Kichigai and Mekura knocked on Jinx's door, knowing that at 4:30 AM, Jinx would be up, like she always was, every night since she's been there, her music box playing softly. They opened the door to the now blood red room, black drapes blowing ever so lightly by Jinx's balcony. Her four poster bed, was decorated with black and white cotton sheets. Paint, charcoal and numerous sketch pencils were on a deep oak wood table, a soft chair sitting in front of it. They saw spotted blood on the floor, leading to the balcony, quickly making their way to it.
"Imoutou-cha...ma?" Kichigai stopped.
"Oh my..." Mekura saw with her eye seeing dog, Inume.
Jinx stood on the rail of the balcony, hair now dyed a jet black, a birthday wish for her and Sasuke, including his protests, overlooking the shining river. She looked almost transparent in the black nigt gown, the spilt up her leg blowing the ends of it lightly. The moon was bright and full, shining down upon her as she turned slightly, eyes emotionless and face never changing.
"Yes?" She answered calmly.
"Jinx! What are you doing up there? Get down before you actually kill yourself!" Kichigai quietly yelled.
"No." She put simply.
"Jinx, surely you jest...Certainly you wouldnt want to die..?" Mekura said hopefully.
"Of course I would..." She whispered slightly turned back to the river.
"What?" Mekura's pale colored eyes widened.
"Jinx...dont make me angry..." Kichigai said slightly angered, her Sunagakure accent showing through the her quite thickened Amegakure one.
"That's all I do is make you angry isnt it...?" She turned to face them, face still the same. "I could never make anyone happy. You, my Tono, not even Kami-sama. You know, we all wonder what he will ask us from our past trials of seeing him. 'I've been good in your eyes Kami-sama, havent I?' Why lie when he already knows the truth?" She turned back to the river, lifting her hand to the moon. "We see the moon every night, always watching over us, like Kami-sama..." She started to speak of one of her own sayings, one of which she believed. " I love my master more than anything on this earth...First is the Lord our God then it's my Master, Sasuke-sama...nothing else matters other than that...and I would gladly give my life for either one.."
She turned to them fully, her body free of scars, sitting on the railing. Picking up her razor, she cut her wrist, watching as the crimson life was being etched away from her veins, by her own hands, as she kept talking. "Why would I lie? I have nothing to hide. I would simply say, "For I have sinned Kami-sama. Forgive me and embrace me in your arms." When I die, would there be a celebration? No one actually knows me, so maybe not. Would I be just one of those people who would vanish from the earth, without a trace, and no one would remember me?" She put down her razor, looking up at the moon, smiling ever so slightly. "The moon shines over us every night. Without the moon, we would burn. I feel that the moon is Kami-sama, always appearing to watch us while we sleep, deciding wether or not to take away our sins and seeing if we were good enough in his eyes." She turned back to them, razor in hand, passing by like the wind.
Kichigai watched as Jinx cleaned off her razor, smiling at her two Sasuke pictures. "You...You cut to the vein?"
"Miyuki stops me from cutting to the pulse like I used to."
"Why would you do that Jinx? You have so much to live for!"
"Yeah." She looked at her still bleeding wrist, eyes thoughtful. "I suppose I do."