Chapter 11
Princess Ruto, Little Miss Bossy Bitch
A giant wale was waiting for it's second feeding of the day.
"So this is lord Jabu-Jabu?" I asked, "I thought we were going to be seeing a more... I don't know... humanoid creature?"
"Man, are you telling me the whale ATE HER? Do we really have to go inside?" Arli asked beginning to look slightly ill.
I felt the blood rush from my face, "I think so... I think that's what the giant Zora said."
Link looked ill and didn't say anything. Instead, he rubbed his stitches a little.
"Link?" Navi asked.
"What?" he said, looking up a the ball of blue light.
"Are you okay?" I asked, and I think Navi turned to me.
"I think I am. My stitches hurt," He said, rubbing his head some more.
"Let me see," I said.
Link pulled his hat off and I ruffled through his hair searching for the stitches. They were a little red, but other than that they looked fine.
"Your stitches are fine. Just stop rubbing them, I think that's why they hurt," I said.
"Well, better get this over with," Arli said pulling out the fish King Zora gave us.
"Isn't there a better way to do this?" Link asked.
"Not unless you want to give a whale an emergency cesarean section with that tiny sword," I joked.
"A What?" Link replied.
Arlimand made a cutting symbol around his abdomen area.
"Oh," Was his only reply.
I thought it was a genius reply. And by genius, I meant idiotic.
"By the way, before we go in, do we have everything we might need?" Arli asked.
"I think so," I said, looking at my slightly dwindling supply of deku seeds.
"My sword's still on my back," Link said, "but I miss my shield..."
"I miss mine, too," I said comfortingly.
"My foot still hurts..." Link said, looking at his ankle.
"Let me check it," Arli said moving closer to link, he closed his eyes and felt the joint.
"Ow..." Link mumbled.
"Well, I could have been wrong..." I mused to myself.
"No, you were right," Arli said, "At the most it is slightly dislocated, lets see if it is it's dislocated to the left," He looked up at Link, "this may hurt but it should feel better afterwards."
There was a slight popping sound, and a high pitched shout of pain came out of Link. My first reaction was to help him, quickly followed by a passing urge to punch him in the face for hurting my ears. Link put his foot down, and I watched it land on a rock. Needless to say, he fell over.
"WHAT THE HELL?" he cried as he fell.
It was all I could do to not laugh. I helped him up by jerking at his arm. He swore again. I guessed that pulling on an injured man's arm was a bad idea.
"Glad to see you're getting the hang of swear words," I joked sarcastically.
"What do you mean?" he asked.
"Never mind, let's just GET the Princess, GET the spiritual stone, and GET out of here," I said, sighing and emphasizing the word 'get'.
"I agree," said Navi.
"Um, you guys?" Arli was pointing at Lord Jabu Jabu, who had apparently smelled the fish.
"What?" I yelled turning in time to see the whale open his giant maw, "Oh shit!"
The great whale began to inhale to bring its meal closer to it. The amount of force that inhalation provided, however, swept all three of us off our feet and brought us closer and closer to the monolithic creature's mouth.
"Just the fish!" Link yelled at the aquatic mammal as we flew through the air, "JUST THE FISH!"
The only thing I could bring my body to do was scream.
"Hylia," A voice called through the thick black that was gathered around my eyes, "HYLIA," It called again, a little more forcefully, "HYLIA!"The voice yelled drawing me from my thoughts.
"Huh?" I called to the voice, in reproachful shock.
"All right, good, you're awake, are you injured?" I now recognized the voice as that of Arlimand.
"I don't know. I can't feel my left hand..." I said.
"Can you stand? I'd come to you, but I don't want to trip on you. Are you laying on it?" He asked from a small distance away as far as my hearing could tell me, "Link?" He called now trying to locate the final member of our group.
"I'm here," I heard him rasp from a further distance, "I landed on my ankle and I can't see."
"None of us can see, moron!" I called, "It's dark in here."
Arli chuckled, "What is it with you? You seem to have a personal vendetta against that ankle. Can you stand? You two follow my voice, I am beginning to be able to see a little but it's hard, I can see enough that when you get close to me I can grab you."
"I don't want to be grabbed," I moaned, attempting to stand, but falling on my butt, "My legs don't want to stand."
"I can," Link said shakily, "I don't think I broke it."
"It's probably lapsed into it's dislocated position. If you can get to me, I can try to fix it again," Arli called back.
