The Misanthrope

Chapter 12

xXx

Still lying on the floor with Levi's comfortable weight on him, Eren sighed and shifted, adjusting his hold around the older man. His arms tightened around Levi's shoulders and he hid his face in the crook of Levi's neck, inhaling his intoxicating scent. The intense pleasure had passed and melted into cozy warmth that lulled him almost to sleep.

Levi moved then and slipped out from the boy's body. He placed a kiss to the shell of his ear and murmured softly. "How are you feeling?"

"Mm... Good," Eren hummed, grimacing right after as his stomach decided to grumble loudly. "Ah, hungry," the teen added, giving a sheepish little smile.

Levi chuckled and pecked him on the lips before sliding off of him. "I better feed you then."

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Eren felt like his legs had turned to jelly. Getting up, gathering his clothes and hobbling towards the bathroom had earned him a barely suppressed amused look from Levi.

"Take your time," Levi called out after him just as Eren slammed the door shut.

Ears and cheeks burning, the teen sat down on the toilet and tried not to die of shame. He did his best to clean himself up, even though it took an embarrassingly long time.

When he finally peeked from the bathroom, Levi was already preparing dinner.

"Uhm..."

The older man immediately turned from the pot of vegetable soup and looked at Eren. "Everything okay?"

"Uh, yeah," Eren blushed, slowly taking a seat at the table.

"Are you feeling sore?" Levi asked, closing the distance. His hand slid familiarly into the boy's hair, smoothing it back.

"Just a bit," Eren closed his eyes and savored the touch. Now that he felt the pleasure of being with the man, even the feeling of having Levi's fingers in his hair was making his stomach throb.

"I wasn't laughing at you before you went to bathroom," Levi murmured into his ear. "Don't be so embarrassed."

"It's just new," Eren whispered. He couldn't look Levi in the eye. He felt naked in front of him. Something was off.

"Hey," warm fingers gripped his chin. "Look at me, Eren."

Eren blinked and vaguely felt wetness under his eye. He turned his gaze up at Levi, whose face suddenly paled and contorted with a mix of worry and regret.

"Shit."

"Levi..." Eren choked, surprised that he was in fact crying.

"Shit, shit," the fingers gripping Eren's chin began to tremble. "I shouldn't have done that to you. I'm such an idiot..."

"Levi, no..."

"No? Look at you. You're crying. You're regretting this, aren't you? It was too much for you... And I just... I just took you, there, on the floor."

"Wait!" Eren nearly yelled. This was all too confusing. He couldn't deal with Levi thinking he'd screwed up. Levi blinked at him, his hand falling from Eren's face. The loss of touch hurt.

"I... I just feel weird." The boy began, managing to hold the gaze on Levi. "I feel naked. And different. Like... It was wonderful, and I felt great when we were lying there. And then, we just... We just got up and that was it. I ran to the bathroom and you began to cook. Like nothing big happened."

Levi was still listening attentively.

"I feel like something big changed in me, and we're just acting like nothing happened..."

"Eren..." the older man sighed. The gentle hand was back on his cheek. "It's my fault and I'm sorry. I was never really good at showing feelings... Well, good feelings at least. Believe it or not, this is almost as new for me too. I've been on my own for so long that I just don't know how to act, especially with someone as young as you."

Eren nodded, understanding. Levi had shown him all the affection he could while they made love, and even afterwards, he was really trying in his own awkward and almost antisocial way.

"But be honest Eren. Do you regret any of this?"

"No." Clear as day.

"So, you basically just need my attention?" Levi managed a small smile, still seeming skeptical.

Eren nodded and finally felt strong arms wrapping around him.

"You're such a brat," Levi murmured affectionately, holding the boy to his chest.

xXx

After eating and cleaning up, Levi had decided it was time for bed. Eren's first thought was that he would be sleeping on the sofa, but Levi's raised eyebrow as he was brushing his teeth convinced him that he had a wrong idea.

"Either you'll be sleeping with me in the bed, or I'll sleep with you on the sofa. I prefer bed," Levi talked around the toothbrush.

