dreamgirl: Hey, it's been a while. Well, not even a month, but still. I REALLY wanted to update today since...it's my birthday! ^_^ All I've been doing these past three days in shop, party and shop some more so I felt bad that I haven't updated in a while. I won't rant but I just wanted to say that for all of you that saw episode 6 of Kuroshitsuji season 2, a small part in that episode is a major factor in my story. I hope you can guess what it is .

disclaimer: You'd think that since today is my b-day that I don't have to do this but I have to unless I wanna get my ass sued -_- I don't own shit, not Sebastian, not Ciel. Nothing. Nada. Zip. Yana Toboso owns Kuroshitsuji.

Chapter 28

Envy…envy is a terrible feeling. The first stage included just the basic upset emotion along with a tear or two. The second stage involves a sense of possessiveness and wanting a certain someone to belong only to you. The third and final stage is the most deadly and dangerous of all. Once you enter the final stage of envy, you're not only feeling jealous, you feel wrath and greed and feel as if you have been robbed of some pride.

Ciel Phantomhive has been through all of these stages and is feeling more invidia than before.

It all started out when he saw the relationship between Agni and Soma. A very calm, romantic and sweet couple the teen viewed them to be.

Stage one.

It then proceeded to when the young British teen and his demon-butler met the ghost of the former King and Prince of England. He had allowed them to "borrow" Sebastian for the time being. What a horrible mistake that was. Ciel felt as if the demon had left him due to the fact that he hadn't served him while at the castle until everything had been resolved.

Stage two.

Now, whenever Sebastian went out to "gather information", Ciel knew what went on, but he had never actually been around to see for himself. Once had he ever been near his butler when getting information but that was the only time; it was pretty traumatic for a ten-year-old. But he hadn't cared since he hadn't known the demon for long and felt no sense of attachment to him whatsoever. Three years later, with the accompany of a certain shinigami by the name of Grell, the young Phantomhive lord waited outside a farmhouse while Sebastian "interrogated" a nun from the cult they were sent to investigate. Every moan, every thrust, every single cry of pleasure was heard. Ciel tightened his fist and nearly made a hole in his jacket. He was infuriated, nauseas, plain out pissed off at what was going on. He didn't like that fact that Sebastian slept with anyone other than him. He had been stupid to think he was the only one. In fact, he just out-right denied it and Made himself forget so as to make his emotions stay steady, but being close to where the "action" was going on threw everything off balance. He needed to kill. Only that would make him feel better.

Stage three.

The final stage was indeed one filled with blood-thirst and anger, but rarely did it ever awaken a person's true potential to be the human they truly are. The inner demon inside us all…

"That woman has the smell of a demon on her." Angela stated as she stared at Madge.

"Yes, because I've already put my mark on her." Sebastian replied as he suddenly appeared.

"Expecting to be sent to hell by an angel…you're quite a special demon, Sebastian Michaelis" The fallen angel mused. The fight began as the Phantomhive butler aimed his knives at her but she dodged by flying away. "Do you think a demon can fight on par with a pure flying angel? A demon without wings is tied by blood…for an eternity."

"Blood? Is that so? Then you're tied by heaven."

One by one, each fighter appeared. First William and then Grell. Together, they fought against Angela until the building began to collapse. They were forced to escape before ending the angel's life.

Ciel stood by the rubble, and Sebastian stood behind him.

"Has it finished? The existence that wanted to push me into an unfathomable depth of darkness. I still don't understand why she wanted to do that." The teen turned around to face Sebastian. "As promised, take it."

Sebastian leaned in toward him.

'This is it, the contract has ended…he's going to take my soul,' Ciel thought as he closed his eyes.

As Sebastian got close to him, a female voice called out from behind.

"Mister!" Ciel pried his eyes open as the nun ran up to the demon and clung to him, "Thank you for saving my life. I don't know what I could do to repay you!" She traced circles on his chest and gave him flirty eyes.

'That bloody whore has the fucking gall to cling to my butler like that.' The Phantomhive earl's small hand traveled into his pants, 'Unacceptable.'

"I know this motel nearby where we can—!" Madge stopped talking soon after a gunshot resonated throughout the air. Sebastian seemed surprised as the girl spit out blood and fell to the floor.

He turned to look into the direction where the bullet came from, "Young Ma…ster?"

Ciel had an indignant look on his face, "She should've just stayed the hell away." The butler became expressionless, "Now, do what you must." Sebastian shook his head. The blue-eyed boy looked offended, 'What, am I not good enough that not even my blasted soul he wants?' He grabbed Sebastian by the jacket, "Why Sebastian? Why won't you take my soul! That guy's already dead then…" He paused as he saw the evil grin on Sebastian flawless features. "Could there be another…"

The demon bent down on one knee, "Please excuse me, but let me stay by your side, Young Master." The British teen turned his back on his servant. Since he said nothing, Sebastian proceeded to ask, "May I ask you a question, my lord?" Still no response. "Why did you murder that girl?"

"What the bloody hell do you care?"

"The young master misinterprets my intentions. I was merely amused considering you seldom ever become angered to such an extent."

Ciel turned around and suddenly began to laugh like a madman; his butler widened his eyes, "Superficial. Cruel. Revolting. Isn't it even more demonic than a demon!" Sebastian's expression then became unreadable, "Right! Hahahahahahaha! And I'm the same." The boy's laughter died down and his hand clenched over his heart, gripping his shirt, "I'm also filled with the same ugly contents as them, this is what a human is!" His eyes bit back tears begging to fall, "I'm a human being, Sebastian!"

The demon-butler said nothing as his master began to cry. He simply strode over to him, picked him up and carried him in his arms. The boy grabbed onto Sebastian and let out all of his tears. Ciel gladly threw his pride away just to be held by his beloved. He knew he would regret showing his weak side to his butler after he swore to keep that side hidden, but he just couldn't take it anymore. All of this was just too frustrating.

Soon enough, the young teen had tired himself out form crying and fell asleep in the demon's arms. Sebastian looked down at his master, "Yes, you are. You're different from demons who are revolting and possess complex evil intent. Telling lies…" He stroked the boy's cheek, "You don't even compare to such disgusting creatures. You're much too pure to be leading such a life." Once the demon caught himself from what he was doing, he pulled his hand back as if he had just been burned by fire.

'What the hell was I doing?'

dreamgirl: Who would've thought the mind of a (newly) 14-year-old would be so gory . Nah, jkjk. It wasn't that bad. I'm starting my drama from here on out. Oh, and for those who asked, yeah, Ciel's still mad. But not because all Sebastian wants is sex. He's mad 'cause he won't kiss him. (Think about it ;D) Some drama, murder, and fluff (kinda). Now, when I saw that episode, I seriously wanted to kill that nun girl sooooooo I had Ciel do it ^_^ Now I feel accomplished XD PLEASE REVIEW!

P.S. That line Ciel says about being a human was used from chapter 36 of Kuroshitsuji and the rest of the conversation from then on is from pages 24-27. Although I added the cuteness .