Sooooo it's been a while since I posted any new chapters for this story and I'm soooo sorry. Honestly. I've been working on a PruCan story of mine plus school started last week and it's been a pain in the ass

-.- I'm sorry lovelies.

But anyway reviews help me post faster and write stuff faster because then I feel responsible for you happiness….yeah….my thinking's off.

Anyways onto the story~

Chapter Three: Failure

Feliks sat in Feliciano's living room. The whole house was a mix of German and Italian design, as well as obvious wear and tear from having five children. "Ve~ I'm sorry, Feliks," Feliciano said handling him a mug of hot chocolate, "It's really hard to move and the place is so messy!"

"You, like, have a totally amazing house, Feli!" he reassured taking a big gulp of cocoa, "And Ludwig keeps it clean enough."

"I try so hard to help," he said watching as his little one came into the room with a sippy cup, "but you know how he is. Ve~ he's so OCD."

The blonde's eyes followed the three year old as he laughed absentmindedly, "How old are, like, your kids?"

The Italian stuck out his tongue in thought. "Matteo is sixteen, Raine and Lorelei are eleven, Dante's six and Theo" –he leaned forward to run his fingers through his son's hair –"is three."

Feliks felt a pit of longing deep in his abdomen as one of his closest friends mentioned his children. He hadn't been able to get pregnant even though he had been trying for three months. He was starting to believe the Russian prick had cursed him or something. Envious, Feliks watched Feli interact with his little boy. Theo looked away from the TV –Pocoyo was on –to smile toothily at his father. The toddler put his cup on the coffee table next to his coloring books before walking up to Feliciano.

Theo lifted his arms up and whined. "Use your words, bambino," Feli said caressing one rosy cheek, Theo was a perfect blend of Ludwig and Feliciano. Blonde hair with Feli's curl, amber eyes with flecks of blue, a round face and pink cheeks.

"Up, madre, up!" Theo whined jumping up and down, Feli smiled placing the three year old on his knee.

"How have they been?" Feliks asked smiling back at a grinning Theo. Feli continued to go on and on about the goings on in the Beilschmidt family.

Matteo was a lot like Ludwig, organized and getting As and Bs, and had recently got a girlfriend. Raine was taking ballet and acting classes, not to mentioned she had just gotten reading glasses. Her twin, Lorelei, was in chorus and taking art classes, dyed and her hair blue with Kool-Aid and had gotten an eyebrow piercing. Dante was more like Lovino then Ludwig or Feli; he was loud and had gotten in trouble at his Kindergarten a few times. At one point Theo had laid his head on Feli's big belly, huge at seven months. Feliks watched the toddler giggle, continueing to listen to the Italian's big belly.

He wanted to cry.

"Feliks?"

His head jerked up, a pleasant smile plastered on his face, "Hm?"

"Are you ok?" Feli asked grabbing the blonde's hand, "Ve~ you don't seem…yourself?" No, he wasn't ok. Far from ok and he was tired of denying it, of lying.

"N-No," he managed to choke out before the tears came, "I'm, like, totally not ok!" Somehow he managed to convey to Feli how he couldn't get pregnant and he didn't know why. "I-It's, like, really straining my relationship with Toris," Feliks said using a tissue to clean his face, "H-He, like, keeps shutting himself away in his office. Like, I know that it's totally time consuming to be, like, a teacher but he could make an effort to b-be with me!"

Feli patted his hand as he set his child on the floor. "Feliks I think I know something that'll help, just wait right here ok?" he said and the Pole nodded.

"Are you sad?" the toddler asked fumbling over his words.

The blonde wiped tears and running mascara out from beneath his eyes. "Y-Yes," he admitted smiling a shy, rueful smile, "A little."

The child held up his toy monkey after he managed to pull himself up on the couch. "Bo-Bo always makes me feel better," he said placing the stuffed toy in Feliks's hands. He then stretched up to kiss his forehead and pet his hair, "Ve~ it'll be alright."

"You, like, totally sound like your Papa," he said giggling and holding the monkey close.

"Th-That's wha-what he does w-when I'm sad," he replied sucking on his thumb.

"Feliks!" He looked up to see Feliciano skip into the room, "Ve~ I found it!"

"Like, what is it?" he asked taking the book the Italian had been waving so he could place his child back on the floor. It was a deep violet with gold, cursive writing on the front and a crest on the cover. "A year book?"

"Si! Open to page twelve," he said as he sat down on the couch with a huff. Feliks did as he was told and blinked at the page he had opened to.

"This is, like, your class," he said hesitantly, Feli nodded.

"Ve~ look at the picture of me and Luddy," he said tapping the one on the page. It was a picture of some kind of field day. Teenagers ran in the background throwing water balloons and splashing each other with water, others leaned against the brick wall making out and some sat at picnic table eating. Ludwig and Feli stood in front of the camera, Ludwig in a black shirt with three quarter sleeves and what looked like camouflage colored pants and Feli in a white sailor shirt with a blue collar and necktie as well as blue shorts. He clung to his boyfriend's arm, smiling broadly at the camera, while Ludwig blushed brightly and looked at the ground.

