Looks Doesn't... Matter

Bella/Jasper

Rated M

Sitting here waiting with my arm wrapped around myself, I rushed to get ready ignoring the pain and made breakfast, I was always ordered to sit down by the stairs quietly for them before they got to the kitchen for morning breakfast. Demetri was the oldest, Felix was the middle child; always in trouble and I was the youngest...I was never important. I gently held my ribs, they felt like knives piercing my stomach; it was painful. This morning apparently, I was taking too long in the bathroom and Felix thought that kicking me in the ribs repeatedly was a good punishment for keeping him waiting for so long. My life wasn't like this three years ago, Suprisingly We were a happy family; until the horrible accident happened, that shattered everything that our family stood upon. Three years ago, We were on a vacation as a family, Felix and Demetri was the best brothers you could ever have; considering they were adopted. Renee and Charlie were trying for many years and nothing happened, so they looked into adoptions and they finally adopted Demetri Swan has thier first at the age of two. Felix Swan came just four years later at the age of three, Demetri was six at the time and I was the only one that was produce by our parents, Felix never liked that I was really thier Daughter...thier flesh and blood in ever sense but, they always treated us the same. While on this Vacation, our Dad was called in; So he flew back to Washington as Our mother and us stayed in Key West in Florida. Our father was shot during a robbery gone bad and we quickly got on the first flight back, when we arrived he was already dead by fatal gun shot wound to the chest...he wasn't wearing his vest at the time. Our mother took it so hard that she turned to drugs for a escape from the pain, Demetri had just turned Ninteen as Felix was fifthteen...and I was just nine at the time and I was force to grow up and take care of the house and our drug addict mother. Demetri was honored to replace our Father at the police station as Felix was Forks High Golden boy, he was the Quater back and the captian of the soccer team as well in his freshmen year...as for me, I was just someone who was related to them. I was a nobody but, I like it; I was never the type for being in the spotlight, I had no friends, Felix never spoken to me in school ever...not like it mattered; it just felt like a kick in the stomach to know that even your bother thought you were a loser or a freak. It didn't take long for the drugs to take our Mother, and that's when I knew that I was officially alone, I had no one...we didn't have cousins or other relative near by to claim us, so we were in danger of being put back into the system but, Demetri had turned twenty one and filed for custody of both Felix and I.

I never knew that, by him doing that I was forever stuck in thier twisted world of brotherly love.

I didn't understand it at first but as I got older and more mature, I figured out that the things they were doing were wrong and should never happen. It didn't start right after our Mother died, I was only twelve at that time and Felix was first to know the changes my body was going through and always voice his opinions about it. He waited no time, as my thirteen birthday came around Felix was the first person to ever touch me down there. I freaked and told Demetri and I knew then that I was in serious trouble and how right I was, The rape didn't happen until I got my period, Demetri was my first. Feeling the tears well, I felt so disgusted talking about it.

I felt like a slut. That's what Felix always called me and it just stuck, I use to flinch when I heard it thrown at me but now it just didn't affect me anymore, because I was a slut; my brothers slut. Hearing thier footsteps, I quickly straighten my back and sat down on my hand. I could smell thier colone swiming through the air.

"Isabella" I clenched my jaws tight and stared straight ahead and spoke softly.

"Good morning" Felix had already made his way to the kitchen as Demetri held his hand out for me to grab, I didn't dare look up and took his hand. We made our way to the kitchen and saw that Felix was already scarfing down his food, Demetri let go and made his way to sit down and eat...I just stood and waited because, Felix was anal about sharing the table with me, he says that sluts don't eat with normal people so I just stand here and wait until there done to eat...I was not allowed to ever eat before them.

"Isabella we're runing late so you're going to have to eat at school" I felt my chest cave, this was the third time this happened, I nevered ate at school because, Felix thought that taking my lunch money was better used for his beer than my health, I nodded and walked upstairs to get my backpack and came back down. we made our way to the car, I was never allowed to sit in the front, I looked inside my bag for my book when I looked up and saw Felix had it in his hands.

