dreamgirl: Meh, I've been going through an angsty moment right now due to a stupid decision I made. I think I'm going to regret it but I can't be sure. I'll just be drowning in embarrassment and semi-stupidity if you're wondering. Anyway, I would rant about the latest episode of Monoshitsuji, but frankly, I'm not giving a shit so I won't.
disclaimer: I own nothing. Yana Toboso owns all.
Chapter 29
It was a couple of days since their big encounter with Angela and of the destruction of the monastery and no one had really said a word. Especially since both Sebastian and his thirteen-year-old master were still in a state of confusion.
Ciel had just finished his violin lessons with his instructor and was currently heading to his room so as to find some relaxation before his next lessons began. As he entered his bedroom, he noticed a certain crimson-eyed man standing in his room.
"What are you doing here, young master? You're lessons begin—"
"—In another half hour, Sebastian, so I can do as I please!" The teen said in a rather moody way as he walked towards his butler.
The demon was attempting to put away the clean laundry when Ciel came up behind him and slammed a hand against the wall. "What a pleasant mood you are in today, milord."
"Don't fucking patronize me, Sebastian."
"Wouldn't dream of it, young master."
Now his attitude was really pissing of the young Phantomhive Lord, "What is your bloody problem? Have you forgotten who is the master and who is the piece of shit around here?"
The ebony-haired man had to turn around for this and bent down so that their faces were inches apart, "And I do believe it is you who has forgotten who the prey and who the predator is."
Ciel felt his blood boil and he brought up a hand and slapped his butler across the face, "Shut up. Just shut up!"
Sebastian glared at his master and yet couldn't help but wonder why Ciel was acting in such a way, He was about to teach the teen a lesson when the blue-eyed boy pushed him against the wall. It could've been impossible to do had he not allowed it to happen. Why did he do so? Merely because he needed an answer to what the fuck was going on.
"Kneel." The demon almost did a double take at his young master's words. He opened his mouth and Ciel repeated in a firmer tone, "Kneel."
Sebastian saw where this was going so he humbly got onto his knees as Ciel unzipped his trousers. When he took out his length, Sebastian knew not to hesitate and grabbed the small rod and began to take it into his mouth. The teen took a fistful of Sebastian hair and forced him to take it deeper and faster. He liked having the upper hand; it made him feel like he had control over at least one thing he wanted with all his heart.
Once the boy's cock was hard, he pulled the demon off of him and forced him back. "Sit," he said.
'What am I now, a goddamned dog?' the butler thought to himself. But he did as he was told and watched as Ciel stripped himself of his clothes and straddled him. Sebastian kept a stoic expression, definitely not amused from being treated as a lesser creature than he actually was. Although he had to be a bit surprised when the British teen unzipped his trousers and pumped him.
"What are you planning, young master?" It was a simple question. Obviously so simple that it deserved no answer for Ciel ignored the older man.
The blue-eyed boy used his small hand to stroke the demon's length in slow, curving motions. As he ran his thumbs along the slit, he looked up and looked into Sebastian's eyes, "You like being pleasured, do you not?"
The Phantomhive butler resisted the urge to shrug, "It is but a mere defect given to humans and demons alike."
"A defect?" Ciel moved his body so that he aligned the demon's cock with his asshole, "Oh no, no, no. Pleasure appears to be a blessing since at least you can feel something." He brought his hips down and impaled himself onto Sebastian dick.
"What do you mean?" Sebastian asked as he just stared at his master's doings.
Ciel grinded his hips and tightened around the red-eyed man as he chose a rhythm, "Demons don't have hearts, right?"
"That is correct, my lord."
"Hence they have no emotions."
"That is to be assumed."
"They cannot…love, or feel pain from an unrequited love."
"I suppose."
"Except that one demon, Samael, am I right?"
A trail of goose bumps made their way onto Sebastian's arms as he heard his young master call his true name, "You…recall the story I mentioned?"
"How could I—" He brought himself down hard onto the elder's cock, "—forget?" Sebastian began meeting his young master's thrusts with his own. " 'That is what makes Samael much different. He was cursed with the ability to feel. He can feel pain, joy, sorrow and even…love.' Those accursed words rang through my ears every damned night." The thrusts became more forceful, "If such a demon could exist, why cannot all demons be the same? Why—ngh—do some of you have to suffer? Why do I—ah—have to suf…fer?"
The black-haired butler quirked an eyebrow, "What do you me—"
"My goal is to be similar to a demon but yet I am still human. How can I rid myself of these damned emotions? How, Sebastian?"
The older man rolled his hips and aimed towards his master's sweet spot, causing the teen to cry out. "I do not know," he lied.
As if seeing right through it, Ciel grinned a grin that was borderline psychotic, "Demons can lie…right?"
"We do not lie like those filthy humans."
"But you still lie."
Sebastian fell out of rhythm, "No."
Ciel glared at his butler, sorrow filling his navy-blue eyes, "Lie to me, Sebastian."
"I cann—"
"LIE TO ME!" At this point all sexual activities were halted, as Sebastian could not think of anything to say to his master and avoided his eye. The teen ripped off the eye-patch he wore and grabbed the demon's face so that both pair of eyes could meet. Rubies met sapphires; a crimson red was aligned with a pair of dark shaded eyes, one of which had the sign of the contract. "I order you to lie to me…to tell me you…love me." Sebastian's eyes widened. Ciel continued to grind his hips and allowed his butler's dick to move inside of him. He move over so that his lips were right by the demon's ear, "Lie to me, let me hear those meaningless words come out of your mouth."
In all actuality, it was against Sebastian's aesthetics to go against the contract but he just could not lie…so he didn't.
"I…" He slowly moved his hips up, "I love you…young master." He felt Ciel freeze in his arms.
The British teen got off his butler's body and turned his back to him. "You may go now."
The demon didn't question his master's decision. He just got up, zipped up and left to perform his other duties. In all honestly, he didn't have a reaction because he couldn't react. There were many emotions running through him. Emotions he hadn't felt since the beginning of time on Earth. He walked through the halls, trying to figure out what was going on.
'I swore to myself that it would never happen again,' he said to himself. He paused in front of a door, "And yet it did." He threw it open and walked out.
Ciel curled up into a fetal position on the floor where he laid. 'I'm such an idiot.' He clenched his fist in his clothes beside him, "I'm such a fucking idiot!" He threw this jacket and it knocked over the stack of clean laundry Sebastian had brought in. The clothes fell on top of him.
The boy looked at the cloth on top of him and yet he wasn't really looking at that at all. He was thinking, wondering, and mentally kicking himself for having been overcome by his weakness. And the thought of semi-confessing his feelings for the demon made him even more irritated.
But all he heard were the words he forced his butler to say, 'I love you…young master. I love you. I love you. I love you.' He replayed it over and over in his head.
The young Phantomhive earl grabbed the clothes around him and curled up into them. "I love the way you lie."
"Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love you way you lie"
-"Love The Way You Lie" by Eminem ft. Rihanna
dreamgirl: Sorry for the OCC-ness, but it's necessary. Due to the fact that I have my own spin on Sebastian past, I have to let it affect him in SOME way. Hence, this is the way. I'll probably be writing more about his past and what he's thinking about at this point in the next chapter. Let me know what you think. All you have to do this press that pretty little button down there that's says "review". Much appreciated ^_^