorry,'' Sam apologised. ''I just worry, okay?''
Andy smiled. Sam could be kind of frustrating, but she couldn't help but find it adorable too. She knew he was just looking out for her best interest. If anything would happen that would hurt their baby, she probably wouldn't recover from it. Neither would Sam, Andy knew that too. Somehow both of their first instinct was to look out for each other. They were a perfect team in many ways.
''I worry too,'' Andy admitted. ''But we have to keep a little faith. Besides, this probably will be the only time we'll go through this. We have to at least try to enjoy it too.''
''I know,'' Sam agreed. When Frank started parade both of them turned their heads towards the front of the room. As soon as Frank was finished, Sam stood up. ''I have to go,'' he said. ''You be safe.''
''I will,'' Andy promised. She stood up to and quickly kissed Sam's cheek. ''You be safe too detective.''
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That night when Sam walked into their house, everything was dark and quiet. Sam and Andy had an unspoken agreement that if one of them would be home earlier than the other, that they would take care of dinner. Sam knew that Andy had to be home, but there was no sign of dinner anywhere.
''Andy?'' Sam yelled out. ''You home?'' He kicked of his shoes and walked into the living room. He stopped walking when he saw his wife on the couch. She was under a blanket and fast asleep. Boo was lying next to the couch, under the table. Sam checked his watch and knew he should probably wake Andy up. She wouldn't sleep during the night if he would let her sleep now.
Sam softly walked towards the couch and crouched down in front of Andy. He brushed her hair out of her face and smiled. ''Andy?'' he asked. ''Wake up.''
Andy's nose moved a little, but she didn't wake up. ''Andy?'' Sam said a little louder. He shook her shoulder gently and pressed a kiss to her forehead. At that Andy opened her eyes.
She looked a little disorientated and sat up. ''I feel asleep?'' she asked. ''What time is it?''
''Almost seven,'' Sam answered. ''Didn't want to let you sleep. Don't want you to be up all night.'' Sam stood up and sat down next to Andy. ''Did you do groceries?'' he carefully asked. ''Or should we order in?''
Andy shook her head. ''I was so tired. I thought I would go home, rest for half an hour and then go to the store. I did walk Boo.'' Andy yawned and snuggled closer to Sam. ''Sorry, I would've cooked. Didn't mean to fall asleep. I don't understand why I'm under a blanket, it's so warm.''
''It's fine,'' Sam promised. ''You probably needed it if you fell asleep that easily. Growing another person can take a lot out of you. I get that.''
Andy smiled and nodded. She knew that she would probably get away with anything at this point. Not that she fell asleep on purpose, she really was exhausted. ''I'll go to the store in a minute.''
''No,'' Sam argued. ''We have enough food for breakfast tomorrow and we'll order something for right now.'' Sam immediately grabbed his phone and placed an order. When he hung up he looked back at Andy. ''So, you ready to go see Sarah tomorrow?''
''I feel bad we didn't already tell her,'' Andy whined. ''We could've just called.''
''I thought it was you that said it would be way more fun this way,'' Sam answered. ''Besides, Sarah will be too happy to care.''
''If she gets mad I'll just blame you,'' Andy said as she let out another yawn. ''You'll take the fall for your pregnant wife, right?'' Andy gave Sam her most innocent smile.
Sam shook his head while his grin turned wider. ''I think you're using this against me,'' he stated.
''Of course I am,'' Andy confirmed. ''Get used to it. Soon baby and me will have you running around the house for every little thing. And I'll just sit here and get pampered.''
Sam laughed sarcastically. ''You would go crazy within a week,'' he told Andy. ''You can't even sit still for a minute.''
Andy sighed and laid down her head on Sam's chest. ''I love you,'' she said out of the blue ten minutes later. ''I love our life together. It's perfect.''
Sam hummed in agreement and was interrupted when their food got delivered. He stood up, went to the door and paid the delivery boy. When he got back into the living room, Andy had cutlery and plates on the table. They ate together while talking about their day. After that they watched some TV. Sam walked Boo while Andy showered. When he got back he jumped into the shower.
When he came out of the shower, there was no sign of Andy. Sam figured she went downstairs to grab something. So he laid down in bed already. He was tired, because he didn't get much sleep after Andy's nightmare.
It didn't take Sam long to fall asleep, but he was interrupted when Andy practically jumped on him. ''Sam,'' she yelled. ''Sam, you have to get up.''
Alarmed, Sam immediately sat up. Andy was straddling him, so sitting up wasn't such an easy task. ''What's wrong?'' he asked concerned. ''Are you okay?'' Sam gave Andy a quick check, but nothing seemed to be wrong physically.
''It's such a beautiful night,'' Andy said with a big toothy grin. ''Come sit outside with me.''
Sam groaned and let himself fall back on the mattress. ''Go to sleep Andy,'' he said without answering her question. ''We have to get up early tomorrow.''
''We don't,'' Andy argued. ''You want to leave early. We don't have to.'' When Sam closed his eyes again and ignored Andy, she shook his shoulder and let out a frustrated whine. ''Come on,'' she said. ''We live in the city Sam, we don't have nights with stars that often. Come see it's beautiful.''
''I'm good where I am,'' Sam said one more time. ''You should come to bed to instead of sitting outside. It's too cold.''
Andy sighed and shook her head. ''It's super warm,'' she answered. ''Come on Sam, it's romantic. You never want to come camping either.''
''We are not going to sleep in a tent when there are places with perfectly good roofs,'' Sam confirmed his disapproval for his wife's camping desires.
