A/N: I was thinking of a new summary and this is it: Love is like being on a bumpy dirt road in a four wheel truck. Jacob and Leah did not want love, so the path they are on is in the forest on an old four wheeler. Or something like that, what do you think? Let me know. Ps, I don't own Twilight, I do own two i-pod shuffles and one broken charger lol.

Where I Stood

I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none

There were sounds in my head
LIttle voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should

Where I stood- Missy Higgins

I stared at Jake in disbelief. Did he just fucking say that? I mean, yeah, it was fucking fantastic, but come on! Actually that was the best sex I have ever had, still though.

"I'm sorry, Leah." He said, sensing my disbelief, yet he did not stop there. The idiot kept talking, "But come on, it was pretty fucking amazing."

I pushed him off of me, and began searching for my clothes.

"Aw Leah, you have to admit it was good though, wasn't it?" I shot the idiot who could not seem to keep his closed a dirty look as I continued looking for my dress. I found his shorts and threw them to him. "It was good for me anyway, was it not good for you?" Jacob asked put his shorts on, looking down at the ground.

Oh, for fuck's sake, he was being shy now? I sighed. "Yes, Jake it was good, hell, fucking fantastic even." His head shot up at those words with a huge smile on his face. "But that is not the point, how did it happen? Why did it happen? I have never felt anything like that before in my life." I ranted on.

"I don't know, Leah. I have no sweet fucking clue how or why it happened. I just know that it did, isn't that all that matters?" The hardness in his voice made me stop my search and look up into his eyes, which were all over my still naked body. He moved closer to me and put his hands on my hips. "You still feel it, don't you? I know you do I can see it in your eyes, Leah." The way he said my name sent shivers down my back and I seemed to melt into him.

"We-we need to go back there, Jacob. What's his face and Seth are waiting for us." Oh fuck my life, Seth! He seemed to realize the same thing and he moved back and reached behind me and pulled out my dress. "How the fuck did you find that? Did you know where that was the whole fucking time?" I snatched it away from him quickly.

"Kind of, but I didn't want you to put it back on. As much as I love that dress on you, Leah, I love it even more off of you." He placed it over my head, kissing every inch of skin before it was concealed in the dress. He placed a kiss on the side of my neck where he had bitten before tying the straps and I moaned. His eyes darkened but he stepped away from me. "We do need to get back though your brother is going to fucking kill me."

"I'd lie and say that he won't care but he will care. Fuck me!" I exclaimed throwing my hands up in the air.

Immediately after saying this Jake had both of my hands in one of his, and another around my waist, backing me up to the tree again. "Say that again, Leah, and I swear to god I will." He growled lightly into my ear.

I resisted the urge, and moaned lightly instead. As much as I wanted to, I knew he was not bluffing and we really did need to go back. He gave me one hard kiss on the lips, let go of my arms and took a step back.

"Come on, Leah. Let's go see what this fucker has to say." Jake began walking and I followed, quickly catching up to him. There was no fucking way I was letting him lead; I had way too much pride for that. I chuckled in my head at that though, I won't walk behind him because of my pride but I let him fuck me up against a tree, God, I really am messed up.

It didn't take us long to make our way back to the Cullen house. There's nothing like the walk of shame through a forest and straight into an enemy's house, where your brother happens to be. Maybe they will think we were just talking. I looked down at my dress and sighed. My white sundress was ripped and had dirt smeared all over it. What in the world possessed me to buy a white sundress when I was in the forest most of the time was beyond me.

"I need to get my backpack from the Cullen's house after we talk this weird situation out." I told Jake, who had been weirdly quiet, the whole walk back.

"Why?" Jake asked, looking at me curiously.

I shot him my best your-an-idiot look before replying. "Have you seen this stupid thing? It's covered in dirt and there is a fucking hole in it!" I poked my finger in the hole near the bottom of the dress.

Jacob laughed at me and my misfortune. I shot him an annoyed look before muttering, "It's all your fault anyway."

