dreamgirl: I've been working on this since February 18th. Can you believe that? Unfortunately, due to many school projects being due all in the same week, I just HAD to procrastinate and stress myself out. Hence, I had writer's block. After I handed in my last project, I sat down at home (I am currently sick) and began to write. I finished this at midnight...I had a cold...I am on Spring Vacation. Weirdest yet most awesome way to get a lemon idea.

warnings: LEMON!!! A big juicy lemon!!! Yes, I have finally wrote the moment everyone (including myself) has been waiting for. I also warn you readers against non-con (well, it starts that way), brief trauma, certain degree of bondage and SM foreplay. Well, Sebastian IS a demon after all. Oh, shota and language as well.

disclaimer: Me no own! This is EXACTLY what would happen if I did own Kuroshitsuji.

ENJOY!!!!

Chapter 17

"No."

Sebastian quirked an eyebrow, "May I ask what the young master is referring to?"

Ciel folded his arms; "I do not wish to continue my lessons anymore."

"Oh? And why is that?" The butler pushed.

"I don't have to explain myself to you. I am the master and what I say is law."

Sebastian fought the urge to roll his eyes. Although he refused to admit it, Ciel was afraid. Traumas were never an easy thing to get over and Ciel had quite a few. The young Phantomhive lord was afraid of seeming like the slut his friend became for his sake. He was afraid of pain. Afraid of seeming weak in front of Sebastian. Most of all, Ciel was afraid he might like it. It was only the day after, but Ciel wanted to end the rest of his lessons before they actually began. So, here they were…in the garden sipping tea.

"I am sorry, my lord, but that is not possible", Sebastian said as he rearranged the things on the cart.

"And why the hell not?"

The demon responded without looking up, "As a butler of the Phantomhive household, it is my duty to follow through with my orders. The young master asked me to teach him the demon ways, hence I shall do so without fail."

Ciel felt his resolve crack, 'Why the bloody hell is Sebastian so…so…so irrational!?'

The young master sighed, "Well, unfortunately for you, I am unable to 'participate' in these lessons any further."

Ciel suddenly felt the aura in the room turn dark.

"Is the young master, perhaps…afraid?"

The pre-teen's eyes widened, "O-of course not!"

"Then why the sudden withdrawal?"

The pre-teen pouted, "We just went through this. I hate repeating myself. No, I am not a-afraid."

The butler closed the space between them, "What if I show the young master that these lessons could become pleasurable?"

Ciel shook his head. The pre-teen would not allow himself to fall any further into the demon's trick.

There seemed to be a red gleam in Sebastian's eyes. His voice deepened, "Before becoming a demon, one must know how to sin like a human."

The young boy tried to back away from the demon, but ended up falling off his chair.

"Shit!" Ciel yelped as his ass made contact with the floor.

Within seconds, Sebastian scooped up his young master from the cement floor and carried him bridal-style. After picking his master up, the butler heads inside.

"W-wait, where are you taking me?" The demon's protégé asked.

The handsome creature smiled, "To continue your lessons of course!"

Upon hearing those words leave his butler's mouth, the young earl began to thrash around haphazardly.

"Put me down! I said down, damn it, now! No way in fucking HELL am I going to do th—."

"Oh, but you will, my lord," Sebastian cut his master off, "We haven't much time left."

A few moments later, Ciel found himself on his bed, wrists tied to the headboard to his bed. Again.

"Why the fuck am I tied up again?"

Sebastian grinned, "Were I not to do that, the young master would surely run away. We can't have that, now, can we?"

Ciel gave the demon a sour glare, "Well, of course! Anyone in their right mind would run the fuck away!"

Sebastian sighed, "Young master, I have grown tired of your constant use of obscenities. I will have to ask you to refrain from such profanity."

"Profanity? I'll show you fucking profanity!" Ciel tried his best to kick his butler where it most certainly would've hurt.

Unfortunately for the twelve-year-old boy, the demon dodged his master's blows with much gracefulness. Instead of receiving the blow, the demon-butler leaned in closer and pressed his thumb into the young boy's neck. Within moments, Ciel's head lolled a bit and his body slacked.

"Wh-what the hell did you do?" the blue-eyed boy asked.

"I simply calmed the young master down. You wouldn't want this to hurt, do you?"

At the slight implications of sexual foreplay, Ciel became anxious.

"N-no, seriously, I can't. We cannot do this. Ch-Charlie…he…I…fuck!"

