dreamgirl: Again, I was feeling angsty when I started this but as I kept going, it made me happy, as weird as it sounds. Anyway, I'm just going to say a few words about Kuroshitsuji 2 episode 10...lulz. Sebby-chan is piiiiiissed XDXD I loved the part where he knocked all the trees down. I laughed hard. I can't wait to see the rest and...DAMN, Alois is back. Besides that, I got reviews asking me to write about Sebastian's past and voila! I bring you chapter 30!

disclaimer: I totally wished I owned Kuroshitsuji...but I don't Yana Toboso does.

Now, on with the show!

Chapter 30

An hour passed.

A day passed.

Two days…

Three…

One week went by and Sebastian still had not returned to the Phantomhive Manor. At this point, he was walking the lonely streets of and unknown country. He didn't know exactly where he was, nor did he care. All he wanted to do was get away to clear his head, so he walked on for seven days and six nights.

The demon finally reached an open field and it was…beautiful. The grass was a rich India green and various types of flowers adorned it. That's when Sebastian finally stopped walking. He fell to his knees and crawled over to the center of the field, where there were more flowers. Once he did, he laid back and looked up at the clear blue sky. His face held no emotion, but inside there were about a million of them. The butler looked over to his right and saw a pure-white lily standing erect on the ground. He plucked it and brought it near to him. He faced it towards the sun and spun it slowly.

"A lily," he said, "Sounds just like her name."

Sebastian kissed a petal and his mind wandered off to memories he had kept sealed for thousands of years.

(Flashback)

"Sammy~ Oh, Samaaaaael!"

"Good gosh, Leviathan, what is it?" A certain ebony-haired man said.

The brown-haired troublemaker replied, "Have you seen the new human God made?"

"The one who is to accompany Adam?"

"Yes, yes, that one."

Samael quirked an eyebrow, "What of it?"

"I heard it's a female!" Leviathan said excitingly.

"Your point? We have females up here in heaven as well, Leviathan."

"Oh I know that, but they're no fun at all. Whenever I try to…persuade them to accompany me in certain pleasurable acts, they refuse and start sprouting nonsense about 'God this' or 'God that'. Angels are no fun, I swear. I can't wait till they're all gone." He complained.

Samael quickly slammed a hand onto Leviathan's lips, "Shhh! Should the Lord hear us we'll have both our heads cut off! All we have to do is wait for Lord Lucifer to carry out his plans, just don't do anything reckless that might give us away."

The brunette pried the other angel's hand off of him, "Yeah, yeah, I know. It's just…can't Lucifer hurry it up and faster?"

"All in due time, Leviathan. Remember, 'patience is a virtue'."

"Psh, I gave up my virtues when I decided to follow Lucifer." Leviathan scoffed.

Samael felt uneasy, "Yes, well, anyway, what do you have in mind to do with the female human?"

"Ah, yes! I remember now. Well~ As I mentioned before, women up here are too conscious of my intentions so…I was hoping you'd come down to Earth with me to go pay the new human a visit."

"Wait, are you thinking of taking advantage of that girl's innocence?"

"Who? Me? Never in a million years! She probably isn't even all that innocent, considering she already has a husband." Leviathan said with a mischievous smile.

"That's adultery!" Samael exclaimed.

"Samael, do you honestly think that matters when we ourselves will no longer be under the control of God?"

"Of course it matters! Sure the Lord won't be in command anymore but Lucifer—"

"Doesn't give a damn, Sammy. Once he's taken over, everything will be new. We won't have to worry about stupid laws and whatnot. We will be free to do whatever we choose." The pale-skinned man bit his lip but said nothing. "So, are you coming or not?"

"I-I suppose…all right."

Both angels quickly made their way towards the gates of Heaven and met with Peter.

"And where do you two think you are going?"

"The Lord asked us to go check on things down on Earth." Leviathan lied.

"Isn't that Michael's job?" The Angel Peter interrogated.

"Yes, but apparently he is busy of some sort. To be honest, I don't really know, Peter. We only follow the Lord's order, we need not question it." The brunette skillfully fabricated his intentions.

"Ah, yes, I-I see. You're right, we shouldn't. I'll, um, open the gate for you two, just make sure you come back, okay?"

Leviathan fought the urge to laugh, "Of course!" He turned to Samael, "Let's go."

"I can't believe you just blatantly lied to the Keeper of Gates."

"Jumping Jehovahs, Samael! You're an archangel for crying out loud! He's an underling, he's meant to be walked all over."

"Leviathian! You shouldn't use God's name in vain!"

"Want me to use the other various forms instead?" They stood in silence for a few seconds, "You know, I wonder about you sometimes, Samael. I know you're an archangel, but if you swore to be by Lucifer's side and yet protect God's name, which side are you playing for?" Leviathan stared into Samael's crimson-red eyes, as if he could find the answer in them.

