So this is definitely an early update. For those of you who read my other story, I have hit a road block. Yes I only have two chapters left, but inspiration has left me. So until then, I am just going to focus on this one until it comes back. Hopefully soon. Anyways. I am going on a trip for the next 2 weeks. i leave tomorrow. I don't knwo what the internet situation will be, but I may not be able to update until I come back. That doesn't mean I won't be writing, and I still get emails on my phone and twitter. So follow me, if you want an idea about when I will be updating.
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(Rpov)
Driving a stick shift in five inch heels isn't fucking easy. Either my heel is skidding across the floormat or the pedal is getting stuck in the arch of my shoe, but I am determined to make this happen. It has been over week since I have taken pain medication, and not only myself, but Emmett and Carlisle have given me a clean bill of health. X-rays show that my ribs had fully healed and my shoulders as good as new. You better believe I am celebrating.
It been almost a month since those pictures showed up at our front door, and nothing has happened since. I can't say that makes me feel better. This person always seems to attack when our guard is down. I'm not letting that happen again. The pictures were a wake up call.
Emmett has been more protective then ever, and Edward kept true to his word. Whenever Em wasn't home, a cop car was sitting outside. Let just say, I now know every police officer in the town, and I think they all hate me. To them I'm just some Hollywood girl, who can't take care of herself. I can see it in their stares and hear it in the curt answers I get when I ask them if they need anything. I never thought I'd look forward to when it was Edward's turn to watch our house. At least he understood.
The wheel begin to shake as I pulled onto the gravel driveway of our new house. I hadn't been to see the site since the accident. Emmett had taken over making sure everything was on schedule and up to par. But now that I am better, I need to take some of that responsibility back from of him. He won't admit it, but this is wearing him down.
"Mrs. McCarty. What a lovely surprise." Aro said as I got out of the car. I made sure not to wear white this time. "I'm so sorry to hear about the accident. It's wonderful to see you doing so well." The smile on his face sent a shiver up my spine. Something about him still doesn't sit well with me.
"Well a lot has gotten done since I was last here." I said looking at the house changing the subject. It was true. The exterior of the house was complete, and I have to admit it was everything I wanted it to be. It had the extravagance of a home fit for me, but homeliness of a house perfect for Emmett.
"Yes. We are currently working on putting the upgrades into the home as we speak. You're professional kitchen is almost complete." He raised his eyebrows in excitement.
"Yea. Let's not pretend like I am going to use that." I said under my breath.
"Nevertheless, it will be complete."
"When do you think we can start putting furniture in?"
"In about three weeks. This is a very large house, and we are only finishing the kitchen today." He said to me as if he were a father talking to his child. And I did not appreciate it.
"Well then I guess you are right on track." I replied sarcastically. "When is the driveway being paved?"
"That will be the last thing we do. Construction equipment can easily break pavement, honey." I rolled my eyes. I won't even let Emmett call me honey.
"Okay well if that's all. I'm going to get going." I said turning to walk back to my car.
"Don't you want a walk through of the home." Aro yelled.
"Did my husband not already do that?"
"No he did."
"Okay, well I am going to wait until the house is further along. I'm not dressed to walk through a dirty dusty home."
"I should have know you didn't want to get beautiful outfit dirty." I nodded my head ready to leave. "By the way, I heard a rumor in town."
"What might that be?" I asked curiously.
"That there were policemen at your home. I hope everything's okay?" Something tells me that he wasn't being sincere.
"We had a break in." I answered honestly. I wasn't talking to anyone about the pictures. Not even Alice knew.
"Oh dear. I hope everything is all right. Do you not have a security system in your home?" He asked genuinely concerned this time.
"Oh no."
"For someone of your celebrity, I would think you would know better. Your husband should know better." Aro said sternly. "You have to let me put in security system. Even if it is just something that chimes with a door or a window opens."
"You can do that?"
"I own a construction company, sweetheart. This is part of what I do. And security is very important. You never want to fell unsafe in your own home."
