Disclaimer: It's Kripke's world, I just live in it. Of course, we are both originally from Ohio, so maybe we are cut from the same cloth so to speak.
Author's Note: Sorry if it looks like everything is smushed together. I tried in vain to separate the part between the action at the house and Sam. Tried everything I could think of so it would make sense when you are reading it, however, the software on this site likes to mash it all together. God forbid you have extra spacing between paragraphs. Ugh!
Far From Home
Chapter Twelve
Sam pushed the accelerator down a little harder. He still had about 64 miles to go before he got to Bobby's. He had been calling Cas for the last hour an a half. He wanted to let Cas know that he was coming. But obviously ,the angel wasn't listening. He said a silent prayer that no cops where running any speed traps on the way, otherwise, he would be completely screwed. He was pushing 90 on the speedometer. Sam wasn't too sure how much more abuse the Jeep could take, but he wasn't about to risk losing Dean again. "Why was I so stupid?" he said aloud to no one. He should have known better than to think that his stubborn, older brother would just stay put. He should have kept a closer eye on him. "No," he thought, "I should have just knocked on the fucking door that night." Sam really did have Dean's best interests at heart. He now saw that no matter what his intentions had been, it would always come back to this. He would always inevitably find a way to ingratiate himself into Dean's world. He hated that this always happened, but knew now that he was powerless to stop it.
Sam picked up his phone and tried dialing Cas again. It rang several times before he heard Cas' familiar husky voice say, "I..don't understand why you want me to say my name.." indicating that once again it had gone to voice mail. "Dammit Cas! Call me back! I'm on my way but I need some information so I know what I am dealing with! Hurry up!" Sam threw his phone down on the passenger seat in frustration. He passed another road sign that said "Sioux Falls… 59 miles" Sam rushed down the darkened road, possibly speeding toward the mouth of Hell.
Lilitu watched in delight as the two men and the angel fought over who was going to send her back. "Boys, boys..there's more than enough to go around. Really. Each of you can take turns." Lil winked at Cas and he looked at her with disdain. Focusing all her energy on messing with the nerd in the trenchcoat, she smiled sweetly at him. "Castiel..you of all people, should understand what I am doing here. Why I can't leave until I finish what I started. I mean, think of what we shared up there."
Dean couldn't believe what he was hearing. "Are you trying to tell me that you fucking know this bitch and you just somehow failed to mention it? What the hell, Cas?" Dean took a step towards the angel, staring him down.
"Yes, 2000 years ago we were stationed on Earth. Lilitu became accustomed to the humans she was supposed to be watching over. Until one day she developed emotions. She rebelled and asked me to come with her. Telling me that she loved me. But I refused. I took her to heaven and as her commanding officer, so to speak, it was up to me to dispense her punishment." Cas told the two men that were staring at him with their mouths wide open in shock.
"And boy did you ever dispense it." Lil laughed. "Woo! Just thinking about it gets me hot. The chains, the lashings. The blood." Her eyes slightly rolled back into her head at the twisted memory. "You were such a good Daddy's boy Castiel. Always willing to do whatever it took to please him. Didn't matter who you were punishing, did it?"
"I did as Father commanded me Lilitu. You know there was no other way." Cas answered. "The laws in heaven are finite."
"But you forget Castiel…that just as you could see my thoughts, I could see your's as well. The nasty little things you pictured in there. The things you wanted to do to me. Things no human could even begin to imagine." Lil squirmed in the chair, uncomfortably warm in her nether regions. She really was getting hot just remembering what she had seen in Cas' head.
"But the difference between you and me is that you acted on them, I didn't. You disobeyed. I didn't. Just like your sister." Cas finished. Lilitu had once been the most beautiful of all the angels. Naturally, he had been attracted to her. But it was forbidden to act on emotions. So he just bottled them up inside. He shuddered when he remembered the one time he allowed his emotions to slip, Raphael had dispensed swift and painful judgement. It was only because he never acted on the thoughts in his head that Raphael didn't cast him out of heaven. He had endured the same things as Lilitu. But because she was rash and foolish, she was banished from Heaven and cast down into Hell.
Lilitu waved him off. "Either way, when you were punishing me, you know a large part of you.." she looked at Cas' crotch and licked her lips for emphasis, "and I do mean large, wanted me in a carnal way Castiel." "Come on, what do you say, an old fashioned go around for old time's sake." Doing her best to look seductive, she stared at Cas. "This body is new and improved. She has the stamina of a wild horse, which Dean here, can attest to."
Dean just stared at the demon. Nothing she could say would faze him anymore. He was closed off. "Try as you may sweetheart, it ain't gonna work. You're still gonna burn baby." He winked at Lil. It really was too bad that he wouldn't give into her. She bit her lip, feeling the heat rise in her belly. Dean was all man, no doubt about it. She could see in Andie's memories how he would grab her by the hair as she was riding him. When he would bite down on the tendon in her neck, she would scream in pleasure. Yes, her vessel wasn't too far off from Lil herself. She liked it rough too. She saw when Dean would pin Andie's arm's above her head with his strong arms, making her writhe around as he teased her with his tongue. Lil could see Dean pounding himself into Andie's body, over and over, each thrust more aggressive than the last, until he would finally reach his limit and explode into her, screaming her name with abandon. Lil looked at Dean. His eyes bore into her. She actually shivered a little. They locked eyes and something in them made her wet. Maybe it was the fact that the anger in them shone as bright as the sun. Maybe it was the hate. Either way, she liked it.
