Part 10: Becoming a family

Chapter 37

Christmas came along, but this year they stayed home since Sofia only had two days off between Christmas and New Year. They went over to Leo with Jodie and Brian on the twenty-four. They had dinner and spent the evening together, just like Sofia Leo had to work the holidays so he wasn't going home to his family as well.

They exchanged gifts and played some board games before calling it a night, both Brian and Jodie was going home the next day so Sara invited Leo over the next evening to have dinner with them. Since Sofia was working the dayshift the women had decided to wait to after work to exchange their gifts, when Sofia got home from work Sara was in the kitchen making dinner.

"Hi, sweetie" Sofia called out.

"Hi babe busy day?" Sara inquired with a warm smile.

"No not really, we haven't been called out once, what are we having?"

"A salad bowl with salmon and shrimp, then you and Leo are having a steak with grilled vegetables and potatoes, I haven't made dessert I thought we could get some ice cream gateau with coffee later on."

Sofia put her arms around Sara and kissed her, "you are so sweet making us a steak despite you don't like meat."

Sara kissed her back and shrugged, "I know you love a steak."

Sofia looked around, "need help with anything?"

"Nope, there isn't more for me to do right now unless you want cold food?"

"No not really." Sofia's expression shifted into a look of smutty delight, "want your Christmas gift?"

"Sure" Sara intoned happily.

They went into the living room and sat down; Sofia took a thin package out of her pocket and handed it to Sara. She opened it and looked at a picture with a mirror on.

Sara grinned, "hon, I think you need to explain!"

Sofia smiled, "it's a full length mirror, I thought we could hang it in the bedroom in the summer house, but it's a pretty big mirror so I asked them to deliver it at house so we didn't had to figure out how to get it down there."

"Thanks baby," Sara captured Sofia's lips, "looking forward to use it."

"So do I" came Sofia's soft, teasing tone.

"Now wait here will I go find you gift," Sara came back with a big box, "for you my dear."

Sofia opened the box, and took out a pair of leather pants a jacket and a helmet, "thank you baby, something you want to say?"

Sara chuckled; "well, if we don't bring Mr. Cool it's much faster taking the bike than the cars if we want to take a trip to the summer house."

Sofia leaned in a kissed her, "yes it is, and I think it's about time you take me for a spin."

Sara's smile was full and sweet, her teeth showing, the depth in her mahogany eyes lovely and unfathomable as she nodded, "I know I just never thought you wanted to since you never have mentioned it."

Sofia shot an amused look at Sara, her eyebrows waggling, "oh… I want too; I just thought it was something you wanted for yourself."

Sara pulled her in for a hug and a kiss, "whoa… do we think a lot."

Sofia laughed, pulling her close, "Merry Christmas baby."

"You too sweetie, so do you want a shower before Leo arrives?"

"Yeah, what would be nice" Sofia said, giving her a soft smile.

"Okay babe," Sara looked at her watch; "I better go finish dinner."

The three of them had a nice evening it didn't get that late since both Sofia and Leo had work the next day. New Year's evening was quiet as well, everyone was gathered in Brian's condo but those who had to work the next day went home early, and then it just became everyday life again.

One evening the women was in the bedroom. Sofia was watching TV, and Sara was sitting and marking school scripts. Sofia had several times looked at Sara but she seemed very busy with her work, but Sofia wanted to talk to her.

"Are you done soon, sweetie?"

Sara let one brow arch without looking up, "Uh-huh."

Sofia waited a few minutes before talking again, "hon, does it have to be done for tomorrow or can I talk to you?"

Sara briefly looked up, "you can talk, baby."

Sofia chuckled and shook her head, "that's nice baby, but I would prefer if you listened."

Sara smiled back, "I am what do you want to talk about?"

Sofia sighed and rolled over and took the paper Sara was reading and threw if on the floor, Sara looked up.

"Sweetie, I was reading that!"

"I know but as I said I want to talk to you."

Sara smiled, "okay baby, what's up?"

"I have been thinking about something, but please don't go get a heart attack on me okay?"

Sara chuckled, "okay, sweetie."

"Sara, have you ever thought about getting kids?"

Sara stopped all movement, will her brain slowly melted down, her mouth felt open and she just looked at Sofia.

"Sara, don't go into panic it was just a question."

Sara who's brain still wasn't working looked at Sofia, "are you pregnant?"

Sofia had expected that Sara would freak out a bit, but this was just ridiculous, so she couldn't help but tease Sara a little, "yes baby, I think it happen last week then you forgot to use protection."

Sara stared into space, trying to work her mind around it, considering different angles and possibilities, and finally gave up. "Okay."

Sofia rolled her eyes and cupped Sara face, "sweetie, please turn your brain on, of course I'm not pregnant. You are very good in bed, but even you have a limit!"

Sara's brain slowly started working again, she looked at Sofia, "do you want kids?"

"Well, I have always liked kids" Sofia said frankly, and then smiled a little.

"Yes I know, I have seen you with your nephews, but do you want kids?"

