Don't Say Goodbye
By: Iceyicecream
Chapter 22: Change
You holstered up your bag on your shoulder and observed yourself in the mirror. You nod and open the door to your bedroom. Your mom and dad don't say anything about the sobs they could hear through the thin walls. "School is almost over." Your father said at the table as he leafed through the morning paper.
"Mhm." You say as you eat your cereal.
"Have you applied to any colleges yet?" He asked.
You nod your head. "A few."
"Mmm." Your father replied.
Your mother poured you a glass of orange juice. "Isn't that great?" Your mother said, "I'm glad, are they near home?"
"A few are." You answer, "Nothing too far though."
Your mother nodded her head and kissed your forehead. "I'm so proud of you (Y/N)."
You smiled and nod your head. You placed your bowl and glass in the sink. "I need to go now." You said.
Your mother nodded her head. "Have a good day at school!"
"Mm."
"Bye." Your father said.
You headed off to school. A peaceful feeling ran past you as you headed to school. Everyone looked at you funny, they had probably heard of what had happened. You continued up the stairs to the doors of the school not minding their stares. "Good morning Sempai." Sakuno-Chan said to you.
You smile and pat her head. "Morning." You tell her.
"Are you okay?" She asked fidgeting.
You chuckle. "Never felt better."
She lets out a squeak and you turn to see that Tezuka was walking towards the two of you. You put on a smile. "Good morning." You say.
"Good morning," He said, "Can I talk to you?"
"No." You say and walk past him with Sakuno in tow.
Sakuno started hyperventilating. "Calm down Sakuno-Chan." You say trying to calm her down.
"But, but, but-"
"It's okay, I'm…over him." You tell her.
That tight squeezing feeling no longer there in your chest. "Over him?" She asks you but before she could receive an answer the bell rang and the two of you headed to your respectable classes.
You headed to your seat without saying anything to Tezuka. Kikumaru nudged you and you turned. "Morning." You say.
"Morning-nya!" Kikumaru said, "But I heard that you just left Tezuka standing there in the hall."
"Oh? Did I?" I asked, "I thought that our conversation was over."
Kikumaru whistled and sat back in his seat. Oishi turned to Tezuka to find him unfazed by your words but he knew that deep inside it was otherwise. The bell rang for lunch and you headed out of the class with a bunch of girls from your class to get lunch. "Did you break up with Tezuka-Kun?" One of the girls asked.
You nodded your head. "Actually, he broke up with me." You state.
They gasped. Getting ready to gossip to all their other friends about the juicy gossip. "Why did he break up with you?" They asked.
I shrugged. "Who knows?" You said, "If you wanna know that, you're going to want to ask him."
"But, you don't look sad at all." One of them says.
"So? Just because someone breaks up with me doesn't mean I have to be sad about it. I've moved on."
"Oh? Then is there someone else there?"
"I heard that Momoshiro asked you out!" One of the girls cooed.
You shrugged. "Maybe he did, maybe he didn't."
They squealed and at the end you left before telling them anymore. You headed to the roof to eat your lunch in peace. You looked up at the sky and smiled. Clear of any white clouds and birds singing sweetly. The door creaked open and you turned to find Tezuka at the door. You turned you attention back at the sky giving no notice to Tezuka. He walked up to you until he was only a foot away from you.
You sighed and turned your gaze to him. "Is there something you want from me, Tezuka-San?" You ask him.
"Yes." He says.
"What is it? You ask looking back up to the sky.
"What's wrong with you?" He asks you.
"I don't understand what you mean. I'm perfectly fine."
"Yesterday you broke down because you were still in love with me and now you're acting like there was never anything between us."
"I wonder about that sometimes." You say coldly.
"What do you mean by that?" He asks you keeping his cool voice.
"You've never been the most affectionate boyfriend, but neither were you the worst. I loved you, wait that might be wrong, I love you but does it matter anymore? You're the one who broke up with me. So what's the point of dwelling with a love that I lost hmm?"
You turn to see his face to find it his usual poker face. You've always hated that. You stand up and pat the microscopic dust off of you. "If you have nothing to say, I will leave."
And as you turned to leave it happened so fast. He grabbed your wrist and turned you and his lips were crushed against yours. You fought and struggled but his lips stayed pressed on yours. You slowly dissolved into his kiss and kissed him back hungrily. His sudden attack finally subsides and the two of you pull away to regain your breath and you push him away. Your face a bright shade of crimson clearly visible to all. "What was that for?" You demanded covering your lips not believing what he just did.
"I kissed you obviously." He answers.
"No duh!" You scream, "I meant why! Why did you kiss me you bipolar sadist?"
He gives you silence. You scream frustrated and move closer to him up until you two are mere inches away from each other. "Are you for real?" You hiss, "Are you really going to do this to me?"
Silence…silence…silence. You grab his collar and slap him. "Don't play with my emotions!" You scream as the tears fall once more.
You wipe at them furiously. "I'm tired of being treated like a toy!" You scream at him, "Why? Why do you do this to me?"
Silence…silence… you grit your teeth and step away from him. "You make me sick." You spit.
The bell rings at the moment filling the silence that he would have given you. You headed to the door and twisted the knob only to find it shut tightly. You try again and again and kick the door. You bang your head against the door letting out every curse you knew. You turn to him and point your finger at him. "This is all your fault!" You scream, "If you weren't here the door wouldn't be locked!"
"That's stupid." He retorts, "Whether I would have come or not, the door would have been locked."
"Ugh!" You scream frustrated, "This is the worst."
You slid down the wall and wrap your arms around your legs feeling cold. "Are you cold?" He asks.
"Maybe but it shouldn't be any of your concern." You say coldly.
"True, but it is." Tezuka said taking off his coat and tossing it at you and heads off to the other side of the roof away from you.
You look at his jacket and saying to yourself it's only because you have to and slip on his jacket.
The silence was unbearable and you thought slapped your head. "Oh my god." You groan and whip out your phone to text someone.
You curse again and wait. "I'm so stupid." You say to yourself.
You look up and see him looking at you. "What do you want?" You ask.
He shook his head. "Nothing." He says and looks away.
Your brows knit together but you keep your lips shut. "Whatever." You say.
"I have a question." He says.
"Oh, do ask." You say sarcastically.
"Why do you like me?"
You look at him. "Pardon?"
"What made you like me?"
You look up at the sky. "It doesn't matter now does it?" You whisper.
The door clicked and it opened. "There you are sempai!" Momoshiro said.
You turned and smiled and headed to Momoshiro. "Thanks." You said and passed him.
"No problem." He said with a smile and turned to Tezuka, "Captain? What are you were stuck here too?"
He nodded his head. "Yeah." And without another word passed Momoshiro.
You sat in your seat and groaned remembering you were wearing Tezuka's coat. You took it off and waited till the bell rang.