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Chapter 1

The Beginning of the End

I remember that day so clearly now, that night is a whole other story. It was graduation day. The day I was ending one part of my life while getting ready to start a new one. I figured it was best to start this off from the beginning.

"Bella you up?" Ah. Charlie my every loving father bellowed up the stairs. What can I say about Charlie? He is the Chief of Police in the shitty little town of Forks, WA that I call home. He's the rugged outdoors kinda guy, quiet and tends to keep to himself for the most part. As far as being a Dad, he has done the best that he possible can for being a single parent of a rebellious teen age girl.

"Yeah Dad I'm up!" Today is a very important day for me. It's my high school graduation! It feels like I have waited for fucking ever for this day to come. Now all I have to do is get my lazy ass out of bed and get ready to go. Getting up I look at my cell phone and notice that my boyfriend Jake has sent me a txt.

J- Hey sexy I'll be there to pick u up at 10

Great, just what I wanted to deal with this morning. Don't get me wrong, I like Jake and all, but here of late he has gotten quite clingy and overbearingly possessive. Some would say that he is handsome but I have just never really paid that much attention to his looks. He's about 6'2 and very muscular. His raven black hair is cut short and he has tanned skin due to his Native American heritage. His baby face and big brown puppy dog eyes is what I would say are his best features. I guess you're wondering why I'm dating him if I don't find him as attractive as others and the answer is simple. Charlie is the only reason. His dad and my dad are best friends and have been for years. They pushed us together so much that we finally we caved and agreed to it. Oh well I'm leaving soon anyway and after tonight not only will I be free to explore other options so will he. I probably should txt him back before he starts to call nonstop. If only that ended up being the case, little did I know at the time that I would be linked to that bastard for the rest of my life.

B- K I should be ready by then

Looking at the clock I noticed that I only had about an hour to get ready to go. I hurried up and gathered up my dress and rushed to the bath room. I turned the water on and stepped in getting my hair wet. I never pictured myself as beautiful but I don't think of myself ugly either. I have long plain brown hair that stops just above my ass, pale ivory skin, plain brown eyes and a heart shaped face. I guess my figure is good I stand at a whole 5'5, I'm slim and have average size breast. All and all I would say that I'm rather plain and average. I use my favorite strawberry scented shampoo and body wash to clean myself up and of course shave in all the right places cause like my best friend Jess says "Ya never know what might happen and you don't want to be in the care of a sexy doc and look like Chewy from Star Wars do ya." God I'm gonna miss her when I leave.

I get out of the shower and dry myself off all the while staring at the dress that I was forced into buying with great distain. Why I can't graduate in my trusty jeans and hoodie is completely beyond me, but apparently I would be committing some hellish sin against the fashion gods if I do. I slip and my thong and dress since I can't wear a bra with this damn thing and finish getting ready. When my hair and the little bit of make-up I wear is done I head down stairs to see what my father is up to.

I walk into the kitchen and find my father, who has no business trying to even boil water, standing at the stove trying to figure out how to make eggs and bacon and breakfast.

"Dad ya know, no matter how long you stare at them, they are not going to just cook themselves." I notice my Dad blush a little as he turns to me and says "I know that smartass I was just trying to figure out what to cook first!" Oh God bless him for at least trying to cover up for not knowing what the hell to do. "Ok Dad, whatever you say." As I move to start the bacon in the pan that he set out Dad finally turns to fully take in my appearance. "Wow Bells you look beautiful." I instantly start to blush and mumble a thank you as I put the bacon on to cook and crack the eggs open over the other pan.

Once breakfast is cooked and we sitting down to eat Dad says "I'm real proud of you Bells and I know I don't say it enough" I go to interrupt him but he just holds his hand up to stop me and continues. "I know that I don't say it enough and I know that I haven't been the best at showing you and telling you how much I love you but I do and I am so damn proud to call you my daughter and I know that when you get out there to Yale that you are going to surpass all of them and be the best damn lawyer in history."

Wow that just left my shocked and completely fucking speechless! My Dad has never been the type to show much emotion and here he is with tears in his eyes and telling me he loves me and is proud. I try to hold the tears at bay when I say "Oh Daddy I love you too and thank you so much. You don't know just how much hearing you say that means to me." Charlie in common form blushes and states simply "Your welcome sweetheart."

Just as I was putting our dishes in the sink the front door bursts open and in walks Jake. "Hey Bells are you all set to go?" Before I even have the chance to answer he comes storming over to me and whispers in my ear. "You look absolutely sexy in that dress baby but I don't want anybody else to see you in it so go change now!" OH HELL NO! This is not how things are going to be! "Jake I will wear what I want to and besides I don't have time to fucking change so come on let's go!" Just then Dad walked back in and Jake put a fake smile on his face and greeted Charlie. "Hey Charlie you ready to go watch our girl graduate!" Charlie beams back and says "Hell yeah let's go!"

I wish that I could say that Jake's behavior improved over the course of that day but I can't. It only got worse as the day drew on. His possessiveness and jealousy only got worse and by the end of graduation all I wanted to do was ditch him and go find the nearest party that had booze. If only I knew then, what I know now I would have simply gone home with Charlie and left for Yale the next day.