Ciel was fighting a battle within his own mind. He didn't want to do anything that had to do with what Charlie had been forced to do. Now, his head had began to hurt because of his torn thoughts between what his body desired and what he knew to be wrong.

Slowly, Sebastian undressed his master and tossed the garments onto the floor. As Ciel's shirt came off, the young boy's pale chest was exposed. Sebastian bent his head and placed his lips to Ciel's chest as he undid the buttons to the young earl's trousers. Ciel's heart thudded against his ribcage; so much that Sebastian felt it beat against his lips.

Through busy lips he said, "Relax, young master. Allow your body to accept this moment of pleasure."

Ciel felt himself about to cry, but wouldn't allow himself to. "B-but Charlie—."

The demon was successful in discarding the pre-teen's pants and slid them off with his underwear in tow. Sebastian proceeded with kissing his way up Ciel's slender throat and lick it a few times.

"The only way to move on is to forget about the past. Whatever happened to your little friend, or to yourself, forget it all." The butler included his own advice.

"If I forget—ah!—I might lose the person I have become."

Sebastian stopped kissing his master's throat for a moment and looked him straight in the eye, "You will never not become the person you are now. Everything you have accomplished is because of your past, but just forget the pain and remember the hatred. That is all you need to know."

Ciel contemplated upon the advice he had just been given. Making his decision, while regaining his strength back, Ciel lifted his head a bit higher and opened his legs a bit wider, allowing the demon access to his body. Sebastian was taken aback, not expecting his master to give in so easily, but smirked anyhow.

"Proceed." Ciel ordered.

The smirk remained on Sebastian's face, "Yes…my lord."

Sebastian kissed his way down to Ciel's chest, once again, and applied his mouth to the strawberry-colored buds that decorated the earl's pale chest. With one hand, Sebastian massaged the nipple that hadn't earned his attention and with another, he slid it to the boy's nether regions and teased the teen's cock.

"Mhmm, ah! Don't…don't tease me." Ciel didn't really like how he had said that, but everything was a bit hazy anyway. So it didn't really matter to him anymore.

The crimson-eyed demon's tongue licked its way down Ciel's nipple to his navel. Everywhere Sebastian's tongue and lips went, every time it made contact with his skin, Ciel felt like there were bits of poison being applied to his body and a weird chill shocked his insides.

Sebastian's tongue swirled in the little cavern Ciel called a belly button and proceeded with licking his way to the half-hard dick.

"You better not—!" Ciel's threat was cut off by the sudden wetness surrounding his manhood.

The black-haired butler bobbed his head up and down as he sucked on his master's hard-on.

The ribbon that held them in place was cutting Ciel's wrists. "S-Sebastian, free my hands!"

No longer worried that the boy might run away, Sebastian reached up and gloved hand and undid the ribbon. Upon him doing so, Ciel's hands went to the top of Sebastian's head. The blowjob being too much for the twelve-year-old, Ciel couldn't help but tug on the demon's ebony hair. Sensing that his master was on the verge of releasing himself, Sebastian let go of the boy's rod and slid his gloves off with his teeth. The demon-butler loosened his tie a bit and allowed his hand to travel towards the boy's unprepared hole.

Sebastian leaned up towards Ciel's ear and whispered, "Has this little hole, here, been used?"

Ciel shuddered at the warm air that radiated off of his sexy butler and into his small ear. He didn't respond.

"If it has, then maybe it won't matter if I enter without my preparation."

The boy's eyes widened. He didn't want it to hurt. He had seen what they had done to his best friend. It had hurt so much that blood seeped from his friend's abused hole. And yet, he still didn't give the demon an answer.

True to his word, Sebastian inserted two dry fingers into his master's ass. Ciel cried out in pain. In sole agony.

"Ah! N-no, stop, it hurts! Take them out, now!"

Sebastian did as he was told and nodded in satisfaction, "So it hasn't been used? Interesting. Now, I am very curious as to why you have trouble with people touching you so casually."

Ciel felt disgust build up within him, but dealt with it, "Shut up and just continue, demon."

The butler shrugged and did just that. He brought three fingers to Ciel's mouth and positioned them in front of his tiny mouth.

"Suck."