"Umm..." I didn't know what to say. Getting a security system put into our home would make me feel safer, but I don't know if I want Aro to do it. But in this small town, who else would.
"How long would that take?"
"Two hours at the most."
"And how much?"
"I'll tell you what, if you promise to recommend our company to your friends, I'll do it for free." That's a deal you can't pass up.
"Let me talk to Emmett and I'll get back to you."
"Don't take to long, honey. The world is full of crazy people." What the hell does that mean, I thought as I turned to walk back to my car. In my mind, Aro is classified as a crazy person.
I weighted the pro and cons of having Aro install the security system, and could only find one con. I just didn't want him in my house. But besides giving me the creeps, I don't really have a reason. And I'm pretty sure Emmett will agree to it given the fact it will help him sleep better at night, and keep him from worrying while he's at work. He doesn't tell me, but I am sure he has considered quitting, just so he could be home 24/7.
And thats not something that I am willing to let happen. Emmett is going to quit when he wants to, not because he has to. Deciding to talk to Em as soon as I get home, I drove away from the construction site and further into town.
"Jasper is gone again!" Alice yelled as she open her front door.
"It's the Saturday before Thanksgiving. What could he possible be doing, killing a turkey?" I said walking inside.
"I wish. At least that's family oriented." Alice rolled her eyes.
"Don't tell me he is doing something for the school. They don't even have a full week of classes this week."
"That's what I said." She replied throwing her jacket on a chair sitting on the couch.
"Wait, where were you?" I asked looking at the jacket. Alice had told me yesterday that she was free all day to meet.
"Oh my mom need a ride to the doctors to get test results." She shrugged.
"And?" I asked excitedly. She can't just end right there.
"He confirmed that she is in remission, but says she need to come in for continually checkups throughout the year."
"That's good. Why are you upset?"
"Because I expected to come home and spend quality time with my husband only to get a phone call saying that he has work to do after dropping my mother off. I'm so sick of his fucking work." Alice and I were in opposite positions. She wanted Jasper home more, and I wanted Emmett to feel comfortable enough to go to work. Who would have thunk.
"Where's your daughter?" I asked changing the subject.
"Napping. She passed out on the car ride home."
"I thought you were supposed to sleep when she does." I teased.
"Yea well. Things don't do as planned. Just ask my husband." She dead panned.
"Maybe he really had something he had to do."
"Yeah right, Rose." She rolled her eyes. "Anyways let talk about our line. That's what your here for right."
"If you don't feel it, it can wait."
"No. No. It will take my mind off of how awful my home life is right now, and we've been putting this off for months. Luckily the department stores understood that you need recover before making any decisions." She was right. We hadn't talked about our line since the night when I spilled my guts to her. "So what did Kate say?"
"Well apparently Neimen Marcus doesn't want to carry our line, but Nordstroms, Macy's, and Bloomingdales are bored. Not to mention those stores we saw. I loved the one on Robertson Blvd. If it's still available." I added. We waited so lon, that a lot of the real estate we had seen was gone.
"I'm sure it's available. That place was so expensive."
"But awesome." I defended.
"I know. It was gorgeous and required little to no renovations."
"See." I said excitedly.
"But I still think it to too expensive."
"But we both love it."
"I know." She said giving up.
"So did we just decided to buy a store?" I asked excitedly.
"I think we did." She smiled.
"Good because I really didn't want to deal with another company telling us what was fashionable. If we fail it's on our own terms."
"Oh that's a great way to look at it." She said sarcastically.
"What it's true." I shrugged as the telephone rang. Alice stood and went ot grab the phone.
"Hello." She said. By the tone of her voice the next time she spoke, I new exactly who she was talking to.
"You can't be serious." She huffed. I guess Jasper was giving her more bad news.
"What do you expect me to do? Jasper, you promised we would at least have dinner together tonight!" She yelled.
"Jasper I am so sick of hearing your excuses." This was worse then I thought. It was normally Emmett and I that had arguments. Jasper and Alice were always so in-sync.
