Songbird

I wish I knew which button to push

Then I'd know how to please you

It's sad but true

So I'll just listen in down the line

While you're busy mixing grapes with grain

To sedate your pain

-Songbird, Bernard Fanning

Leah was the most complicated woman I had ever met. If something pissed her off, the whole fucking world would know about it. However, if something hurt her, she'd never tell you. You would know because she would make it obvious she didn't like you, but she'd never say those words out loud. Leah was a fighter, a soldier, and soldiers never admitted defeat. We stood there, holding each other for at least an hour.

"Ok, are we good now?" I asked her, looking down at her. I stuck a stray piece of hair behind her eye so I could see her face better.

Leah looked up at me, her big brown eyes shining up at me, tears streaking down her face and nodded.

"Oh baby girl." I said, hugging her to my chest again. "I am so sorry; I didn't mean to say something like that. I knew I shouldn't have but it just kind of slipped."

Leah hugged me back tightly. "No, Jake, I am sorry. I shouldn't have flipped out. You were right. I was just so... jealous!" She said the last word muffled into my chest.

I took a step back, bent down so that I was face level with her and gently whipped the tears away. "Honey, why were you jealous?"

"Just because!" Leah snapped at me. I just chuckled quietly to myself, that's Leah for you.

"Sweetheart, we have to talk about stuff like this." I told her gently.

"Why? Why do we have to talk about this?" Leah had this amazing talent of being able to whine, pout and glare all at the same time. It was actually pretty cute, even though I'd never tell her that.

"Because, I really like what's going on between us, and if we let this one little fight go, we'll never know for next time. It will continue to haunt us and we won't be able to get past it. So, we need to talk about it."

Leah just gave me a pissed off look.

"Leah, do you like how things are?" She nodded her head, looking down. "Do you want them to end?" She looked right back up at me then, with wide eyes and shook her head quickly. "Good, neither do I. So now, let me ask you again; why were you jealous?"

"Because..." I sent her a look and she sighed before she began speaking again. "Because you loved her, because what if you want her and not me someday? Because I don't want you to leave me." Leah looked down again when she was finished.

I understood now. She thought that because I use to be in with Bella that I would go back to her someday. She was still insecure about herself from Sam, that fucking bastard. She was scared that I would leave her just like he did somewhere down the road. When the fuck will she realize that I am not him?! I don't just leave people like that. Look at all the shit I put up with for Bella, does that not matter at all to her? I took a few calming breaths because getting angry was never the way to deal with Leah, she always won. Hell, if she lost, she won because she'd end up either making you feel like shit or beating the fuck out of you. Trust me, I have been there.

"Leah." I said, trying to break her out of her staring contest with the floor. She ended up kicking the floor. See I told you, if she doesn't win... "Look at me please." She finally looked up, her expression almost breaking my heart. I know she wasn't going to like what I was about to say and god have mercy on me because I am not sure she would. "I. Am. Not. Sam." I made sure to drag out all of those words. Her expression turned to fury and she damn near stomped away from me. "Hey, wait, just listen, ok? I won't leave you, especially not for my knocked up with some demon half-vampire child, soon to be vampire, old best friend. I want to be with you. That's what I want, plain and simple. Now, it's time for you to answer the same question. What do you want?"

"I want to be with you too." She said quietly. I knew she was trying to stay mad at me but I don't think it was working. "But what about-"

"Doesn't matter." I quickly interrupted her.

"Well then-"She tried again.

"Nope, that doesn't matter either. I want to be with you, and you want to be with me. What else is there to think about?"

"Your right, I guess." Leah mumbled so quietly that if not for my super-hearing I would not have heard.

"I'm sorry, what was that? I didn't quite hear you. Did you just say that I, Jacob Black, was right for once?"

"Yeah, well don't get fucking use to it." She grumbled, crossing her arms across her chest.

I started gloating, knowing what was coming. I mean, I knew she was going to kick my ass but come on! I don't think I have ever heard Leah say that someone was right. I mean, if she was wrong, she still said she was right and that she was just making sure we knew it when we fucked whatever we were doing up. So I was expecting her to yell, scream, stomp her feet, punch me, kick me, anything but what she actually did. She fucking kissed me! A hell of a kiss it was too. She grabbed me right by the scruff of my neck, hauled her mouth to mine, and kissed me. However it didn't last long. Soon afterwards she pulled away, smirking at me.

"That outta shut you the fuck up." She said smugly to me.

"Well that all depends, if I keep gloating, will you kiss me again?" I asked cheekily.

"Nope." She said, popping the "p". She stepped closer to me and whispered in my ear, "If you would shut the fuck up for a few minutes, I might just kiss somewhere else." She ran her hands down my bare chest and then back up again. "And if you don't" She said, stepping away again. "Then you and your hand are going to become really good friends. That's your choice. So Jacob, let me ask you your own dumb ass question. What do you want?"

I looked her straight in the eyes and said, "You. I want you, always." And I meant it.

But god damn, she fucking won again!

A/N: Holy fuck I am so sorry! This chapter was way shorter than I wanted it but I wanted to give you guys something! After helping my friend grieve, then catching up on my stuff for University, I started having what was thought to be serious health concerns. I had to go for an emergency MRI and a spinal tap. I'm fine and on medication (which makes me tired and hard to concentrate so that's fun lol) but I should be fine overall very soon! Now I have exams, which is hard enough but piled on top of everything... So yeah, sorry again! School is out next week for me, which means I can update more! Sorry if I seemed to be bitching (kinda was, not gonna lie lol). Thanks for reading!!