Hey guys, okay your reviews defiantly swayed my decision, now I haven't decided yet, but I am almost sure of who should get Jasper's heart. And I got one review about Syd and the imprinting well I want to just say that there was no imprinting with her, she had Lanny as her singer, but that is it. Embry imprinted on Anna not Syd and Lanny did not imprint on anyone yet.
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Bella's point of view
"I can smell it." I laughed a nervous embarrassed laugh. He loves me and even when he didn't know I was alive he still loved me, he loves me. And I was a complete bitch to him. I may have had a reason too, but it was not an excuse I should have used for so long. I just don't know if he will forgive me. God, I hope he does. I want everything to work out, and I want everyone to stay together. I want a big happy family. With my big brothers Ben and Mike, And my sensitive sister Angela, my aggressive protective sister Jess, Jamie and Lindsay, my second father Carlisle, My second mom Esme, my big wise cracking teddy Emmett, my shopping hyper pixie Alice, my younger bro Jazz, (Bella sees him as a younger bro), Rosalie, Jake my best friend, I want Charlie to have his old daughter back, the one who can feel love and not be broken, my, babies Emma and Lizzie, and now Anna and Syd. I want us all to be together.
"Cool!" Emmett shouted. We all laughed. Always depend on Emmett to make everything seem cool. I noticed how after that everyone broke into groups. I saw Rosalie, Edward, and Jazz form a group, so I walked over.
"Hey guys." I said quietly. All their faces broke into faces. "Look, guys, I know I haven't been forgiving or even a bit nice, hell I have been a complete bitch, but I want you to know I am truly sorry and I understand if you can never forgive me." I said in a rush.
"Bella, there is nothing to forgive." Edward and Rosalie said together.
"But I completely acted like a bitchy snob." I admitted.
"Well, you needed to, that was how you tried to protect yourself from us. From all the pain we caused you. And we never judged you. You had and still have all the right to completely hate us," Rosalie said. I just sat with my mouth open.
"I can never hate you." I admitted.
"Well can you forgive us?" Rosalie spoke again.
"Already forgiven." I said with a smile.
"Look Bella, I know when you were human I was a complete bitch to you, and I want to apologize to you. I was just jealous, I wanted what you had to give up, because of us." Rosalie added.
"Rose, you were the person I didn't blame at all." I admitted again. She had a confused look. "Well you were always brutally honest with me, you never pretended to like me, and I am thankful for that, so there is nothing to forgive, I am welcoming you back with open arms, my family, I mean our family agrees." I said. They all smiled.
"Edward can I talk to you?" I asked with a sweet smile.
"Of course." He said with an even bigger smile. We walked into the other room.
"Look, I am going to be honest, I love you, I never stopped, I lied thinking that if I pretended with Shane I could live better, and with Jake, it was a friendship. But I want you back. And if you don't feel the same way I will-." I was stopped short as Edward crashed his lips to mine; this is what I have been waiting for. I like the way our lips work in sync. How I can feel the same electric shock I felt as a human, and I can inhale his amazing scent. I subconsciously put my arms around his neck and got closer. I finally had to separate, when someone cleared their throat. We turned to see everyone looking at us, and I know if I were human I would be blushing like crazy. Everyone suddenly got smiles and started whistling. I laughed and walked back into the room pulling Edward by the hand at the same time. Everyone assumed their groups and started talking again. I saw Edward turn to look at Jasper as Jasper looked away. Edward got a sympathetic look as Jasper walked away. He walked over to Carlisle and Esme. I turned on my mind reading power I got from Edward and used it on Jasper.
"Why do I have to love both of them, I can never leave Alice, but not having Syd at my side would kill me. I want both and I know neither deserves to have me be unfaithful. Syd and I have such history and I feel like my human self with her, like resuming the flame I wanted to have with her as a human. And even when I first turned I was certain on finding her and having her back, I always thought if I saw her I would change her and have her at my side for eternity, but I can't leave Alice, I love her just as much, we have been together for so long, and my love for her is eternal, I just can't live without either one." I stopped listening when I thought I heard enough. So, he loves both but he can't decide which one would hurt more without. And even though Alice basically my best friend, I feel Jasper's pain and know how he feels, I wanted both Jake and Edward, but it hurt more without Edward. It was sort of easy for me, but for Jasper, it must suck! He is like a brother to me, and I don't want him to hurt. I just want this to be easy for him. I want to help him but I know he has to do this on his own, and I bet he is thankful no one knows he is in this dilemma. Wait? Do they know? I quickly skimmed Emmett's mind, and he is completely oblivious to everything. I looked in Rosalie's mind and it surprised me.
