Lollipop

Take a look at a boy like me
Never stood on my own two feet
Now I'm blue as I can be
Oh, love only got me down.

Mika-Lollipop

A bright light met my eyes when I was just waking up and I vaguely remember wondering why I had taken down my curtains. Usually I had dark curtains hanging over my one window so that when I slept after a night patrol the light wouldn't bother me. I found that I didn't care and snuggled more deeply under the blankets and into my pillow. My nose itched for some reason but I just ignored it because I wasn't ready to wake up just yet. Then my pillow moaned. Ok, I know that is impossible. Not only did the pillow moan, but it moaned my name. I guess that means I am getting up now. I opened my eyes and saw black. Well this is strange. I thought it was light in here. Then I realized why I saw black and why my pillow was strange this morning. It wasn't my pillow that my head was resting on, and it wasn't my bed that I was laying on. I was lying in a massive bed, in a huge room, with my head lying in the nook of Leah's neck. Dorothy we're not in Kansas anymore.

She looked gorgeous curled up against my side. I wasn't sure how I didn't notice before but my arm was lying across her stomach and her head was rested against my chest. It was the first time I had ever spooned with a woman. Wow, that sounds funny. Note to self; do not tell the pack this. Hell, Leah was the first woman I had ever even had sex with. I would never tell her or anyone else that but I think she knew. I mean the only girl I had ever take interest in was Bella. It was strange, lying here with Leah, thinking of Bella now. I had thought that I was in love with her. Hell, maybe I was. That was a clusterfuck and a half. Even after all that she put me through; I still went out of my way to protect her and her devil spawn. Was that out of love or loyalty? Man, things are fucking confusing. I had never doubted my love for Bella once before this. Now I know I don't love her anymore.

The scary part of being with Leah again is having her do something like Bella did. I say something like because I don't think Leah would ever run off with a vampire boyfriend, and if she did, well I'd feel sorry for her having to put up with that stench. That would ruin a sex life right there. Though, the thought of Leah having sex with someone else made my blood boil. Love is a powerful emotion. Once you are in love with someone, the life you once knew is over. This is not always necessarily a bad thing; your life just changes with that person. I was just starting to get over my feelings for Bella; I didn't want to put myself through love again. I know it sounds so negative but love has always been a bad thing for me. What did Bella ever give me? Pain. Sure, we had some good times, some happy times, but in the end she always hurt me.

What the hell was I doing falling in love with Leah Clearwater? There was no way she wouldn't hurt me. That was what Leah did; she hurt people, or tried to. Under all the cold exterior Leah put out though I think she only tried to hurt people because she herself was always hurt. Her thinking was that if she hurt someone first, they wouldn't hurt her. It was just a defence for her, she put up too many walls so she wouldn't be hurt again. Is it possible that she could love me back? Is it possible that she could let down her walls for me? Is it possible for me to hurt her? Looking at Leah, her beautiful brown eyes just blinking open, I realized that there was no way I could ever hurt her.

"Hi." Leah said, her big brown eyes looking up at me.

"Hi." I said, not being able to tear my eyes away from her.

"What the fuck are you staring at?" Typical Leah, I wouldn't change her for the world though.

"I'm looking at you, sweetheart." I smirked at her.

I have no idea why I keep calling her these pet names. I knew that she didn't like pet names, but they just seemed to slip out of my mouth. It was like I couldn't help it.

"What is sweet about me?" She asked.

I looked down at her and smirked. My hands slipped down her body, rubbing her thighs.

"I can think of something that is very sweet." I said, nibbling on her neck.

Two things happened at the same time; Leah let out a breathy moan that set my skin on fire and a loud knock interrupted us.

"I'm going to kill whoever that is." I growled out.

"Maybe if we're quiet, they'll go away."

I just looked at her.

"Shut up. I am not that loud!"

I raised my eyebrows at her. The knocking continued.

"I don't think they are leaving anytime soon. We should probably go down there."

I made no move to get off Leah even though I knew she was right. She laughed at me, gave me a small kiss and pushed me off of her.

