Ok, so here is chapter 4 now. Again- only own plot of gideions, the Morwens, the Meldas, and anything involving them.

Ch. 4

I looked at Edward's face as I asked this question, trying to judge his reaction. I saw a terrible sadness and pain flash in his eyes, and I regretted asking.

"You don't have to tell me of course. I was just wondering who she is."

"Was. Who she was," Edward corrected me.

"She was so beautiful with her simplicity that there are no words for it. Her eyes were the color of rich chocolate, and her brown locks were softer then silk, like her creamy, flawless pale skin. I loved how I would run my hand lightly through her hair as she slept, and hearing words of love to me slipping from her sweet lips as she dreamt. I felt like I was complete.

"Bella was the most wonderful person I will have ever met in my existence. And she had the kindest soul known to man. And she wanted to give it all up, just so that she could be with me forever. I was so selfish, wanting her to be by my side forever, but I was not going to damn her to the life I had, not even if it meant that I could be with her always.

"On her 18th birthday, my sister Alice had planned this big party for Bella, even though she knew how much Bella hated parties. That night, my brother Jasper had almost attacked Bella, and I knew then that it was too dangerous for me to be around her. So we left. I thought that maybe she would be able to move on with her life, forget about me and be with someone else. I was ready to let that happen, but I was weak. I came back six months later, but I couldn't find her anywhere. Her friends- even her own family- didn't even know she existed. I lost her, and it was all my fault!" he said as he buried his face in his arms and began to sob tearlessly.

I couldn't believe it. He really thought so highly of me? Plain Jane Bella? And I put him through this pain that he suffers through now. I felt my stomach twist into painful knots like thousands of snakes were slithering inside me, trying to break free.

"I'm so sorry," I said as I laid my hand on his shoulder, trying to show some sympathy to him. And what he did next shocked me deeply.

He grabbed onto my hand and tugged me towards him, where he wrapped his arms around my waist and continued to cry into my shoulder. I sat there, frozen for a minute, before I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and rubbed his back soothingly.

I don't know how long we sat in that tree, but when I looked up the sky was beginning to turn a light pink as the sun rose into the air.

"Edward, we better get going," I whispered to him. He still hadn't moved from before, but as I spoke, his head snapped up. He looked around before looking at the sky and he cursed.

"I'm sorry Izzy. I didn't mean to keep you out here all night," he apologized. I just wave my hand.

"It's ok Edward. Besides, as gideion, I don't need to sleep. I still have most of my energy I got yesterday from my little nap before you got here." He seemed happy with that since he smiled and he pulled away. I slipped my shoes back on before I pushed myself off the branch and fell to the ground, with Edward right behind me.

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The first few weeks of school pasted by without anymore problems. Alan had been sporting a black eye and a broken arm, and he made no moves to try and insult me again. I need to remember to thank the guys for that. And speaking of the guys, my brother, Jake, and Emmett all had detention after school for the rest of the first week back due to violence on school grounds.

Now we're hanging out with the Cullens a lot. Jake was still a little tense in the beginning, but once he saw how happy Selena was spending time with them, he got over it. Whatever makes her happy makes me happy he thought.

The weirdest thing was that I had basically told them that I was Bella, and yet, they didn't even seem to get it. I was happy about this and yet not happy at the same time. I was happy because it meant that I could keep the old me secret and they could possibly never know that it's me. But I'm nervous about it because they may not get it now, but there is the possibility that they will soon, and I am not looking forward to it.

Edward has actually been really nice to me. I guess it's because he feels like he can talk to me about his past easily and not worry about being judged. We've spent a couple nights on patrols together or just sitting out in the backyard of my house on sunny days. Yeah, my family likes to take days off during the sunny times. It helps when we hunt of nomad vamps.

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"Come on Iz, why don't come in with us?" Stacy asked me from the pool. I looked up from the strings of my guitar and music book.

