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Chapter 3 : Who are the real you?

"They didn't recognize each other at all, huh?" Silva began.

"It's strange. Even, Kill didn't remember her too….." Zeno replied.

"How long has it been…? About 8 years ago…..?"

"What I can't believe here is Kill's case. He's not the forgetful type."Zeno closed his eyes as he's saying.

Killua's P.O.V

"We've been outside already….. hey Miel, just go back to that house or go home already. Whatever you are saying won't change my… mind."

I'm talking with air. Where is she going?! She is disappear. I look at my surrounding but couldn't find her. That bitch! She is sooo gonna pay for this!

"Zeburo-san, good afternoon. I'll leave with Killua now. Take care!" I heard a cheesy voice from Zeburo's post.

"Good afternoon, Miel-sama. You'll leave now? Hasn't it been a bit darker to go now?"

"I know, right? But Killua wants to leave now. So I'll come with him!"

"….."

"….."

That stupid is talking with Zeburo! This is my chance. Hah! She will never get me.

And with that, I'm running in max speed towards the station. But running from my house to the station, huh? Sounds tiring! I'm feeling poor now eventhough I have enough money to spend as I wish. Afterwards I make my way to the ship port.

As I arrived there I bought the ticket immediately and looked for a seat to wait for the airship. Haaaahhh… I didn't think it would be this easy. She is just an idiot, afterall. Just imagine it, what will they say if they saw me together with that bitch! Whoa, Gon knew about this already! Crap! What should I tell him? Ah, I have to call him too. My business is over, here.

I take my phone and I call him.

"Hello, Killua."

"Hey, Gon. I'm finished here. I'll get there in about 5 days."

"Wow, it's good to hear that."

"You miss me, don't you? Heee…..I left you there alone with nothing to do at all."

"Uuhh, no actually. I'm being super busy here. Kurapika told Leorio to come too. He came a day after your leaving. He brought a half of the tasks here. So I've been busy working on it with him. Oh yeah, how's your fiancée?"

What! Leorio's being there too! It can't be like this! He shouldn't be there!

"Yeah! Yeah! Tell us what you've got Killua! Is she pretty? Is she older? Hey, tell us, tell us!" Leorio's speaking too.

"….."

"Hey, Killua? You there?"

"Set it on hands free Leorio, so that Gon could hear me too." I said softly

"Uh-oh, okay…."

Pip.

"…"

"Killua?" I heard Gon's voice.

"Ki-Killua…. What happened…." Leorio replied.

I think it's getting tense on the other side. I hold my phone on my hand, getting it near my mouth and start the drama….!

"Ohh, how unfortunate of me. She just died because of a car accident the day before our meeting. So I didn't meet her fully. The corpses were found scattered. All I could see are just body parts covered in blood. You know it too right, this is the first time I'm thrown to a romantic situation like this, but….uhh… but…. All I could see of her are just body parts…..uhhh…I can't even see her face. It's because that idiot is too idiot to realize that a car was coming her way, maybe she is a deaf…uhh" I pretend to cry. "Me too want feel how is it to be in love as a teenager….. but this is my destiny…I couldn't overcome fate…., even though they say that she's ugly as hell, but appearance is nothing right…..she was hit by the car cause she wants to help a dog! She's a divine right? Stupid! Idiot! Idiot! ( MEGA LIE! )"

"Wha-….. Killua is that true?" Gon's worried voice mixed with uncertainty.

"Killua…. Don't joke around…. I'll hit you if you're lying….." Leorio joined.

"How could I lie about something like this! Have you ever gotten yourself nervous to die over something that you haven't even seen, just to find nothing at the end? Do you know how's my feeling right now? ( MEGA LIE ! )"

"Killua…." said Leorio.

"Killua…." Said Gon.

"Killua…." Said a cheesy voice. Huh? Chessy voice.

I look up worriedly to find a being in front of me panting to hell, hardly breathe. I push the red button immediately. Pii . I found her with a reaaaalllllyyy hard face, facing me with a pair of death scarlet eyes glare. I looked at her thoroughly. She's panting as hell, but her hair is not attached on her face like other people who just get a run for their life. There's no even a single drop of sweat on her. Well, woman. They care too much about appearance. Maybe she tried to keep her look, but don't want to lose me at the same time.

"Killua…..hhh….hhh….hh….. who ….hh…..has died?", she said trying so hard.