"I can't believe you are trying to justify your actions right now. Bottom line: you are breaking a promise to me, your WIFE." As she yelled I heard Amelia begin to cry through the baby monitor. Alice had woken her up.
"Don't pull that you're busy shit on me. You are not the only one who works!" I looked to Alice to see if she was going to get her, but it was obvious she was too immersed in her argument to notice.
"Well the reason I am not working right now is because I am home taking care of your daughter." Realizing that she wasn't going to move and hearing Amelia cries get louder, I went to get Amelia.
Her bedroom was decorated in true Alice fashion. The walls were baby pink with Amelia's name painted in light green. The brilliant white furniture popped against the dark wood floors and the bright walls. I walked over to the white crib, and peered over the side. Amelia's cries immediately settled as she looked up at me raising her arms.
"There you are." I cooed as I reached in and picked her up resting her on my hip.
"You know I am jealous you got a nap." I said lightly touching her nose. I wanted to wait a little before going back to Alice. No child should hear he parents fight like that, even if she is only 8 months old. You tend you remember those things.
She giggled as I tickled her from her nose to her tummy.
"Sometimes I think you are the cutest baby in the world." I said winking at her. I looked back at the door to see if Alice was done yelling. Everything seemed relatively quiet so I figured the coast was clear. Turned to look back to Amelia to see her drooling my shirt.
"And sometimes you ruin it." I added looking at the wet stain on my shirt. Shaking my head, I carried Amelia to her mother.
"Whatever Jasper. Enjoy the couch tonight." She said hanging up as we entered the room.
"So all the commotion woke up the little on up." I said smiling. There was not reason to make her feel bad.
"Sorry you had to hear that." She said taking her out of my hands.
"Trust me you still don't have Emmett and I beat when we argue. At least you kept your dignity. I always go for the low blow." She laughed.
"Good Em's getting a taste of his own medicine." I smiled. "I guess I should start dinner, would you like some?"
"No. I promised Emmett I'd be back by dark."
"Why does he want you back by dark?" She asked confused.
"Who knows." I lied.
"Emmett's so weird." She rolled her eyes. "Anyway's I am going to make some trout if you want to help me in the kitchen." I nodded my head and followed her into the kitchen.
She handed me lemon to slice as she placed Amelia in her high chair and grabbed the trout out of the fridge. As soon as she unwrapped the fish, the scent hit me and my stomach turned.
"Excuse me." I said quickly running to the bathroom.
"I thought you stopped taking the pain killers." Alice said as I walked back into the kitchen.
"I did. I haven't taken them for a week." I replied sitting at the table. The smell of the fish was still making me dry heave.
"And you just threw up?" I nodded my head.
"Maybe I ate something bad. Emmett did cook breakfast this morning."
"Rose, Emmett's a really good cook. He wouldn't give you food that makes you sick."
"Whatever. I have been getting waves of nausea a lot recently. At the weirdest times too. I guess I have the stomach flu." I shrugged.
"Or you're pregnant." She laughed.
"Alice I'm on the shot"
"I know. But you could be."
"I'm not. I had my appointment eight weeks ago."
"Rose, you were in the hospital eight weeks ago." Alice clarified. My eyes widened as I realized she was right.
"Shit. I was supposed to go to the doctor right after we got back from LA. Oh my God. I completely forgot." I said dropping my head in my hands.
"So maybe you are pregnant." Alice repeated sitting across from me at the table. Is that true? Do I have a little being growing inside me? I looked down at my flat stomach. I can't be pregnant. I just can't. With everything that's happening right now, this would be the worst time to have a baby. I'm just not pregnant. I can't be.
"No. No. I don't think so." I shook my head. "I mean. I'm not even showing the symptoms."
"Oh wow you're in denial." Alice raised her eyebrows as she spoke.
"What are you talking about?"
"Rose, you just threw up because you smelled fish. That sounds like morning sickness to me."
"Oh please Alice. I told you I might have eaten a bad breakfast."
"Rose. I mean this with the best intentions, but you're full of shit."
"Alice!" I exclaimed.