I heard Link give an audible whimper.
"Well, if someone can find me, can they help me up? I think I hurt my leg."
"Wait!" Arli said "Navi? Can you act as a light?"
"Do I have to? It's demeaning!" I heard her call from Link's direction.
Great, that faerie was here, too. I'd been hoping she'd gotten left out.
"Demeaning or not, it gives us a better chance of surviving this thing, plus if Link's ankle is hurt it will make it worse if he trips, as far as Hylia, if she can't come to us it will help if we can see her." Arli replied.
I sat, waiting for Navi to quit her griping about being used as a lantern, searching around the room. I heard Arli's footsteps somewhere not too far off, and Link's limping steps somewhere a little further behind me. It was dark, and gave me an eerie feeling, as if of a reminder of a different time, or maybe an experience in my past. I found myself more frightened then I should have been. I proceeded looking around some more, searching for Navi.
Dark...dark...dark...FREAKING BLUE LIGHT IN MY FACE!
"GAAH!" I shrieked and fell over onto my back.
Navi let loose with a small giggle.
"I hate you, Navi," I said, lying down and extending my middle finger.
"That's our Skulltulla," Arli said.
"What?" Navi asked innocently
"You did that on purpose," I said, holding my arm over my blinded eyes.
"No I didn't," Navi denied, flying towards Link, "She's over here," she told him.
'I didn't think I would ever be glad to see that faerie,' Arli's voice rang in my head.
'In all honesty, I didn't think so, either,' I thought back.
'Be nice, you guys,' Link's voice chimed in.
'What if we don't want to be nice?' I mentally taunted.
Link opened his mouth as he stepped up to me and squatted down to my level to help me up when we all perked our ears in the direction of a shrill scream coming from somewhere in the chamber we were in.
"Anyone else get the sudden urge to go that way?" Arli asked pointing away from the origin of the scream.
"Yup," Said Link.
"Sure did," I added, "Help me up."
Arli laughed and grabbed my left hand and lifted me onto my feet.
"I still can't feel that hand," I said.
"I think we have bigger problems," Navi said.
"Help me!" came the cry again, as if on cue.
In the distance, I caught a glimpse of a free moving something spinning rapidly in the direction of a smaller something,in the form of a young lady with a BIG head.. My eyes adjusted more and I could see the thing that was spinning, and the young lady. The spinning thing was an Amoeba, "Barrinade" it was called. The young lady was a Zora, she was no more than ten, our age. She was cowering in a nook of the wales gut. That thought made me repress a small shudder.
"Link! Hylia! Arlimand!" yelled Navi, "That must be the Princess of the Zoras, Ruto!"
As Navi said this, the young lady looked our way as if hearing her name. As she did, no doubt remained in my mind, this was the Princess Ruto; She looked like a skinny, effeminate version of her father.
"Don't worry, Princess" I called, "We'll help you!"
Link nudged me, 'Are you crazy?'
'What?' I thought back, We've got to save her!'
'Can't you see Barrinade? It's bigger than King Zora himself!'
'We have to try, how else are we going to get the gir-er the spiritual stone.' Arli replied, then added a quick 'Watch out!'
During our debate the amoeba managed to come so close to us, it was ruffling our outfits.
We had to duck some of the Bari that Barrinade threw at us. We weren't quite fast enough, and Link yelled a particularly bad word and we were knocked over like dominoes, hit by one of the projectile jelly fish coming off the amoeba, Arlimand knocked a different direction by another coming at him from the side. Gasping in pain, Link landed on me, and I heard the young lady gasp and shriek.
'Oh, not again,' I thought, more out of chagrin than panic or anger, 'Link, get off me, you accident-prone fatass.'
'Well, excuse me, Princess,' He thought back.
'Hylia! Jellyfish, eight o'clock!' Arli's thought entered my mind.
"LOOK OUT!" I yelled at Link, and pushed him over, rolling both of us out of the way.
I ended up on top of Link, at which point I saw his eyes roll back in his head as he lost consciousness.
"Oh shit!" I gasped.
'Let me guess, Link's unconscious?' Arlis voice rang with exasperation.
'Of course, the Bari must have hit his headwound,' I thought back, pushing Link's unconscious body somewhere where he wouldn't get more hurt.
'Can you toss me his sword? It'll be better than nothing. Two more at eight and three,' Arli's voice came back.