Ciel dreaded it when Sebastian gave one-worded orders, but he complied and did as he was asked. Once the demon's fingers were professionally coated in saliva, he brought them to Ciel's bottom. Without warning, he thrusted on finger into the tight entrance. Ciel didn't really wince, it wasn't painful, it was just uncomfortable. After a few seconds of probing, Sebastian inserted a second finger. Now, the pain began to work its magic.

"Ooh, ah, ow. It…it hurts, Sebastian. Why are you so bloody awful at this?"

Sebastian was shocked. Not only because this was the first time anyone had ever insulted his bedroom skills, but also because even though his master was in pain, Ciel was able to shoot a nasty remark and gain back whatever pride he had lost.

Although not so glad about the remark, Sebastian smirked, "It's not like I bed men on every occasion. It does not interest me. That is to Leviathan's liking. I, under no circumstances, ever get involved with a man. Much less a boy. I am not a goddamn sodomite!"

For a second there, Ciel was taken aback. Not really because Sebastian said he had never bedded a man before, but because he seemed to lose his temper after the mention of a "Leviathan" and began to curse. It intrigued Ciel to no end. But, unfortunately, the pain that came from the third finger that had been inserted made him forget his moment of curiosity.

"Ah, shit! That…that hurts like a bitch!" Ciel continued his bits of profanity.

Sebastian sighed, "Young master, what did I say about the obscenities you constantly use? I am going to have to punish you."

The butler violently shoved his three fingers in harder and deeper into the young boy's ass. Ciel howled in pain but that was only for a moment. Instantly, Ciel felt Sebastian's long fingers brush up against something within him that made him spasm and come. Since it was unexpected, Ciel's cock shot out its seed and landed on Sebastian's jacket.

The butler sighed, "No matter what I do, this outfit always gets ruined one way or the other."

Sebastian slipped his jacket and waistcoat off. He unzipped his pants and pulled Ciel a bit closer to his abdomen.

"Are you ready, my lord?" The demon politely asked.

The twelve-year-old wasn't ready, but he said he was anyway. He had already been mind-fucked and forced to do many other things, what else did he have to lose? And so, he nodded.

"This might hurt, so I apologize in advance", the butler said as he positioned himself in front of Ciel's puckered hole and in one swift movement…he buried himself to the hilt.

It was so quick that even Ciel hadn't noticed it, but within seconds the pain crept its way up to his brain and the boy yelped in pain. Ciel reached for Sebastian and wrapped his arms around his back. As Sebastian began to move, Ciel clawed at the demon's back and made imprints on his skin through the material of his shirt. Great, now his shirt was ripped as well. The more Sebastian began to move, the higher both of them were brought into ecstasy. Each thrust landed deep and hard into Ciel's body and soon enough, the boy's body was banging against the headboard.

"Ugh, ow!" Ciel wailed.

"What happened?" Sebastian asked while still thrusting in and out of his master.

"M-my head hit the board."

The pre-teen didn't need to say anymore. Sebastian dislodged himself and flipped the young boy over onto his stomach. He perked up his ass and rammed into the tight canal in an instant.

Ciel cried out, "Fu—ahh! Oh…oh my god."

The young earl placed his hands against the headboard so as to support his body and refrain it from slamming completely against it as the demon thrusted into him. The room was completely silent, except for the sounds of skin hitting against skin and the squishy sounds of body liquids entangling themselves with each other. As well as the sound of heavy panting and moans of pleasure. Sebastian used one hand to balance himself against Ciel's hips so that he could thrust well, while the other wrapped itself around the boy's waist and made contact with the five-inch rod. As Sebastian's talented hand pumped the twelve-year-old boy's dick, Ciel continued to cry out.

"S-Sebastian! I'm cl-close!"

The man in question was starting to feel himself come to an end as well. So, he continued thrusting in and out as roughly as he could. To Ciel, it had started out painful, but quickly turned into something very pleasurable, just like Sebastian had told him it would. Especially now as the demon tilted his body, as well as Ciel's, so that he could reach that special place inside the boy and hit it with all he had. Once he did, Ciel was mere putty in his hands. Sebastian continued to hit that spot and soon enough, Ciel came. It wasn't even a normal spasm. No, the orgasm was so violent that his body shook for a few moments before resembling the body of a puppet. As the boy tried to wait out for the aftershocks of the orgasm, his entrance twitched and squeezed Sebastian's cock. So much that it finished the demon off and he emptied his load out inside of his young master.