"I was just trying to be polite," Eren protested, but inwardly he was all gooey and warm. He watched the older man rinse his mouth and meticulously clean the bathroom sink from the residual toothpaste.

"The discussion is closed," Levi finally smirked and went towards the bedroom. "There's a new, unused toothbrush in the bathroom cabinet, you can take it. I'm waiting for you in bed."

The words almost made Eren giggle. He had someone waiting for him in the bed.

He quickly went through his evening bathroom routine and hurried into the bedroom. The wooden floor was cold under his bare feet.

"Freezing..." he whined, climbing into the bed.

Levi stopped him just as he lifted the duvet. "Clothes that were on the floor don't go into this bed."

"But I don't have anything else right now!" Eren protested and earned himself a smirk from Levi, just before the man turned off the oil lamp.

"Then you'll be naked," a teasing voice murmured through the sudden darkness.

"It's freezing cold as it is!"

"I'll keep you warm," Levi promised.

It took Eren five seconds to be out of the borrowed clothes and under the covers. The bedding was cold, causing strong shivers down his back. He whined as his teeth chattered, he heard Levi snort, and then finally managed to press against his warmth.

"Oh my god, you're so warm... You're like a furnace," Eren sighed, loving the way Levi's arms wrapped around him and how he held him tightly.

"Is this okay," Levi asked as his hand slid down Eren's naked side and rested on his hip. His warm breath was tickling Eren's cheek, making him squirm against the older man.

"Why wouldn't it be okay?"

"I don't want to mess up even more. I really thought you were regretting what we did." Levi squeezed him a bit tighter. "When I saw you crying, it felt like a punch to my stomach."

Not knowing what to say, Eren searched for the other man's mouth in the dark. His lips slid over Levi's jaw before pressing a slow kiss. Levi immediately responded, the gentle glide of tongue making Eren melt against him.

He wanted to make Levi feel like that too.

He broke the deep kiss, his lips finding a spot under Levi's ear where he licked and sucked, causing a moan of his name. His hand sneaked underneath Levi's nightshirt, fingers playing over his ripped abs. He was so warm.

Eren shivered with a newly awakened desire. The darkness made him feel more, smell and taste more. Levi was silky smooth, so, so warm and he smelled so good that Eren's mouth began to water.

The first time, he was too nervous with anticipation, so he couldn't thoroughly enjoy the sensations and the scent from another man, just from being pressed against him.

He nibbled on Levi's neck, licked his throat, kissed his jaw. Yanking the shirt off of Levi, he slid lower to nuzzle his chest – the intoxicating scent was stronger there.

Eren whined into the strong pectorals, rutting against Levi's clothed thigh. Why did he have to wear anything to bed?

"Off," he pleaded, tugging on the waistband of Levi's bottoms.

"And then?" Levi purred, shimmying out of his pajama bottoms.

"I want more... I need..." Eren whispered, stretching on top of the older man. His hand slid down and closed around Levi's length.

"Again?" Levi groaned as the boy squeezed him and stroked slowly.

"Yeah," Eren breathed, burying his face in between Levi's neck and shoulder. And right then, he felt a small jab of insecurity. "Do you want me again?"

He was suddenly pushed and flipped onto his back, Levi's weight pressing him into the mattress.

"Wait here," the older man growled and disappeared off of him. He heard footsteps in the dark, and then a bang and Levi's curse, which made him giggle. The door of the bedroom opened, which allowed some light to come in.

Levi was back almost immediately, with the familiar small container in his hand. He closed the door and Eren's heart began to beat faster as he recalled the feeling of Levi moving inside of him. He welcomed the man with open arms, pulling him on top of him with urgency.

"Levi..."

"Be patient," Levi soothed and kissed down his body. He heard the container being opened but then Levi did nothing more with it. Eren felt open-mouthed kisses down his stomach, until Levi's chin brushed against his erection.

Not waiting, Levi took him in his mouth and swirled his tongue around. His stomach was fluttering again, the pleasure throbbing and he knew he was dripping in Levi's mouth. The thought made him moan. Or Levi moaned, he wasn't even sure. Because Levi seemed even more into it than he was earlier, judging by the sounds he was making.