I stood and kicked the two Bari to other directions, both electrocuting me so badly that I let out with a sound not unlike a large ape punching itself in the chest. I hucked Link's sword in the direction I heard Arli's voice come from.
'Thanks, are you alright? I think it's safe to say that will be a good move to avoid in the future.' Arli's voice flowed in my mind.
"No kidding," I called out loud.
Arli chuckled, "How close to that Amoeba can you get? I won't be able to reach it anytime soon, will your slingshot do any damage?" He shouted.
"No!" Called Ruto, "The only thing that'll hurt it is this!" and she threw something at me that hit me in the face.
"Next time, aim to the side please, we don't need her vision fuzzy from a blow of friendly fire," Arli called to Ruto, then as an afterthought, added, another "Please."
"I'm sorry," she mumbled as I picked up the boomerang at my feet.
"Really? A boomerang? Okay..." I said.
I tossed the curved piece of wood at the large amoeba coming back at me, and much to my surprise, it stopped in place.
"Wow, impressive!" Arli called as he ran in and hacked at the Amoeba creature with the Kokiri sword until it was little more than a slimy pile of... something.
Link had woken up promptly after Barrinade let loose with its deafening 'death rattle'.
"So, anyone know how to get out of here?" Arli asked me after Ruto, Link, Arli, and I had gathered back in the center of the chamber.
"You were so cool!" Ruto was telling Link, "I never saw anyone fight like that!"
Link just stared at her.
'What is she talking about? I was out! I didn't fight!' I heard him protest.
'Of course, we do all the work, he gets all the thanks,' Arli complained.
'I think she saw us fight,' I thought back, 'And mistook one of us for Accident.'
'No offense, but it was probably you, even in the dark I think it would take some doing to mistake me for Link,' Arli replied.
'We don't look that much the same, do we?' Came his question, strained over his blushing.
'Oh hell no!' This embarrassed me so much I felt myself blushing.
'On another subject, who is going to ask Ruto for the Zora's Saphire?' Arli's thoughts broke the pause.
"Uhh, Princess?" I hesitated, "Your father promised that if we saved you..."
"He asked you to save me?" she interrupted.
"Yes," Arli replied, "and in return he said we could receive the Spiritual Stone of Water," Arli said sheepishly.
"Hmph!" she scoffed, "I don't think so."
"Listen, kid," I said, "We need that blasted thing."
'Hold it,' Arli's voice rang calmly in my mind, 'let me, you are more likely to rip her head off to get it than convince her.'
"Excuse me, Princess Ruto? is it? We are on an important mission, and the three Spiritual Stones are needed to save not just the Castle Towne, but, all of Hyrule. I assume, you will one day be queen of this people, but how do you become queen of a people who no longer exist? If the man we are after has his way, then you will be more of a slave than I was to the Gerudo people, you will be no better than those who you hope to one day rule," Arli reasoned.
This gave the little brat reason to pause. Too bad she didn't.
"Fine, take the Stone and let's leave," She said, throwing it at me.
I found myself surprised that the newest stone we had didn't stick into my eye where it hit. It was technically three sapphires around a triangle held in place by three sharp semi-circles.
"Is there a reason you're upset? You can talk to us, we just saved you, and we didn't mean to insult you in any way," Arli said, looking pointedly at me.
"Whaaaat?" I wanted to know.
"It's not you. It's my father. He's forcing me to get married..." She explained.
"Ah, to Mr. Drooly," Arli slipped.
"What the hell?" I asked, "The drooly jackwad? How in the..."
"Yes, I suppose that's a good name for my suitor," Ruto interrupted, "My father says that he's the most handsome Zora man for his beautiful daughter. I'm always just 'his beautiful daughter this,' and 'his beautiful daughter that'! He never thinks about my feelings!"
'I think it runs in the family,' I thought to 'Accident' and Arli.
'Be nice, the suitor thing, is it a royalty deal? or just Zora? Or maybe just Zora Royalty?' Arli asked curiously.
'It's a royalty thing,' I explained.
"Is there anything we can do to help?" Arli asked.
"No..." she said, "but you're so sweet."
She proceeded to fawn over Link again.
"If you're sure... we should probably get going. Now, does anyone have spices of any kind?" Arli grinned.
"What in all the eight Hells was that about?" I asked, nudging Arli, as we left Zora's domain, not that I really cared.