"Miel-chan, if you keep going on like that, you sure will be as good as dying. There, there is a seat over there, you can use it. Or do you want to sit here? Oh, here please , I'll just go away…" I take a step away and put my phone in my pocket. "faaaaarrrr away from youuuu….." I walk away as I keep watching her.

She was taking her bag and in just one hell of speed, BBUUUUUUUMMMMMM…!

Both my eyes opened wide. My mouth making a "whaaaa…."shape. What! What happened? I heard a loud voice like BUM! from behind. Is there a suicidal bomb? I look behind and find a big crush on the floor. Its crush looked so defiant. So rough and no mercy. There's a thing in the middle. A bag? No! crap! It's her! She shot the bag to me in a god speed! It's reaching the floor far behind me in not more than a 0,10 second! With that super loud voice effect! It's proofed by her right hand gesture. Like a pitcher that just had thrown the ball. But the bag isn't ripped. Not a single scratch at all. Just dust that's covering it. It's not hitting me. Did she do that on purpose? I turn my head to face her.

"How … dare you …..Killua bastard….!" Her voice is changing. it's ringing. It's like a monster roaring. It's so deep and heavy.

The mother monster has awakened now…. Shit!

On the other side of the world

"Killua…. He hung the phone." Leorio saying sadly.

"It must be hard, even for him. So, that's why he was so active at first and asking if I miss him." Gon said softly.

"huh? Could it be…..?"

"how can I not understand him! He's my friend! It is all my fault! I shouldn't ask him about her!"

" That punk….Killua….. he is the one missing you, huh? He wants to talk it to you too…."

"I should have waited him for telling me by himself!"

BUGH!

Gon punch the floor with all his might. He does it many times.

Leorio stopped him then. Holding his wrist.

"Stop, Gon! Punching the floor won't change everything. Dead… is something we don't know when and where it would fetch us. Everyone is gonna die someday."

"I know it! I know it already!" he's clenching his fist. Clenching his teeth.

Gon is gotten angry over himself. He blames it all to himself. Thinking that he has made the worse action. Thinking that his friend will get all miserable when he got there.

"Poor Killua….." Leorio said.

Miel's P.O.V

"Poor Killua….. I'll rip you apart…!" I said as I growled towards him.

HUH? Stupid! Get over yourself! He'll get scared of you! Look, his face is really troubled! Stop at this instant! Calm down. Shut up for now. Don't let any voice breakthrough. Calm down, calm down…..

I thought to myself. I only glared at him with fierce look on my eyes. I stand steady and try not to clench my fist. Everyone there was looking at us. Killua is stiffened, there. I better stop making any more ruckuses. I walk towards the crush I made. I walk past him and get my bag, clean it and hold it in my arms. I walk towards his seat and sit there. My right and left sides are both empty actually. I shot a glare towards the people there, but they start shouting in panic! Huh? What happened? Usually, when a case like this was occurred they'll just look the other way pretending they didn't see a thing, right? That's what I find in every action book I've read. Killua is watching me now, I can feel it. That frightened eyes.

Ding…Ding….Ding…

The airship no.5 will take the departure. The passengers are asked to come to...

"She's a monster!"

"She has red eyes! Those eyes are burning!"

"Get away, you monster!"

"Yeah! Go away! Don't come near us!"

"You 're roaring!"

Wha-…! Oh, I've done something so terrible! There's just nothing in any parts of their mind that would see me as a human being anymore! Just because of this red eyes! What should I do then? They're born with me!

The crowd is still making any noise that they could make. They're cursing me any kind of harsh words that comes up in my mind. It's just too obvious to say that they are really hate me. I was panic, I don't know to do. I'm just sit still. Should I leave immediately? But where should I go?

Suddenly, Killua pulls my right arm with his left hand and escort me away from the crowd. He closed my eyes with his palm and brought me somewhere. It's a complete dark I can't see anything.

"Miel, where's your ticket?" I heard Killua saying.

"Ah, it's here." I dig in my pocket to take it and giving it to him.

Then, he pulled me again straight forward with his palm still covering my eyes. He spoke to me on the way.

"You're not that idiot to not buy the ticket, huh? I guess I'll consider it an improvement."

"Ah, thanks." Is all I could say. What happened with me? He's mocking with me. Get a hold of yourself, me! You can do it! Uh, it must be because it's dark here. Doesn't matter! You have to stay strong! Is just my shouting over my own self. I just stay silent for the rest.

