A/N: My special thanks isn't showing up which is really irritating me. I need ideas for the next chapter, I WON'T POST UNLESS I GET SOMETHING. Special thanks to Skylerleetapocik

Previously: She brings her voice to a whisper, catching on each word, 'It broke me'.

Chapter 8

Tobias' POV

I can't think. Their are too many images darting to the surface, memories I have long ignored, feelings I couldn't describe. There was nothing I could say, nothing I could do to make anything better. I felt, hopeless. But I try anyway.

'I'm sorry'

'Don't. Don't say that. Not unless you mean it' she tells me slowly, but theirs something behind the words.

'I mean it, I don't know why I did what I did-' I start,

'No stop, I don't want to talk about this right now, not while I'm standing in my small bathroom looking and feeling like shit, not while there's like a hundred people standing outside this door, no' she tells me. I cant help but think, you don't look like shit.

'What?' she asks me. I feeling of terror washes over me, I said that out loud. I feel a burst of confidence and tell her again. She slightly blushes but doesn't look happy.

Tris' POV

I feel cold. Not as in I have to put a jumper on cold, as in everything in me has frozen. I can't feel, or think. My emotions are drowning me and I can't help but think this is the end, although I know it's not. I feel heartless, my soul is breaking apart and I can't stand to look at him.

So much has changed in the little time I have been back. I've been here for a little over a week. A little over a week. That short of time and yet my secrets have spilled.

Suddenly I am angry. Angry for what he did to me.

'Get out' I tell him, anger rising in my throat.

'What?' he stutters,

'Get out. I'm not forgiving you. Not yet' I feel longing and sorrow pound in my heart but I don't let it show.

'But I'm sorry' I see fear flash across his eyes.

'I can't just forgive you. Just get out of my bathroom, I don't mean leave the house' I quickly add the last sentence, hoping he won't leave. He slowly backs out, leaving the door open. I can't see our friends. I grab the photo and rush out, stuffing it in my pocket, I still need him, but not really, because he's actually here and he knows.

I hear voices coming from the kitchen, and I turn the corner. Everyone's still here minus Caleb. Christina jumps up to greet me. But I feel sour.

'Chris it's okay. It happened. I have so many thoughts and emotions just flowing through me, I can't think. Please the only person I want to talk to about this is Four' She nods slowly and gets off me.

'I'm going to make some lunch, anyone up for anything?' I ask them, deliberately avoiding looking at Tobias.

Everyone opts for sandwiches so I make 20 sandwiches, 2 each, It took ages and by the time I'm done I'm eating on the floor. I eat half of one and feel sick, I quickly run to the bathroom, startling everyone and throw up. I feel someone lift up my hair so it's not in my face, I finish throwing up and lean back into the person holding me, I have no idea who it is but I feel comfortable in -his? Arms. I wipe my mouth and slowly stand up, turning on the tap as I go so I can brush my teeth. As I do the arms never leave my waist. I put away my tooth brush and turn to face Tobias. Tobias?! Our faces are only inches apart and I so badly want to kiss him, but I know I can't. I hug him slowly and whisper that we need to talk. I lead him up the stairs and into my bedroom, closing the door once he's walked in.

I start talking first. 'Why did you do that to me? Say those things?'

'I don't know. I guess, I was angry, I didn't want you leaving me and I didn't realise it wasn't your fault. I had thought at the time that hating you would be the easy way out. The easiest way to forget. But I was wrong, I cried at Zeke's that afternoon, I started hating myself, but still I was cruel to you for the rest of Year 7, I had told myself that it was done, it happened so what do I lose if I make it worse?' he tells me slowly, stopping and thinking at some parts, looking around uncertainly.

'It seriously ruined me. I knew as soon as I got to California, that I would be coming back. I didn't know when I told you. And I refused to make friends when I got there, because I had thought they will do what you did to me. I was the outcast, the school freak. Then I met Ryan' I smile when I get to this part, 'We became best friends, and I told him everything. About you, what you did, how Chris, Shar, and Mar were still my friends, how Zeke, Will and Uriah betrayed me because you did. He was there for me, when you weren't. And he didn't do what you did when I left'.

He looks at me in shock. Obviously taking in that he ruined my life. 'I never, I just, I liked you, and that was why I asked you who you liked when we played that game. I was hoping you said me, but then my devil mind saw it as the perfect way to forget you' he mumbles the last part almost so I can't hear 'I still like you'.

I stare at him wide eyed. I have the biggest urge to kiss him, but I don't. I slowly walk out of my room, leaving him sitting there, confused. But it's okay, because I'm confused too.

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I sent everyone home that afternoon, saying I needed time to think. That wasn't it though, I just needed time to forgive, because I understood what he said, but it still hurt. For the rest of the afternoon I just sat and watched sad love movies, ate popcorn and cried.