"Oh, Jasper I feel so bad for him, I know Alice is my sister and she is my best friend but I can feel his pain, we all know he loves Alice, but he must love this Syd person if he can barely look at either one. I we just want him to be happy and if he is happy with Syd, then we will be happy for them." I stood there shocked at Rose, she is so understanding, I mean she has changed completely since I saw her when she was human. I am so proud of her that she can be happy for Jasper no matter whom his choice is. So, next is Esme.
"I am happy I get my Bella back, all of her family as my own, and now two younger children, I just wish Jasper wasn't so sad, we all know when Syd explained herself that he got shaken. We can all see that he loves her, but he has Alice, and we all know he will feel incredibly guilty if he leaves her, I hate seeing my family in more pain." Of course Esme's mind is always the same, she is so motherly, I smiled. She is worried about my family too? Wow, she is really forgiving. Next is Carlisle.
"I really hope Jasper listens to his heart, it is so obvious he loves both of them, and it is tearing him apart, we just want him to be happy no matter what." And Carlisle always so fatherly and understanding. So, I moved on to Syd.
"I should have just kept my big mouth shut and lied, I should have left this poor family alone, and now I am causing everyone pain, maybe I should just leave, maybe go to Italy. I could join the guard and just leave this family in peace, then Jasper and Alice can live in peace, I got what I have wanted. I wanted and still want Jasper to be happy and living healthy, or at least as healthy as a vampire can be." I stood stunned. She wants to leave? And she is completely selfless, she wants to leave so that Jasper and Alice can live in peace, no matter how much pain it will cause her. So, now I will look at Alice's mind.
"I feel so bad, Jasper is completely torn because he loves us both. I just wish he would realize that I will be okay with his decision no matter what 100%. If he does choice Syd, then I hope they are happy together. I can always find another mate. It may hurt a little at the beginning, but I will be fine." I starred at Alice in shock. She is so forgiving. I can't believe my family. They are so selfless. I silently smiled to myself. They are the best.
"Bella, are you listening?" Edward asked. I looked back at him and smiled. I nodded my head and he continued to talk to Rosalie. I looked at Alice again and smiled. She is so selfless and I couldn't ask for a better sister. I turned back to Edward and tried to listen in on the conversation.
"-And I think if we added a couple of more rooms to the west side of the house, we may be able to fit everyone in the house comfortably. I mean we are all a family now, so we might as well love together." Edward finished.
"But wouldn't the school be suspicious about all of us living together?" Rosalie asked hastily.
"We can say their parents died and Carlisle decided to adopt them so they wouldn't be separated." Edward made an impromptu decision.
"But what about Charlie?" I asked unsurely.
"He is gonna live with us too." Edward added.
"But then we would be lying, I mean Charlie is here and if we say our parents died then it would stand out 'cause he is obviously our dad." I said quickly.
"True, but we will think of something." Rosalie said to herself. I can see the smile pull on her lips as she thought of all of us living together. But we still have a problem. What about our newborns, and Jasper and Syd, what are we going to do? We need to discuss this. So I grabbed Edward's hand and Rosalie's hand and went into silent thoughts.
"Guys, we are speaking through thoughts," I thought."This is so cool." Rosalie thought.
"Why do we need to speak in thoughts?" Edward asked.
"Well we need to discuss Jasper." I thought in business like tone.
"What about him?" Rosalie asked.
"Well, about Syd and Alice, we all know he is trying to decide who he wants to be with. And I hate seeing him in pain, I have seen in everyone's mind that they just want him to be happy, we need to pull him aside to tell him that, he needs to know, and he needs to know fast. Syd is thinking of going to Italy and joining the guard so that they can live happily, she thinks she is tearing the family apart. She regrets coming to meet us, she wants Jazz to forget about her and focus on Alice. Even though we know that she really wants to be with him, we can all see it, and it is killing her inside. Jazz needs to make up his mind, and soon." I explained.
"What does Alice think about it?" Rosalie asked.
