Sam and were married for 40 wonderful years.

When he died, all the carefully erected barriers in my heart crumbled away. All the pain I hid from the world quickly overcame me. Dangerous that I am now, I brought destruction to the remaining members of the Fellowship of The Sun. I staked Vampires who merely annoyed me. Not to mention the other humans and weres who had the audacity to think bad thoughts at me. I even hunted fairies. To some I was a vigilante, hell- bent on ending the world of evil. To others, I was becoming a big pain, a liability. I was becoming too dangerous. They wanted to end me.

I didn't care.

I welcomed their attention.

I wanted to die.

Karin is at a lost as what to do with me.

Not even my children had been able to help. I didn't want them to. After all, they have their own lives to deal with.

Pam tried to help but her duties as Sheriff keep getting in the way.

Intervention came from two unlikely sources.

Niall made himself visible to me again when my fairy heritage became obvious to everyone. After all, what kind of creature doesn't age even after nearly 90 years? To give me and my loved ones a measure of protection, he declared me a Princess of the Realm of Fae. A Brigant with a powerful Fairy spark. He helped me harness my powers which were going haywire because of my emotions. He became a real grandfather to me then, not asking for anything but my cooperation to get well emotionally.

The other was His Highness Felipe the Castro, King of Arkansas, Nevada and Louisiana.

Shocking, right?

At first he wanted to kill me or own me. But when he saw how I was, Felipe understood.

Turns out, he has just lost his consort. He can't even mention her name. I knew then that he is now feeling the way I did when I lost Eric. and Sam.

Because of our new-found similarities. He and I created a strange connection. We fed from each other's blood, cared for each other and protected each one's interest when he made me his consort. The Fae and Vampires of Arkansas, Nevada and Louisiana finally have an alliance.

For once, I was in a very powerful position.

I have family, friends and followers. I have money, a title, and power.

It was then I realized, that I can have whatever I want and get it.

In my case, it's WHO.

I want Eric Northman.

And I'll have him back.

And Oh! I also just realized I wanted Freyda.

Watch out, Freyda. I just realized I wanted your head.

Eric Northman, Here I Come.