The angel in question hesitated, "I am all for Lord Lucifer, but we are still angels. We have to keep up our façade if you wish for everything to go well. You never know who might be listening in."

"I see," The brunette said, obviously not believing the red-eyed man. "Whatever you say, I suppose. Anyway, we're finally on Earth. The new humans should be somewhere around here."

Samael was glad for the change in subject, "Are you sure Leviathan? Earth sure is a mighty big place, she might not be here."

"Then let's split up."

"Uh, d-do you think that's a good idea?"

"Well how else do you think we're going to find her? Goodness, you can be a real idiot sometimes, Mr. 'Archangel'." The green-eyed man teased. "Stay in this area and search for her. I'm going to another part of the Earth."

"Um, okay."

Both angels split up and began their quest.

"I should have never listened to that miscreant," Samael muttered. He had been hovering around the earth, flying in mid-air, searching for the human girl and came up with nothing. "Nothing comes out of evil-doing." He gave up on flying and set himself down onto the ground for a bit.

'But isn't that what you are planning?' A voice in his head said.

The ebony-haired man shook his head, "What a perfect place for my conscience to kick in." He sighed, "I really aren't suited for this. Perhaps…" He paused, "I should tell the Lord about what Lucifer is planning. But then the other angels are going to come after me. Oh, but the Lord can protect me! I AM an archangel as well so…arghhh!" Samael grabbed his head, "I don't know what to do!"

At that moment, a running body crashed into his and sent both of them into the ground.

The pale-skinned angel grunted as he sat up on his arms to look at what fell on top of him. His eyes widened, "Uh, you—!"

"Oh my goodness, I am so sorry! I didn't mean to crash into, sir." The girl said worriedly.

Samael looked at her and really took a good look at her. She had long flowing brown hair and big round hazel eyes that looked like gold when the sun hit her eyes. Her pink lips were full and yet not exaggerated, they seemed…perfect. The archangel suddenly felt his heart skip a beat.

"Eh, uh, I…I mean…um," He stuttered. "I-it's okay."

The girl's features brightened up and she smiled. Oh, how that smiled nearly killed him by its beauty.

"My name's Eve, what's yours?"

"T-that's a beautiful name." Samael blushed.

"Hee hee, thanks." Her smiled widened even more.

"My, uh…my name is Samael."

"Ah, I see! Adam's never mentioned you before, so I thought we were the only two around. You must be new!" She said with every amount of innocence in the world in them.

"No, um, you see…I'm—"

Eve got up and held out a hand, "Come on, let me show you around." Samael blushed even harder as he saw what she was wearing…nothing. But so as to not raise any suspicion, he took her hand and helped himself up. "Hey, why are you wearing those weird rags?"

"Rags?"

"Yeah, the ones around your body."

Samael looked down at what he was wearing. These were the finest clothes in heaven! "Um, because I want to?"

"Hm, I see. Oh well, doesn't matter anyway. So, where should we go first?" The angel shrugged. "Wanna meet Adam?" Samael looked scared and quickly shook his head, "Haha, okay. Then, we can go to the waterfall!"

She tightened her hand around his and ran off towards and unknown direction.

"So~ What do you think?"

Samael gaped, "This…this is…"

"Amazing, right?" Eve finished his thoughts. The archangel nodded.

The scene in front of them was something only one could dream of. They were in the middle of a forest, right where the river met a lake, all of which were formed from the waterfall. The air was refreshing and the smell of their surroundings felt pure, and new. There was a slight breeze and the sound of the waterfall was loud and yet relaxing. It was all very beautiful.

"Do you come here often?" Samael asked.

"Huh? Oh, yeah. I haven't been here long but when I was first created, Adam was being very…weird. I didn't like it so I sort of ran away and I found this place. He's not exactly weird all the time now since he's always busy with the crops and the animals so I don't spend much time here. But when I do, it clears my head, you know?"

Samael nodded. "So, how exactly is he weird?"

Eve bit her lip, "He tries to touch me and stuff." Her face heated up, "I asked God about it and he said it was normal but I didn't like it so I tell him to stop. He doesn't really get mad, Adam's actually a very nice person, but he just buries himself in work. I feel bad because I don't exactly do anything."

"Would you like to do something?"

The girl nodded, "Yes, but I don't really have anyone to do stuff with."

This was his chance. He could just grab her and do all those things Leviathan keeps telling him about. He could've…he should've…he would've…but he didn't.

"How about I come and visit you sometimes and we can…you know, find stuff to do together?" The crimson-eyed man purposed.

Eve smiled, "Eh, really? You'd do that?"