"She wants him to be happy and she doesn't care if she gets hurt in the process. But we need to talk to all three, we need to make sure Jasper knows we want him to be happy, make sure Alice knows we love her, and we need to convince Syd not to go. She is planning on tomorrow." I explained further.
"Wait! That would kill Jasper even more if she leaves." Rosalie said quickly.
"I know." I admitted.
"How do you know all this?" Edward asked carefully.
"I used your power, I can absorb powers and I used yours to see what people feel about the problem." I admitted while turning my head.
"Well we need to do this fast then." Edward stated.
"Yeah we do." Rosalie added.
"But how do we deal with it without anyone noticing?" I asked seriously.
"That is what we need to figure out." Edward stated again.
"Get Syd over here first." I commanded. "Wait, I know how to do it." I thought quickly. I quickly planted a message in Syd's head. I just said to come over. I saw Syd whisper something to Carlisle and walk over. Rosalie grabbed her hand as she approached and we started speaking.
"Why are you leaving?" Rosalie's voice over powered ours.
"I am causing you pain, especially Jasper and Alice and the only thing I can do is leave, so there is no reason for the pain. I will not be a rift in the family. I am thinking about you not me, I want you guys to be happy, and if I am here then it will just make it worse for you. I intruded on your family and I had no right, so I making it so I won't cause your family anymore pain." She explained calmly.
"You will just make it worse for Jasper." Rosalie said in a small voice.
"But in time he will accept that I am the past and he needs to get over me, if I was smart I would have seen him with Alice and I should have just kept my mouth shut, I was dead set on keep my past the past until I was called out on my gift, then I decided you deserved to know. I thought Jasper would have realized that it was me eventually. And I didn't notice Alice until he held her hand after explaining myself, and then I realized I made a horrible mistake about telling everyone. I am sorry about causing this family pain and soon, I won't be able to again." She finished.
"But we want you to stay." Rosalie, Edward, and I said at the same time. I could see the longing in Syd's eyes, which would most likely be a long-term emotion in her heart, as would that one second of weakness be permanently frozen into my mind, and memory.
"No different." She thought.
"We know you want to stay, we can see it in your eyes. We want you to stay just as much. We know that you are not leaving because you want to. You're leaving because you think you have too. Which you don't, you can stay and live a happy existence with us, you are family," I said surly.
"You are stuck with us." Edward said with a laugh in his mind.
"I beg to differ." She thought.
"It will hurt all of us if you leave." Rosalie said sincerely.
"Did you ever think of how I feel, maybe I don't want to stay!!! Do you know how much it hurts me to see Alice and Jasper!!!!! I can't live everyday thinking 'what if that was me'!!! I want to leave so I don't hurt!!!! I need to leave, yeah, maybe you will see me in the future, and yeah, maybe I want Jasper to be happy with Alice, that is all I want, I want him to be happy, but that doesn't mean I am going to sit and watch!!! I can't sit here everyday of my existence watching the love my human life and vampire life on another girl!!! I can't just sit and wait for my heart to break…I want them to be happy, that is what I am craving, for Jasper to finally have a break and have a women who can help him, and that is Alice, so I am stepping aside for her. So she can be happy too. But I want to at least have my sanity!!!" she said as she dropped our hands and ran out the door. I saw Jasper take a step forward after her but Rosalie, Edward, and I were out the door before he could. I saw Edward take a business stance and he took off after Sydney's scent as Rose and I ran after him. I saw Edward stop when he reached the woods and I could see Syd sitting on the ground.
"We are sorry." I said as I stepped forward and walked next to her. I waited for Rose and Edward to come and we all sat next to her.
"We didn't think it hurt you so much." Rose said sincerely.
"I know, I am sorry for reacting so badly, but I need to leave, at least so I can get used to the thought of them." She admitted. I heard our family coming in the distance. They stopped about 100 feet from the woods, so that they could hear.
"When?" I asked.
"As soon as possible." She said not looking at me. I knew she doesn't know our family is here too.
"Are you going alone?" Edward asked. I saw Jasper flinch as he heard that she is leaving. I still knew Syd doesn't know they are listening.
"Yes." She said. Before, we could say anything we heard a blood-curtailing scream. Syd's head snapped up and she took off to the sound. We all followed her until she stopped at a cliff and we saw a vampire hunched over a human. We saw Syd run over and started yelling at the vampire. Great another one,