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Chapter 18

Tris' POV

I wake up shaking. I keep my eyes close and wonder why for a minute, I'm not cold, so why? Then I realise its the doctor.

"Beatrice Prior, visiting times are over and we need you to leave", I look up and frown at him, then squint my sleepy eyes to see if I can read his name tag. I can. Dr. Higgins.

"Mmhm" I mumble, falling back on to my brothers slightly cold chest. I don't ever want to leave him.

"You can visit this afternoon or tomorrow from 4-7pm, please leave or I will have to get security" he says tapping his watch impatiently. I groan and stand up, leaving a kiss on Caleb's forehead.

"I'm going" I sigh and walk out, taking a quick glance at him and making a promise to come back this afternoon.

"It's 8am by the way ma'am" Doc Higgins informs me. The time dad leaves for work. I start to cry as I pick my bag up and leave the hospital. Dead, the word whispers in my head. I force myself to be strong as I get in my car and drive home.

I park my car somewhere outside of the house and slowly walk up to the door. After I unlock I find myself in the kitchen automatically making my body breakfast. As I eat my bland cereal I think of who to call, who will make me happiest. Christina? Probably. Tobias? I don't know, he would just remind me of more bad things at the moment. Zeke? Possibility. Ryan? I wish. Uriah? Good choice, he's like a second brother. Marlene? Also good choice. Name's run through my head and I sort them into categories. Who I can stand right now, and who I can't. The can't list being longer then the can.

I stand up and walk to the kitchen again and start washing the few dishes we have, including my most recent one. A memory bubbles to the surface as I scrub at a plate.

Dad and mum were both home today, and would be for the whole day. A rare thing, so Caleb and I enjoyed it, laughing with mum about silly stories she was telling us of her childhood as she washed the dishes. Dad was laughing too, a smile appearing on his face that only appeared when Natalie was around. Mum flipped around holding a slippery plate, and as you could have guessed it flung across the room and smashed into pieces as it came into contact with the wall. Caleb and I had stopped laughing and shared a look, waiting for the fight that we had believed would come, although it never did. Instead we found mum laughing her head off and dad in tears.

"It was an old plate anyways" Dad said grinning like an idiot. It just made mum laugh more.

"Andrew, we bought these last week!" she exclaimed.

The memory stops and I stand there smiling, even though tears are rolling down my face. I wipe them off and make a promise to myself that I will survive, that I will get through this.

I run upstairs, almost joyful, and take a long 1 hour shower, trying to scrub away the pain. It didn't work, but it helped, I smelled bad. I get dressed into black shorts and a black tank top. I pull my hair up into a messy bun and brush my teeth, not bothering to put make up on in the slightest.

Until lunch time I sat around and watched movies, ignoring every call from any of my friends. I wasn't ready to talk, and if they were, they could always drop by. None of them had. I was halfway through The Lion King when the I heard a knocking on the door. I groaned and threw the blanket off of me and stormed towards the door. I pulled the big heavy thing open and started talking before seeing my visitor.

"Can't you tell when a girl wants to be ignored?" I say furious that I had to get up. I was not in the mood for anything right now.

"I didn't know you were trying" the persons voice sounds familiar, sweet and gentle, I look up. I gasp loudly as I see who's at the door.

"I'm so glad you're here" The person pulls me into a hug and I sob into their shirt, of everything dark in my life, a little bit of light just filtered through.

Short chapter I know, I'm sorry, I promise the next one will be longer, say how much longer and I will try to deliver.

Who do you think appeared just then?

I'm excited and I know whats going to happen!

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