Eren figured that he was perhaps more relaxed as well, now that they passed that 'first time' nervousness. His hands found their way into Levi's hair, stroking slowly, trying not to pull when the man gave a stronger suck.

The teen heard him moan again, and he moved in a slow rhythm.

"Levi, what..."

Levi released him and panted into his thigh. "Just... Stay like this."

Eren felt him shifting around until suddenly, Levi was straddling him and taking his aching arousal in his slick hand, rubbing slowly.

Levi leaned closer to him and murmured in a husky voice. "I want you to feel this kind of pleasure too." He kissed him slowly and moved back, gripping Eren's erection firmly and sinking slowly down on it.

"O-oh my g..." the boy wheezed, the sensation leaving him breathless.

The feeling was nothing like Levi's mouth or hand. It was intense. It was hot and deep and so tight. Levi groaned on top of him, stilling his body for a few moments before moving again, at first really slow.

"Levi," Eren whined, not daring to move under him. "Not fair... I can't even see you..."

"You want to see me..." Levi purred lowly, shifting his weight to his right, but not separating from Eren. He fumbled in the darkness and managed to light up the oil lamp.

The view had Eren almost climaxing.

Levi was riding him slowly, the strong muscles in his thighs and stomach tensing and relaxing, his hips rolling sensually. Eren's hands smoothed up and down his sides, until he pulled him down to kiss him, his hold sliding around Levi's back.

"You feel so good," Eren mewled, nuzzling Levi's cheek. The older man caught his lips in a kiss, tilting his pelvis and taking Eren deeper inside of him. They fitted perfectly, Eren thought. He gripped Levi's hips again and gave an experimental thrust into the inviting heat.

He honestly wasn't expecting a breathy, keening "Eren" spilling from Levi's lips.

That was almost too much. He almost...

He whined in response, his hips jerking on their own and Eren squeezed his eyes shut, praying to every deity out there to keep him from coming just yet. He wanted for it to go on forever.

The immediate danger of orgasm seemed to have passed and Eren dared to open his eyes.

Seeing Levi on top of him all flushed and glowing in the weak light, gave him the courage to take initiative and build up a steady rhythm, driving up every time that Levi pushed down.

It seemed to be to Levi's liking.

"Oh God, don't stop, Eren," he leaned down and claimed the boy's lips once more, tongue slipping past them. Hearing the praise, Eren thrust a bit harder and Levi's head rolled back in pleasure, breaking the kiss. He arched his back, this time moaning in earnest. "Y-yes, right there!"

The loud cry caused a sharp jolt of lust through Eren's body. Not even knowing what he was doing, he suddenly moved, somehow grabbing Levi around his waist and tumbling them both so that Levi ended up lying on his back, Eren on top of him.

Levi stared at him, eyes widened with honest surprise, but then he smirked and tugged the boy closer.

Eren had slipped out in that maneuver, so he even got the privilege to enter Levi on his own. He was slow and gentle, even as Levi grumbled and yanked him for more. When he was back inside once more, he pressed his face to Levi's neck, nipping the skin while trying to establish some kind of rhythm behind his thrusts.

It was easier when Levi was in charge, but this... This was new and it felt so good, so tight, that he just couldn't decide how to move. Everything felt exquisite.

The man underneath him... Levi... Levi was perfect. The usually grumpy and detached man was warm and opened; his face was flushed, his brow sweaty, his eyes... His eyes were glassy and dark, inviting. His lips parted and swollen, glistening from the wet kisses.

"Levi..." The teen rolled his hips desperately, his whole body trembling from the passion. "Levi, I..." Shaky fingers traced Levi's jaw, trying to show what wouldn't come out of Eren's mouth.

"I know," the man whispered, taking Eren's face in his hands and kissing him deeply. He wrapped himself around Eren, squeezing him with his muscled legs.

The boy licked and bit on the soft lips pressing against his, speeding up his thrusts, finally finding a pace that made them both gasp for air. He felt Levi twitching rhythmically around him, whole body becoming taut.

"Eren," he warned, sounding as if in pain.

It was overwhelming. Eren felt the familiar heat pooling up in his groin, making his hips buck urgently.