"Yeah, o-of course!"

"Haha, okay! Then, can you meet me here everyday? I mean, if you want to."

"Uh, yes, definitely!" Nothing could describe the amount of happiness Samael was feeling at that very moment.

From that day on, Samael would meet the young Eve at that very waterfall. It was their little secret, a place where no one could bother them and where they found infinite things to keep them busy. Until, of course, the effects started to take a toll on Samael.

The archangel and the human girl were laughing over a blunder that happened and they couldn't help but fall onto the grass beside the lake. They both poured their hearts out in loud, boisterous laughter.

"That was too funny! Wouldn't you agree, Samael?" Eve asked as she looked over to the angel. The black-haired man was staring at her with eyes full of something she couldn't quite put her finger on. She was caught off-guard when he threw his leg over her and positioned his body right over hers. "S-Samael, what's wrong?"

"Eve, are you…happy with me?" He looked into her golden eyes, pleading with his.

"Of course, we always find something to do and we have fun all the time!"

"And do you…like me?"

"What? Don't be silly, of course I do! If I didn't like you I wouldn't be here with you. Why are you asking such questions?"

Samael took a deep breath, "Then you won't mind if I do this."

"Do wh—" He silenced her when he applied his lips to hers. The kiss was soft, light, and yet Eve could feel every bit of Samael's passion in it.

When he finally let up, he blushed and said, "I…I'm sorry, I didn't mean—"

Eve brought her fingers up to her lips and felt them, as if she where trying to figure something out. "So…you like me…a lot." Samael nodded. She looked up at him, tilted her head and smiled, "I like you too, Samael."

She wrapped her arms around his neck and brought their lips together again, but this time in a more passionate manner. His hand traveled from her hips up to her breasts.

"Is it okay if I…" He began to ask.

The brunette nodded, "I'm a bit scared but…if it's you, I don't mind."

Samael took this as encouragement and continued kissing her while letting his hands roam her body.

They spent the night together, limbs entangled in each other and their bodies immersed in pain, pleasure, and love. The exact feelings and emotions held from both parties are but a mere memory, one that is worth remembering…for all eternity.

"So where have you been?" A familiar voice questioned.

Samael stopped dead in his tracks, "No where."

"No where? I would believe that, considering it's just old boring you, but you see, I've noticed you've been gone a lot lately. And for longer than usual since a few days ago. Now, why don't you let Big Brother Levi in on your little secret?" The green-eyed angel said.

"I would if I even had a secret to hide, Leviathan. Now, if you will please excuse me, I am a bit exhausted and will be going to my quarters." The ebony-haired man walked passed him, only to be stopped by Leviathan's next words.

"My, you've become quite the liar, Sammy. You're much more suited to be Lucifer's follower now." He grinned.

Samael clenched his fist and kept walking.

"You're what?"

"I'm pregnant, Samael."

The archangel was rendered speechless, "H-how do you know?"

"I'm pretty sure a woman can tell when her body is carrying a new life inside her." Eve mentioned.

"Oh, right."

"So…what do we do? I mean, I haven't done anything with Adam so I'm sure he'll figure it out and God sees all so I…I don't…Samael, I don't know what to do!" The brown-haired girl broke down in tears.

The red-eyed angel ran a hand through his hair, "You have to let it go."

"W-what?"

"Your life with Adam, you need to let it go. I mean, you already have me so…"

Eve smiled sadly and gave Samael a peck on the lips, "Lilith."

"I don't understand."

"You said I needed to let go of my life with Adam so I will abandon all of that which ties me to him. Even my name. Hence, my new name is Lilith," She said as-a-matter-of-factly.

The archangel put a hand over her belly, "I love you…the both of you."

"Samael! You did it! You completed Lord Lucifer's plan!" Beelzebub exclaimed when he went through the pearly white gates.

"What are you talking about?"

"You seduced the human woman! Lucifer was planning on doing that himself but when Leviathan told him what you were up to, he told us that you would be the one who would began our rebellion." The lower-class demon said excitingly.

The archangel's eyes widened, "What? No! That wasn't—"

The sky began to thunder and shake.

"Uh oh, God must have found out! Shit!" Beelzebub flew off, leaving Samael alone.

Samael was summonded and he appeared in front of the Almighty God, with Michael standing right by his side. The crimson-eyed angel noticed that all of the other conspirators were by his side.

"Kneel," He commanded.

None of the angels in question did so, except Samael. They all stared at him.

"Psh, Samael, get up! We're rebelling, not apologizing!" Leviathan whispered to him.

"Shut up," the archangel told him.