"Rose! You know there is a chance you could be pregnant. You haven't been on the shot for the last two months and you and Emmett have been having sex. And my guess is that protection was not high on your priorities the past few weeks." Everything she was saying was true, I just didn't want to believe it.
"Come one." She said to me standing and walked over to Amelia.
"Where are we going?" I asked confused from the table.
"I have a pregnancy test in my bathroom, and you're going to take it." She demanded.
"I dunno." I shrugged looking at her. To be honest I was scared to take that test. "I don't think this a good idea."
"Rose, just take it to prove me wrong then." She said waving me along as she left the kitchen and walked towards her bedroom. Slowly I stood and followed her. When I entered the bathroom, she handed my a blue box.
"Pee on it." She said before leaving me alone in the her bathroom holding a home pregnancy test.
"How long do I have to wait?" I asked walking out of the bathroom after peeing on a stick.
"10 minutes." She said sitting on the bed as I joined her. As soon as my ass hit the mattress, Amelia reached for me. I looked down at Alice's little girl in her arms. Her little hands. Her little feet. The needy look in her eyes. She relied on Alice for everything. To eat. To sleep. To laugh. Her whole world revolved around Alice. Could I handle that? Did I want to?
Yes I like kids. But do I want my own? This world is cruel and harsh. No one knows that more than I do. Why would I want to bring someone into it? Why would I want to bring a helpless baby into my crazy life? I couldn't.
Could I even be a good mother? I've never really had one. Yes, my mother did an amazing job getting me out of the hell that was my childhood, but she wasn't a mother. I was always just another responsibility to her. I didn't even know what a real mother was like until I met Esme. And she's the strongest woman I have ever met. I could never live up to her.
"You know children aren't a bad thing? Yes, Jasper and I fight more, but it is because we both want what's best for our daughter." Alice said breaking my train of thought. "I think you'd make a wonder mother, Rose. Even if you don't think so."
Alice knew me well enough to guess my train of thought. But I can't say her words were comforting. She and Jasper do fight more now. Could Emmett and I handle that with everything that's going on? Does he need to added pressure of preparing for a baby on top of my safety? Could I handle the pressure?
"I think it's time." Alice said.
"Could you go look?" I begged. She nodded her head and walked into the bathroom. I bit my lip waiting anxiously for her return. This was one of those moments that could change your life forever. And I couldn't figure what exactly I wanted Alice to say when she walked back into the room.
"Congratulation Mommy." Alice said walking back into the bedroom and my heart stopped. I guess that wasn't it.
"What was the expiration date on the test?" I asked quickly.
"What?"
"Maybe it was expired and gave a false positive." I explained. Alice's face soured.
"Rose I bought that test two weeks ago when I was a couple days late." Shit.
"Emmett's going to kill me." I said falling back onto the bed.
"Why would Emmett kill you? Rose this is a happy moment." I felt the bed dip as she sat beside me.
"He's already so stressed. I just added to it." I felt the moisture gather in my eyes as I closed them and took deep breaths.
"What is he so stressed about? Rose what are you not telling me." I opened my eyes to see the sun setting through Alice's window.
"Shit. I have to go." I said sitting up. "I promised Emmett I'd be home by dark."
"Rose, what is going on?" Alice asked grabbing my arm keeping me from leaving the room.
"Nothing." I said shaking my head.
"You're an awful liar."
"Alice, I'm fine I promise, but I do really have to go." A pleading look crossed her face as I spoke.
"Rose, you know you can tell me anything right?" I nodded my head. "Just talk to me when you ready, please."
"Okay." I whispered as she released my arm.
"Tell Emmett I say hi."
"I will." I said before leaving her room and running out to my car. Why do I feel like I am about to walk into a war zone? Pregnant. FUCK!
Did anyone see this coming? What did you think of Rose's reaction? How do you thin Emmett will react? So many questions. Leave a review and let me know what you think. I promise I'll send a preview. And follow me on twitter if want to know when my next update will be. I will try not to make you wait to weeks.