"What do you mean?" Arli replied, confused.
"I mean all that fuss an commotion over Link. We did all the freaking work."
"I'm not sure, but she was pretty," Arli replied looking over at me, then amended, "For a Zora."
"Oooh, Accident, check this out, Arli's got a thing for Ruto!" I teased.
"Stop calling me that," Link said, "And what do you mean 'a thing' for Ruto?"
"Nothing!" Arli said quickly, "Hey anyone else have a bad feeling in the pit of their stomach?"
"Yeah, it's probably nothing," I said, trying to shake it off.
But the feeling that stuck with me the most was the ever familiar feeling of dread. I had the feeling of dread I got when I first left my mother and father. I feared for them, as well as me. I could see that Link also had that feeling, because he kept looking at me anxiously as we proceeded to run. We hurried down the ramp and towards the towering Castle that lay on the horizon. I didn't even feel tired as I pounded my feet faster to attempt to keep up with Accident-Link and Arli. I knew we had to get to the castle towne, and I knew we had to get there yesterday. I saw the castle getting closer and put on more speed. I soon found myself running ahead of Accident and Arli. Eventually, even though it was still at least a mile away, I saw that castle gates. It was the middle of the day, and the gates were closed. As I drew nearer, I noticed that they were opening.
I faltered as I heard the sound of hoofbeats on the cobblestone path. A white horse was coming full speed at us, and we got out of the way just in time. On the back of the horse, Impa was carrying my cousin. We stared after them until they were gone into the false horizon, and more hoofbeats caused us to turn around. There was a beautiful black mare with a man in black armor astride it. We jumped at the sight of him.
"BLAST!" he yelled, making us jump once again, "I've lost them."
Link and I looked at each other, then looked at Arlimand, anxiety causing all of us to look lost. We turned to him, and I recognized him instantly. The suddenness of Ganondorf's appearance made me step back a little. Link did the same. Arli, probably out of something picked up living with the gerudo, kneeled on the ground.
"You Three!" he bellowed at us, "did you see a white horse go past here?"
None of us spoke, we were too terrified to say anything. Link nudged me and looked at me.
'We've got to protect Impa and Zelda. We can't let Ganondorf get them!'
I agreed, and we pulled out weapons from our backpacks. Arlimand looked at us, looked at himself, and pulled himself upright. He put his arms out in a pose that said easily said: 'do-not-try-to-do-what-you're-trying-to do'.
Link pulled out his sword, and I pulled out my boomerang and slingshot. Just as I was ready to fire on Ganondorf, I had to stop and stare incredulously. He was laughing.
"Do you really think you can protect them?" He laughed.
Arlimand didn't speak, in fact, none of us spoke, but by the set of his jaw, he was content to try, whether he would fail or not. Link and I were still terrified, but we lowered our weapons and glared at him.
He stopped laughing and held up his left hand.
"I am Ganondorf, King of the Gerudos, and soon, I will rule the world!"
With that, he let a ball of light that had just formed in his hand fly out; it split into two and hit Link and me just hard enough for us to fall on our asses and watch Ganondorf ride away on his black mare. Arlimand shouted, Link got up first, and helped me to my feet. Navi, shivering, let herself out of Link's hat. She was so terrified that she didn't speak. Had this been a better time, I think I would have been grateful, but my cousin was in huge trouble, and my parents, well, I had a sneaking suspicion were no longer around.
As Ganondorf left, the clouds that I had just notice surrounding Hyrule dissipated, and the sun shone. It hurt my eyes, and did nothing for my fear. I walked over to the side of the moat to look at myself and to try to relax. Yep, it'd been true, I had no figure, and my hair was flat and frizzy. No wonder Ruto thought I was Link. As I was examining my tired looking blue eyes, something caught my attention. It, too, was blue, but it was deeper than my eyes. It was pretty, and it was oddly shaped. My fear melted away as I realized what it was.
"Hey Accident-Prone, Arli," I said, "Look at this."
They walked over, and looked where I was pointing.
"What is it?" Arlimand asked.
"Is it..." Link began.
I interrupted him by jumping in the moat to retrieve it. It was, after all, the Hylian family treasure. As I reached for the blasted thing, I found floating on the surface a difficult task. Somehow, I managed before I was swept back to shore on the other side of the castle by the strong current. Accident-Prone and Arli ran with me, asking me what it was, but I found it difficult to answer, with getting water in my mouth the whole time. I swam from the side of the Castle I'd been pushed against and got to the shore.