"I have always thought that one day I would have kids," Sofia cleared her throat, "the truth… I wouldn't mind having a mini Sara running around."

Struggling to put her thoughts into words, Sara bit her lip, "I don't know Sofia, I don't think I have any parental gene in my body, I don't know anything about kids, what if I turn out to be just like my parents?"

Sofia crawled over and wrapped her arms around Sara, "sweetie, you will never be like your parents; you will be a loving parent."

"You don't know that, what if it's hereditary?"

Sofia cupped her face and locked eyes with her, "Sara, we both know better than that, you're not capable of hurting anyone if you were I wouldn't be with you."

Sara let out a long breath, "I'm sorry Sof, but I really don't know what to say to this."

"Don't be sorry sweetie, I don't expect you to say anything, I was just wondering if it was something you ever had thought about, but it obviously isn't and that's okay."

Sara's glance towards Sofia was uncertain, "Sofia, I need some time to think about this, but what if I don't want kids?"

"Then we just won't have any, but please think about it before you make up your mind."

"I promise," Sara pressed Sofia down on the mattress and lay down atop of her, "but I don't mind practice."

Sofia giggled, "Practice what?"

Sara caught her mouth," how to make them."

Life went on without the topic coming up again; Sara didn't say anything and as time went by Sofia just came to terms with that Sara wasn't going to bring it up. Sofia couldn't really claim that she was surprised, the way Sara had reacted Sofia already knew the answer in advance. She would be lying saying it didn't make her feel a little sad, but it was a thing she neither could nor would try forcing Sara into, if they ever were to have kids it would be because Sara wanted it as much as Sofia did.

One evening Sofia came home from work she found Sara sitting in front of the fireplace looking into the flames, it didn't seems like Sara had heard her so for a while Sofia just stood watching her.

Sofia was able to get quite close before she chose to speak, "Hi sweetie."

Sara didn't say anything she just held her hand out, Sofia took it and knelt down in front of her, Sara slowly turned her head and looked into Sofia's eyes. She still didn't say anything she just pulled Sofia so close she ended up sitting on the brunettes lap. Sara placed a hand on Sofia's cheek and gently let her thumb caressing the cheekbone.

"I love you, Sofia."

"I love you too Sara, but you are scaring me a bit here" Sofia said, managing to keep her face straight.

"Sorry didn't mean too. Sof, I have been doing a lot of thinking about kids. I know you really want some I just can't see myself as a parent, I know absolutely nothing about kids and it's not like I ever have had any usable role models." Sara hesitated, as though about to say something more then leaned forward and pressed a kiss to Sofia's cheek, soft and lingering.

"The only thing I know for sure is, I love you so much and trust you with every beat of my heart. You have a trust in me and my abilities that I don't have myself, but if you truly think we have the abilities to be good parents then I believe you. So… if you want to have kids with someone who will be at no help at all then I think we should do it."

Sofia sighed. If she let them, Sara and her pretty words would talk her right out of her argument, but she wasn't going to allow it. This was too important. She kept her voice soft, but made the tone firm.

"I love you Sara, but are you sure about this? You can't do this because you know I want it, this has to be a thing you want too or we simply just won't do it."

"I am, this may sound stupid to you, but since you can't rent a kid to try it out I took some days off and spent it in a daycare just to find out how it is to be around babies and young children, and boy is that a lot of work but it was also funny, I actually think some of the kids liked me."

Sara shrugged, looking a little embarrassed at her own words, and Sofia fought the heart-melting effect of them. Leaning forward, she cupped Sara's face and looked into her eyes.

"Stupid..? Sara, I think that's the sweetest thing I have ever heard, I guess once a scientist always a scientist. Sweetie, it just prove what I have been saying all along, you are going to be a great parent."

"I don't know Sof, but there is another thing, I don't think the world is ready for more of my genes, I don't want mini Sara's I want mini Sofia's."

Sofia chuckled, "do you now," her lips found Sara's in a long passionately kiss.

"Mmm…" Sara placed Sofia on her back and herself on top, "and I think," Sara wiggled her brows, "I goner give this getting you pregnant thing one more try, before we start finding out what else to do."

Since it didn't work they started talking about what alternatives there was, both agreed that they really didn't wanted an anonymous donate, they wanted their kid to be able to meet its dad one day if he/she wanted too.

They knew some clinician advertised with open donation which meant they always could get the name on the man, so it would be either that or asking one of their friends. They had gone by some of the clinician and pick up some catalogs where they could see a picture of the Donate and read a bit about him.

After going through three catalogs Sofia sighed and threw herself back on the bed, Sara lay down beside her and looked at her.

Sofia blew out a breath, "I don't want any of those."

"I can see that," Sara bit the inside of her cheek to keep back a smile, "so, who do you, want?"

Sofia rolled onto her side and looked at Sara, "I want, Leo!"

Sara blinked, "what? Why..?"

"Because I want a child that looks like both of us, and Leo look so much like you, a lot of people actually thinks the two of you are siblings."