Everyone was taken aback. The rest went on as a trial. Lucifer stated that God was a terrible ruler and that if everyone chose him, their lives would be better and they would be free to do whatever they wished. More angels got onto Lucifer's side and began bad-mouthing God. And yet, he just sat there, on his throne, with not one word coming out of his mouth. Meanwhile, Michael looked about ready to murder them all, but the Lord motioned for him to calm down.

After saying all was said about Him, Lucifer said, "So, what's it going to be? Either you step down or we'll overthrow you."

"I choose neither, Lucifer." God's resonating voice answered.

"What? You're going to destroy us now?"

He shook his head, "No, that would prove nothing. If you want to rule over something, then I'll give you a kingdom of your very own to govern. I'll send you and your demons to the pits of Hell."

Samael's eyes widened, "But my Lord—"

His command continued, "None of you will never be able to feel any of the emotions you once had and you will live your days knowing that my hatred for you will be never-ending."

"What! But Lucifer promised us…"

"I know! He told us…"

"What happens now?"

"This is bullshit!"

All the demons complained as they heard God's command. Sooner rather than later, they were all banished to a place lower than Earth. Except Samael. He was left on his knees, in front of God.

"Rise," He said. The former archangel looked him in the eyes, "You, Samael, have committed a grave sin."

The ebony-haired man nodded slowly, "I know."

"A sin worthy enough for you to be as damned as the others."

"I know."

"And you will receive punishment."

"Any retribution you command over me I will gladly accept." Samael said sincerely as he bowed.

"Then your punishment shall be to live in Hell for the rest of your days along with the usual emotions you still have. You will be different than the others. You will know what it is like to feel pain, suffering, sadness, and even…love." God said.

Samael opened his mouth to say something but all he said was, "I accept."

And with that, he was thrown out of Heaven, wingless and without hope of ever going back. The first thing he did was to find Lilith. It took him longer than usual without the help of his wings but he finally found her in their secret place.

He saw her sitting by the lake with a hand over her engorged belly, "Lilith! Thank God I found you. I want to tell you so—" He stopped in his tracks as he saw her tear-stained face staring at him. He ran over to her, "Lilith, what happened?" Samael tried to wrap an arm around her but she backed away.

"Stay away form me!" She screamed.

"Baby, w-what's going on?"

"You…You MONSTER! He told me everything! That demon told me that you're one of them and that…that…you tricked me!" Lilith pointed a finger at him.

"That wasn't my intention!" Samael reasoned.

"All you demons do is lie and deceive people. You even made me leave Adam so that you could ruin my perfect life. You even impregnated me with your disgusting demon child!"

He was taken aback, "Y-you don't really mean that…do you?"

She bit her lip before continuing, "Of course! It doesn't matter anyway, I hate you! You filthy liar! I already asked Adam to take me back, and he did!"

"But Lilith—"

"My name is Eve, demon."

The crimson-eyed man didn't know what to say. He just left and cried to himself. Something he's never done and never will do ever again.

For many years after that, we watched over Eve and her eldest son. She had named him Cain and he seemed like a strapping young boy…until he grew up and murdered Adam's child, Abel. Samael should've been feeling proud since all demons wished for sins to be committed, but he didn't. His child turned out to be a true monster, just like Eve had called him. The demon felt enraged.

'How can humans be so animalistic? So beastly? So…demon-like?' He thought to himself, 'Just like me.'

He punched a nearby tree and sent it to the ground.

"Demons truly are disgusting creatures," The pale-skinned demon said, feeling the urge to tear himself apart.

"Congratulations, Sammy! You are now, officially, one of the Princes of Hell! Number two, right after Lucifer, might I add," Leviathan said happily as he settled a crown on top of Samael's head.

He shook his head, throwing it to the floor, "Get that damned thing off of me."

"Aw, Sammy, you have to be happy about this! Lucifer has chosen you to be his right-hand man!"

"Shut up, Leviathan. I don't give a damn about stuff like that." The demon prince walked off.

"Touchy," the brunette muttered.

(End of Flashback)

As Samael lived on, he kept his thoughts to himself. He had hardened himself, so as to appear to have no emotions just so they wouldn't affect him later on. He kept himself busy by making contracts with humans and devouring their souls, hoping that would fill an empty void he felt in his life. But no matter how many centuries passed, a name always popped up.

Eve.

The human he threw everything away for.

The only girl who never "smelled".

The only person he ever gave his heart to…and she broke it.

His first and only love…until now.

dreamgirl: Ladies and Gentleman, I present to you the LONGEST chapter so far. Believe it or not, this took up 16 pages of Word. My previous longest chapter was chapter 10 I think. The one with Ciel in the asylum? Yeah, that one took 15 pages. I just beat my own record XD Anyway, how did I do? Please let me know what you think and PLEASE REVIEW!