Finally, he sits me down and let his hand on my eyes go. I look at my surrounding. It looks like a cafeteria. Have I been in the air ship? Killua spoke to me,

"I'll get you something, stay here. Don't go anywhere."

"Un."

I'm staring at the table. It's color is cream. I think. What should I do now? I've never encountered this situation. Everyone thought I was a monster. Think. Think about something. I must remember something. Maybe I've read this kind of situation but forgot it since I've never confront one before.

"You're staying , huh? Good girl. Here you go." Killua is coming with a tray on his hand. He put it on the table. Two glasses of ice tea and two plates of strawberry shortcake on it. He took a plate and a glass and put them in front of me. I look at him suspiciously.

"Killua, you're being nice to me. Are you aware of that?"

He looked at me as he sit down and take the plate and the glass for himself.

"What do you want me to do then? Leaving you behind? When you're sitting like a shot duck as the crowd ready to roast you up?"

"So you're aware of yourself. I'm just saying, aren't you afraid? You're a human too. When a human hear or see something unfamiliar to them, they detest it immediately." I said, then I drink the ice tea and getting started with the shortcake.

"Who said that? An encyclopedia?"

"Papa told me."

He took a glance to me as he start eating the cake. And start talking bullshit.

"You are idiot." He points his fork towards me "If I was afraid of you I wouldn't talk to you, saving your ass and babysit you here. I've seen worse. You're nothing compared to them. You're just a happy-go-lucky idiot with amazing gifted ability in acting. Nothing more." He continues eating the shortcake. "You're a human too, right? Why aren't you scared of yourself? Unless…"

"I am a human too." I eat the last piece of the shortcake. Leaving my plate empty with just a little of whipped cream on it. "If I'm scared of myself, I should have died long ago. That's why I'm not scared of myself. By the way, where did you find those monsters, huh? You've seen my toss, right? Are they stronger than me? "

I didn't realize that my saying is indicating a request of a challenge. Killua looked at me just after I finished speaking , with a "huh? what are you thinking, idiot?"-look. He starts barking as I drink the ice tea.

"Idiot. You're just a born-complete idiot. You want to fight them? Bah! You'll just die, idiot. It's like cutting down the air and punching water. It's simply impossible. Why? Again, because you're just an idiot. Idiot must only do what an idiot capable of. Not trying the impossible and die because of your own idiocy. Just sit there like an idiot should do. Don't try anything funny and get yourself called idiot. You're not too idiot to understand what I was saying aren't you?" he chomps his last piece and smiled to me mockingly.

He's definitely done an amazingly, gracefully great-success, if stepping all over my pride is his primary goal. How can he be so excellent at this kind of thing? What did his family teach him? Assassination?

"Wow, the word "idiot" is being thrown all over me." My hands holding each other on the table in front of me. I close my eyes and speak " Killua listen to me. I, as a lady and the royal princess, shouldn't say this to my life-savior who has saved my little life and giving me ice tea and a plate of shortcake. But I want you to hear my thoughts that your comment is hurting me so badly that I really want to snatch your wonderful mouth away and shove it hard in a bottle full of formalin. So that I can put it in the museum in my kingdom and everyone can see it for free. I like to share greatness, you know. What do you think? You're agree, right? It's very noble of me as the royal princess to show my people what kind of things I've learned while being outside, right?" I'm smiling as cute as I ever can. He drinks up his tea and emptied the glass.

"Then, you better give up your position as a royal princess. A royal princess doesn't talk gibberish like that, right? You better start your way digging up garbage so that you could trade them on the street, making your own money without the help from your pare….."

Before Killua could finish his blabbering, I managed to see a woman just at my right side carrying a tray and a teapot. I could see that the hand gripping the teapot would eventually drop it. She really dropped the teapot in the end. The teapot is falling to her foot, it will hurt her a lot if it really happened. But I want to prevent it, I think there won't be any problem with my speed. It's very nearby afterall. So I quickly stand up and grabbed the teapot with my right hand when it is as high as her waist. But my most miscalculation is that the stainless steel teapot was as hot as hell could be. Well, my mistake in the first place, why didn't I grip the handle instead? Don't point at me. It is reflex. Afterall, I've never done something like this before.

UUUUGHHHH! It hurts a loootttt…

"Here you go. I manage to catch it." I said with a smile.