"I know," Sara smiled, "we actually used it when we were younger, but I don't know Sof, I'm not sure about how he'll react if we ask him."

"Neither do I, but can it be worse than he says no?"

Sara considered this for a moment, "guess not but how do you ask a friend about that?"

"We invite him over for dinner, and then we simply just talk to him and tell him why we want him, unless you don't want him?"

"I don't have a problem with Leo being the dad; I just don't wanna ruin our friendship with him" Sara pointed out mildly.

Sofia looked up beseechingly, "and we won't, any of us will like him less if he says no."

"Okay," Sara kissed her, "let's ask him."

They invited Leo over for dinner and they finally managed to get around to why they had invited him. To say the least he had been quite shocked, but after he had recovered from the shock they had talked about it.

He had easily could understand why they wanted him from an appearance aspect, and he had felt much honored to be asked. Sara had assured him that they didn't expect him to take on any responsibility except that they were allowed to tell the child he was its father if it ever would ask.

Leo couldn't see a problem in that but he needed some time to think about it, and if he decided to say yes he also had to talk to Lisa, even if they were a very new couple he still felt it would be the right thing to do.

Sara and Sofia had agreed and told him not to rush into a decision they wanted him to be sure before saying anything, and no matter if he said yes or no it wouldn't have any influence to their friendship.

Two weeks went by until one evening Lisa and Leo came by and invited themselves in for coffee; Sara was in the shower so the rest of them sat down in the kitchen with a cup of coffee. Sofia had met Lisa a couple of times when she had come by the station to pick Leo up, but Lisa and Sara hadn't met yet.

When Sara walked into the kitchen Lisa was so aback she almost dropped her coffee cup, and when she heard Sara's husky voice she didn't know what to think, she just looked from Sara to Leo and back.

"Hey Leo, and you must be Lisa, I'm Sara."

"Whoa… I whoa… Leo, are you sure, you don't have a sister your parents have forgot to tell you about?"

Leo chuckled, "yes I am we are not siblings."

Lisa looked from Leo to Sara and back, "no wonder why they want you," she looked at Sara, "sorry, I didn't mean to be rude but you really took me by surprise when you walked through the door."

"It's okay." The slight exaggeration of the expression made Sara want to laugh, but she held it in, "it's not like I haven't tried that reaction before."

Sofia was getting a bit impatient she really wanted to know what Leo had decided, but she didn't wanted to be rude so she didn't say anything.

To Sofia's luck Sara wasn't the type who waited for anything, "so Leo, have you made a decision or do you need more time?"

Leo chuckled, "directly as always sidle, but yes I have and the answer is…." he paused.

"Fuck you Leo; I swear I'm going to kill you, if you say no after doing that" Sara said in mock-annoyance.

Leo laughed, "Guess I'm lucky then, I have decided to help you two out but I have one condition if I'm going to do it."

Sofia was one big smile, Sara one the other hand just looked at Leo, "okay, and what would that be?"

"I want to have contact with the child to be a part of its life, I want from the start that the child knows I'm its father, I want to come along to all the things parents runs to with their child."

Sara smiled, "we want that too, we were just afraid it would scare you away, if we told you."

"You were? So what Sidle? Don't tell me you didn't have something in mind" Leo's tone was an odd mixture of humor and concern.

Sara bit her lower lip, "well, I thought we sort of could sneak it up on you."

"Whoa… she even thinks like you" Lisa accused, with obvious amusement.

Sofia looked at Lisa, "what about you, are you alright with it?"

Lisa smiled, "yes I am, I love kids and it's not like he is out cheating on me."

Leo chuckled, "actually I am sweetie," he looked at Sofia, "you do know we are going to do this the old fashion way right?"

Sofia began laughing, "I don't think so Leo, have you asked Sara?"

Leo grinned; "damn does she have to know?"

Letting out a small growl and shaking her head, Sara stared at him, "keep that up Leo and you won't be able to deliver anything."

"Uuh… I think someone is jealous, afraid I can do a better job?" Leo teased.

"Not even close Leo, the only think I'm afraid of is, that you will bore her to dead" Sara retorted.

"Excuse me kids, but Lisa and I are still in the room, so please take your pissing competition somewhere else" Sofia said calmly.

Sara gazed at Sofia, "sorry sweetie."

Sofia gave her a little kiss, "you better be we don't want him to change his mind."

Leo smiled friendly, "don't worry Sofia, Sara and I have always played that game, and I won't change my mind, but how do we do this?"

"We think we should get a clinic to do the insemination, if you are okay with going to a place like that?" Sofia said, turning to smile at Leo.

"I think I'll manage," Leo replied lightly, turning to give Sara a teasing look.

Sara chuckled and was just about to say something, but an elbow from Sofia made her change her mind, and a look from Lisa made sure that Leo didn't say a word either. They talked a bit longer and decided that Sofia would let Leo know when it was time.

Sofia's birthday came up again, but since both her and Sara was working that day they kept it small, they went out to dinner with their friends. The weekend they spend at the summer house, celebrating, her birthday a little more, for themselves. {**}

Tbc…