Eventually we made our way downstairs and let Caden in. He nodded to me and took Leah's hand and kissed it. I couldn't stop the growl that came out. He put both his hands up and took a step back. That's right, fucker. You better stand back, you don't touch my Leah. Wait, my Leah? I suppose she is my Leah, even if she won't admit it. That has a nice ring to it, my Leah. Note to self: don't say that to her or she'll kill me. Well maybe not kill me but I'd definitely get a punch in the face.

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"Ok, let me get this straight. This city is the "werewolf capital" of the world, you are the ruler, and when wolves have problems that cannot be fixed themselves you go and sort it out?" Leah asked, summing up what Caden had taken twenty minutes to say. Leah is good like that. She is very blunt and likes to get straight to the point; no bullshit in between. This can be a good thing and a bad thing at times.

"Yes, that pretty much seems to sum everything up. Our job is to make sure our species survives, to keep our secret from the general public, and to make sure that wolves are not abusing their strength in order to hurt humans."

"Well, where the fuck do I fit into all of this?" I had to hold back my chuckle. Ah, Leah.

Caden seemed a bit taken back by Leah's bluntness and profanity but he didn't say anything. Good for him, the last thing anyone wants is a pissed off Leah on their hands. Trust me, I would know. He will get use to Leah, she's always like this and it usually takes people a while to adjust. I have to say; even though I don't like the guy, he seems to be doing pretty good.

"Well, you can essentially do anything you really want to. You have more power than anyone else here. If you wanted to, you could rule, fight, travel, and do anything really. What is most needed from you is your moral support. Just having you here gives everyone faith and hope." Caden explained.

"You see, we are coming onto a sort of dark age of sorts. Young wolves everywhere don't want this life. They want to live a normal life with friends and less responsibility. It is also harder for them to believe in legends and traditions. With you here, it backs up some of our most sacred legends. More of the younger wolves are starting to embrace this life, and the traditions and responsibility that come with it."

I could tell something that Caden was saying was bothering Leah, but she wouldn't say anything in front of him. If Leah doesn't like something; she will make it known but she won't show any weakness in any way shape or form. She always feels a need to be strong, sometimes stronger than everyone else. It is what makes her Leah.

I ushered Caden out; while Leah sat almost unmoving. I made sure to tell Caden that we would call him first before the next time we met. Leah would need some time adjusting to everything and adding in anything new wouldn't be helpful. When I walked back in I didn't see Leah but I knew that she hadn't left. I found her out on the balcony, sitting on the railing, and looking out.

"How are you doing?" I asked, walking up to her.

She turned to face me then and I could see the sadness in her eyes. In that one moment I vowed to myself that if there was anything I could ever do for her not to have that look I would do it. I put my arms around her and she cried into my chest. I stroked her hair but said nothing. There was nothing I could say or do in that moment to make her feel better. All I could do was hold her and be there for her until she was ready to talk. I had never felt so helpless in my life.

"How can I do this, Jacob?" She said, tears streaming down her face.

I held her face and wiped away her tears. "Do what, sweetheart?"

"Be the hope and faith to these people? I don't have any faith. I was just like them. I don't want to be the way I am, I want to be normal. I still haven't embraced what I am, so how can I try to convince anyone else to embrace it? I am nothing; I am a nobody, so how can I mean so much to these people? They need someone else; I am not good enough."

She put her head down again but I tilted it up with my hands. "Look at me, Leah. You are not a nobody; not to me. You are the strongest person I know. You take on so much responsibility and have been through so much. You can handle anything. If you are not good enough, then no one is. I have faith in you, you can do this. I will be here for you every step of the way. If ever you feel this is too much, or that you really can't do this; we'll leave. I won't hold anything against you, not now, not ever. If you want to leave right now, in this instant, we'll leave. I think we should stay though. Let's see how things go, I really do believe that you can help these people."

Leah just looked at me for a really long time, contemplating everything that I had said. Then in one swift motion, she threw her arms around my neck and hugged me tight to her.

"Jake, I don't know what I would do without you." She whispered in my ear.

"No, Leah, I don't know what I would do without you."

I really had no idea what I would do without Leah. She was my world now and there was no turning back.

A/N: Wow, sorry that took so long. I know I told everyone that I would be done in a week but real life caught up to me. I am back in school now so I should be back to updating more regular. I know it seems strange because you would think I'd have more time at home, but I don't. Sorry about that but on the Brightside, more was explained by Caden.