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My alarm goes off and I moan. Monday. I hate Monday. I check the time and it's 6:45am. Ugh. I get up and have a shower but cover my hair so it doesn't get wet, I quickly shave my legs not knowing if I'll be wearing shorts, a skirt or pants today. After debating with my inner self and checking the weather I decide on black skinny jeans and a grey tank top and my black combat boots. I apply eye liner and mascara, brush my teeth and start hacking at my knotty hair. I finally get all of the knots out and tie it up into a neat high ponytail. I jump down the stairs, three at a time and make it into the kitchen, mum's up and cooking scrambled eggs.

'Hey darling, do you know how all of our family photos got into the study? Caleb says he has no idea' mum asks me. I smirk and say, 'It's a long story'. She drops the subject and passes me a plate of eggs, 'Thanks' I mumble.

'Hey darling, your dad and I bought you a new car, I hope you like it, also Caleb's going to your aunts, and your father and I are leaving for Florida later Today, we won't be back until Wednesday' she says casually. I jump up and scream.

'Thank you, Thank you, thank you! You're the best, I have to go, have fun in Florida, Love you' I grab my new cars keys and my bag and race out the door, I close my eyes and press the unlock button on the key, I quickly open my eyes and see a Black Corvette Stingray's lights flash. I squeal and jump into the car and drive to school, careful not to damage my new baby. Considering I was almost racing to school, I'm early and have nothing to do, so I just lean against my car and play candy crush on my phone. A black motorcycle parks a few down from me and I immediately know who it is. Tobias. I quickly move away from my car and start walking to the building and lean against it. He walks over to me and boy does he look hot.

'Tris, I've been thinking a lot and I like you. You know that but you won't forgive me and it's driving me crazy' He speaks really fast and I tell him to calm down.

'I can't not yet, I can't' I tell him and move away walking over to where Marlene just pulled in, I look back at Tobias and see him standing wide eyed and shocked. I almost feel bad. I talk with Marlene until everyone has arrived and the bell rings, we depart and I go inside alone and walk to my history class. Yay. I sit in the back corner, furthest away from everything, from Tobias. I listen to Mrs Matthews drone on about various wars and I am about to fall asleep but the bell saves me.

The day passes quickly and it's finally lunch. I walk around to the table just in time to hear the question 'Who's car is the black corvette stingray? Man that's a hot car, I definitely need a ride' come from Zeke.

I sit down with my lunch and announce to the table, 'It's mine'. Everyone stares at me in disbelief. 'What? A girl not allowed to have a nice car?' I scowl at them. Immediately feeling bad.

'Wow. I need a ride soon' Zeke asks/tells me.

'Whatever' I say rudely. I don't know what's up with me but I'm stressed. I don't eat anything for the rest of lunch and as soon as the bell rings, I stand up abruptly and walk off. I ignore everyone for the rest of the day and jump up and leave Home economics before Christina can question me. I feel like total shit and I have no idea why. I walk slowly through the halls trying to get to my locker but I'm pushed and shoved back into a wall, I look up and scowl at my attacker.

'Peter' I announce, 'What do you want'

'Oh nothing, just wanted to know if that car is yours,' He smirks at me.

'Why would you care?' I struggle against his grip,

'Because you don't deserve it' he punches my stomach and I start crumbling in on myself, no one is around any more to help and I can't get away. He punches me in the jaw and I can feel a bruise already appearing. He adds more punches to my stomach and I gasp to stay awake, if I fall unconscious, who knows what he will do.

'Hey!' I hear a shout but I can't identify the voice, I turn my head and see a fuming mad Tobias running towards us,

'Tobias' I whisper, right before I'm knocked unconscious.

Tobias POV

I turn the corner to see Peter punching a girl in the stomach, she's small and defenceless, she's Tris.

'Hey!' I start running towards Peter and he looks shocked, Tris turns her head and whispers something, I can't make it out. I hear a sickening thud and see Tris lying down. He knocked her unconscious. I walk over to Peter and grab the back of his collar before he can run away.

'Coward, touch her again and I will ruin you' I snarl at him and throw him to the other side of the room. I hear the enjoyable sound of his body hitting the lockers and falling to the ground. I smirk and turn to face Tris, she's still unconscious so I pick her up bridal style and carry her to her car. I pull her car keys out of her bag and unlock the car, and I lay her down on the back seat. I drive her home and carry her to her room. She just starts to stir as I put her on the bed.

Tris POV

I wake up to see Tobias looking at me affectionately. I remember Peter and him punching me and moan as I notice to the pain, it's not too bad though, he doesn't have a good hand. 'How did you get me here?' I ask Tobias quietly.

'I carried you to your car and drove you home' he tells me somewhat shyly. 'Hey, um Tris, later when you're feeling better can you drive me home? I had to leave my bike at school' he asks in an embarrassed way.

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It's been 2 hours and I still feel like I won't be able to drive, so I ask if he just wants to stay the night. He agrees after I tell him Caleb is at our Aunts and Mum and Dad won't be home until Wednesday. We talk about anything and everything and I feel so happy for the first time in forever. We sit on the edge of my bed and stop talking, I look over at him and he's already staring at me. 'Tris, I-' he starts but then he stops and crashes his lips to mine.

He's kissing me. I do something I never thought I would do, not to Tobias.

I kiss him back.

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