Chapter 6 – Guilt –

Emily lay in silence, staring at the roof of the ambulance as it started to pull away. Slowly she turned and looked at Morgan as he gently rested his hand on his friend's shoulder, flashing a wide smile at Emily and that was all it took as she felt the tears suddenly start to flow uncontrollably down her face.

"I couldn't help, I couldn't stop him! I had to sit there and watch! I was completely powerless Derek, I had to watch him rape her time and time again. I should have been able to help but in the end it was Kate who rescued me!"

Morgan shook his head as Emily shouted at him, he bent over so that Emily had no choice other than to look him in the eye.

"Listen to me Emily. There wasn't anything you could do, he tied you up, he beat you unconscious, please, please do not blame yourself!"

Emily swallowed hard and closed her eyes, trying vainly to stem the flow of tears, normally she was so good at being able to compartmentalise her feelings but Emily knew that there was no way that she could do it at the moment.

Kate still clung tight to JJ's jacket that was wrapped around her body as the paramedics wheeled the gurney into the hospital, JJ had kept a hold of Kate's hand and she ended up running alongside Kate in order to ensure that she didn't let go. JJ saw the panic suddenly reappear in Kate's eyes as the gurney came to a stop in an examination room that quickly filled with medical personnel with a young male doctor leaning over the top of Kate, shining a bright light into her eyes as he spoke.

"Right Miss Stanley we need to run some tests on you, take some blood and a CT scan for that knock you received on your head. Plus we'll need to do a full sexual assault kit on you."

"Hey look I KNOW that you are trying to look after her and she needs help but please look how scared she is, can we please take things a little slower?"

JJ stepped across the young doctor and placed her other hand on Kate's hand, trying to reassure her that she was still safe.

"Ok Agent Jareau, how about I stay and look after Miss Stanley personally?"

JJ turned towards the doorway and saw a middle-aged female doctor standing there looking directly at Kate and smiling softly.

"I think that's a good idea, don't you Kate?"

Kate slowly nodded her head and watched the doctor make her way over as everyone else filed out of the room.

"Ok then Kate, first of all I need to take a look at your arms if that is alright?"

Kate instantly looked at JJ for some reassurance as JJ squeezed Kate's hand before she let go and moved it up to the girl's head, stroking the blonde hair softly so that Kate would still know that she wasn't alone.

Garcia quickly jumped out of her seat as she saw Derek walking towards her, she didn't wait for him as she ran over and threw her arms around his strong muscular frame.

"How is she? Where is she? Can I see her?"

"Shhh slow down babygirl!"

Derek held Garcia tight as he spoke softly to her.

"She's in with the doctor now, she wanted me to find you and ask if you could take in her change of clothes."

"Of course, I've got them right here. Derek?"

Garcia pulled herself away and looked at Morgan, she knew that he wasn't telling her the whole story.

"She blames herself, for Kate, for not being able to do more to stop Ainsley. I can also tell that she isn't telling me everything, maybe she'll talk to you."

Garcia raised her hand to her mouth and felt the tears begin to well up in her eyes.

"Oh my poor Em!"

Garcia tapped gently on the door, slowly poking her head around, her heart sinking as saw Emily lying in the bed, staring up at the ceiling.

"Can I come in?"

Emily blinked her eyes and looked over, smiling as she saw Garcia standing at the entrance to her room.

"Of course Garcia."

Garcia quickly moved over to the bed, placing Emily's bag on the end of the bed before she leant over and hugged her friend.

"Are you sure that you are ok?"

Emily nodded as Garcia released her, swallowing hard to keep her emotions at bay she looked at her colourful friend.

"The jaw isn't broken just badly gashed, I think that they stitched me up well though. I have a mild concussion from the knock to the head but I am kind of used to that! Thanks for bringing my clothes."

Garcia frowned as Emily talked, Morgan was right about Emily but Garcia wasn't going to push her any further when she was so obviously close to breaking.

"Have you heard any news about Ainsley?"

Garcia raised her eyebrows as Emily asked the question, suddenly recomposing herself as she began to respond.

"They've taken him straight up to surgery. Hotch is standing guard outside just to be sure. Is it wrong that I wish she'd shot him in the head?"

"Garcia!"

"Sorry Em but after all that he put you and that poor girl through I want him dead and I never thought that I would say that."

Emily nodded her head, unsurprised at her friend's thoughts as she felt exactly the same.

"Is JJ still with Kate?"

"Yes I haven't been in there yet, apparently Katherine got a little freaked out when they first brought her in, JJ managed to calm her down though."

"I need to go and see her."

"Are you sure that you're ok to move?"

Garcia put her hand over the top of Emily's, squeezing it tight as she saw the emotion in Emily's face.

"Yes, I need to get changed first though."

"Of course sweetie, I'll be waiting with Derek if you need anything."

"Thanks Pen, for everything."

Garcia nodded as she bent over and kissed Emily on the cheek, her mind racing fast as she thought of all the things that had and could have happened to her friend whilst she was in the cabin.