A/N: Sorry it has been so long! This chapter is really short, and has no song to go with it. I just really wanted to get it out so you don't have to wait so long. I am getting stuck now, and have a tad bit of writers block. I also have been crazy busy with school, I am sick today, which is why I am updating. Thanks everyone! Ps. Twilight is not mine!

Letting Go and Holding On.

They say the hardest thing to do is to watch the one you love, love someone else. So I guess I can check that one off my list of shit I had to go through in life. I wonder if they included female werewolves who were first thought as outcasts, and then some kind of wolf goddess. Why then, did it feel like leaving Sam would be the hardest thing I had ever done? Why couldn't I still leave him? I mean I suppose I did leave him, but I only went twenty minutes away. I wonder what going to Alaska would do for me. I really wondered what it would do for him. Would he care? I wish I could say that he would not, but I knew he would. That is one of the things I hated most about Sam; that he still loved me. True, he loved Emily more, but he loved me all the same. I knew it, he knew it, hell the whole pack knew it; and yet it did not change a single thing. In the end, that is what made me decide to go; if he could still love me and move on, then so could I. So I would go to Alaska, and maybe on the way, me and Jacob would figure out this weird sex thing on the way; or at least have some more of it.

My decision seemed much easier said than done. I did not go to La Push to say goodbye to anyone for I knew that if I did they would try to convince me to stay. I also knew that if they tried to get me to stay that there was a chance that I would consider it. I needed to leave, it would be good for me. So with a heavy heart I gave a big hug to Seth, Jacob and I left in big black car with Caden and his men.

The weird thing about the men with Caden was how they looked at me. I had noticed the stares men had given me before but that was nothing compared to this. They did not stare outright as Caden had but through me discreet glances, as if they were doing something they should not have. Each time they did this, Jake would growl, glare at them and put his arm around me protectively. By the time we were in the plane, a private plane, mind you, I had had enough!

"Jacob Black! What the fuck is your problem?"

Jake just sighed and shook his head. "I really don't know, Leah. I just can't help it. When another man looks at you, I feel as if I should be beating the crap out of them."

The youngest of the men with Caden was just a boy, 16 at the most, and he quickly put his head down, hiding behind his long hair.

"Yeah, that has been dully noticed." I said, sarcastically, shooting him a glare. "But why, though?"

"Are you fucking hard of hearing, woman? I said, I Don't Know!" He said, stressing out his last words.

"Woman? Ex-fucking-cuse me! You did not just call me that!" Fucking bastard, although I can't help but notice how hot Jake is when he is mad.

Jacob eyes suddenly turned dark. I should have recognized the glint in his eyes but I did not.

"I did just call you that, Leah; for that is what you are, a woman." He said, his arms moving to grab my hips. His lips trailed my ear, "My woman." He whispered huskily, nibbling on my ear.

I should have hit him. I should have yelled at him. I should have defended myself; making it known I was not his woman, I was no one's. Instead of doing any of those things, I kissed him, roughly. My hands went to his hair and I straddled him lap.

"Prove it." I dared in a whisper against his lips.

"Leah, Jacob?" A voice called out. "We realize that you are having a moment but there are young eyes in the audience. Also, Jacob, do you really want us to see Leah like that?"

Jacob growled deeply, tightened his arms around me and glared at Caden, who had just interrupted us. "No one gets to see Leah like that." He growled out.

"I know, Jacob. You are putting on quite a show for us though." Caden said, nodding to my dress, which had ridden up to my thighs.

I used all my strength to hold Jake down in his seat, and have him not attack Caden. I ran my hand through his shaking hair until he calmed down enough to straighten out my dress, glaring at everyone in the room.

"I can also add some insight to why you are feeling so protective of Leah." He said, once Jake had calmed down.

I turned my head to look at Caden, trying to get off of Jake, feeling quite embarrassed now. I felt the blush stain my cheeks as I tried to lift myself off of Jake. Jake was having none of that. He kept his death grip on my hips and moved me around so I could at least face Caden and the rest of his men.

"I have never seen you blush before, Leah." He chuckled against my skin. "I have to say, it looks truly marvellous." He placed a kiss on the side of my neck and then turned his attention to Caden. "What is it?"

"Well, the female wolf responds to Alpha's. They mate with Alpha's because of their power and dominance. So, when you became the Alpha of the pack, Leah became instantly attracted to you. In return, all wolves respond to the female but only an Alpha can feel the attraction completely to her, and mated with her instantly when she joined your pack." Caden explained.

Jake looked at me with his eyebrows raised. "That makes no sense at all. Why didn't Sam mate with her?"

"Well, as I heard it, Sam had imprinted before Leah changed into a wolf. Although, had Leah already been a wolf before he imprinted, he may have been. Imprinting can change the course of any path. The reason why you dated Sam before he was a wolf was probably because you could tell he was going to become one, and your body responded. As a female, you do not imprint, you mate. You mate for life. After mating, whoever the imprint was to your mate has their path changed, usually being imprinted on by another wolf. Also, as I understand it, Sam was never the true Alpha. The true Alpha was you, Jacob, you just did not claim it until now. You are the true Alpha and so Leah is your mate."

I tried to let the things Caden said sink in but the word mate was a foreign one to me. Jake and I were mated? Had Sam not imprinted I may have been with him? Or had Sam not imprinted and Jacob take the Alpha role, would I have left Sam for Jacob, without being able to help it? I looked at Jacob pensive look when his eyes met mine. The same emotion that I was sure were dancing in mine were locked in Jacob's chocolate orbs; fear, apprehension, doubt, and a glimmer of hope. My hand came up and smoothed out his furrowed brow.

"Don't think so much; I doubt your brain can take that type of activity." I whispered smugly to him, hoping to bring a smile to his lips.

"Oh, Leah." He said burying his head into my neck. "I'm never letting you go now. You are mine." He whimpered into my skin.

"Ok, I'll hold you to that. Just don't let any of the guys know; I'll never live it down."

Jake just laughed and held me tighter.

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A/N: As I mentioned above, I have some writers block, I don't quite know where to the story, or how to get there. Hopefully I will think of it soon! I'll try to update soon!