"So where are we going?" asks Adam closing the door.
"Lawrence," John replied with his hands gripped tightly on the steering wheel.
Adam gives him an odd look, John had seen that same look after Mary's death when he told everyone how Mary had died the you're crazy look.
"Dad…..-
"Don't," says John.
Adam took the hint and went back to starring out the window.
"Go to sleep Adam," says John.
"Nah what if you need me to drive?" asks Adam a sly smile forming at his lips.
"You're fifteen," reminds John.
Adam pouts as he slumps down in his seat.
"Come on Dad the road's like empty," says Adam, "scratch that is empty,"
"You could hit into something," states John.
"Yeah the lonely cow," Adam replied.
John gave Adam a look and the teenager rolled his eyes and folded his arms.
"I bet you would have let Dean drive," says Adam underneath his breath.
Was Adam jealous of his brother? It was the same tone Sam use to use when he said that "you only like him better because he is a better hunter,". And for a second John can see a flash of the old Adam, the angry teenager.
"Adam…what did you mean by that?" asks John.
"Never mind it's not worth it," Adam mutters before completely turning his shoulder.
"No please just tell me," says John.
"Dean's your favorite…..even Sam agrees you gave him the Impala, your old jacket…Dean always got shotgun no matter how old Sam was or even if he called it…..it's because he reminds you of your wife," says Adam bitterly.
Was he truly like this? Or was his son playing the sibling rivalry game, John stared at the hurt in his son's eyes.
"Adam-
"Don't talk to me," says Adam, "I'm going to sleep,"
John watched as his son leaned his head against the cold window and soon he heard the steady breaths. So in this life he had seen Mary everywhere, he played favorites with his sons…what else was wrong with this life? His ponderings were broken by the shrill sound of his phone ringing. Rumbling through his bag for his phone, he saw it was Kate's cell phone.
"Where the hell are you?" she demands.
"Kate-
"I went to wake my son for school and found his bed empty…..I found the side of my bed empty…..where the hell are you? Do you realize he has school? Do you realize the thoughts going through my head when my son and my husband were gone?" demands Kate.
"We left you a note-
"A god damn note John….in Adam's handwriting only saying Mom dad and I went on road trip bye…I was ready to call the police I had your sons out searching for the better of two hours-
"Kate I'm sorry-
"You're sorry? John this is over the line….the drinking every night…..the working overtime…now taking off in the middle of the night with our son….we have to stop this or stop us this isn't working John if you think alright to run off in the middle of the night I thought you were happy?"
He could hear the sad in her voice and knew either Kate was in tears or close to it.
"John…..we have two boys we have to think about," Mary had said evident tears by the breaking of her voice.
"The boys come first,"
"They always will…are you coming home?"
"John are you even listening?" Kate yelled.
"Kate-
"Tell me where my child is," sas Kate.
"We're near Kansas," says John.
"I'm sending Dean and Sam to get you…..and then we'll see if we can work this out…..I really hope we do," says Kate and he hears the dial tone.
John sighs before throwing the phone mindlessly.
"Ow," Adam cried.
"Oh so you were awake?" asks John bitterly.
"Sorry you're just loud…..you and mom have always been loud when you fight," and he's reverted back to the four-year-old in the tapes.
"Do we fight a lot?" John asks not looking at his son.
"Lately," Adam admitted and he took a deep breath before just barely above a whisper, "are you gonna get a dirvorce?"
"I don't know," says John, "come on we're here,"
A/N: Review please
For all those waiting for "Future Sons" I am in the midst of writing a chapter my other laptop broke and I just got it back and I'm trying to find the file*cross my fingers* I find it otherwise I'll rewrite it.