''And I've been supportive about that,'' Andy tried. ''We never went camping, we never go flying. Now all I ask of you is to come sit outside with me for a moment. It's really pretty tonight.''
A deep breath escaped from Sam's nose as he got his act together. He knew that Andy had a point. She had about a million ideas for trips they could take together. That was all shot to hell when Sam informed her that he was not going to sleep in a tent and that she would not get him on a plane without severe sedation.
Reluctantly Sam sat up again. The look on his face told Andy that she had persuaded him. Her smile got bigger and she knocked Sam back down as she kissed him fiercely. ''You will not regret this,'' she promised. ''It's so peaceful outside like this.''
Sam followed Andy downstairs and let out a yawn while doing it. He wasn't even in a bad mood anymore, her smile made it worth the lack of sleep.
Andy opened the door that led to the backyard and stepped outside. The backyard was basically the best thing about their entire house. Sam had spent a lot of time working on it, but it was perfect now.
Together they sat down on the small bench that Sam built himself. ''Look,'' Andy said as she pointed up. ''It is gorgeous, right? How many nights do we get like this?''
''Not many,'' Sam confirmed. ''It is beautiful.''
Andy smiled contently and laid down her head on Sam's shoulder. Their hands found their way to each other and they sat together in silence, just enjoying the moment. ''Have you thought about names?'' Andy asked suddenly.
''Not really,'' Sam answered. ''I figured it would be easier if we found out if it is a boy or a girl first.''
''I think it's a boy,'' Andy said. ''I just have this feeling.''
''You had a feeling it is a girl last week,'' Sam teased with a small smile on his face. He really loved his wife a dumb amount.
''I changed my mind,'' Andy said quickly. ''It just feels different, I don't know.'' Both fell silent until Andy broke the silence again. ''I can't wait until I feel the baby move.''
Sam smiled and kissed the top of Andy's head. ''Will happen soon enough.''
''I hope so,'' Andy said. ''I'm only fifteen weeks now. It could take a few more weeks. Gail said I'm already pretty big for fifteen weeks.''
''Don't listen to Peck,'' Sam warned. ''Everything will happen soon enough. You are barely showing as it is.''
''You said I was showing this morning!'' Andy said slightly offended. She pulled up her shirt. ''See, it's a bump, it's tiny, but it's there.''
Sam couldn't do anything but just smile again. ''I know what I said,'' he agreed. ''And you are showing a little bit, but right now it looks like you could've just eaten a big lunch.''
''You calling me fat detective?'' Andy asked with her eyes narrowed.
The look on Andy's face told Sam that she was just kidding. ''You're beautiful,'' he said either way. ''And you will still be beautiful when you can't see your own feet, when everything is swelling and when you're covered in sweat from hours of labor.''
''Something to look forward to,'' Andy mumbled. ''It will be worth it,'' she quickly added. ''Everything will be worth this.''
Time passed as they sat together in silence. ''Do you worry?'' Andy asked. ''We talk about me all the time, but you must have fears too.''
Admitting his weaknesses was not something that came easy for Sam. Over the years he had gotten better though. Opening up to Andy was one of the first things he worked on when they had just gotten back together. ''Of course,'' he answered. ''We've waited a long time for this.''
''What do you worry about?'' Andy tried. She wouldn't push if he wouldn't tell her, she just really wanted to know what was going on in his head.
Sam swallowed and took a deep breath. His fingers were tracing patterns on Andy's skin as he thought about what to say. ''Not being enough,'' Sam said after a while. ''Sometimes I'm afraid I'll lack as a father.''
Andy's heart broke when she saw the expression on Sam's face. For a moment she wished that she never brought up the subject, but she really wanted him to talk. She knew that he would never share stuff like this if she didn't ask. ''I have enough faith in you for the two of us,'' Andy tried to bring some comfort.
Sam kept staring into space as Andy scooted a little closer. ''We are not our parents,'' she kept going. She knew that that was his biggest fear, turning into his father. ''We haven't even met our baby yet and I already know that there's no way I'll even voluntarily leave him behind.''
''Or her,'' Sam said with a smile that didn't reach his eyes.
''Or her,'' Andy agreed. ''There isn't anybody that I feel safer with then you,'' she told Sam. ''You have never done anything to physically hurt me and I know that you would never do that. Not to me and not to our baby. You are not that guy.''
''I'm always going to fight to keep the two of you safe,'' Sam said with an unexpected tone in his voice. He didn't sound insecure anymore. Sam turned a little. He was facing Andy now and he cupped her cheek in his hand. ''You and this baby are going to know that I love you two every single day.''
''I already know,'' Andy answered as she laid her hand on top of Sam's. ''You're going to be an amazing father. You may have not had the best role model while growing up, but you have watched Oliver with his kids. You've seen Frank with Olivia and Mia.'' Andy swallowed. ''You saw Jerry with Leo,'' she added a little more softly. ''Role models don't have to be your parents. You've seen a lot of good examples.''
Sam lifted their joint hands and pressed a kiss to Andy's hand. ''We'll do great,'' he promised.
''We will,'' Andy agreed.
Sam saw Andy shiver and stood up. ''Ready for bed now Mrs. Swarek?'' he asked as he held out his hand.
Andy nodded and took his hand. ''Thanks for coming out with me.''
''Anything for you.''
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Hope you enjoyed!
Okay, so I'm having a little dilemma here.. Boy or girl?
Part of me wants them to have a boy because a mini Sam looks adorable in my head.
Another part of me thinks Sam with a little girl is adorable.
So I decided that you get to choose!
Just leave a message saying what you want the baby to be and most votes win!