"You keep telling yourself that, sweetheart, but it takes two, and I didn't hear you complaining." He chuckled.

"Sweetheart? What the fuck? When am I ever sweet?" I countered, not being able to argue with the rest of his logic.

"I can think of a time." He said smugly.

Oh, fuck my life. Really? I huffed, crossed my arms over my chest and pouted. We could see the Cullen house in the distance now.

"Oh, and sweetheart, you may not want to cross your arms like that when we get there."

I swear to god I am going to kill him, well maybe not kill him. He is really good in bed, but I'll beat the shit out of him anyway. "Why is that?" I glared.

"I can see your tits." Jake, knowing me too well did the smartest thing he had done all day, he ran. I looked down and sure enough, when I crossed my arms, my stupid dress came down in the front. I dropped my arms and ran after him.

We made it to the house in record time and I managed to catch up with him as he was running inside. I slapped him hard across the back of his head, muttered a, "Fucking idiot", and went inside before him. He followed behind me, pouting, while I just rolled my eyes. I knew we were in trouble when Seth shot us a death glare. I blushed and looked down at the floor but not Jake; he grinned widely and winked at him. Well at least I don't have to beat him up anymore.

~*~*~*~*~

Ten minutes later, we were sitting down at a table at the Cullen's house. Seth had finally stopped shaking and glaring at us and was now smiling widely (can someone say bi-polar?). Jake had a black eye and a few bruised ribs, which were healing by the time we had sat down. I had changed into my other sundress, which, against my better judgement was white but it was better than the last one. Caden looked slightly amused at the whole situation and was now smirking to himself. His eyes raked over my body once again and I heard Jake growl.

"Can you tell us why you are here now? I am getting quite impatient." I said rolling my eyes at Jacob's behaviour.

"Yes, I suppose we can." Caden's amused expression quickly turned into a serious one. "I already told Jacob that I was looking for your pack for a long time. While that is correct, it is not the complete truth. I have been looking for you, Leah, for a long time."

"Me? Why me?" I asked, thoroughly confused.

Jacob growled and Seth looked just as confused as I did.

"You, Goddess, are the only female wolf known to this world in this age."

I am the only one? Oh good, I'm even more of a freak than I ever thought.

"Don't sigh, princess, it is definitely not a bad thing. It is a shame that you have never been treated as you should have been. If you were in my pack-"

He was cut off by Jacob, "Well, she's not in your pack, she's in mine. So can you please get with it?" Jake growled.

He was shaking slightly, which is never a good sign with wolves. I couldn't understand why he was acting like this but then again, since I joined this pack there have been too many things that I did not understand. I shot him a look but he was too busy glaring at Caden to look my way. I nudged him with my foot again and shot him another "fuck off" look and he looked at me and nodded slightly. The look in his eyes was filled with doubt and I knew what he was thinking. He was thinking that I would leave with Caden and abandon his pack. I reached under the table and put my hand onto of his, making him understand that I was not leaving him. His shaking stopped and he took a deep breath as Caden began again.

"Once, in a time too far back to tell when, there was another female wolf. She was the mother of all the wolves. She too was a Goddess, the Goddess of the wolves. I'd imagine she looked quite similar to you, Leah. No one can be sure what she looked like, just that her beauty outstood all, just as yours does. She had a mate, just as all female wolves do, and he was powerful beyond belief. It is rumoured that he was more powerful than her because she gave herself up to him, making him stronger. Though no one knows for sure how, one day her mate was destroyed by a group of wolves, jealous of his power and his mate. Being without her mate, her stability, and fuelled by anger, she cursed all of the wolves. She cursed them for killing her mate, for breaking her heart, but most of all, for not treating her as she deserved. She deemed all wolves incapable of having a mother, of having a Goddess, and cursed them with a power so deeply, everyone was affected. She declared that there would never be another Goddess of the wolves until all wolves could become worthy of her. She left after that day, never to return again. A legend suggests that after cursing the wolves, she decided that she could not leave such a heavy burden upon every single wolf. She declared that even though they deserved no mercy, she would give them some. Her mercy came in the form of the new wolf Goddess. The new Goddess would be stronger than she was, and much less merciful. She would have to be stronger in all ways so not to be fooled again by any wolf." Caden finished the story with those words.