Trying his best not to crush his partner, Sebastian withdrew his cock form Ciel's hole and collapsed next to him. As both male tried to catch their breath, they pondered over the amazing dose of sex they just had. Ciel couldn't believe that he had just been fucked by his butler. At the same time, he couldn't fathom how awesome he felt and what he had been denying his body from this whole time. Sebastian, on the other hand, felt completely wasted. It had been centuries since anyone had satisfied him just as this young boy had. What made him so special?

Ciel turned onto his side and stared at his butler.

"What are you staring at, my lord?" The demon asked.

Ciel shook his head, "Nothing. It's just…I think this is the first time I've seen you without your uniform on."

Sebastian looked down at his current form and felt a bit embarrassed, maybe even a bit ashamed. He shrugged, "To be honest, this is the first time in centuries that I find myself disrobed and satisfied during intercourse."

The boy's nose scrunched up, "Ew, don't say it like that. It makes me feel like I just fucked an old man."

The demon let out a manly chuckle, "My apologies, my lord. Now, since I told you a bit about myself, would you mind if I asked the young master something a bit personal?"

Ciel shrugged, "I guess it's fine."

Sebastian leaned on his arm that held his head up, "As a slave, what did those filthy humans do to you?"

Ciel should've seen this coming, but he hadn't. Hence, he hesitated, not knowing what to say. So he told his butler the truth.

The earl sighed, "Before the whole incident with Charlie, they would usually have me stand in front of them and touch myself. But, it was forbidden for anyone to touch me. Once, this man broke that so-called 'law' and rubbed my chest. They shot him right there, they almost shot me, that's how close he was. You'd think they'd rape me without hesitation, but apparently it had something to do with 'tainting the sacrifice' or something like that. Charlie did what he did because he knew they would've disregarded that law were they to find out I tried to escape on my own. He gave himself up to save my chastity. After being broken man after man, Charlie died two days later. Even then he wasn't able to rest in peace. Some sick bastards found dead bodies appealing and…" Ciel's voice trailed off.

Sebastian was torn whether or not he should give a hand of comfort to Ciel.

He decided not to and just said, "How do you feel about that now?"

Ciel looked at him with pained eyes, "Surprisingly, not as horrible as I should be feeling. I just think I'm doing this all for Charlie, and one day I'll find the bastards who killed my parents and end their pathetic lives for doing that to Charlie and for murdering my parents."

"You know, young master, I am getting the feeling you were infatuated, if not in love, with your friend, Charlie."

Ciel's eyes widened, "Are you fucking serious? I do NOT prefer men. I have a fiancée; I like women, that is the end of it. Not once has it come to mind that being with a man might be interesting."

Sebastian quirked an eyebrow, "Mhmm."

The boy seemed taken aback, "I'm serious!"

"No, I understand."

"So, what about all of this sodomite business being Leviathan's hobby?" Ciel asked.

The demon seemed almost regretful that the name had even popped up, "He's just another demon from Hell. We grew up together, and let's just say his taste in partners varied from one sex to the other."

Feeling that he had enough of homosexual dealings, Ciel lied back onto his stomach and curled himself under the bed sheets.

"Is the young master ready to go to sleep?" Sebastian asked.

Ciel opened an eye and gave his butler the look that said No-Shit.

With that, Sebastian gathered his stuff, and left. Ciel was left alone in his king-sized bed with the smell of sex on his sheets and in his room. He laid his head upon his folded arms on his pillow and thought of everything that had happened that day. Were this to happen two year ago, Ciel would've hated himself and gone into depression. Instead of feeling like trash, Ciel realized that doing it with Sebastian didn't feel all the abnormal. Innocent, even. An innocence that Ciel wanted to last a bit longer and not just for a short while. He curled up even more as he realized that even though he just had sex, his body craved Sebastian even more.

'What have you done to me?'

"This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay

This moment is perfect, please don't go away

I need you now"

-"Innocence" by Avril Lavigne

dreamgirl: Believe it or not, I didn't want Ciel's first time to be non-con. It kind of just went that way anyway. Truth be told, I couldn't care less if it was at that point because I was getting pissed at Ciel's so-called "trauma" and I wanted my goddamn yaoi! Hence, this chapter. Now, everything from here I have planned. The only reason why this story has been this long is mostly because I had to have character build-up and shit, so that's why I deprived myself from my lovely lemons. From here on out, expect lemons in every other chapter. REVIEW AND THERE WILL BE MORE!!!!!