"That picture was taken at a field day we had," Feliciano said rubbing the top of his stomach, "The next day, Ludwig was helping me clean the attic in my house. Lovi was already living with Antonio at that point and I had no one to help me. He…he found an old scrapbook; it was of me when I was fourteen with a blonde boy who happened to be visiting his cousin. I had a summer job in the area at the time and we…we hit it off. He was my first love." Feli wiped away the tears that clung to his eye lashes, obviously it was still a touchie subject.

"He told me I was beautiful, that our love would be sung by the angels and written in the stars," he said in a nostalgic voice, like he was in a dream, "He…he loved me too, I knew he wasn't just saying that to get in my pants. Which, um," –he looked at Theo with concern, afraid his toddler would over hear them –"he did. I wrote all about that summer in my scrapbook. There were pictures of when I first saw him that I took without him knowing, pictures of us at the beach, of us kissing, of…when we first made love."

Feliks gave him a look and Feliciano laughed, "No not like that! It was of the morning after! He was sleeping under the covers without a shirt…he looked so angelic. The next time we made love he took my camera and took one of me. That's what Ludwig saw and we had a big fight." Feli grimaced running his fingertips over his belly anxiously. "It was the first big fight we ever had and…I told him to leave, that I never wanted to see him again. He stormed out of my house and I couldn't stop crying for days. I asked Kiku for advice and he said to just explain to him what happened. So that night I convinced Gilbert to let me into their house and I explained what happened. That my love got hit by a car that summer."

"Oh, Feli," the blonde said tears running down his cheeks at the heartbreaking story, "I'm so sorry!"

The Italian smiled and wiped away the few droplets that had fallen from his eyes, shaking his head. "B-But that's not all Feliks! Luddy told me that when he was younger he had gotten into a car accident and lost some of his memories," Feli smiled brightly and grabbed both of the Polish man's hands in his, "Don't you see?! Ludwig was the same boy all that time ago, but he said Roman was a nickname his nonno gave him! That night we made love, for the first time since I was fourteen. Sure we had sex before but this was different! This was love."

His smile was full of wicked excitement, "What you and Toris need to do is clear the air, strengthen your bond like me and Luddy did, like Lovi and Toni, Arthur and Francis. We all did that and that got us pregnant!" Feliciano flipped the pages in the book open to the day he and Ludwig graduated. They wore their cap and gown but in Feli's arms was a small baby with wavy brown hair and big blue eyes. "Ve~ see? Because Luddy and I confessed to each other, Matteo was born!"

Feliciano caressed his stomach and smiled blissfully, "And soon we will have another bambina~."

The blonde's eyes widened, thinking about how Toris had never shown Feliks's his torso. "So, like, we just have to confess secrets to each other?" he asked to clarify and Feliciano nodded enthusiastically.

"Si, si! Then you'll definitely have a baby," he said just as they heard the front door open followed by some giggles.

"Feli, the girls and I are home!" Ludwig bellowed walking into the living room; he blushed when he saw he had company, "O-Oh Feliks, right? How are you?"

"I'm, like, totally awesome now!" he exclaimed jumping up and giggling, he looked down at a grinning Feli, "Like, thanks Feli! I'm totally going to follow your advice, like, straight away!"

"Ve~ good luck!" he called as Feliks bounded out the door.

"Vhat vas zat all about?" Ludwig asked once Feliks had left, kissing his husband on the cheek.

"Just giving him advice on how to get pregnant," the Italian giggled wrapping his arms around the German's neck, "I seem to do that a lot, right Luddy?" His husband blushed a bright red and kissed his lips chastely. "Hm~" he hummed rubbing his cheek against Ludwig's like a cat, "Kiss me again Luddy?"

A grin crossed his blushing face and he leaned in again, to kiss his lips, but this time it was deeper.

"Ew!" Lorie said loudly crossing her arms over a chest that was just beginning to develop, "That's gross, guys."

"Lorie~! You ruined their moment!" Raine whined she had a dazed look in her eye and she had her hands clasped to her chest, "That was so romantic~!"

"Girls, go to your room," Ludwig snapped, embarrassed, "And take Theo vith you, ja?"

"Ja, vati," they said in unison, Raine coming over to pick up her younger brother and they all trotted back up the stairs.

"Now, vhere vere ve?" he asked looking at Feli with a smoldering look. The Italian purred and pulled him down so that their lips could crash against each other once more.

So yeah…that was really short.

IM SORRY IM A FAILURE ILL DO BETTER NEXT TIME I PROMISE!

I JUST THOUGHT YOU GUYS DESEARVED SOMETHING FOR ACTUALLY LOOKING AT THIS! IM SORRY FORFIVE ME!

~kitty