Hey guys! Well guess what? I loved all the review I got but since Im a review junkie I need more this time... Im thinking at least 10! I know it's a lot but I believe you guys can do it :) well make me proud. Here is chapter 5, hope you love it
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Haunted
Chapter 5
Rose/Dimitri
I woke up with a sense of security…. And a headache. One of which I hadn't had since before Dimitri turned strigoi. He loved me! He just had to, to do what he did for me. I couldn't fathom why I didn't see this before; of course he was hiding his true feeling because he wanted me to be happy! I rolled over to tell him that I would always be his but in his place was a very tired looking Lissa. I wasn't in the mood to deal with her yelling at me, so I pretended I was still asleep.
"I know you're awake Rose" she said so quietly that if it wasn't for my dhampir hearing I wouldn't have heard her.
I sighed "what are you doing here? Where is Dimitri?"
She gave me the death glare from hell "he came to my room, I guess sometime after you had passed out. He told me how you begged him to stay and not to tell me or Adrian. Rose! Why didn't you call me? I could've helped you" she had unshed tears in her eyes. Normally I would've felt guilty, but today it just ticked me off.
"Why does it always have to be about YOU!" she flinched "did you for once think 'sure Dimitri maybe just maybe my best friend feels worse'? Honestly! You're supposed to be my best friend, my sister almost, but you act like you don't even care!" I fumed
Those tears that had been in her eyes were now flowing down her face "I DO care Rose! He needs me! More than you do. What am I supposed to do? Let him be humiliated and cast away from people who used to respect him? Rose that's wrong and you know it!"
I refused to feel guilty about how I felt. I was told my whole life that my feelings didn't matter only THEY did; for once I wanted to be selfish, to mourn, to cry, and to be angry. "You won't turn this on me!" I yelled at her
Her face calmed and her blue eyes held sympathy and understanding "Rose… he doesn't love you anymore, he wasn't lying when he said that. He only stayed with you because you were being stubborn and he didn't want you to hurt yourself. Think about it… why would he have gotten me if he loved you? He would've stayed and been here if you woke up if he did"
I shook my head "what do you know? You haven't the slightest idea of what we feel for each other! We've loved each other from the beginning!" I refused to believe her. He had to love me. He just had to! I ran out my door, I needed to find him; I just needed to know Lissa was wrong. Just before my door slammed shut I heard Lissa whisper "oh Rose…"
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I had searched up and down the school and I had yet to find him. Where could have been? Lisa's words still racked through my brain "he doesn't love you anymore" It just had to be a lie! The way his hands were so gentle when he helped me shower, the way he laughed, he was the old Dimitri, the one that loved me. I suddenly ran smack dab into what felt like a brick wall. Well it wasn't a brick wall because brick walls don't move. So I mumbled an "Im sorry" and tried to sidestep the guy.
"Rose?"
Oh I would've known that anywhere. It was Dimitri. I could feel my body go off like a live wire
"Hey comrade!" I smiled brightly
His face was relaxed and everything felt so right "I'd thought you'd be in bed till at least noon"
"Nope! Im a rebel" I joked and winked at him.
He stopped smiling at me "Rose what you did was irresponsible. You should be working to protect the princess not getting drunk" he said sternly
I was almost lost for words, almost "hold on ONE minute buddy, you know exactly why I did that, and—"
"The reason you did it has no meaning, you still did it, and that puts the princess in risk and that I can't allow"
I stepped back in shock "I thought you had changed your mind" I said quietly
He looked confused "why would I change my mind about protecting the princess?"
"I meant us" my voice was barely above a whisper
His features went straight to the guardian mask I had lately come to know as his face "Rose… I will never change my mind about us, what I said was the truth whether or not you believe it. Do yourself and me a favor, go back to Ivashkov" he said coldly
Tears began forming in my eyes "you're right"
He looked at me in shock "I am?"
I fought back the tears that threatened to fall down my face "yes I should do you a favor and leave you along"
His face softened for a minute "Rose—"
I snapped "don't call me Rose, that's reserved for my friends and family, you are neither" it sounded cold an icy. I sounded heartless.