Today was another sunny, warm day, and my parents, the Meldas, and the Cullens had all called in for a start for an early weekend. We decided to spend the day in my backyard by the pool.

The guys were all already in the pool, expect for Angelo, Dad, and Carlisle. Each of them had on a pair of black swimming trunks and a white shirt.

Mom, Esme, and Stella all had on respectable one piece bathing suits; Mom in one that was baby blue on top and faded to darker blues and finally black at the bottom, Esme in a pale pink color, and Stella in one that was white from the waist up, and red the rest of the way.

My sister, Alice, and Rosalie had chosen some slightly more risky outfits. Rosalie had on a blood red one piece- if you could call it that. The sides were almost completely cut away, leaving a scrap of it connecting the bra like top to the bottom. Alice had on a black and red checkered bikini that makes her sparkling skin even paler. Stacy had on a bikini set that looked like Walt Disney threw up on it with all the bright colors all over it, and Maria chose a simple lavender purple version of it. And I was wearing a swimsuit a lavender tank top with white flower patterns and dark purple shorts, with a large, thin cloth wrapped around my waist that had a marine life pattern in different shades of red and black and white. I had a pair of black Gucci sunglasses resting on the top of my head and black flip flops on my feet.

I sighed before turning back to my guitar. "You know why Stace. When I get in a writing mood, I don't feel like doing anything else," I said as I continued strumming my guitar, stopping every few minutes to write down a lyric. I heard sloshing from the pool, but I didn't look up as Edward came over, toweling his hair before sitting beside me.

"What are you working on?" he asked me.

"Just a song I made up."

"Can you play it?" I looked around and saw everyone staring at me. I simply smiled and nodded before looking back down and began to play.

Lookin' back, I don't regret
One single day.
Memories will keep me close
When you walk away.
It's harder then I could imagine.
Yes I should have known that.
Close your eyes and I'll be there.
I'll come runnin' anywhere.

CHORUS
Say goodbye, I'll be okay.
I will wait for you cause
True love will never fade.
When it's real, you can feel it.
And I know,
That you know,
That I will keep on waitin'
Patiently...
Patiently... for you.

Stormy Tuesday afternoons
Never been the same.
I used to stand outside
And taste
The sweetness of them.
It's harder when it really happens
Oh I wish I'd known that.
Close my eyes and you're there.
But I can't find you anywhere.

I stopped singing and everyone started to clap. "It's nothing special, really. It's not even finished," I stated.

"Iz, you never told me that you can sing like that!" Connor said.

"Yeah Izzy! Where'd you learn how to do that?" Jake asked. I simply shrugged my shoulders in an 'it-just-comes-naturally-to-me' way. Everyone just started to laugh. Then suddenly, Alice froze up, with her glazed stare that looked like she was far away. I read her mind quickly, as I'm sure that Edward did too, but I didn't get the chance to say anything.

A flash came running out of the trees to my left and came running full speed at us. My Mom, Esme, Stella and I all jumped off the lounge chairs that we were sitting only seconds before the blur came right by them and tore them to shreds. When the thing stopped and looked at us, I gasped loudly.

There, standing in all her cat-like glory, with her fiery red hair filled with leaves and twigs from the trees and three other vampires ranking behind her, was the same person who had haunted my dreams years ago; Victoria.

"Well, well, well," she said in her terrifying, bubblegum voice. "Will you look at who it is? The famous little Cullen family and their little pet. Tell me, how are you doing Bella?"

Uh oh! Vicky blew Bella's cover! What'll happen next? I actually need to find out myself. I think I'll be using longer chapters for the story from now on. And I know I said I'd try to use fewer cliffies, but I can't help it! It keeps you guys on the edge of your seats and you really seem to like it.

The lyrics that I put in this chapter are from a real song- Patiently by Emma Lahana. It's from the Dino Thunder series of Power Rangers a few years back. I love the song.

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Nancy (aka megamatchmaker)