NOTE: Hello to all you lovelies that are reading this! I have received a lot of requests about doing a chapter with some Lena/Callie interaction, so guess what? I wrote it! A special thanks to Manito who gave me the inspiration for this chapter!Also, I'm really sorry that I haven't been updating a lot, I have just been having a really rough time with my Bipolar disorder lately. Without further ado, I give you chapter 17!
When breakfast was over, Stef headed to work. Lena loved the summer break, but sometimes it made her feel like a housewife. Marianna and Jesus decided to spend their day at the pool and Jude was over at Connor's house. Like always, Brandon was practicing in his room and Callie was just…around. After watching 2 episodes of "Grey's Anatomy", Lena headed off to see what the kids were doing.
She passed by Brandon's room and enjoyed listening to the soft tunes coming from his keyboard. Once she checked in with him, she walked over to the girl's room. The door was cracked so she made a small knock and entered.
Callie had been debating cutting all morning. She had picked up the blade and set it down, read a book for a while and picked it up again. Her iPhone was sitting close by, with Sharon on speed dial, but she couldn't bring herself to do it. "This isn't a real emergency" she kept telling herself. She didn't want to annoy her grandma just one day after she was here. After debating it for a long while, she was left sitting on the edge of her bed and staring at the metal razorblade on her nightstand. Suddenly, there was a knock and Lena appeared in the door.
"Hey Callie!" Lena exclaimed just before she noticed what the teen was looking at "…are you okay?" She didn't know how else to put it. The bond between Callie and Lena had never really been as strong as Callie and Stef's. This made Lena kind of sad, she sometimes felt left out of everything. It really wasn't her fault though, she just didn't understand everything.
Callie shot to her feet and stammered "I didn't…I'm okay, I swear" She hoped that Lena didn't think that she cut, because she didn't…this time.
Lena walked towards the teen "Are you sure you're okay? Do you want to talk about it? I know I'm not Stef but I will listen."
Callie sighed "No…I just…nothing bad even happened I just want to for some reason. Ugh, you just don't understand."
Lena walked into the room and sat next to Callie on her bed "Okay then, love, help me to understand." She refused to live in a world where the only person Callie felt comfortable talking to was Stef. Lena really wanted to become involved with Callie's recovery and she was willing to do whatever it takes to earn the trust of the teenager.
Callie was shocked. Explain cutting? How could she do that? She took a long pause and began "Uh…okay…It's an addiction first of all, you can't just stop on command. I guess I just…it makes me feel better. It makes the pain go away for a little bit. Like, if you let out all the air in your lungs and you try to hold your breath like that, it's that tightness in your chest and you feel like you are going to die. Now, when you breathe in, you feel the relief…that is what cutting is like I guess. Relief. I really don't want to cut, believe me I don't…but I have to…like breathing, it's necessary." Callie was horrified at the fact that she just said all of that to Lena.
Lena nodded. "Thank you, for telling me that. I know that you want to stop, and I believe that you do. I promise that we are getting you all the help you need to do that."
Callie forced a smile through "I am sorry for saying that you don't understand. I don't expect you to. You really don't understand unless you have done it. Nobody should have to understand it. Thank you for listening"
Lena put a hand on Callie's knee "I know that you would rather talk to Stef, but I am always around to talk, or just listen. I'm sorry that things have been sort of focused on you recently, I will try to get on Jesus more about those grades" she smiled "but, you are very important to us and we love you so, very much. There is no shame in asking for help Callie." Lena hoped that she got her message out.
Callie felt so loved. Tears began to well in her eyes; no one had ever been this kind to her before. This was all a huge change for her; she went from barely ever noticed to the center of attention in a few months. "I'm trying. "
Lena pulled her into a hug. When she broke away, she pointed to the blade sitting on the nightstand "You know how much I want to take that with me but I can't. I trust you to trust us. Also, you might want to keep it away from Stef, they bother her a lot." Lena gave one final smile and left the room. Once she was outside of the door she breathed a huge sigh of relief and headed downstairs to watch more "Grey's Anatomy". "That went well" she thought.
Callie exhaled the breath she had been holding ever since Lena entered the room. "That was scary," she thought "but good." She let herself sink back into her bed and stared at the ceiling. She let her mind purge all the bad thoughts; her mom's death, abusive foster homes, the rape, because this time she knew that if her mind slipped down the cracks too deep, Lena would be there to catch her. Her final thoughts before drifting off to sleep were "This is where I belong."
NOTE: Did you guys like it? I sure hope so! I still need some more requests on what to do in the story after this, so leave some reviews! ALSO, READ THIS IF YOU ARE AN AUTHOR: I want to start a fanfic about Lena/Stef as teenagers and then them meeting and their life now and struggles with Stef coming out and everything BUT I need a partner to help me write/edit and bounce around ideas. It would be on one of our accounts and we would both get credit for it. If you are interested in this, drop me a PM and I will check out your Stories. If you haven't written any fics on here, no problem! Just send me a sample writing of at least 500 words. Please enter your "application" by November 2nd and I will PM you on the 3rd. I look forward to hearing from you all!