"Felix" I said scared, that was the only thing I had of our Father. It was his favorite and he gave it to me on my eighth birthday, I kept it with me everywhere I went and never let it out my sight...Felix had to be going through my stuff; again.

"Isabella, how many times have I told you that Sluts do not read...especially dumb ass sluts like you" I didn't feel insulted but I did feel my heart jump in my chest as he toyed with the pages of the book, I saw him let down the window and I screamed.

"PLEASE! NO" I was crying by this time, I really wanted my book back...I looked at Demetri for some help but he didin't look into the mirror, he just kept driving. Felix turned to look at me and smiled.

"How sad will you be if I suddenly just let go" I bit my lip as he leaned the book out the window, I saw his fingers easing away form the book, I closed my eyes and bit my lip harder.

"F...Felix D...Don't" I whimpered, as my eyes went wide as he fucking let go...I slammed my face to the window and saw my book get ran over repeatedly by other cars, the pages were being torn apart and detroyed.

"That will teach you a lesson, I still don't know why we are letting her go to school, she should be at home cleaning and making dinner...like a perfect housewife; get it! Housewife, Demetri we have our own fucking housewife... No house slut...yeah I like that better. She cleans, makes dinner and knows how to suck a dick, couldn't ask for more" I saw Demetri smirk but he didn't laugh as Felix laughed his ass off, going on and on about duties and other bullshit. I wanted so bad to just fucking stab him in his face with a pen and watch him bleed to death, Demetri had finally arrived to the school as Demetri turned to me and spoke.

"I'll be late to pick you up, so I want you to wait with Felix at his pra-

"Hell no! I don't want her at my pratcie Demetri, she can take the fucking bus...I will grab a ride with a teammate" I lowered my head and grabbed the handle to open the door, when I felt a hand on my arm.

"Isabella" I looked out the window at the students standing around talking and laughing and quickly leaned over and pressed my lips to his, he deepen the kiss and ran his hands through my hair. We broke apart, he caress my face and kissed me once again and spoke.

"See you later...I love you" Hearing that, always made me want to scratch my earsdrums out so I didn't have to hear it ever again, I whispered it back and got out the car, Felix was already with his friends and Demetri was pulling out of the parking lot. I wrapped my arms around myself and kept my head down and shoulders in, this was my routine...to always be invisible and never give a person a reason. Walking into the school, I quickly walked to my locker and reached up to open my locker when a severe pain ripped its way up my left arm as I hissed but it didn't stop me from grabbing my books and limp/walking to my first period class. When I walked in, I saw that the empty seat beside me was taken, I started to panic because, the person was a guy...I was not comfortable around people; especially males. Taking a deep breath, I made my way to my seat and stared at the ground, putting my bag down, I slid in the seat...carefully, trying not to hurt my already sore behind. Getting into the seat, I signed in relief but sudden froze up as I felt the guy hand reach over towards me.

"Hi" I had my eyes shut tight waiting for the blow but it never came, I slowly opened my eyes and looked up. The first thing I saw was his deep blue eyes and his scars, I knew he was doing the smae because, my scars was not pretty either...I slightly relaxed.

"Hi" my voice was horse form screaming last night, not like I was going to say that to him, he kept staring at me and my scars, I felt like I was being examine...I felt exposed.

"I'm sorry for staring, its very rude and disrespectful...its just that" he let his sentence hang, I nodded and we left it at that. Throughout the class, I would catch him watching me, I felt a smile creep on my lips but it quickly vanished when Felix words came rushing back at me.

"Sluts do not read...especially dumb ass sluts like you" I let out a shaky breath and looked at Jasper, He was too beautiful even with the scars that was scattered all over his neck and face...I wonder how he got those? Do he's scars continued like mine all over his body? Was he adopted? Did his Father do that to him or his Mother?. Before I could tried to look away, he caught my eye and held it, I could see the pain in them as I knew mines was projecting my pain as well.

So the New kid, has a past like mines.

A/N: Now you have some insight on what going on in Bella's life...Jasper made his appearance; So will The Cullen in the next chapter or so.

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