As I wait for Sookie I steal glances around this Merlotte's joint, it strikes me as a pretty strange place, even to me. A few times I watch Sookie talk to a were panther, which I discover from eavesdropping is her brother. I started to analyze the whole Eric book thing, but I couldn't really make any sense of it since Eric obviously withheld a lot of information from me, as usual with Eric, he will only tell you what he thinks you need to know.

I snicker a little bit thinking about the first time I met Eric so long ago. It was after he left his maker but before he turned Pam. It was a darker then normal evening in London where I lived for many years; Eric was out in the night looking to feed. It was quite by chance that I came across Eric; in fact, he was unaware that I was a vampire when we first locked eyes. I could see he was intrigued by me but that he wasn't sure why, he couldn't hide his blood lust from my experienced eyes. I even sensed for a brief moment he considered making me his meal. Fortunately for him he didn't. Our eye's held tight to each other's gaze, I was as surprised to see him as he was to see me; it was a very rare occurrence to come across another vampire back then.

"What are you?" he spoke first breaking the uneasiness.

"Lame" I thought, but back then I most likely thought "oh dear, how uncouth". "Same as you" I answered as honestly as I could.

"No, you are not, what are you and answer me truthfully?" he was loud and bold.

"I did answer you truthfully; I am a vampire same as you are." I replied with the same bravado.

Eric locked eyes with me again suspiciously "How is it that I cannot sense this?" he asked meaning he basically couldn't smell that I was a vampire. I think that's a side effect from not drinking blood frequently. I also don't look like your typical attractive yet somehow sickly looking vampire.

"But you do sense it or you would have tried to feed on me would you not?" I responded. He continued to stare at me, trying to understand the contradiction that I am. He thought again about feeding on me. "I wouldn't, I really wouldn't" I warned him.

"I can tell you are not human, but you do not appear to be a vampire" he spoke confidently.

"I am very old" I offered, sometimes that works but not for Eric.

"Your age should not make a difference" he responded.

I sighed; it's so frustrating when you yourself have no idea how to explain your differences, which at that time, I didn't understand. "I am what you are; this is all I have to put forward to you, goodnight." I started to walk away; there was no point in continuing since I wasn't going to get anywhere.

"Wait!" he called after me and suddenly was in front of me "You can understand my bewilderment?"

"I can, but I have no desire to indulge it." I answered back; I was such a jack hole back in the day.

"I am Eric Northman" he still sounded uncertain, but at least we were finally getting somewhere

"My name is Damaris" I answered him in Swedish.

"Are you Scandinavian" Sookie asked me breaking me out of my thoughts, I wonder how much she had, um, saw. I was so deep in thought I hadn't seen her slide into the booth across from me.

"No, I'm not, I'm from Europe originally, but I speak many languages, like pretty much all of them" I answered. We both laughed.

"The way you talk, you walk in the day light, you eat and you're not interested in blood, you're not like any vampire I have ever met." She remarked.

"Have you met a lot of vampires" I sincerely wonder and she nods "How unfortunate for you" we both laugh. "Yeah, I'm pretty different".

Sookie looks at me for a moment before saying "You are truly the most unthreatening vampire I have ever met."

I guess to her that is very true, I have no desire to drink, kill or harm anything, although from time to time Pam really gets on my nerves. But beyond toying with a fellow vampire to entertain myself, I have no need for aggression.

"Most Vampires and humans that know me feel the complete opposite way" I dispute her.

"Why is that?" she questions earnestly.

I try to think of a way to say it that won't come out creepy but in the end just decide to blurt out "I can't be killed."

"What do you mean you can't be killed" she questions.

"Just like it sounds, I cannot be killed by vampire or human hands, or any other way they try, like silver bullets, wooden stakes, you know all those wise tales that turned out to be true"

"Have many attempts to kill you been made?" she asks

I snort "Oh hell yeah, tons, oh you have no idea"

Sookie takes that all in, "So you cannot be killed, how does that work?"

"If someone, Vampire, human, it doesn't matter, were to approach me with the intent to kill me, they would be destroyed"

"Destroyed?" she looks at me confused

"Yes, they would die" I say slowly

"Die, how?"

"It depends, have you ever seen a vampire killed?" I ask, she nods and I see it in her mind too "Yeah, like that"

"Just for intending to kill you"

"Intending and attacking, I know it sounds bizarre"

"Humans also?"

"Well, yes, but I have only been approached by one human that intended to kill me, she just dropped to the floor, like she had a heart attack" I counter.

"Are there others like you?" she asks much to my surprise, I immediately clear my head of all thoughts and try not to look alarmed before I answer "No", the revelation of that secret could be the one actual thing that could lead to true death for me.

"What is the difference?" she asks me cautiously, she asks that because she caught something in my head before I was able to clear it completely and it dawns on me that even just talking to someone with telepath ability is very dangerous to me.

I hesitate to answer her "Sookie, there are some things that I just can't share with you"

She nods "Sorry, I didn't mean to pry".

I nod back "It's cool". I contemplate leaving to avoid any further "slip ups" and face the fact that talking to Sookie is more risky to me then I could ever be to her, but you know, it's kinda hard to find people you enjoy talking to, especially when you've been around as long as I have."So like Eric?" I ask to change the subject "Ewww!".

"Oh come on" she smiles "You don't think he's sexy?" She smiles

"Are you serious? Eric ? Sexy? He is such a typical Neanderthal vamp, you're into that?" She smirks coyly and I catch a picture in her mind "Oh no way, I know him, um Bill, you and Bill too .."

"That's over" she cuts me off, I briefly catch a few more images of her tumultuous relationship with Bill, Bill Compton, the pain and the love, it breaks my heart for her.

"Well, given the choice." I say to break the awkward silence "I am totally Team Eric."