Dean looked at Cas and Bobby. "Can I gank this bitch now, or are we just gonna continue with this movie of the week crap?" He started to take a step forward but Bobby grabbed him. Whirling him around, he yelled at the boy..
"Dammit Dean, for the first time in your miserable life would just listen to me? I've been through this before. Hated myself for years. Do you honest think I'm just gonna sit back and watch you destroy yourself? I've known you your whole life boy. Hell, I taught you the birds and the bees and you used it to bed my daughter. But I didn't hold that against you! No, I encouraged it because I saw what my little girl did for you! She made you feel. She made you happy. Do you think she would want you to throw everything she gave you away? If you do, then you are dumber than I thought." Bobby let go and walked out of the room. Dean just stood there stunned by what the elder man had said to him. He knew he was right, but he had a duty. A calling. He knew that no matter what, he was going to be alone the rest of his life. He could never let himself feel again.
The Jeep was starting to overheat. "Fuck!" Sam exclaimed hitting the steering wheel. He still had 3 miles to go until he got to Bobby's. Pulling the vehicle over, he grabbed his bag from the back seat and jumped out. Then he ran. Ran like he had hellhounds on his ass. His long legs pushing him like never before. He ran like his life depended on it. In a way, it did. He knew that even though he could stay away from Dean, he couldn't live in a world without him. He tried that once and all that did was make him slide down the slippery slope straight into Ruby waiting arms. It's what started the whole apocalypse really. If he had never drank the demon blood, he would have never used his powers. If he had never been so hell bent on killing Lilith, none of this would have ever come to pass. Lucifer would have never gotten out of his cage, and him and Dean would still be fighting together. Side by side, like Butch Cassidy and The Sundance Kid. Going out in a blaze of glory. "God damn," Sam laughed through the tears in his eyes, "Dean was right, Bon Jovi does rock on occasion." Pumping his legs as fast as he could he saw the lights of the salvage yard up ahead. "I'm coming Dean. Just hold on."
Cas looked up at the roof as Dean watched Bobby walk out the room. "I will be right back." He said and then he was gone. Dean headed toward the living room where he found Bobby sitting with his head in his hands. He looked at the man who was always "Uncle Bobby." The man who had shown him a father's love when his own father wasn't able to. He shook his head and kneeled down in front of him. Taking a deep shaky breath he started, "Look Bobby, I get it alright? I get it. But it's just the way it's gotta be, okay? I sure as hell can't let you do and I can't let Cas, so that just leaves me. I'm not doing it with a song in my heart if that makes you feel any better." Dean stood up and began to pace the room. "I know the deal. Andie's not in there anymore. She's gone alright? Gone! But you still look at that..that, thing in there and you see your daughter. I don't. Not anymore. What I see, is a hell-bitch who is serious need of a cold shower. It's time to end this Bobby. I'm sorry. I really am." With that, Dean turned around and headed straight for Lilitu. Crossing into the devil's trap, he reached out and grabbed her by the back of her head. Pulling it back, he put the blade against her throat. Lil smiled at him, an evil gleam in her eyes.
"Why Deano, I didn't know you had it in you." She laughed. "Sure you won't reconsider my offer? I could give you everything. Even your brother, Dean. I can give you Sam."
"Yeah right lady." Dean spat in her face. "Nobody could pull that out of their ass. Not even you. So talk all you want Chuckles. But you might find it hard to do when I slit your throat, you bitch."
Now it was Lilitu's turn to laugh at Dean. "I don't have to do anything you idiot. He's already here. You mean to tell me you didn't know? Oh, that's rich." Dean pressed the knife harder, a trickle of blood dripped down her neck. "It doesn't matter anyway, I'll just come back. And the next time I'm topside, you will be on my shit list. That's a very bad place to be, you know."
"Uh huh..sure, whatever you say. But what you don't know is that this here little knife.." he waived it in front of her face, "See, your sister's dumbass lackey Ruby left it behind and Liltith forgot to get it back. So, you won't be coming back. You're fucked." Dean looked down and saw fear for the first time in the demon's eyes. "But I'll give you a little parting gift so show that I'm not such a completely heartless bastard." Dean leaned forward and pressed his lips to Lilitu's. He kissed her feverishly. She whimpered with either need or fear. He couldn't really tell at this point, nor did he care. Forcing his tongue into her mouth he felt the bile rise up in his throat. He pulled up and pressed the knife back to her throat. "Now, kiss your ass goodbye." Dean pressed the knife to her throat one final time. As he was about to draw it across her neck, the front door flew open and Dean received the shock of his life.