He stiffened but kept his cool "okay what do you wish me to call you?"
That was a perfectly innocent question especially after I told him he couldn't call me rose, but I didn't think he'd give in so easily.
I didn't let my emotions show when I looked him in the eye. I had finally perfected the much needed guardian mask "Guardian Hathaway is the only name you are to address me as"
He looked as though he wanted to take back what he said. I refused to see the guilt he had for finally breaking me. All too soon his mask was back "Guardian Hathaway it is then "
I simply nodded and turned and walked away. Then and only then did I let the tears fall, it was over, all over and there was no getting it back.
I pulled out my MP3 and pushed play
"Long were the night
When my days once revolved
Around you"
STUPID STUPID MUSIC! I looked down at the screen to see yet another song I didn't need to hear "dear john" by Taylor swift wasn't a song that I could deal with right now
"Counting my footsteps
Praying the floor won't fall through
Again"
DAMN IT! All these fucking songs were out to get me
"Well my mother accused me
Of losing my mind
But I swore
I was fine"
Sounded WAY too familiar for my tastes but my fingers refused to change the song.
"You paint me a blue sky
Then go back and turn it
To rain
And I lived in your chess game
But you changed the rules
Everyday"
Dimitri was always changing the rules and his mind
"Wondering which version
Of you I might get
On the phone
Tonight"
That's a definite. Even my mind was agreeing and it never agreed with anything
"Well I stopped picking up
And this song is to let you know why"
Dimitri already knew. HELL, it's what he wanted
"Dear john
I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young
To be messed with
The girl in the dress cried the
Whole way home
I should've known"
A definite should've known. I should've never let it go this far.
"Well maybe it's me
And my blind optimism to blame
Maybe it's you and your
Sick need to give love and
Take it away"
Definitely one or the other… both maybe?
"And you'll add my name
To your long list of traitors
That doesn't understand"
I didn't understand either how a person can go from loving a person to acting like they never did.
"And I'll look back in regret
How I ignored when they said
Run as fast as
You can"
I wondered to myself… did I regret not running? It's like I never had a choice. I fell for him the minute I saw him.
"Dear john
I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to
Be messed with
The girl in the dressed
Cried the whole way
Home
Dear John
I see it all now it was wrong
Don't you think nineteen's too young
To be played by your dark twisted games
When I loved you so
I should've known"
I almost wished I could cry but tears were already flowing down my face at record speed.
"You are an expert at sorry
And keeping lines blurry
Never impressed by me acing your tests
All the girls that you've run dry
Have tired lifeless eyes
Cause you burned them out
But I took your matches
Before fired your matches
Before fire could catch me
So don't look now
Im shining like fireworks
Over your sad empty
Town"
I wish I was. I wish none of this would've happened. Leave it to me to fall for a guy who was unavailable and couldn't make up his mind
"Dear john
I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with
The girl in the dress
Cried the whole way home
I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young
To be messed with
The girl in the dress wrote you
A song
You should've known
You should've known"
I should've known….
"Don't you think
I was too young"
He did think I was too young, but still went and grabbed my heart then broke it
"You should've known"
The song ended and I was back at my room where I was sure Lissa was waiting. I didn't think I could face her pity, her knowing this would happen. Of course she would understand she would stand there and comfort me and help me get through this. She would act as though I hadn't made a fool of myself chasing after a guy that no longer loved me. As though she hadn't told me he didn't
I opened the door to just what I expected, Lissa sitting on my bed waiting for me to get back. When she saw me enter she jumped off my bed "Rose…."
That's when the tears came back full force.
She ran over to me "Rose it's going to be okay"
She led me to my bed and just laid there with me stroking my hair until I fell into a tear filled sleep.
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Okay there ya go :) man even writing this chapter was hard because Im a total Rose/Dimitri fan :( oh well it will get better….. I hope. Loll anyways what I said earlier still applies. I won't update until I have at least 10 reviews. I know you guys can do it. Okay love ya... PEACE
