New chapter
Anna's point of view
Jake brought me outside so that we could talk in private. Even though Bella said we can resist the smell with a little practice, I don't think I can. It is like a burning sensation, not as bad as the change but still, it feels horrible. I can still feel it even though I am holding my breath. If I try to breathe then I don't know what will happen, all I want is to taste him. Just one bite and then see if it tastes the same as it smells. It is like one of the most delicious smells I have ever smelt. Even in my human I had an amazing sense of smell, and now it is like I can smell his emotions. He seems scared, but he feels love. I can tell because love has a sweet candy like smell, which only makes the fire burn harder. Even with one smell I can smell every emotion he is feeling. Sadness, fear, love, and freedom? It is like he wanted this to happen, but wanted to be the worst possibility. I know he feels my pain, which makes him shake in small quivers. Like he wants to cry.
"So, you are a newborn?" He asked, trying to make small talk. I only shook my head, so he knew I meant yes. If I talk I might let the monster-that is ripping at me to just take one bite-out. If I do that then Bella might not have a boyfriend to hold. But when I sat boyfriend it seems inaccurate. I can smell it on Bella that she has something for the handsome bronze-haired male in the back round. He is like a statue that follows her, but in a protective way.
"I know this might be a lot to handle in one week, and I know I must be the last person you want to be around, but I see something in you. Like, not what Bella seems to have, but something different? I know I know you must not want to hear me babble about Bella and stuff but it feels better to be around you. I know I didn't imprint but it is a new kind of feeling. Like I need to be around you but I have a choice in the matter. But I don't want a choice. I want to be forced to be around you. But it is something with your smell, like you are mine. I can't really describe it." He babbled. I just starred at him. I swallowed hard, and I need to face my fears.
"I know what you mean, like you can't help but to be attracted to you. I feel the same but in a different way." I realized as I talk the flames decrease. Talking to him is making it easier, but he still has me mesmerized. I can't look away. His scent is telling me to pounce and satisfy my hungry, but I can't because if I do then he will be gone and the flames will reappear.
"Exactly. I am being pulled to Bella, but I see her differently. It is like I am in a trance." When he said that I realized that maybe he is in one. 'She' always said that we mesmerize humans easily. That is why I always let her torture me. So, now I get to experience what she said. Then, I felt Jake walk closer and I finally smelt his scent more closely. And I can't get away from it. I start holding my breath and he notices and steps back unwillingly.
"Sorry, I forgot." He said sadly. "Can you resist?" He asked hopefully.
"Soon." I said carefully. I made sure to hold my breath. The flames started to fade when I smelt -through my closed dead lungs- happiness and lust. I bite my lips shut so I couldn't suck any air through my lungs. It worked better than I could have hoped. It feels uncomfortable with this. But I will deal if it means that Jake lives. He stepped back more when he felt fear radiate off of my. I started to feel it off him, so I stepped back too. This will be different.