We all sat there in a stunned silence. He was saying that I was a Goddess of the wolves? Is he crazy? He doesn't even know me yet. Seth was the first one to break the silence.

"So you're saying that my sister is some kind of God to all wolves?" He said, trying to work things over in his head.

"Goddess, but yes, she is." Caden corrected him.

"Why should we believe you?" Jake seemed to be having a harder time than Seth was.

"Why shouldn't you? I also have proof of all of this."

"Proof? I'd like to see that." I said, finally. Why should I believe someone I have never met?

"Of course you would, sweetheart. All you have to do is come with me, and I will show you." Caden said sweetly, as if he were trying to lure a small child with candy.

What the hell is it with everyone calling me sweetheart anyway? I am not fucking sweet!

"Come with you? What do you mean?" Jake asked, shaking again. I squeezed his hand and he calmed himself down.

"I can take you where it all began, to the homeland of all our kind." Caden said.

"And where is this?" Jake asked, seething.

"Alaska." Caden answered.

Seth laughed. "Alaska? All were wolves are from Alaska?"

"Why is this funny? Did you ever wonder why we are so hot? We are hot so that we can withstand any temperate, especially an Alaskan winter."

Well that did kind of make sense I suppose. Wait, he wants me to go to Alaska? Fuck.

"You want me to go there?" I asked, almost speechless.

"Well yes, you can understand everything much better after seeing it. Also you will know how it is you should be treated, as the Goddess you are. It would give so many of us hope after we thought all was lost."

Jake lowly growled at him. At the rate of comfort, I am going to be on his lap soon!

"Of course, your mate can come too." Caden answered quickly.

"Mate?" Seth asked the question I was just about to answer.

"I think you are mistaken, Jake is not my mate."

Caden looked at me, eyebrows raised and smirked. "He's not? I believe you are mistaken there, Leah."

"No, she's not. We're not mates." Jake said, grinding his teeth.

"Don't worry; I can explain all of that too. So, what do you say?" Caden said, cheerfully.

"I-I don't know. This is all happening too quickly for me. My mind cannot process all of this yet." It was a long day, and with this news, I knew it would be longer.

"Take your time, princess. My men and I have a hotel room in Port Angeles; we will stay until you have made your decision." With that, he handed both me and Jake his card and walked out of the room.

"What do you want to do, Leah?" Seth said gently, breaking the silence.

"Well, I can't actually leave, Seth."

"Why not?" He asked.

"Well, I joined this pack for you but the both of you formed it for Bella. I can't just abandon it." I explained, still thinking about it.

"You wouldn't be going alone." Jake said quietly.

I whipped around to look at him. "What do you mean?"

"If you are going, then so am I." He said quietly but with determination that I knew I could not shake.

"I can stay here and make sure things are ok with Bella. The pack won't mess with her with me here." Seth piped up.

"This is absurd. I can't just leave and go to Alaska!"

"You can if you want, Leah. Think it over, and let us know what you decide." Jake said quietly, rubbing small circles on my hand.

Later that night I sat in the forest thinking about it all. Could I really leave La Push behind? I suppose I could, there is nothing left here for my anymore. That thought brought a stray tear to my eye. I knew that I should go, but leaving everything behind would be hard. Everything was here, my life, my family, my love. I shook my head out. That was why I should go, to be away from Sam. That was also the exact reason that I wanted to stay.

A/N: Holy crap, that is a long chapter! That has to be the longest yet, its double most of the other ones. I am moving into my dorm on Monday so hopefully this will tide everyone over for awhile. Sorry about the cliffie but hey, it gives you something to think about. Thanks to everyone, and Review! Ps. Does anyone else notice how much Jake growls? Sorry but I think it's hot lol.