Once we got to the school and the main ceremony over with. I was standing next to Charlie and Jake when I heard Jess shout out my name. "Bella!" I look over and spotted her across the gym. She was standing there in all her glory with her long brown hair pulled up into a mess of curls and make-up done to a tee. She had on a pink dress that showed off her curvy figure perfectly and the smile that was on her face was blinding. Her hazel eyes were shining with nothing but happiness and excitement. I made my way over to her with Jake following me like a little puppy. "Hey Jess, what's up?" I asked her with the hopes that she will tell me where the parties where going to be. "I was just wondering if you were going to come over to Mike's house tonight for the party." Jess answered. Thank you Jesus, that Mike was the one throwing the party. Mike is Jess's boyfriend and one of my close friends. He's tall and has an athletic build due to being quarterback for the football team. He has spiky blonde hair, an adorable baby face and sky blue eyes. He is also know for throwing the most kick ass parties around! So it didn't take me long to answer her. "Hell yeah I'm going to be there! I just have a few things I need to take care of first, and then I'll meet you over there." Jess gives me a look and I know instantly that she is asking silently if I was ending things with Jake and coming alone. I nod my head in the affirmative and she squeals happily and hugs me before running off to find Mike. Jess knows that I have been waiting to end things with Jake and is completely supportive of me since she has seen firsthand how much of a control freak he has become.

As soon as she walks off Jake grabs my arm tight and starts to lead my out of the gym. When we reach a spot that he thinks is private enough, he pushes me back into the wall and gets into my face. "You are not going to that party!" Ah and the fun begins. "The hell I'm not Jake! You are not my father and I am free to go where ever I want!" This only angers him more and I have had enough of it. "Jake, you and I both know that the only reason we are together is because or fucking dads forced us to! I'm done Jake, after this summer I'm leaving for Yale and this thing between us is over." Jake backs up from me and looks at me with a hurt expression and I almost feel bad for ending things this way. "Bella you know that it may have started off that way but it changed for me. I love you and I know that you love me too. We are meant to be together and I'm not going to let you throw that away for some big fancy college and worthless degree when you are going to be at home being my wife and raising our children!" I stood there shocked after his little fucking speech. It took a good two minutes for my brain to catch up and when it did I was PISSED! "Are you out of you fucking mind? For starters I'm not going to some fancy college to get a worthless degree as you so eloquently put it you idiot! I'm going to Yale for a law degree as to which I fully intend on using! There is no way in hell I plan on stay here!" I scream at him as angry tears start to fall down my face. "Jake I don't want to even be your girlfriend anymore let alone be your wife and mother to your children, why is that so hard for you to understand?" I finish my rant and I feel like I have just run a marathon. Jake looks at me and shakes his head before turning around to leave. When he gets a few steps away he turns his head and quietly says "You'll see Bells, one way or another I will get what I want."

The truth in those words when I think on them now, makes me shudder in fear. Even after 5 years and more drugs and booze then I want to think about, I still have nightmares about that night.

After he left I went and found Charlie so we could do the whole dinner thing and head home so I could get ready to go to the party. When we made it home I went straight up to my room and changed into my jeans and hoodie. I ran a brush through my hair and pulled it up into a messy bun because let's face it, there is nothing worse than getting hammered and then puking all over your hair. After that was done I ran back down stairs and kissed Charlie goodbye which he mumbled a be safe and I was out the door.

When I pulled my truck up to Mike's house the party was in full swing. I hopped out and ran up to the door and walked in to see half the senior class already three sheets to the wind. There was kids grinding on each other on a make shift dance floor, and others in various positions of making out. I walked around till I found Jess shamelessly rubbing herself all over Mike and yelled out her name. "Jess, get a room if you're gonna be doing that shit!" Jess spun around when she heard me and in her drunken haste damn near knocked Mike down. "Bella you're finally fucking here! What the hell took you so long and please tell me you dumped that mutt and plan on partying your pretty little ass off?" Wow a drunk Jess makes for a very blunt Jess. "Yes I broke up with him and yes I plan on enjoying the party. Now tell me where the vodka is and I will let you get back to molesting Mike!" As I said this Mike got a huge grin and his face and simple stated "That is why I love you B!" Jess pointed me to the kitchen and I walked my happy ass in there and grabbed the bottle and a shot glass and just started downing them.

I don't know how much time passed between the drinking and the dancing but I know I was hammered and so was everybody else. Jess and I was in the middle of dancing when she turns around and goes completely still. I turn to see what is wrong when I look over and see that she is staring at Jake and two other boys from the rez that Jake lives on. Jess mumbles to me that she is going to go find Mike as Jake starts to walk over. "Jake what the hell are you doing here?" He gets a small smile on his face and says "Bella I just came to say I was sorry and hope that we can at least part ways as friends?" Now this is the Jake that I know and I am more than happy to answer him. "Of course Jake, I'm sorry too. I know that you started to have feelings for me and I should of told you that I didn't feel the same way but I'm happy we can at least keep our friendship." Jake smiles and tells me all is forgiven. We dance and hang out like we used to before we started dating. He asked me if I wanted another drink and when I answer him he heads off toward the kitchen. When he returns he hands me the drink with a small smirk on his face and at that point I was too drunk to read into it too much so I take it and down it.

It was that move right there that changed my life forever. It is also one of the last things I remember about that night. It wasn't until the next day that I somewhat learned what happened. I awoke naked in a bed I didn't recognize with a headache worse than anything I have ever fucking experienced in my life. I rolled over and winced at the pain between my legs and when I reached to pull the sheets back a heavy tanned arm draped over my waist and right then I knew. I don't know how I knew but I just did. It was the start of the end of my life as I had planned it. It was the same night that my daughter was conceived and I can't even tell her that it was a happy memory for me. It wasn't until much later that the events of that evening were recounted but the short of it was, Jake had drugged me and then proceeded to take my virginity with the sole purpose of trying to get me pregnant. He wanted me trapped and unfortunately for me he succeeded. As I laid there with tears running down my cheeks, his words from earlier came back to me. "One way or another I will get what I want."