"It's the Royal Family's greatest treasure," I said, handing the ocarina to Link, "The Ocarina of Time."
I doubt he'd heard me though, because he'd just stared at me, a blank expression on his face. He didn't even reply when Navi spoke to him. Instead, he put the Ocarina to his lips and played a melody I knew from sometime long ago. When the song finished, he gave me a 'what the hell was that all about' look.
"Hey, don't give me that look. You are the one who played the Ocarina, not me," I said, "besides, I think my cousin communicated with you through her telepathy."
He simply nodded.
"You're telling me she can do that too?"Arli asked, "Great a mind full of her" he finished sarcastically.
"Did she say anything?" I asked, shuffling my feet and feeling this moment was a little too awkward.
"She said to go to the Temple of Light, play the song of Time, and set the Spiritual Stones in the Altar of Time," He replied, the look on his face indicating awkwardness.
As the sun started to go down, we ran into the Towne. I put my hair back into a pony tail just as the gate closed behind us, and one of the guards told us we'd made it just in time. We didn't notice him very well because we were running to the Temple of Light. The castle town isn't that big, but it seemed huge at that point, then and there, when we knew we had only little time to get the spiritual stones in place.
"Which way now?" whispered Link as we reached the middle of the Towne.
"That way," I whispered back, pointing to a large cathedral.
Link bent over to catch his breath, letting the wary Arlimand catch up, and my ears perked to a sickening pop. I had Link take his hat off, to let me examine his head. Where his head wound was, one of the stitches had come out from the stress. I'd had to use Link's own sword to get them out. Luckily, he was a quick healer, so it didn't bleed at all. Luckily for me, that is; I wasn't too interested in throwing up in the middle of Towne.
"Awh shit," I whispered, pulling out the stitches.
"Awh shit? What 'Awh shit'?" Accident-Prone nearly yelped.
Arli chuckled, "Always disconcerting when your doctor says 'shit' isn't it?"
"It's nothing," I told them, "I just hate pulling out things from skin, that's all."
" At least you're not on the receiving end of this," he replied, "This is one of the worst feelings in the world."
I didn't tell him about the stitches I'd gotten when I'd shut my fingers in the door of my house. I knew what it was like, and it wasn't an enjoyable feeling. It was similar to taking out a splinter of wood, but it takes longer, and feels... I dunno, softer. Not fun, being clumsy. And, finally, I wasn't the truly clumsy one of the group. Once I'd taken the last of the stitches out, we resumed walking, Arlimand chuckling as Accident-Prone rubbed his head where the stitches had been. It was late when we finally reached the temple, and a full moon had fully risen to its apex in the sky. Something startled me as I looked around the familiar landscape.
"Eep!" I shrieked, as I felt something elongated and thick touch my butt, causing Arli to jump and turn, hands raised for a fight with whatever creature was attacking.
"What?" Link asked, turning around so fast he fell over.
"Nothing," I said, pushing the stray away, "Just a dog."
Accident-Prone and Arli found this very funny, and Accident was holding on to the banister as we walked up the steps into the temple, and Arlimand was leaning on Accident. I found myself mumbling gibberish about how they kept making fun of my misfortune, and swearing intermittently through the gibberish. Navi had an uncanny ability to know when I was about to swear, because she'd always get ready to whack me before I swore, and she would whack me in the back of the head promptly after. Not that I cared, I was too livid with my companions. After Arlimand finished laughing, he tensed up, seemingly at nothing, and balled his giant hands into fists at either side. Every once in a while, he'd remind Link to breathe between bouts of laughter, because we didn't need the hero of the group to die early of laughter.
We soon found ourselves inside the Temple of Time. I looked to the tiled black and white floor, the grey wall, and the pedestal near the front that was frequently used by the Father of the Church of Hyrule to give sermons. I observed all of it and memories came flooding into my mind of sitting next to my mother, twiddling my thumbs and playing with my feet. A rush of sadness came over me as Link, Arlimand and I all looked to the pedestal where the Triforce symbol rested. On the other side of said pedestal, I saw the stairs that lead to a stone door that children often would knock on to see if it would open for them. I remembered doing so myself.