"Oh, thank you! I'm sorry! But the teapot must be very hot right? I boiled the water within the teapot directly on the stove!" she replied as she take the teapot away and put it and the tray to my table.

"OOH ! it's nothing!" I'm trying to hide my hand quickly.

"No way. Come here I'll treat your wound." She said as she got me away from my spot.

"Really, it's nothing. It'll heal itself." I move it to my front as she get me in front of Killua now, but she already snatch it. How could I not match her speed? Is it because of the wounds?

"How can it be nothing! You're severely injured! It's like you burn your hand on the stove! It's bleeding! Ooh, I'm so sorry! If it's not for my recklessness you won't be like this! I'll treat you immediately!"

If it's not for you shouting like crazy, no one would know that my palm is bleeding!

And there I go to the room called infirmary, leaving Killua behind, and start getting my so called severe injury treated.

"Just because of a hot teapot? You must be kidding me! Please don't lie to me, mam!"

"She's not lying. She told all of them correctly." I support the woman.

"You heard that? I'm not lying! Just treat her already!"

"okay…okay…." The doctor said.

There are just three of us there. The room isn't quite big at all. There are 2 beds here. 2 cupboards in front of them. There's a big tool too beside one of the bed. There's an AC too. It's light here, since the wall and the lamp colored in white. I don't know that white is really comforting. It's fresh here. Maybe I should start wearing white dresses.

The doctor hasn't treated my wound yet. He just wiped the blood. Then, he keeps looking at it thoroughly. Wwuuuaawww…it still hurt a loooott… Finally he spoke.

"It's healing already! How come? It's just a few minutes ago, right?"

"See, I told you it'll heal itself! You just have to give something that could kill my pain and something to make the healing faster."

"Okay ! okay! I'll put balsam on it. You don't really need the painkiller I suppose. Here." he start rubbing my palm with balsam. Hey! It feels cool!

"How's your feeling?"

"Super! I like it! May I have that magic potion? It feels cool!"

"Eh, really? May I try it?" said the woman.

"Hahaha! It feels cool, doesn't it? But you can't have it, this is a special one. Can only be used under doctor approval."

"Huuuhhh…. I wanna have it… but, it means that you're a great doctor, huh? You bring something like that here and use it manually without any measurement!"

"Ahahaha! I'm not that great you know!"

"Wow you're right! It's cool! It must be felt nice there!" the woman look at my right hands.

"I'm alright now you can go bring your children their meal, mam."

"Hey, how do you know?"

"It's just instinct." I can see it from the food she brought. But I'm lazy to tell her. She'll demand explanation.

"Well, excuse me then. Get well soon, kid! And thank you." She walks to the door and open it.

"You're welcome." I smiled to her. She closed the door.

"Well, excuse me too. You're alright now, aren't you? You don't feel any pain right?" I nodded, but it's not that my pain is gone. It still hurts a lot. " and it continues to heal itself. Maybe you'll be fully recovered just in 3 hours. Ahahahaha! You can use the bed if you want to. Good night, kid."

"Good night, great doctor. Thank you." I smiled to him. Then he left alone.

Wow, it's such good day! I smiled a lot, huh? And I'm not acting it. I'm having fun! The doctor's fun too! He's very friendly. He didn't freak out over my ability too. I knew it! He is a great doctor! I don't know if being outside could be so much fun!

After that thought I lay on the bed there carefully putting my right hand beside me and put my left hand behind my head. Maann….It's soooo comfortable here.

SREEKKKK

Someone opens the door. Uh, the door is on my left side. And it happens to be….uh, Killua…..

Oh, dear God… here comes the hangman…..

" Hey, Idiot." He greets me. But…. With no expression? Did I upset him? What did I do?

"Yo, handsome boy. How could you find me here?" I just take a glance of him. Not moving at all.

" A stupid question only idiots can come up, huh?" he came bringing my bag and carrying his.

And now he's beside me. I move my right hand till it's hanging on the bed and flip it vertically, so he can't see my burned palm.

He stood there looking at my eyes. Then, I see his too. He's still expressionless. Someone tell me, what did I do to him?

"Idiot, tell me…

Who are the real you?"

Killua is evil! But it's likely for him to torture someone mentally weaker than him, isn't it? He's a jerk afterall.

Or is it just my thought?

Btw, I want to admit a sin here, but I decided not to. Hehehe, sorry

I would like to know your thoughts here, also.

Please review and point my weakness, whatever it is so I could make it better

God bless you every day~ :D