Don't Say Goodbye

By: Iceyicecream

Chapter 2: Decisions
For those who have not read Snow, this is the next shot to it! Read it and then this! If you don't, there is no guarantee that you'll understand what I'm talking about! Well without further ado, enjoy!

The days that you and Tezuka didn't talk turned into weeks and then into months. You wondered during your class whether he was thinking about you or was it tennis. Your heart ached at the thought of seeing his face but shook the image out of your head and paid attention to what your teacher was babbling on about. There was a sudden knock at the door. "The door is open." Your teacher said irritated that his lesson was being interrupted.

SPEAK OF THE DEVIL! The one and only Tezuka came in. "I have to take make up a test." Tezuka said.

Your teacher turned back to the board and continued writing on the board. "Sit in any empty seat you can find and don't talk to any of the other students."
"Hai." Tezuka said as he looked for an empty seat.

You turned to your left and gasped horrified to find the seat beside you was the one and only seat empty. The girl who was sitting there has been out with a cold for the pasted few days. You groan and bury your face in your hands. You hear the sound of his indoor shoes against the glossy floor as he comes closer. You keep your face in your hands as he settles into the seat beside you. When you stop hearing the rustling sound of his backpack you peek up. Tezuka is already absorbed in the test and scribbling down answers. You stare at him angry that he didn't notice you were right beside him. You sigh and you face forward again. As usual, the girls were passing notes and some of the boys were up in the clouds. From the side of your eye you can see Tezuka look up and turn as if looking for someone. You look the other direction and then turn back and see that his face is turn to the paper once more. You let out yet another sigh and stare like you did many times before you started and when you did start dated Tezuka. His face was chiseled out like a Greek god and was already hard and like that of a man's. His neck was long and tanned. You looked down to see his sleeves rolled up and see the muscles in his forearm and hand. Every detail of his face being absorbed into your brain. "HEY!" The teacher yelled.

You look forward afraid you were caught staring only to see the teacher was yelling at the sleeping students. You scribble down the notes that were on the board and then as you were writing you heard the sound of the backpack zipper. You look up to see Tezuka getting up and walking to the front. "Thank you." He said and left without making any sort of eye contact with you.

The bell for lunch had rung but you had no appetite for the food hear. You unravel your earphones and pushed them in your ear and let the music fill your ears. Your heart feeling as if beating to the music. We can take it, if you just take my hand

There's no turning back now

Baby, try to understand

Don't wanna break your heart

Wanna give your heart a break

I know you're scared it's wrong

As your listening to the song you bob your head to the rhythm getting into it. Your eyes closed and your feet leading you to where ever they wanted to go. The song repeats again and you open your eyes to find that you are at the tennis courts. You face palm yourself. You wanted to see him again but you denied it. You sigh and leave the song on replay playing over again. You look around for any of the others and found no one. You walk over to the tennis courts and open the door. You walk on the court where you saw Tezuka running back and forth, sweating and with a dazzling look in his eyes as he played. You shut your eyes and shook your head trying to erase the images from your head. Memories of when you confessed your love for Tezuka came rushing into mind with the song playing in the background.

Nearly a Year Ago

"I like you." You confessed to Tezuka.

He just stared at you. "You do know there is no guarantee that I will fall in love with you." He said.

You nodded your head. "I'm just going to have to change that huh?" You said smiling.

"Fine, do as you please."
And that was the beginning.

Back to the Present

But even though you had thought you could change it you were slowly losing hope on it. You shook your head. You didn't want to cry anymore, he wasn't worth it. You took a deep breath and headed out of the gated courts only to find Tezuka coming in. "Tezuka." You breathed out like air.

Tezuka looked up at you and nodded his head with his usual hard look. "What are you doing here?" He asked quietly as he stretched.

You looked around for a logical explanation but sighed. "Because I wanted to see you."
"And why's that? You saw me in class didn't you?" Tezuka said.

Your face warmed at the embarrassing event. "You saw?" You mumbled.

He nodded his head. "You were sitting right beside me, how could I not notice."
Your face if possible, turned a brighter shade of red. You fidgeted. You didn't know what to do but knew you didn't want him to see the look on your face. Tezuka turned pushing up his glasses casually and looked at you. "Did you have something you want to talk to me about?" He asked.

One of the ear buds were still in your ear playing the song. "I like you." You whispered.

"I know." He replied.

You look up at him to see him with the same look. A sudden jolt of confidence comes and you step closer to him. You're only an inch away but he doesn't back up or push you away. You stare at his eyes that looked curiously back. You place your lips on his for a few second and then take them off. You back up and look at him. He looks down at you. "Was that it?" He said.

Your heart ached and your chest tightened. You could feel the lump slowly rising but shoved it down. "No, I have one more question." You said.

Tezuka nodded his head. Never once had he said no or pushed me away. He just didn't show me anything…he always just did the bare minimum with me. "Have you fallen for me yet?" You asked in a whisper.

Tezuka is quiet and you are brought back to that snow filled day. You felt the same pain and didn't know whether to run or to stand your guard. "I like you." You whisper again, "But if you say no, then I will leave you alone."
He looks at you. "I've thought about it." Tezuka said, "Why you had ask me to date me and why I had said yes. Or with your sudden mood swings and questions."
You stare at him confused. Waiting for him to continue what he was saying. He turned to see whether any of the other members were coming and found none. "You stayed with me, even though I barely did anything with you." Tezuka said, "And I was intrigued."
"You made me wonder about woman and their sudden out bursts and questions." Tezuka said, "You are the first to date me and I was interested in what you did as a couple."
You continued to stare. "You would smile at the simplest things at time but you would also frown and ignore me when something as simple as me talking to a girl."
Tezuka pushed up his glasses again. "But what I am saying is that I cannot say I have either completely fallen for you or not."
"Then-"
"That is up to you."

"What?" You said confused.

"I am not sure myself if I have any feelings for you or not." Tezuka said, "And it's up to you whether you want to stay with me or leave me."
You were confused. Wasn't it you who was asking the questions? You shook your head. "I want us to be together." You say truthfully.
"Then that is what it will be like."
"I don't want it to be how it was before!" You said, "I was lonely!"
Tezuka stared at you and nodded his head. "Then I'll make time for you."
You were confused. Why was he suddenly being so much more…boyfriend like. "Why didn't you say any of this before?" You asked a bit angry.

"I didn't know what to say."
Your jaw dropped. "As I told you before you are my first girlfriend." Tezuka said, "Being with you is like a first parent."

You sighed. The other members of the tennis team were coming and noticed you and Tezuka. "That's Sempai's girlfriend?" One of them asked the other.
"Yeah but I heard that they broke up." The other said in a hush voice.

"Sempai was depressed and snapped easily when they had first broken up."
Your ears perked up and you looked over at Tezuka who could hear their gossip as well. "100 laps now." He commanded.

They groaned and started their laps leaving you two alone again. "You…you were depressed?" You said shocked.

"Is there something wrong with me being sad that I had lost my first girlfriend?" Tezuka asked sounding a bit…offended.

You shook your head and smiled. "Then I guess I'll try harder for you to fall for me." You say.

He nods his head. This wasn't the kind of relationship you were dreaming of but…it was still as addictive as the one you always dreamed of. But the thing that never changed…was your prince in shinning armor.