Link was wheezing with laughter as we continued on past the pews. He even stopped a couple of times to bend over to hold his ribs. I dragged him to the altar an he immediately stopped laughing as I reached into his backpack.
"What are you doing?" he asked me, standing up.
"Getting your Kokiri's Emerald," I replied.
He shook back and fourth and I fell on my ass. He laughed, Arlimand chuckled, but was far too busy looking around the temple. Accident told me he could do it himself, and reached into his bag and got the Spiritual Stone. I'd gotten the Spiritual Stone of Water, and threw it on the altar. I searched in my own backpack for the Goron's Ruby, but it wasn't there. For some reason, it made me uncomfortable, though I knew Arli had it. That was the only excuse.
"Arlimand..." I said to get his attention.
"Yeah?" he said turning from the pedestal where he had already placed it, "Don't worry I only took it just barely."
"All right then," I said.
Accident-Prone Link then placed his Kokiri's Emerald on the pedestal and put the ocarina to his lips.
"Wait a sec," I said, "I have a really bad feeling. I need to find out about my family!"
"I have the same, but I was ready to pass mine off as an after-effect of meeting Ganondorf" Arli said.
He paused, then he nodded, putting the instrument away. We tried to get out the Stones, but couldn't, so we left them and left the temple. Turning east, we found a shortcut to the castle.
We arrived to find a destroyed and body-logged battle field. Hardly a single soldier could be told apart due to the blood they lay in and the carnage in the area. Arlimand looked pale, as if he was about to pass out.
"What hell happened here?" I cried to no on in particular.
A wounded soldier who I hadn't noticed before coughed and caught my attention. His shoulder was stained crimson in his own blood. He looked up at me, and recognition played games with his features.
"Hylia..." he coughed,"Your parents...your Uncle...they're...they're..." he coughed and wheezed some more, "they're dead, I'm sorry... Ganondorf...killed..." and just as he was going to finish his sentence, he couldn't hold on, and slumped over, dead.
It took me a while to understand what he'd said. His breath had come in short, coughing gasps, making his speech almost incomprehensible. When I'd managed to understand what he'd said, I broke down in tears.
"I'm sorry Hylia, I'm not very good at comforting people, but, I'm sorry" Arli put his arm around my shoulders, when I tensed, he said "We b will/b get him back for this, believe me."
Link had to help Arlimand half-drag, half-carry my sobbing ass back to the temple. None of us spoke and I got to my feet when we reached the steps. None of us really thought, either. We just walked in complete, tortured, stunned silence. We reached the pedestal of time, and again Arli and Link dragged me. Link played the Song of Time, and I watched the Triforce symbol above the Door of Time shine and the door open up. As I sobbed harder, covering my face in my hands, I heard Navi shout something I couldn't fully understand. I looked up to see what she had said, and was stunned by what I saw.
In the middle of a room that the door had opened to was a pedestal, yet again, but this time, something was protruding from it. Again, Link and Arli had to drag me, but this time I was on my feet in complete shock. What I saw was a sword, a beautiful, glistening, perfectly crafted sword. It took my breath away, such beautiful craftsmanship, but I didn't forget the agony I was in. I dragged myself to the sword to get a better look to see if it was what my mother had told me about. What I saw, when I examined it, shocked reminded me of my mother, and I broke down crying again. Arlimand and Link had to come to my rescue again. I felt so pathetic, getting all broken up about a sword. But, I supposed, grief can do that to a person.
"What is it?" Link asked.
"It's the..." I was about to say.
"If I'm, right, I think this might be... YES! Link! Hylia! Arlimand! This is the legendary blade! THE MASTER SWORD!" Navi interrupted happily.
This only made me more upset. That little bitch had no concern for my feelings, and I knew my mother would be so proud to see me here, working with someone who found the Master Sword.
I wailed as Link pulled the sword out of its pedestal. I'm unsure what moved him to do such a thing, but he did, none the less. Again, just like in a distant memory, came the white light, and it faded to black. If I hadn't been crying over the loss of my parents, I'm sure I would've been terrified. A figure appeared in the darkness, but I didn't care. I heard what he said, and I knew the meaning behind it, but I was so depressed, so paralyzed inside as well as out, that I didn't do anything but wallow in self pity and hatred for the monster who stood before me, telling us how good a job we did in leading him to the sacred realm.
When the blackness finally, fully over took me, with the white light, my sorrow dissipated. All that was left in my soul was tired apathy.