Don't Say Goodbye
By: Iceyicecream
Chapter 20: Trains
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-Where We Left Off-
He caressed your cheek and stroked it softly as if touching a baby. "I love you (Y/N) and I would do anything to have you."
You look at him his eyes blazing. "I would do anything for you and I would never take your love for granted. Never."
-Now-
You stared at his eyes and blinked. You kept your face as blank as possible but your defenses were chipping away. You felt vulnerable. You parted your lips to speak but then shut them fearing to hear the weakness in your voice. Instead, you pushed him away and stood up. He didn't look shocked but he did have a hurt look on his face as if he already knew your answer. "I see." He whispered.
You nod your head not looking at him. You took a deep breath and looked up to find Momoshiro staring at you. "I'm sorry." You whispered, "I appreciate you telling me your feelings and everything and I am unworthy of your feelings."
You said bowing, "But I can't feel the same way for you. Even though Tezuka broke up with me…I still can't help but love him. Momo, I don't want to make you my rebound. It's just not fair to you. I can't do this to you…you deserve better."
Momoshiro rubbed the back of his head and chuckled and smiled his usual carefree smile. "I guess I never had a chance with you now did I?"
You didn't reply. He laughed louder this time. "I feel terrible." He said groaning and burying his face in his hands, "I shouldn't have taken advantage of the situation like that."
You shook your head. "No…it's not your fault."
He smiled and shook his head. "Can we still be friends…Sempai?" He asked timidly.
You smile and nod your head. "Of course." You whisper, "I couldn't wish for a better kohai."
He smiled and before you knew it you were placed in a tight embrace. "Thank you Sempai." He whispered.
You smile and hug him back. "You too." You whisper.
-Train Station-
You let out an exhausted sigh and tap your tap card against the designated machine and waited for the train. You look around to find barely anyone waiting for the train. You smile. Maybe you'll be able to collect yourself on the bus. You gasp seeing the train passing by to find it full. You look at your phone to find it already 6 and you should have been home already. You groan and squeezed in and were nearly pressed against the door. You had nowhere to hold and was just free standing. You groan, this was not your day. When the train started to move you jerked and nearly fell on the person beside you if it wasn't for the arm holding on to you. You look up and gasp to find Tezuka holding you. "Tezuka?" You say stunned.
Tezuka never took the bus. He looked down and nodded his head. "Are you alright?" He asks you.
You nod your head a bit flustered by the position the two of you were in. His arms were wrapped around your waist while yours was clinging desperately at the front of his shirt. "Thanks, you don't have to do this, I'll be fine." You whispered.
Tezuka released you and as the train was coming to its stop you jerked and once again almost ran into the person beside you if not for Tezuka. Tezuka wrapped his arms protectively around your waist and pulled you close. You breathed in his cologne and smiled. You love the smell of cologne it reminded you of something dark and romantic almost dangerous. The train continued to stop and every stop your clutch would tightened. Tezuka leaned down to have his lips near your ear. "Don't worry, I won't let you fall." He said tightening his grip around your waist
Your eyes widened and you look up to find you couldn't quite see his eyes. And not only that you could feel his heart beating fast…or was that yours. You placed your head on his chest burying it and dreaming that the two of you were hugging because the two of you felt like it and not because of these unfortunate circumstances. Your heart ached at the thought. Once you got off the train never again would you be close enough to smell his dangerous and dark cologne that drove your mad with desire. You would never see those tiny changes in his expressions that you would find interesting or cute. Tears ran down your cheeks. Never again will you see his rare smile or feel his arms wrapped around you like this. Never again will he come to your rescue. More tears were shed but you didn't brush them away and you kept your head down. He would have a new girlfriend in no time and you would be nothing more than and ex and you would be considered nothing. Your body began to shake. When you cried, he wouldn't be there to comfort you. When no one knew something was wrong, he would be there to cheer you up even if it wasn't directly but it changed. -Station, I repeat next stop -Station.
That was your stop. But you just wanted to stay in this position forever. You didn't want to leave his arms. "(Y/N), your stop is next." He reminded you in his cool and velvet voice.
Never again will that voice be sung to you softly and calmly like before. "(Y/N)" He said.
You couldn't look up. If you did, he would see the tears and you would see him. You couldn't bare it. "I'm fine." You whispered.
Your heart felt sore as if someone had just used it as a punching bag and stuck it back in your chest without your knowledge. We are now here at -Station. All passengers who are leaving please be cautious of closing and opening doors. I repeat, we are now here at -Station, all passengers who are leaving please be cautious of closing and opening doors…
You wish that intercom would shut up. You took a few deep breaths and quickly wiped away your tears. You knew you could still tell but you still had to attempt trying to look fine. The doors opened and you stepped out keeping your head down but you stayed right there. Finally you looked up to find Tezuka staring at you. "Thank you." You whispered, "You saved me."
He nodded his head. You nod your head as well and wave your hand and use every muscle in your face to produce a sour smile. "I'll see you at school tomorrow." You announce.
He nods his head but still keeps his hawk like eyes on you. "Good bye." You say though your body and mind demand you call and plead for him to come out and hold you.
He nods his head…You open your lips but bit down on your bottom lip to keep yourself from sounding like a complete oaf.
The doors closed and the train slowly began to roll away. You watched but you didn't know what but something kicked you and you began running towards the door. You run and run and slam on the door to find Tezuka looking at you strangely. The train starts moving faster and soon you would have no more space to run. "I LOVE YOU!" You scream tears filling your eyes again, "I DON'T WANT TO SAY GOODBYE!"
You stumble and fall on to your knees and stay there. You didn't have any more energy to get back up.