A surprised gasp from Levi had drawn his attention to his face and then lower, ignoring Levi's fingers digging painfully into his back. He watched as Levi came untouched with a long, low moan that melted Eren's core. He never stopped his powerful thrusts, staring down as the milky white seed spilled from Levi's pulsing length.

The sensations and the view pushed him over the edge and he lost himself in Levi's warmth, sobbing out his pleasure.

Finally calming down, his mind hazy, Eren had to check his cheeks for tears because he was certain he was crying. Finding nothing but dampness from sweat, he blinked down at Levi, who in turn gave a tired smile.

"You little... brat..." Levi panted, still shaking from his orgasm.

"What'd I do?" the teen nearly slurred, his head spinning slightly. He wondered if people felt like this when they were drunk, in the end concluding that sex was surely way better than that.

"You did good... Very, very good," Levi purred, caressing his back with opened palms, soothing the spots where his fingers were digging in earlier.

Eren's chest filled with warmth and he smiled, hiding into the pillow next to Levi's head. He slowly withdrew from the older man and turned to his side, snuggling up to him.

"It was amazing," the boy whispered, linking his fingers with Levi's.

"It was," Levi agreed. He quickly wiped his stomach with his shirt and threw it on the floor. "Won't be needing this," he smirked and pulled Eren into his arms.

Cuddling up together under the thick duvet filled with goose feathers, Levi looked the boy in the eye.

"I don't want to hurt you."

Eren blinked. "What, why?"

"I don't want to see you crying over this... Us. So, whenever you feel you need me to hold you or kiss you, just tell me. As I said, this is as new for me.

"Oh," Eren felt relieved.

"I was always very reserved from feelings during the war. When you lose comrades and friends every day, you really don't want to love anyone. I'm not saying I never felt pain and sorrow, but I'm sure you understand that losing someone who you care about in a romantic way hurts much deeper."

"I can imagine," Eren nodded. He held Levi tighter.

"I've met some couples. People fell in love while being in the same squads... You can't really help it sometimes. And when a person from a couple died in battle or went missing in action... I've seen both men and women falling apart. No military training could have prepared them for that. I've seen a woman trying to resuscitate her lover, even though his whole lower body was missing and he'd been dead for hours."

Eren felt like crying. Not one veteran had told him a story like that. Some things were obviously being held from young people like him. The soldiers that wanted to talk usually told interesting adventures or battles that ended up well for the humanity. No one ever told him the gruesome side of it all.

"Levi," he whispered, nuzzling into the man's neck.

"I talk too much," he sighed, stroking Eren's back gently.

"No," Eren shook his head. "I like it when you talk. I'm just really glad that we're safe now."

"Me too. Especially that I've met you," he murmured, the soft sound making Eren's chest hurt and his stomach flutter. He closed his eyes and relaxed next to Levi, savoring the warmth of his body. He was barely holding onto his consciousness, tired from the whole day and its ups and downs.

He slept.

xXx

Eren slowly blinked, waking up. Levi had turned off the lamp and the dawn wasn't even near, judging by the darkness and the complete serenity of the surroundings. He guessed he'd slept maybe for an hour or so.

His fingers were still intertwined with Levi's and he felt him move.

"You're awake?" He asked.

"Mm," Levi affirmed softly. "Sleep seems to evade me tonight."

"Can I help?"

In the darkness, Levi found his lips and kissed him slowly, his tongue tracing along gently. He squeezed his hand and then pulled him closer, embracing him tightly. Eren whimpered, feeling affection combined with lust as the older man sucked on his lower lip.

"I need you," Levi breathed against his mouth.

xXx

They ended up on their sides, Eren behind Levi, taking him with slow and gentle thrusts, stroking Levi's throbbing length until he spilled himself onto the sheets with a soft cry. Eren followed a moment later, clutching onto Levi.

If he could choose to spend eternity in the dark, in bed with Levi, he wouldn't mull over it for a second. And he was certain he would never be able to love anyone more than he loved Levi. The thought made his stomach clench painfully and yet so exquisitely.

And then, as if he were reading his mind, Levi turned to face him in the darkness, pressing close and entwining their arms and legs.

"I love you, Eren."

xXx

To be continued...